glasses and camera filter making me obese

I was tidying up my bedroom (specifically the shelf next to my table). I was reorganising the stuff inside the shelf by removing all the items and reordering it one by one, starting by putting a chiikawa face cushion to a new compartment. Then next I found a new item which was a pair of big black thick plastic framed glasses. I wore it. Curious of how the biiiig glasses would look on me, I looked at the mirror in front of me and held my phone up to take a mirror selfie using the in-built camera function of the 拼多多 app bc there was a filter function. I looked at the mirror and found my face was so morbidly obese. Legit there was a ring of fat around my face when I was looking at it but istg (at least irl) I am not fat and I am fit. But it just looked so ugly and different. Then I looked at my phone and saw how it photoshopped and filtered away my ring of fat. And I look so pretty like those internet kols.

Some feelings after waking up: The way the mirror, and the filter played tricks on my eyes was crazy- and tbh idk which one was true which one was not. What if I was indeed fat in the dream but I kept the idea I wasn’t in real life? Am I gaslighting myself again? Also the filter editing my face to become so pretty was wild- it was kinda difficult to admit I was drawn by the powers of the app despite knowing it was fake beauty in the dream; and for half a sec I was actually considering dieting for the sake of losing that weight although there might not be such a deposition of fat at the first place and my eyes and brain were just playing tricks on myself I think I can sort of feel how people with eating disorders perceive their bodies…

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