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immersive porn/masturbation/sex at 歡樂谷

#jy #mum

Initially watching porn (interactive roleplay) (I am the audience), theme is onsen bath of daughter (owner of onsen place) and MC (main character) got allowed by a ninja security guard which is the daughter’s dad and supposedly they fuck but i only watched the opening and ending credits The next porn is at a souvenir shop. I also just watched the ending credits- and i was beginning to get curious because both ending credits were popular jpop songs like yorushika’s

And when i was leaving the souvenir shop scene, I saw a new scene about metro, so I went in and started masturbating myself And I began to feel horny and went to masturbate by the metro door, and I also gave a random guy on metro a look (? Idk if he is pedestrian or actor) bc I want him to kinda masturbate/ rub me And he came over to the metro door and lean on top of me i was like yessss So i leaned more against the metro door and he squeezed me further Interestingly the metro door have two conveniently placed handles literally on the door (looking back it’s technically against physics to open the sliding door but it can) So i grabbed onto those two handles and he also grabbed the handles and rail me in further The sensation on my arms being kinda trapped in his and the squashiness on my chest was very similar to irl when i got SAed And i yearned for more in the dream, i tried moving up and down to rub my butt to see if I could find the dick where it used to push against my butt during the SA, but probably because we were all wearing winter clothing so it wasn’t really obvious

Then when the metro arrived at the station and doors opened, he grabbed me on the shoulder/ arm and we walked to search for somewhere convenient for him to continue pressing against me, it was a big open sunny place with quite some people, and he walked to quite a few spots but perhaps he decided that’s not it and eventually he/ we settled at a gashapon area where there were less people sitting around and it was equally sunny…

I enjoyed it

Next I was in a big bedroom/ gaming room and i persuaded my mum to help buy a fidget toy on her pinduoduo account (… actually i have one too and i was showing her the item through my app), and then mum was like having many questions and technical issues i spent much time solving but I still couldn’t order the toy

Then we went to a thai “massage” place called 歡樂谷 bc I’m gonna fuck mum We went in and a receptionist spoke to us. We would be given free drinks and meal and a room with time limit. As we were listening, mum went to sit down and scroll phone. The receptionist asked questions and how come she sat, I called her to come back, saying “you wanted this, not me!” And she said you’d take care of this idc

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late for exam (fight w Alex) & therapy

#mum #pblmate #uni #arthur

First I was at a hostel having a sleepover with secondary school classmates. It was midnight. I was wearing my formal outfit from the day so I needed to go home to fetch my pajamas and my next day outfit. I was thinking of going home or not and eventually I went back (to the old address). Mum was washing clothes in the sink. I think we had an argument but I couldn't recall clearly. Then I went back to the hostel and arrived at a little bit past 4am.

I needed to have an exam at 10:30 so after a quick sushi party I rushed out to go back to sassoon road to take the exam. I was pretty annoyed when I almost took the wrong strap bag with me cuz it was not efficient of me. The wrong one was my small black usual strap bag while the correct one was an old white cylinder shaped strap bag, with riolu inside.

Before leaving the hostel, we needed to name our takeaways from this visit and it was very difficult since I didn't really learn any and you can't overlap with others, luckily I got a storybook published by the hostel and eventually I got two takeaways from it. Also I spent some time to search for my diary which I thought I misplaced in the hostel rooms, but it was in my strap bag the whole time. (I think there was a short clip where I had to go back to K Town to grab my diaries and ride the metro back, and the two friends behind me couldn't get on while only I can and I felt slightly guilty but I thought it was actually not what I can do)

I arrived at the exam an hour late, and the tutor waited for me to start the exam. Alex was angry because the test was just 10 MCQs and he had to wait for an hour. The tutor put the stack of Q&A sheets on the table and asked us to take one each. I asked Benson next to me, and Monica opposite to me if they could lend me answers to copy or could I just look at them to copy, they seemed ambivalent to that. Alex took the whole stack to hand out to everyone except me. I asked him to give me one but he ignored me. I loudly yell I don't have one, I need one. Alex had started answering the questions. I think Kelvin had tried to separate the extra sheet under his Q&A sheet but Alex was grabbing the papers tight so Kelvin gave up. I also raised my voice to ask the tutor to give one extra to me but the tutor said there were no extras/ she wasn't gonna help me. I felt really angry at Alex and I could feel my whole body was heating up and I'm turning red. I shouted and argued with Alex. And I also thought Benson could feel my anger too.

