Feedback Loop
C:
Pushing, pushing, pushing out.
Mom needs a break.
Pushing, pushing, pushing out.
Flip her circuits and watch her go
Wind up, wind up, wind up,
watch her go.
Get it all out.
V1:
When the Oxytocin hit, it was perfection.
Mom-to-be became Mom, indeed.
Bringing home baby
Bringing up baby
New clothes in the crib.
She loved him like a seashell,
smooth and breakable.
When she laid down at night and hear his cry
she held him close, a lamb in her arms.
“Don’t cry, baby, don’t cry for me.
I’ll get rid of everything that scares you-
you’ll see, you’ll see.”
V2:
She kept the house clean with Pine Sol
No dust bunnies to be found
But baby kept crying, tears overflowing,
and Mom didn’t know what to do.
So she sprayed the house down
and threw out her trash,
and told the dog to hush his mouth.
Her little baby boy went to bed all night
and Mom thought she had it figured out.
And when her boy laughed and played with a smile on his face,
Mom felt her heart lift like a dove-
“Keep smiling, my love!”
Int:
(repetition of “keep smiling, my love”) x4
(baby giggles)
V3:
On the night of a full moon, her boy got strange.
He started crying and crawling, feeling hot to the touch.
His sweat scared Mom, made her go into fits.
“What do I do, what do I do?!”
Int:
(repetition of “what do I do”)x3
(baby crying)
B:
It’s good to get rid of things
(Rid of things, rid of things.)
Let’s throw this out
(Throw it out, throw it out.)
Mom doesn’t need it
(need it, need it)
She’s going to keep baby safe
(keep baby safe…)
PC:
Out goes the sheets
Out goes the table
Out goes the chairs
Out go the forks and spoons and knives
No more dog
No more pillows
No more flowers
C2:
It’s the feedback loop.
Open circuit
Closed circuit
Feedback loop
Positive or negative
It’s all the same
Can’t stop
This chugging train
Int:
Look out my window, look at my real self.
She’s sitting there on the top shelf…
V4:
His fever broke
Mom holds his hands
Warm and soft
Like cookie dough
The house is empty
Except for Mom and Me
I wonder where
she threw the keys?
She can’t stop the need
that warm feeling inside
that slips out her mouth and into her eyes
That desire to purge what she can live without…
I wonder when she’ll throw me out of the house?
Int:
(baby crying and baby giggling alternate in a layered, repeated echo)
C3:
Pushing, pushing, pushing out.
Mom needs a break.
Pushing, pushing, pushing out.
Flip her circuits and watch her go
Wind up, wind up, wind up,
watch her go.
Get it all out.
It’s the feedback loop.
Open circuit
Closed circuit
Feedback loop
Positive or negative
It’s all the same
Can’t stop
This runaway train...
O:
It’s good to get rid of things
(Rid of things, rid of things,)
Let’s throw this out
(Throw it out, throw it out.)
Mom doesn’t need it
(need it, need it)
She’s going to keep baby safe
(keep baby safe…)