bedroom
therapy in bedroom
Got some stacks of memo slips from the living room after asking my mum for permission, and restocked them in my bedroom for general use + studying. And then I headed out to the streets. I saw a digital bulletin and there was a new twitter account, and people were discussing about it. I didn’t quite catch the details but I looked it up nevertheless. Not knowing what to do with this piece of random information, I just continued walking. I think I liked a tweet though, not sure, but I did interact slightly with the account.
I went to the arena for some reason, and played some irl splatoon… I remember I was playing the nautilus and ballpoint for the yellow team and I think we were winning. I forgot who was on the opposite team but I think it was people I know (oh i miss gaming)
Then I headed back home with an ecchi anime magazine I bought at a bookstore around where people were discussing about the twitter account.
Then it was time for my therapy session. This time it was a bit special where Arthur was going to my home and meet me in my bedroom. (Mum wasn’t home I think, so she wouldn’t know about it)
He sat in my wheelie office chair while I sat on my bed (bc there’s only enough space for that). I was lowkey surprised he can easily sit in the chair because my room was so cramped I need to adjust the chair at a particular angle to shove myself in, irl. (The bedroom is identical to irl) He displayed the same account as the one shown in the bulletin boards on the streets on a digital display on my bed. He said this was his. I was like ooh, and then I followed him. I scrolled down and see he replied a tweet from another client, iirc the client was tweeting about starting therapy and then Arthur replied a single word but I forgot what, but it had a positive valence. Lowkey I felt it was inappropriate to respond publicly because you will be the one exposing you are her therapist
But I was a little bit jealous ngl, but then Arthur was like I recognise your twitter account and looked through it a bit And then we started chatting but he replied something questionable like I wish you could like more of my tweets or something like that (I can’t exactly remember), plus he started talking in a slightly more friendlier and intimate tone with symbols (… I saw his speech has a ♡ symbol and he was choosing an emoji when making his sentence, like typing) And I was feeling like woah that’s not professional at all But I just went with the flow, and I used my hand to grab the hovering emojis he was choosing and used one of them to reply Arthur. (I hope this is understandable- me grabbing a physical/ AR hovering text symbol from his speech bubble he was building in progress like a merge of swipe to type and jigsaw puzzles to form sentences as he was speaking it out) (this was how I visualise to interpret and form sentences for conversations when I was small too… speaking of which I did have dreams with people “speaking” that way when I was young ~primary school too!) And then I showed him my ecchi magazine, cuz there was a page inside with us hugging each other but in anime style (thinking back it was literally just a generic brown haired NPC with a purple haired anime girl which fits none of my OCs lol)
At some point I think I showed him my toy and I was trying to use it but it was too weak so I was not aroused, or maybe my posture wasn’t right
Anyways we had an interesting session
(I think this dream makes a bit of sense to a certain degree, since their office is moving soon but without an eta, the next session was changed to zoom so basically I would be zooming on my bed regarding the toy perhaps it was because we mentioned related stuff while discussing about my sensory and interospection issues About the friendlier ♡ thing I think it was bc of a playful joke we made at the start of last session (basically I complemented Arthur’s new hairstyle (he tied a little bun !!!) I told him he’s super 得意 (≈cute/ fun?) and he replied not as cute as you) LOL (We had a strong rapport, this was our dynamic, I knew his personality was just like that and I knew clearly it was a joke although I’m aware i like to imagine and project a ton of shit using my transference) but I told Ivan and he said he wanted to report him for that :p I guess he didn’t pass the vibe check
Even more problematic psychologist online friend
Ok this friend was back in like senior primary junior high school era, I met him when we were in mcig In the dream he was a psychologist We were texting in whatsapp and he told me about his new client who fell head over toes for him, he was smirking (sent smirking stickers) while he was showing me their convo. The girl was Harm*n who was sitting next to me in f1 They texted so much and the tone was like dating And I kinda was jealous again (bruh he wasn’t even Arthur) so I also texted him more I think I wanted sex bc the toy from last dream wasn’t useful at all But I knew it was so problematic as a psychologist to do whatever he was doing now, but if I view him through my lenses of being an online friend only, it seemed better (perhaps this is also one of the reason why you can’t have double relationships in therapy So I asked what he’s doing and he said he was watching netflix And I asked him when would he come visit me So he asked me what city I was in And I only knew that point he wasn’t even in my city so I was a bit disappointed lol
(seemed like I get jealous when the therapists cross their boundaries for another client. Happened in both dreams alr. That’s kinda toxic)
I’m feeling a bit bad bc most of my dreams now are Arthur-related (and I tend to skip recording those that are not lmao), I hope I don’t bore you guys if any are actually reading this blog
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