Anyways Alex continued to indulge in the MCQs and answer them very quickly. Seeing him, the rest of the group also started answering the questions. I felt very frustrated so I took my light blue pen (my only pen) and reached out and scribbled on Alex's paper (and drew a giant cross on his answers). Alex said that's not gonna stop him, I'm the fault. I was very irritated so I drew a deep straight line on his forearm. Then he fought back by drawing also a deep straight line on my forearm using his black pen. I thought I was going very hard on his forearm but when he was drawing me, I hardly feel any pain, or anything at all.

I sat back down at my empty table, looking at my trembling hands. And regretted if I cut deeper in my forearm last night and draw some blood, perhaps he could see me as crazy and I can defend myself better. But on another thought, he might call the security and psych unit to drag me away from the scene since the wounds would deem me mentally unstable.

Eventually when people were leaving, the tutor gave me a stack of tiny memo papers with hand written questions for me to answer individually. The tutor was quite patient in going through the questions with me, but I was quite impatient starting in Q2-3 because I was already late for Arthur's session. (the starting time should be the original ending time of the exam) At the end of the exam, I checked and I was already like only having 10 mins remaining for the session. I was really unhappy. I was in sassoon 3 1/F junction and met Arthur, along with Heather and a few others from our group. Arthur dialed a call and told (prob his sister) in english that he just found out his 90-year-old grandma had an affair outside and they had a 21-year-old daughter! Heather overheard and yelled, WHAT? He also babbled in another brief phone call about hooking up with clients, and I was thinking I hope the next person would be me.

I continued my way to the therapy room but I looked back and saw Arthur signalling me to come. There wasn't much time and we two were going to get food down the escalator at the McDonald's while he started asking me how's my week.

classy bday dinner

#secschool #jy interesting combo (6-person table): [ Arthur, Jasmine W, Cherris Y ] [ me, (i forgot), Charlotte C ]

Cherris and Charlotte were the two birthday girls Cherris had a fancy mango birthday cake. I'd describe it as “designer-style”. Same went for Charlotte with a blue birthday cake which looked very dope. Jasmine introduced Cherris' cake for us. She mentioned it was designed by JY. (She actually pronounced the full name in the dream). I immediately felt a bit uncomfortable and a bit queasy while holding my fork, and my hands were a bit numb, shakey and uncontrollable when I was trying to hold a knife and swap my utensils around while listening. I looked up to see if Arthur noticed, but I couldn't tell. Actually I didn't think he immediately realised that's the name. Yet I comforted myself saying perhaps he pretended he didn't notice because they didn't know about the therapy.

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almost raped by dad + chased in mall

#dad #mum #jy #claudia

what the fuck is this dream

In the dream, I was napping on my bed (same bedroom setting as irl) naked when I felt someone putting his hands on my chest. It held my breasts tighter and tighter and I began to feel uncomfortable by the touch. I then listened to my surroundings and heard someone breathing behind me/ next to me on my bed. I assume it was mum. I wasn't too bothered until I heard another person's breathing sounds coming from the side of the bed and it seemed like it was from the one groping my chest.

Then I heard the “presumably mum” person spoke. Her voice was mum's indeed. She was whispering to the groping guy about something. It occurred to me that they were planning for the groping guy to rape me. Thinking “no way, I was already raped by jy _{(I thought so in the dream)}, I don't want to be raped again”, I opened my eyes in shock and saw dad naked with just his boxers, and his dick was out. Mum and him noticed I was awake. Dad hurriedly tried to shove his dick back into his boxers. I saw his dick and it was dark in colour. He tried to explain he didn't do anything bad to me.

Later I went out from home to a mall. I saw a policewoman and reported on dad. As I was explaining to the lady what had happened, I saw my parents from afar, staring and shaking their heads in disapproval. Later I went to shop in the mall and saw Claudia walked past from afar. I tried to chase after her to say hi because I haven't seen her for a long time, but she was too quick, and I arrived at the ladies clothes department. There was an event starting at the department, which was a chase game. And I was getting chased by two girl Caucasian teenagers. I tried to change my outfit using the clothes there but I could only get rid of them for like a few seconds until they found me to be very suspicious for running around and realising I was the prey again.

