new advisor & back to school

#uni #secschool

• used my skateboard and travelled very fast (on par with/ faster than the speed of other buses) on the street at night near either cwb or tst. i felt a bit free?

• academic advisor:

brief slip about your background (PMH) – i wrote about my PTSD and about to start EMDR soon, along with my suspected BPD

academic advisor is clinical oncologist _{(prob because groupmate shared he wanted to be one bc his dad died of cancer)} I walk up a narrow and weird staircase in a small building like alice in the wonderland to reach this office/ home of the clinical oncologist. the guidelines on the stairs are just red taped lines to tell you not to go past this floor etc but eventually i arrived, and an office lady/ his assistant was there to wait for me, she told me about previewing his room and make sure to lock it before he comes or else hes angry. we looked inside but the oncologist arrived, and he looked mad at the office lady, and she was apologetic and I was very scared and apologised as it was my fault. the oncologist ignored me and and office lady didn't look at me as well, as if she didn't blame me, and then they chatted like normal as if nothing big really happened. the lady told me to enter his room with him, and I went inside and chatted with him

he looked at my slip and asked me to tell him more about my ptsd. I tried to start recalling and narrating the scene (only did a brief description of the surrounding and about to start describing the incident) but I immediately feel (in the dream) that I wasn't automatically doing the dream and I was sort of pulled out and my consciousness has to come in to continue the dream like a lucid dream and i didn't like it. I apologised a bit to the oncologist because I couldn't continue talking about it. He says it is alright and you will have EMDR soon. And he hopes we can get better soon (or similar things like this), and i asked him “we”? and he say yes. So I was thinking if he was saying my unconscious + my conscious self. Then the little academic advising initial meeting ended.

Later I had to grab lunch at the “canteen” but it was the lecture hall. with my friends?? and the ppl in the hall were sitting according to their flats which was according to academic advisor. There’s a lot of people as if it’s induction day but it’s probably not

• meet matthew yip – asked me about my relationship with “her” – i thought he meant our lady but I looked up and saw A instead and i realised he was talking about A, and I said nahhh

• later? went out and saw shuttle bus to penylan from cardiff so i took cuz it looked familar, and after I rode it i found out it was going back to dorm.

• jamie holding my ipad mini and scrolling in my gmail in my very original game email account from junior high school . i was furious and kept scolding her loudly why she did it again, it was not the first time, she was also looking at my gmail when i was back then using ipad air 1 very very angry (but now thinking about it it was A who did it)

_{(ahh im quite anxious for next week's EMDR, it would be my first time doing it. I guess it is because I've finally built a stable enough relationship with my therapist aka trust him enough to allow it to happen. I heard it would be very tiring, but im not sure if it would also be traumatising again, I hope I can still comprehend sentences and not get lost at school after I started it and wouldn't be as bad as the real thing previously)}

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school and old friends and people

#secschool #cch #teacher

sports day See carrie and ashley and some others walking at most back although some ppl’s numbers were supposed to walk further back but they were walking with friends but im alone Walk to tst pier Floating and swimming was faster than walking See angelika waiting bus and we briefly chatted

Took pics with a blind student in fromt of miffy tourist spots at the star ferry pier with my storage card Took a while to access the pics in the card for preview in a public classroom nearby, occupied around 1.5 mins of a tsang’s time before her class

Went back to class at school slightly late- RS lesson, camille and others were doing group discussion alr, found out cch is my rs teacher I went back to sit at my usual seat by the door, but the people doing discussions were at the middle of the classroom I asked (forgot name- a kinda chubby 留班 student w glasses who dislikes sh chan) to confirm if cch is teaching us this year cch just finished taking attendance and walked out with the attendance book supposedly to put it on the umbrella rack

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halted session w vincci; intimate with Arthur 2

#T #arthur my new session would be with Vincci instead, and it would be conducted over zoom. It would be my first time having a session with her. Arthur was a little bit worried if she can handle the session, so he joined the zoom meeting as an observer too. But around the mid part of the session, while Vincci was speaking, she suddenly quitted the zoom. I assumed it might be some internet issues of her. But she didn't rejoin. I was confused and initially I was a bit hopeful, so I was joking with Arthur about the situation. But after 10 mins of her not appearing, Arthur decided to call her but she didn't pick up her phone. Around 20 mins of waiting and almost the end of the session I was kinda upset because I think she didn't want to see me so she disappeared. I also told Arthur about me being a bit unhappy. I also felt a bit empty in the dream. Thinking back it might be because I felt like both Vincci and Arthur didn't want me (Arthur referring me to Vincci and she just ditched the session) and I felt abandoned.

