friendship
tension/ intimacy w ivan
Many things happened before this but I’ll start from here:
I was lying on my bed waiting for piano class which would be homeschooled When I look to my left Ivan opened my door and entered my room. He was wearing secondary school uniform with a schoolbag. He sat/lied beside me on the bed. We seemed like a pair of very close couple. I turned back to my right, feeling a bit warm and i think i was blushing. I wondered if he will get closer to me. He turned to my side and I felt his face was very close to me, as if his breaths can be felt by my ear. We were sure we were just friends, but it was the first time I felt that way. Yet it was the first time I had such a feeling to gay people, and I was also thinking how come he would be “interested” in me, a woman.
At this very intense moment when we were both anticipating each other to be more intimate, mum came back home and opened my door. All she saw was Ivan sitting appropriately on the bed in his school attire. I explained to her Ivan just came. Mum seemed ok with it and left the room.
Then it’s time for piano class and we (or me only?) had it. On WhatsApp Charlotte hon told me she’ll wait for my class to finish before grabbing dinner together. During the class I was thinking then she needed to wait for so long for me but i was busy in class so i couldn’t reply to tell her about the time my class will end and tell her to think if she don’t need to wait for me. After a long class I finally met her but seemed like she also had a class soon.
holy fuck he’s just a friend but i read and ahem enjoyed an erotic literature ahem which coincidentally was my name + his and I sent to him lol so the dream probably came from that but although the story has his name i didn’t imagine the person as him aarrrrjakdhkasjks
nani the fuck my mum said she dreamt I brought a guy back home who is not tall (ard 5cm taller than me) and not slim but not fat either I told her i dreamt about ivan She said but ivan is gay I said why is that related She said because usually people bring bf gfs to see parents I said oh u mean seeing parents in terms of bringing a guy back She said yeah and the boy has pale skin I said ivan also has pale skin Anyways she began to said he’s probably lacking love thats why he’s gay and asked me about ivan if he is doing girl or boy role in a gay relationship So I reeducated her about being gay is an inborn thing and told her not to care about ivan’s love life
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