_{Anyways today I felt incredibly awkward seeing my parents. oh my god I hate this dream what the actual fuck is this okay i suspect it was because two days ago I read a lecture about child (physical, sexual, psychological) abuse, and also had a realisation after gossiping with friends that quite a few male friends who were interested in my cooking and recipes were just trying to hook up with me and my disappointment was immeasurable and my day is ruined the only thing I was satisfied in the dream is that I was proactive and comfortable in reporting the incident to the authority.}

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self-harm talk w therapist n friends

#T #arthur #pblmate #charlottec #mum

In master bedroom of old home Mum wanted to drag me out of bed to have lunch Me hugging blanket and didn’t want to Leg was a bit painful and itchy from her pull and poking I finally used my foot and pushed her out of room and locked the door I checked my legs and were full of red tiny scratches I sat by the window and looked down (just look, no suicidal ideation) I phoned the office and chatted with Ming

I got down and met up with Alex and Monica where we go for a walk, and we also met Ming We walked tgt and they chatted with me Monica shows me her healing/ healed scars on her forearm and I took a close look. _{(I suspect this triggered me and I was in a terrible mood for the whole day and relapsed)}

When we were returning and after crossing a street we found a little pop up booth distributing candies by the brand of Orange. We got our packs of candies and I started eating. (Actually the candies looked like pills and I feel like as if I am overdosing.) Arthur walked to the booth as well in an orange tshirt, I laughed at him for the orange tshirt but I didn’t tell him it was because he looked like a mannings employee. He was chill and just shrugged lol.

Walking back I received messages in a WhatsApp group chat of me, Charlotte C and Monica. Monica wanted to self harm. So I shared some reasons of why I didn’t want to and methods I used when the urges come, hopefully she can try them out or develop more of her own.

me as babyish newbie at office

Wore pajamas and carrying piles of stuff in a very clunky manner to my new seat. Everyone was wearing suits and working elegantly in this gigantic office, almost the size of one floor of shopping mall.

I was moving my stuff and saw a vibrator on the floor, it was mine but I didn’t dare to pick it up or else they know it would be mine. I felt awkward walking by in my pink pajamas and seeing that pink vibrator bc it made it obvious that it’s mine

Anyways after moving my piles of machines..?? I went back to the spot and the vibrator disappeared. Later people were gossipping about the mysterious vibrator, who brought their vibrator to work and who was so horny. Alex also brought up this topic to me and I told him it was actually mine lmao.

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using wrong id to cross border

#mum To shenzhen book city Mum took two id cards out, one is hers one is her friend’s because she helped her friend to set up her id so she kept it. The customs took her friend’s id and asked why she looked different and some detailes about her last departure at an odd time at night. I was getting annoyed by the long interrogation and waiting time so I just took mum’d id and gave it to the customs, wanting to let her know that this is the correct id. (Actually either way it will be weird because how come you have your friend’s id). But then the customs thought i was showing my id, so I immediately passed with my mum’s id. I felt nervous when my mum was still stuck there and I am passing as my mum’s identity with a larger age But luckily later mum got past i think But the next station is body check and scanning items and they’re checking our ids again

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befriended Dory the fish

I was in an animal carnival or whatever and I met and chatted with many animals

(Too much plot content but the scenes are insignificant)

Most memorable: I was sitting there listening to rest of the animals standing and chatting, when suddenly I felt something sharp but quite itchy underneath my feet. I looked down and it is a big Dory the fish from Finding Nemo, playing with my feet with her fins. She looked super excited. I looked at her and she looked back, seemingly wanted to be friends (she is the only animal so far that is non-verbal).

I tried to think about the reason why, and I noticed I was wearing socks with the same pattern as Dory. I suspected she thought I was a fan of her.

Idk how to politely tell her to stop slapping my feet with her fins because it was tingly as fuck and felt like many nails were poking me but it was itchy _{(prob my feet were numb and I was moving it so it translated into that into the dream) And prob cuz I just watched Zootopia 2 that day}

airbnb checking in

#mum #dad

Family trip to somewhere Check-in reception is at the balcony top floor It was at night outside, but many people where moving their luggage and queuing up for check in too

I forgot the story but it was supposed to be a mystery / lowkey scary dream

_{(not sure if I dreamt this bc of the Tai Po fire)}

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This dream made me feel like as if fri sat sun mon tue has passed

buying macarons

At a bakery stall. I wanted to buy some macarons. Asked the dream friend next to me if she wanted to buy some as well, and I’ll talk to the staff on behalf for her.