I forgot how the scenes changed, but I was still in my new house bedroom/ old house parent's bedroom (direction of bed and door were similar), when I finished the zoom. Then Arthur came into the room. (I think) (The parts below were blurry) He lied on the bed and I was on top of him. We were naked this time. I was again humping him. (I couldn't really recall the sensations I had after I woke up- but I did moan a lot in dream) I leaned forward and our chests touched. Then I gave him a hickey on the left side of his neck. _{(shit now I googled it, I actually gave him a bite with my right canine... LMFAO)} He also gave one on my left neck (not sure bite or hickey), and as I felt that light sharp pain I was quite aroused and moaned again haha

I continued humping him while (we kissed? I think) Until I was kinda wet and I can also feel his cock erected and was rubbing against my butt as I moved myself. Then we changed position as he stood at my back and teased me by rubbing it without putting it in. Finally he put it in. Honestly it just felt like a foreign body inside and it wasn't really arousing haha- but interesting experience

_{After I woke up, the sensations in the dream are much less vivid to recall than the first dream (except the “hickey/ bite”)– so it was just pleasant watching but not feeling. I'm not sure if I felt a lot while dreaming though.}

prepping high school final exam in y4

#secschool school distributed papers to us for practice I got mine and I ran to school (my old home) in order to scold my f6 eng teacher for giving me an ass SBA mark but I arrived at school just when the recess bell rang (:35) (aka recess ended), so I didn't continue my plan

walk two dogs

#mum Mum led two dogs into my bedroom, telling me to walk them later. I was putting on the collar and leash for them but I forgot which collar is for which dog, and I took some time to attach them when eventually I realised I swapped them. Mum came in and helped me reattached the collars and leashes swiftly- but she reattached the ones I was meaning to remove. So I told her no, this is wrong and we need to change it. She replied they are similar, then you swap by yourself, and she left the room. I figured it out by a while and was halfway done, but seemed she waited a while already and she was a bit impatient so she came back into the room and helped me with it. I felt happy. Then we were about to go out and walk the dogs.

_{(...... now I am feeling mixed)}

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long dreams from yesterday afternoon till today morning. There were like 4 dreams but not too special

mum found out my cuts

#mum I was cutting and mum went inside my room and saw me holding my blade and my arms with cuts. Idk how to explain to her, I felt the scene is a bit embarrassing. I was scared if she would be angry. But she was more like shocked and a bit frowned, but didn't scold me. She asked me loudly why did it happen though. _{probably because yesterday afternoon my parents tidied my room and also added the window grilles to this new home, and dad was saying how dangerous it is if I was being too excited or whatever and stood up on bed because it was very easy to fall off onto the street when the grilles were not installed previously. And they took out my locked messenger bag which was usually put on the bed, so I later on took a look inside and found that one final little blade I didn't turn in to Arthur, and I opened it, and despite not feeling upset, and obv not upset enough to cut, I decided to cut a little because why not, and I have been refraining from cutting for a long time already, so I should give myself this... uhm treat. And that blade was sharp af so I just moved a little and I got a funny feeling and it bled just a little. I kept questioning myself why I would want to do it, because Arthur also asked me the same question, but I still dont know, but I want to do it}

