22 03 28 [19:30]
That past two days have been rough. I haven't slept in about 60 hours and my meds don't allow for hypomania anymore. So it just sucks. I really just want to trigger it, get some shit done, and crash into a deep depressive haze and slumber. It's like I'm on the verge of hypomania but my meds keep me from going over the edge. I sort of miss the days where all I had to do was not sleep and drink a cup of coffee in the morning and go crazy until nightfall. It's just a nice respite from depression. In moderation... and not around people... and only when it's actually fun... I guess it was pretty bad actually.
On the bright side, I'm really loving this monitor that I turned sideways for writing and reading stuff. It feels like some novel technology lol but I've used it for years and I literally just turned it sideways and now it's the future. I get some more THC tomorrow, thank Gobb for that.