There were like 5 flavours, white brown and some rainbow colours in between (* it changed later on). I got a little paper pouch to hand to the bakery guy behind the counter. I found there were already some inside of brown flavour, and told the bakery guy about it. He asked me how many were inside. Originally I said wow around 5? Cuz it looked so big and many. I handed the pouch and the guy was talking to a female staff nearby and he said there’s one. And when I thought about it and imagine it from multiple angles I saw 1 giant cookie of irregular shape. It just seemed like 5 but isn’t.

The bakery guy was very chill and easygoing and he said he’d take care of it and asked for our order.

I asked my dream friend how many would she like, she said 3, so I was also gonna order 3, making 6 in total.

She picked a brown one and I picked white – we picked one each in turns to make it more fun.

Later the flavours were changed to multiple whitish brown flavours on top of rainbow ones. There were like oreo, toffee, caramel, hazelnut flavour etc. Looked quite yummy and I was planning to pick hazelnut next.

waiting for meetup and observing a class

#uni #mum Me and Stephanie K discussed previously via text about a meetup time to get her notes or whatever. It would be on a Sunday. I was having a day off on Sunday but I still agreed.

It’s Sunday. I finally showered and dressed up in my uniform and answered most questions from my curious mum (about where I’m going and what time will I be back)

And she said she can’t do Sunday and let’s do Monday before class instead. I was very annoyed as I was already about to go out And I looked at the calendar she shared and saw today’s time was monday before class. So I said then it’s now, let’s meet at the campus then.

So I headed to campus and walked into a small computer classroom with a full class of students and a teacher all using their desktop computers. I was curious of what widgets the teacher was using for her iPad, so I walked up to the big projected screen but didn’t see anything in particular. _{(that’s because it’s the screen of the desktop computer dum dum)(prob because I was reading a list of recommended iPad games before I fell asleep)} I walked right through and walked around to see what each of them were doing. The classmates and teacher didn’t seem bothered. I wondered if they can see me actually. But nevertheless I felt nervous to be the only one walking across a focused class.

I noticed the screens of the students and found a lot of them were just daydreaming and looking at their desktop homescreen. Some were using their phones and iPads. I thought it made sense because uni classes were boring.

I walked quickly out of the classroom.

(This is more of an interlude between the previous and latter uni class dream)

kirsty and sister lucia

#primschool

Entered a food court and there was a sister sitting on my left. After her sharing she asked a question to the floor: how does sister lucia’s saliva taste like?

I leaned towards her mic and exclaimed it is sweet- no it is salty!

She asked why would I thought so? And handed me her mic.

I replied, because in primary school sister lucia kissed me (in the cheek) so I (wiped the saliva off my face and) tasted her saliva. It was in the Chinese oral speaking class when she was teaching me. And then a few years later she kissed me again so I tried the saliva again. _{(… sacrilegious) and in the dream I didn’t verbalise the brackets bc I thought it was unimportant- but bro it was a different scene}

Everyone in the food court gasped.

And then the sister and a classmate nearby asked if I know someone called 陳彥同/童. I was confused but then realised she was Kirsty, my p1 neighbour in class! _{(well actually now I’m not sure because this name seemed to belong to another classmate- but Kirsty’s name was similar)} And then I started crying as I said she was my first friend but I can’t see her anymore, she wrote down her email in a paper slip and handed to me before she left, but I lost the slip, and I have no other way of contact of her…

The people in the food court were quiet as they looked at me crying and the sister offering her sympathy.

I felt apologetic for dampening the vibe of the food court while I was crying unstoppably.

email reply from arthur

#arthur I went to class in my uni. As I was busy walking along some corridors at the back of the classroom, I saw something lit up at the side of my eye, it was my phone lying on top of my kangol totebag on a random chair at the corridor. It was an email notification from Arthur. It said “Third (title) [Arthur’s Signature section] See you later~” So I thought it was most likely a reply from my email notifying him I’d be late last week. The “Third” was likely Re: my email title _{(though idk why would it say Third, perhaps it was the third session in the dream)}

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Had so many dreams and I kept waking up intermittently. Also today was pretty cold and dry so my sleep quality was bad and I didn't rest well.

about to get robbed for found long-lost penlight

#mum I was on the streets at night, in a makeshift home built using dirty steel frames.

I found my lost 2019 mikuexpo penlight when I was searching in my luggage. I was overjoyed. The penlight was very worn and the text printed on it was partially scrapped due to wear and tear (in the dream it was written 2017 though), but nevertheless I tested it and it lighted up and the different colours were working. It lighted up as orangey-yellow first then I changed to green. _{(Just like when me and my friend were posing our penlights at mikuexpo and my friend chose that orange colour for Rin and mine in green for Miku)} The lamp length was shorter than the irl one and the holder part was longer.

