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I had a mouse in my van today. A real, live mouse just running across the floor. I don't know where it wanted to go, but I gave it a ride anyway. It was probably quite an adventure for the little guy. I thought it would be cool to write a children's book about the whole thing. It should probably rhyme, Dr. Seuss style. Kids love rhyming animal stories. But it all unraveled quickly because the whole premise of the situation didn't rhyme. It wasn't a pet on a jet, or a goat on a boat. It was a mouse . . . in a van. So I gave up my short-lived dream of writing a children's book.

Then it occurred to me that the mouse was riding in a van with a man, and I thought, what a cool mouse. He should write a book.

Anyway, I hope you're having a weird day too.

I went for a walk today, and it felt completely magical. Felt like tripping without a drug, and I'm so grateful to have had that time to myself. I wandered down a familiar path, and decided on a whim to take a less familiar path. Eventually I decided to abandon the path altogether. It felt like Nova Scotia, and I thought I could eventually come out to some beautiful and impossible cliffs high above the shore.

I remember tripping through the back side of the cemetery in Sanford (mushrooms, I think) and feeling like every scene was a magical snapshot that needed to be captured and preserved for my non-tripping self. I took a lot of pictures of wondrous things, and when I got them developed, they were so disappointing. Not only could I not see the floating tree or the whispering leaves the same through a picture, I couldn't even remember what I had been thinking when I took them. It was an effectively blunt lesson in the inability to transmit across mental states. I'm happy I learned it because now I can (mostly) just leave today's trip in the forest as a trip in the forest. I had it, and I felt it, and the pictures (which I did take) don't need to match the reality I experienced.

I feel as though I've tapped into something lately, and as much as I don't want to lose it, I also have to be prepared to let it go. Something opened in me, and the thing about openings is that they also close. I'm just happy to have been given this glimpse. I'm going to ride this wave, and when it drops me on the shore, I'll watch it recede with gratitude and wonder.

I'm a supernova, and I need to becoming a laser beam. This is my work for the next month.

I've found a bit of the thread over the past week, and I'd like to pinpoint how it started. I'll want to remember this in the future.

It all started about 46 years ago . . . Focus!

It started when I first read The Illuminatus! Trilogy . . . Closer! Tighten the beam.

It began when took some ecstasy, cleared some psychic energy, reunited with a friend, and began training under the Hypnoclown . . . Closer! Bring it in.

It started last week when I was meditating for my Dharma book group . . . Good. Continue.

I spent some time in Tonglen and opened up to the possibility of more. I looked into transcendental, but that requires a guru who requires money, and that requires a level of credulity I don't have. So I turned back toward Magick. There it is. Carry on.

There is a crack . . . in everything

I could shatter into a thousand shards of optimism right now. I'm tempted to freewrite and just bash my thoughts out onto the page, but I'm intentionally taking a very measured and paced approach. I felt I had to play it safe for a very long time, and it's been almost a year since my revelation that I don't. I simply don't. I'm cautious and careful (afraid), but opening up . . .

Ring the bells that still can ring Forget your perfect offering

So let's have an ordered chaos about all this. Let's discuss historical cosmology through the lens of fantasy roleplaying, the uses of Tonglen meditation for opening cracks in solid rock, etymologies of spirit and breath through religious traditions, and recursive labyrinths of language and space. I'm sure we can come to some sort of agreement on the chronotope, whether we get there through Baktun, Borges, or Mr. Rogers.

But first, let's take a look at the future. We can make a plan, but first we have to discuss who we are. Why we're “we.” I don't really know, to be honest. It's something I've been noticing for a long time now, and I'm never quite sure how to think about it. It's inconsistent, but I don't know the rules. I know that when I'm speaking to myself, I speak as though it's to a different person, maybe sometimes multiple people. I say, “Okay, let's get motivated,” or “We're going to meditate first and write later.” There is at least one other person inside my head, probably more. I've never tracked down who they are, but I suspect they're important. I suspect they're who I'm writing to now.

