Wednesday
Wednesday I gardened in the morning. I sent off the draft of the paper I'm working on with Cole and Chris. I did not feel good about it. I again felt overwhelmed by my notes and how to make it better. I resorted to seeing how genAI would improve it and tried to compare and see what I was not getting right. There is a way that doing that kind of comparison is helpful — I try to take note of what it is about their version that is better than mine. I will never send something that genAI wrote as is. But honestly, the guilt of using probably adds to why I didn't feel that accomplished.
The problem i'm having with that paper is similar to the one i'm having with the other article i'm working on. I don't have a firm, decided upon thesis, which then makes organizing the paper and writing feel harder. I want to say a lot and I don't know how to cut it down. Trying that exercise where I rank how important the point I want to make is (and if it should be cut out, footnoted, or larger sense) is helpful. But when it comes to the broad overarching thesis, I still feel stumped.
I'm flying Friday, so I'm going to try and write through why this feels difficult to do on the flight, and maybe if I write it out like a blog, it will help me.