Just when I was admiring my penlight, I felt a need to close off a little side door of my framy home. Just when I was sliding an opened frame to shut it, I noticed a man running across the road towards the door. I tried to close it quicker and rearranged a few more frames to close the gap. The guy tried to widen the gap and I noticed a patch lock on the frame, so I quickly locked it, but he was adjusting the lock too, then I noticed two more of those locks on the frame so I was frantically trying to lock them and hold them to prevent the guy from unlocking. He was mumbling stuff as he was unlocking too, seemed like he desperately wanted the penlight I was holding. I realised I needed an actual padlock to hold the mechanism in place, but I don't have the hand to grab one (even if I have one). So I yelled towards the back of my house to call mum to help.

_{I miss my penlight :((((( I think the emphasis on latches was because our group was figuring out how to open our locker, and I found we needed to hold the latch of the patch lock thing on top of unlocking with the key}

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very very large meal

4 dishes each i only finished the first one (noodles) and was on the second one (giant bowl of mixed fried rice) everyone else on the table were on their bowls of rice either so I don't really feel pressured, and mum told me it's okay to just leave the rest there, but I still kind of want to eat more.

At the end of the meal me and another boy were eating their food while the older relatives were looking at us slightly amazed. I was purely because I suddenly had some appetite at the end so that's why I started eating again.

_{(I think this is because mum forwarded a post of a doctor’s article and the last line was like if you studied and think medicine is not for you, you can quit it, so I was wondering if mum felt the same way or if she is just forwarding for the front part of the article which talked about study tips)}

skipping class and doing dumb fun things with wardmates

Part 1

#pbl #uni

I was on my way to school from Hung Hom mtr. I have a dictation in the morning. However I accidentally rode the wrong train, and I went to HMT station. Then I saw the other platform had the train to go back to the correct direction (it's in lime colour like the ocean park line), so I rode it, but once I got on and saw the mtr line sticker thing within the compartment I found the HMT station had a new name and the line was actually different. But it was more like a boiled down 特急 version of Kwun Tong Line (cuz the shape of the line was just like the U-shaped Kwun Tong line), but with mixture from important stations of other lines, all with different station names. HMT — Hung Hom — Kowloon Tong — Kai Tak/ Diamond Hill (? the one with brown line interchange) etc. I was like omg this is so smart they just incorporated stations with just the right interchanges. (Bc I thought Hung Hom had the red interchange... Initially I thought huh where's the red line then, and then I mistakenly thought Hung Hom had)

Anyways when the “train” was about to start, they announced this was the last special train （特別班次） of the day, so I felt very special and lucky. But then when it started I realised this was actually a bus. I thought oh shit, but then it was going along the stations so it wasn't a big deal so I didn't worry much. I saw the cross harbour tunnel through window of the bus and the bus entered a carpark nearby. And then a tour guide came over and congratulated us in joining such a special occasion. The bus transformed into a grand dining hall, and we were seated at long tables. I was the last one on the first long table. And we got T-shirts, notebooks, etc as souvenirs. As we pass along the notebooks, some were of exclusive design, and so we were like wow whoever was receiving it was so lucky

But on the other hand I was worried about getting late to school – actually the second I realised I rode the wrong line I was already lowkey anxious _{(Actually as of writing now, me too- update: alr late and missed the class)}

I told the person sitting on the left of me about me actually in a hurry. She said oh you can just leave now ! They won't stop you I was like :o. But then I told her I still want the souvenirs if they hand out more later, and the upcoming food. So I didn't really want to leave.

Then I looked across the table and saw sitting opposite to me was my ward groupmates, Alex and Benson. I told them I actually had an exam (I spoke wrongly here, it should be a dictation) in the morning at 10. They were like oh shit you have an exam ??? I was like yeah but I couldn't make it in time and I think it has already passed. I think I couldn't make it to the afternoon class either.

They said, how about you get a doctor's note? I said that's a good idea, but it's alr late now so perhaps I'll do it tmr. I have a clogged nose anyways (in the dream I felt my nose clogging). (I started coughing intermittently in the dream which is a good thing that means I can be more authentic when getting the absent slip)

Then Alex showed a prescription, he said, speaking of which, our group had a diagnosis _{(I assume from the faculty)}, and they gave us these drugs to take. And then together we said the name of the drug: _{[well I forgot- starts with D and ends with sth like dipine. I suspect diazepam or amlodipine but they don't feel like the name in dream]} And we both knew this is for ADHD (in the dream).

