#alpha
I feel so loved and supported by my therapist holy shit aaaaaaaa Im so happy im so glad
Definitely didnt cried for the whole morning last saturday because of finally feeling my long yearned happiness and peace -
Such a magical feeling aaaaaaa im in tears
I didnt get pushed away after trying so hard to push him away... and even trying to scold him but couldnt......
aaaaaAAAAAA
forming connections with the world β even if it's just one being
oh interesting. In other words, this being IS my world.
ahahahhahahahha (ik the rules, it's just a therapeutic relationship but still !! love is love. it doesnt have to be romantic)
Hello! Created this new blog. Interestingly the word / subdomain βloveβ is not occupied yet. So it's mine now!
Such a coincidence that today is also Valentine's day. (Well it's past 12 midnight here in Asia so technically it's not. But idc)
A bit sad that I couldn't attach photos here, but yeah I can keep my journal here simple so it is not too bad either (I figured out ways to attach photos! Hurray! <3)
β What I plan to write here
Probably would be sharing about my passion, what I am up to (this week was music production) (a while ago would be mech keyboard and drawing; in the near future I am planning to sew my own plush dolls)... so the content would be very diverse!
Other than things I love, I will be writing about people... Good humans :) This would be a happy blog. (Unhappy stuff goes to another blog) I am trying to separate my writings and experiences into two basic emotions? Happy and βnot happyβ. So that when I am really upset, I can always revisit this blog and βrelive the happy momentsβ without accidentally coming across a βbadβ piece of information (ik unhappy != bad but yk just trying to reduce any unnecessary additional damage)
This would be a very clean land! Emotional garbage are carefully tucked away.
Would be nsfw though! Will include sex related content. It is related to βloveβ anyways so ;)
Pure love #1! Sometimes I wonder if I am demisexual. Though irl I still βclaimβ myself as straight. Honestly idek, cuz I am single for my whole life so far. I want to deal with and solve my own emotional issues before finding a partner.
The only very few emotional connection I have with humans are ... wait... no one tbh... Not even my two carefully selected precious friends and my beloved therapist...
倧δΈε€«! I can discover My love through blogging and recording my life.