korea trip with friends

#charlottec #secschool me and around 6 friends were at the park at night, somewhere in Korea, as we were travelling. These were from my senior secondary school squad with heidi, charlotte, kaka and others. We bought an ice-cream each and ate together on our own little cube stools. I had a strawberry ice cream cone with a few actual strawberries, but I had to hurry to eat because mine was melting especially quickly idk why lol. 3 others also had either similar or identical strawberry ice-cream but theirs didn't really melt that quickly. Maybe because my ice-cream arrived the latest out of them so it was served late, and already melting. (thinking back it didn't make sense because if it was so, my ice-cream should be the coldest, but I really did get the ice-cream the latest out of them) _{Maybe I dreamt it because I recently found a photo of their secondary school grad trip to Korea again, which I was unable to join (I think should be because I was travelling with family elsewhere during that time). I wasn't particularly fond of going though because charlotte said it happened to be a kinda bad trip lol, but I kinda miss out on it}

chatting with schoolmates

I was sitting at the bench with a few others (I forgot the names, but one seems to be Annie? who likes horses, and Lauren), plus a new dream friend, whom I met in primary school nanny van. They were a year younger than me. We were just chatting casually until when Annie wants us to guess her personality or whatever, and I just shared my (educated) “guesses”. The dream friend and Annie looked surprised because I was accurate, and I explained to the dream friend that I met Annie in the school van before. Annie didn't respond though. (Perhaps the “dream her” didn't know about this information) But the convo went on nicely. (I think this wasn't a lucid dream. I spilled out the irl info about school van naturally)

omw to school and battling giant monster

At a “dream fake city where I was on exchange” in the morning. Gives vibes like this:

I was waiting impatiently at a traffic light, wanting to get across to go ride metro to go to school. Finally the light turned green and I went across. Then it swapped from first person to third person as I saw a gigantic monster (godzilla size but not that ugly), protruding out of the metro station building. It was swallowing people's aura, which were blue orbs. And I observe this girl (the main character) dashed towards the monster in mid air and jumped really high to mid air to face head on with the monster by getting her two white iridescent aura orbs from her chest and out came two strong aura waves and shot the monster with that powerful beam and the monster appeared injured, and the dream ended (idk if the monster was dead or not).

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Arthur asked me whether I am awake and fantasizing when I said I was aware when I am dreaming. But I am sure they are lucid dreams. If not, then you can say I have not been sleeping for years. So it would be impossible. And my watch also shows I am sleeping. Therefore I am sleeping. Perhaps he hasn't tried lucid dreaming before, nor doing reality checks in dream, so it is hard to imagine.

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terrible gigantic argument with mum at wellness team waiting room

#T #mum #secschool

It is my birthday today. I felt a bit bad so I went to sit in the wellness team office. The waiting room was spacious. It was actually a big computer room. I sat there for a long time but couldn’t pacify myself, and my trembles continued, and I was still crying. So Vincci came and check on me. And she gave me a notebook to write what kind of subjects I chose during secondary school. So I listed all 13 from junior high and 7 in senior high. We carried this book with us to our uni entrance, and we sat at the middle of the slope where everyone would walk down to exit school. Ashley walked by and gave me a jellycat peanut keychain as a birthday present. She wished me happy birthday. Then I recalled (knew about in the dream that) it was my birthday. I was very thankful of her for remembering and the birthday wishes and I bursted into tears again. Some other old secondary classmates who also walked by said hi to me. After a quick while Ashley came back and apologetically took away my gift (which weirdly became a white plushy rather than the peanut), saying that she had recognised me wrongly and gifted wrongly. Still crying from receiving the gift, I was a bit sad but thought to myself that it wasn’t a big deal to be sad about yet I sobbed.

I think we went to a supermarket afterwards to check out on desserts yogurt and ice cream. _{(irl yogurt is my mum’s favourite and I’d pick ice cream.)}

Vincci was still next to me and we went back to the waiting room. My mum came to the room as she found out somehow that I would be here. Probably she checked my geolocation or she saw my notebooks, which I was deliberately not writing about therapy most of the time. When she saw me, she looked crossed, but when she saw Vincci beside me, she rose from the stool and put up a smiley face full of gratitude and thank her for taking care of me. I was angry and loudly told her to stop being so fake and put on a show when she dislike student wellness team _{(idk if she does irl but very likely, if she knows about it)}. So she scolded me back for wasting time talking to strangers and trusting them. That I was a total letdown and I couldn’t even study properly. I was furious and upset so I also stood and yelled at her telling her that she didn’t even understand how come my study is so bad, she never asked about my mental health and she ignored all the issues that I presented at home and those I told her about. She knew that my mind was so bad I was lost at school. I couldn’t even recall important stuff about myself. That I was in my room abnormally moody and I only showered every five days. I was yelling at her and getting very irritated every day and I never smiled but she didn’t even think anything beyond that! She only cared about the results I bring forward. But it was never me.