The medication bottle was interestingly designed. We can only open it gently and slowly during specific times of the day. Inside the can were a lot of batteries along with big tablets of drugs, and the lid had a razor blade thingy. If you open the lid in bright sunlight, and quickly, the razor blade would rub against the metal electrodes of the batteries and it will catch fire.

I opened the lid next to a desk lamp. And then the can of drugs had some sort of hissing sound. I was like uhhh And Benson was like oh shit And I realised it was because of the light of the desk lamp Then Benson tried to use his hand to test the heat of the light coming from the desk lamp. I was like no why are you hurting yourself lol Benson continued to hold his hand until he suddenly retracted his hand, so we laughed at him. Then the light hit the can again and the can started hissing more so we were like oh no,

Then I took a drug tablet out and tried to put in my mouth but I realised it is the water soluble ones like the vitamin C ones. So I spit it out before it bubbles more, and put it in a lid and add water to it but I forgot this other lid had many pores and spaces. So I poured the whole thing into the drug can !!

Then it hissed more and I was like oh no why am I so dumb !!!! And Alex was like oh no why are WE so dumb

_{I woke briefly and thought I had such happy times with this group. And also Mancy's group. And I thought of the weirdos in other groups and I thought I am very fortunate. And then I napped again.}

Part 2

#mum

Told mum at night around 9pm-ish I'd like to see a doctor tmr morning (friday) to get the sick leave note. Mum said why not now? I said the clinic has already closed! Mum was like oh right. I said how about tmr 11am. Or 10. Mum was like I heard the clinic would be full by 7am lets go there early! So I was like okay. And I told her I'll get a 2-day absence (tmr morning and today). (because tmr afternoon at 3pm in the dream I need to see arthur anyways so I need some sort of excuse — but mum still doesn't know lol)

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upset about Our Lady

#OurLady #uni #exchange

I was sitting beside Charlotte Chan (our cohort one). We were talking about our travels during exchange, and I was mentioning about the trip with Our Lady. [here I forgot what exactly I talked about but it was quite important] I was quite sad actually. Then Our Lady walked by, and Charlotte told her [her actions] made me sad. Our Lady felt surprised, and seemingly genuinely asked me, if she had hurt me/ made me sad [again i forgot the exact wordings] And I just really wanted to cry and almost bursted into tears. But I wasn't sure if she was just really autistic and blunt that's why she kept being insensitive and now she knows, or if she was kind of deliberate so I didn't dare to show my true emotions aka crying bc that would be showing my weakness to her.

leng grade tutor & white corridors building

I was going to a tutorial and my tutor gives leng grade (good grades). I then met some others in the tutorial waiting room and we were comparing our tutors and that person's tutor was so annoying and kept sending them emails and followups and gives poor grades, so I felt pretty lucky about mine lol.

Later I went into a building with lots of white corridors. It was like a mini maze. I was calling someone via my phone (perhaps my mum), and guiding myself to the staff pantry and some other utility rooms, along with the signs stuck on the wall at quite a high level. I was a bit nervous of getting lost, but there were clear pink big banners on the walls of the paths which leads back to the exit/ entrance so I wasn't too scared of exploring the place either. Nevertheless I still tried to remember the path which I came from in hindsight.

_{(I suspect I dreamt the building cuz 1. our class watched a vid on LINAC machines and how the clinic designed the floor plan with a “maze” to bounce off the radiation before it reaches the entrance. 2. the new wellness team office was literally so eerily white like a lab and there was a long corridor there. I wonder who tf designed that.)}

sleeping with mum

#mum

I really wanted to fap so I was trying to hump in the dream. But it wasn't really arousing so I used my hand, which started to work and I wanted to moan a little, but then mum seemed to be beside me on the bed so I didn't dare to. Luckily I didn't because later I felt her arm and turned to the side and found her napping next to me. I was a bit annoyed and also quite shocked because I thought I had developed the habit of locking the bedroom door. But again I wouldn't trust myself completely on that, and I tried to take a look at the doorknob to see the lock status, but mum was in the way of my view and I didn't want to move too conspicuously to wake her up.

Eventually I actually woke and saw my door was perfectly locked and mum was ofc not on my bed. But I missed out on the fapping lol.

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