I'm starting to see the cracks in the facades, and I'm remembering that this isn't how it's always been. The rock is not solid, and there are only false limitations. I don't think I can fly (yet) or move things with my mind (yet), but I'm regaining the ability to see outside my tunnel. I'm not shifting into other worlds, but I'm catching fleeting glimpses with fascinating, tantalizing regularity. I think things are beginning again . . .

And I keep thinking of a quote I read recently: The magic you're seeking is in the work you're avoiding. and I'm really starting to grok it. It applies to work, but it really applies to work.

More later, but let me leave you with some words from the immortal Leonard Cohen:

Ring the bells that still can ring Forget your perfect offering There is a crack, a crack in everything That's how the light gets in

I've found it! It's all about the yesterdays!

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Lately, I've ben using ChatGPT to help me cook. Yes, I could just Google and read recipe blogs, but that's old and lame. Robots help me now.

Prompt: The context here will be baking. Again, I'm a complete novice, so I need you to act as a master baker and guide me through some very basic recipes. Specifically, what I'm going to try making are breads. Along with recipes, I'll want historical facts and backgrounds of various breads, as well as the proper context for making each bread. for Christmas, I'll be looking for traditional Christmas breads, and for summer time, I'll want breads which are good for hot weather. Do you understand all this?

Response: Absolutely, I understand your request and I'm happy to assist. Here's a broad overview of the project:

Introduction to bread: We'll start by learning about the basics of bread making. We'll cover essential ingredients, common techniques, and the science behind how bread rises.

Bread recipes: I'll provide you with a range of simple to moderately complex bread recipes, suited to various seasons and occasions. These will include traditional breads for Christmas and lighter breads for the summer.

Historical and cultural context: Along with each recipe, I'll share some background on the origins of the bread, cultural significance, and traditional uses or customs associated with it.

Let's start with a very basic bread recipe to get you comfortable with the process.

Ingredients: 1. 1 packet (or 2 ¼ teaspoons) active dry yeast 2. 2 cups warm water (not hot, ideally between 105 and 110 degrees Fahrenheit) 3. 1 tablespoon sugar 4. 2 teaspoons salt 5. 5 – 6 cups all-purpose flour 6. 2 tablespoons olive oil

Instructions: 1. In a large bowl, dissolve the yeast and sugar in warm water. Let it sit for 5 minutes until it becomes frothy. This process is called “proofing” the yeast and ensures your yeast is active. 2. Stir in salt, olive oil, and 3 cups of flour until well combined. 3. Gradually add remaining flour, ½ cup at a time, until the dough pulls away from the bowl. The dough should be slightly sticky but manageable. 4. Knead the dough on a floured surface for about 10 minutes, until it's smooth and elastic. 5. Place the dough in a greased bowl, turning once to grease the top. Cover it with a clean cloth and let it rise in a warm place until it doubles in size, about 1-2 hours. 6. Punch down the dough to release the air, then divide it into two parts. Shape each part into a loaf by rolling it into a rectangle, then tightly rolling it into a cylinder. Place each loaf in a greased loaf pan, seam-side down. 7. Cover and let it rise again until doubled, about 1-2 hours. 8. Preheat your oven to 375 degrees Fahrenheit (190 degrees Celsius). Bake the loaves for 30-35 minutes or until golden brown. 9. Remove the bread from the oven and let it cool in the pans for 10 minutes. Then remove the loaves from the pans and let them cool completely on a wire rack.

Upon review, this recipe appears to be accurate and comprehensive. The steps, ingredient amounts, and techniques align with standard procedures for making basic homemade bread. The bread-making process includes mixing and kneading the dough, allowing it to rise, shaping it into loaves, letting it rise again, then baking and cooling the bread.

One point to remember is that the exact amount of flour you need can vary based on a number of factors, including the humidity in your kitchen and the specific brand of flour you're using. Start with the lower amount and add more as needed until the dough is the right consistency. It should be slightly sticky but not so much that it's difficult to handle.

Also, when checking the bread for doneness, in addition to the color, the bread should sound hollow when you tap on the bottom of the loaf. If it doesn't, you can bake it a bit longer.

I hope this helps, and I'm here if you have any more questions. Happy baking!

I'm going in. Wish me luck.

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