22 04 03 [14:15]
I feel so hollow. I'm currently working on this piece of shit software I'm writing. I'm waiting for it to build right now so I thought Id write. Oop it's done. Looks good so far. It's going to take forever to finish. I've definitely got time if I can just finish it before I lose track of what I'm doing. So it goes...
Damn coffee won't cool. Vape is burning. At least there are trees I can look at. There is someone to talk to if I just put in the effort. It's not like I don't have the time... I have the time to do anything I want at the moment, just not the resources. The grass is shitty on both sides here and I can't climb the fence anyways.
My reality needs to change more than it's currently changing. I'll get it eventually but sooner is better than later. Life is too short. I have some hope for the future months.
On an unrelated side note, nobody ever knows what the fuck I'm talking about and it's damn annoying. It seems like my problem most of the time, though I do meet people who know exactly what I'm saying, and then I wonder. It seems as though the people immediately around me are mainly who don't know what I'm talking about. I want to stop trying to adjust to the environment around me and just change my environment. Enough time, enough resources...