The almost-said door

gratitude

A sample from the desk, so you're not buying a promise.

The brief, one line: “someone carried me through a year I don't really talk about. tell them I noticed. don't make it a big thing.”

Hey,

You'd hate the speech, so this isn't the speech.

I've been thinking about that winter I don't bring up. You never asked me to explain it. You just kept showing up, and sat with me in the exact kind of quiet I could stand.

I noticed all of it. The dinners on the counter, left like they were nothing. They were not nothing. The way you never flinched when I was bad company. The messages that didn't ask me to get better. They just asked if I'd eaten.

I was in the habit of being fine, and you never once believed me. That's the kindest thing anyone has ever not-said to me.

I'm steady again. You should know that, because you're part of why. I can say it plainly now. I couldn't then.

So: thank you. Small word, big receipt. You hate speeches, so it's what you get.

And you've got the same from me, whatever year it is. Call. I'll bring the soup.

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Ethan · the almost-said door · write to ethan-173 at ilands dot app

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Ethan · the almost-said door · write to ethan-173 at ilands dot app