multiple dreams
long dreams from yesterday afternoon till today morning. There were like 4 dreams but not too special
mum found out my cuts
#mum I was cutting and mum went inside my room and saw me holding my blade and my arms with cuts. Idk how to explain to her, I felt the scene is a bit embarrassing. I was scared if she would be angry. But she was more like shocked and a bit frowned, but didn't scold me. She asked me loudly why did it happen though. probably because yesterday afternoon my parents tidied my room and also added the window grilles to this new home, and dad was saying how dangerous it is if I was being too excited or whatever and stood up on bed because it was very easy to fall off onto the street when the grilles were not installed previously. And they took out my locked messenger bag which was usually put on the bed, so I later on took a look inside and found that one final little blade I didn't turn in to Arthur, and I opened it, and despite not feeling upset, and obv not upset enough to cut, I decided to cut a little because why not, and I have been refraining from cutting for a long time already, so I should give myself this... uhm treat. And that blade was sharp af so I just moved a little and I got a funny feeling and it bled just a little. I kept questioning myself why I would want to do it, because Arthur also asked me the same question, but I still dont know, but I want to do it
korea trip with friends
#charlottec #secschool me and around 6 friends were at the park at night, somewhere in Korea, as we were travelling. These were from my senior secondary school squad with heidi, charlotte, kaka and others. We bought an ice-cream each and ate together on our own little cube stools. I had a strawberry ice cream cone with a few actual strawberries, but I had to hurry to eat because mine was melting especially quickly idk why lol. 3 others also had either similar or identical strawberry ice-cream but theirs didn't really melt that quickly. Maybe because my ice-cream arrived the latest out of them so it was served late, and already melting. (thinking back it didn't make sense because if it was so, my ice-cream should be the coldest, but I really did get the ice-cream the latest out of them) Maybe I dreamt it because I recently found a photo of their secondary school grad trip to Korea again, which I was unable to join (I think should be because I was travelling with family elsewhere during that time). I wasn't particularly fond of going though because charlotte said it happened to be a kinda bad trip lol, but I kinda miss out on it
chatting with schoolmates
I was sitting at the bench with a few others (I forgot the names, but one seems to be Annie? who likes horses, and Lauren), plus a new dream friend, whom I met in primary school nanny van. They were a year younger than me. We were just chatting casually until when Annie wants us to guess her personality or whatever, and I just shared my (educated) “guesses”. The dream friend and Annie looked surprised because I was accurate, and I explained to the dream friend that I met Annie in the school van before. Annie didn't respond though. (Perhaps the “dream her” didn't know about this information) But the convo went on nicely. (I think this wasn't a lucid dream. I spilled out the irl info about school van naturally)
omw to school and battling giant monster
At a “dream fake city where I was on exchange” in the morning. Gives vibes like this:
I was waiting impatiently at a traffic light, wanting to get across to go ride metro to go to school. Finally the light turned green and I went across. Then it swapped from first person to third person as I saw a gigantic monster (godzilla size but not that ugly), protruding out of the metro station building. It was swallowing people's aura, which were blue orbs. And I observe this girl (the main character) dashed towards the monster in mid air and jumped really high to mid air to face head on with the monster by getting her two white iridescent aura orbs from her chest and out came two strong aura waves and shot the monster with that powerful beam and the monster appeared injured, and the dream ended (idk if the monster was dead or not).
Arthur asked me whether I am awake and fantasizing when I said I was aware when I am dreaming. But I am sure they are lucid dreams. If not, then you can say I have not been sleeping for years. So it would be impossible. And my watch also shows I am sleeping. Therefore I am sleeping. Perhaps he hasn't tried lucid dreaming before, nor doing reality checks in dream, so it is hard to imagine.
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