A Podcast for my Son

I've been fighting procrastination towards my creative endeavours for many years now. It's not unique, new, or annoying at this point. It just is. Like an unwelcome guest that takes up more time arguing with than accepting, I've decided to accept them.

However, I've also found a way around its barriers, but only recently.

I come to realize that the pieces with procrastination, like perfectionism, lack of discipline etc.. all work against me but if I replace myself as the individual benefitting from the work, they don't hold as much weight.

As an example, if I start a podcast for my son in lieu of myself, then suddenly I have a greater purpose to achieve the goal. Does that mean I don't respect or love myself enough? I don't know to be honest, but I have a work around and I'm going to take advantage of it.

What's the Podcast About?

It's fairly straight forward, it's about my thoughts on the world around him, myself now, and myself before I became a Father.

You get the gist...

The format may be loosely based on having a topic and answering 3 questions on my perspective and why. Simple.

I want him to get a better sense of my thinking, my why and everything between now rather than trying to piece it together from memory, pictures, and video. This isn't to say that there isn't magic in mystery and that all my thoughts will be laid bare, rather, I want to share who I am now with him and not just who I will become when he's old enough to understand the subjects.

This is his Father now, when he's young.

Perhaps comparing the two versions when he's older and I'm passed will be an interesting perspective that I've afforded him.

Cadence?

I want to imagine that I'll create one per week, but I'm not there yet. Where I am at is allowing myself to create them, to avoid perfectionism and enjoy sharing what I think about X, Y, and Z — not to be right, to necessarily share with him what I perceive to be the 'right' way, more so about my 'why'.

Other Creative Projects for him

I currently create less formal >5min videos for him on things affecting me or that I believe are important to his character. They're uploaded to a private listing where my legacy logins are shared with his Mother.

Very morbid I know, but tomorrow is promised to no one, and he's the coolest fucking thing in the world to me. So the least I can do is lean into discomfort and share my life with future him, just in case I'm not there.

Ah shit, even just saying that has my eyes all watered up. I'm going to be a mess when he leaves for college haha!

Why Share it Publicly?

Maybe someone will like the idea and do something similar for themselves or loved ones. I have no desire to discuss these episodes with anyone, but if they find them useful then that's important.

Also, since these topics are more thought out rather than overly personal, I don't have an issue with it being on a small platform like write.as and Podbean.

— Podcast | s01e01 Monday, December 19, 2022 | An Introduction