When she heard me yelling and screaming at her, it triggered her and she also yelled back with such explosive temper like usual.

At the midst of our argument, I also yelled at Vincci in frustration to see how me and my mum are both double-faced with such dramatic emotions. (To clarify the loudness is simply because I was arguing and I wouldn’t randomly speak in a low tone to another person. Not that I have beef with Vincci)

I’m too tired to write down our arguments, and I couldn’t remember them anyway. But we had a terrible big loud argument and my voice was coarse again. But it still did not reach her.

_{Maybe Arthur is right about I shouldn’t be expecting from my parents as we knew how they’re like. But I am lonely in this little place which is supposedly home.}

post exam driving

#uni

During exchange, I went to a distant place to have an exam, so a prof drove me there. On the way back I drove a part of the highway back with my riolu on my lap, and Cecot in backseat lol. But I got distracted by it after a pause of waiting other cars to pass- as in I forgot to start driving again and I became too focused on my doll. So Cecot said he would drive it and I sit at the back. Reluctantly (because I like driving), we swapped seats. When we reached the urban streets, I asked if I could try to drive. He said “you need more experience to handle the road.” I’m like ok Then I asked “how can I train my attention as I couldn’t see the rest of my vision if I look at the lane in front of me,” He replied, “by training.” I was left speechless because he wasn’t answering me. Maybe he was annoyed by my previous mistake of not focusing on the road. But I asked, “training?” in hopes of clarification. And he said “yes.” … so I asked “what kinds of training?” I think he was planning to answer, but at this point he already arrived at a parking spot and I had to get off. He asked me, “is it over?” (This part starting was all in canto) I asked “what do you mean by it, if you’re talking about my module then I completed it, if you’re talking about the exam then yeah?” And he repeated, “is it over?”

So I was very confused and kept thinking what’s over until I woke up.

But now after typing this down I realised he just probably wanted me to end the conversation.

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Yooooooooo first time dreaming about her omg

uni group tour & shopping with cora

#cora #secschool

Feels like summer sem chinese course, but the setting of the dream is in winter I had to attend a basic chinese course Need to memorise long sentences for class, and speak together as a group I was scared to memorise + lazy to attend the stupid course so I just went to the staircase where they rehearse to peek at them The course instructor (a thin old lady- i don’t like the vibe, feels like f2 vice classmistress) spotted me and led the class to walk around the staircase and caught up to me (I couldn’t run fast) She asked why didn’t you join I said I am scared She explained they’re actually pretty chill, but it’s okay if I didn’t wanna participate and skip class So I felt better and joined

After class me and my new friend group (Zoe Wong and a few others) somehow joined a school activity And we matched with our group leader, Cora I was behind her the whole time when she’s leading We exited a place that feels like lecture hall into a shopping mall, then went onto the streets On the way they were chatting (I forgot what was it about), Cora casually commented that I was already blushing We went to a small shop on the street, where we were given a free kitty for each of us Initially the shopkeeper gave me two/ two kittens walked towards me. One walked towards me first, it was quiet and obedient, had white fur with mini light blue polka dots dyed on it. The other one dashed towards me. It was more active, with blue stripes. I felt my forearms were slightly painful from cradling them, so I looked down onto my arms and realised the active cat didn’t withdraw its claws fully when kneading on my forearm. So I asked it to withdraw the claws because I felt painful, and it learnt and did. (The first cat was napping gently the whole time.) I chose the second cat.

Afterwards we went inside a cosmetics shop. As I didn’t have much experience with cosmetics, my groupmates and Cora were explaining them and point out ones they like/ were popular as we walked by. They were commenting on something that looks like a lip gloss. But they were commenting on the smell and how long lasting it was. I was confused so I asked them to explain. Zoe explained it was actually perfume, and a small amount of it was enough to [make you horny] (i forgot how they phrased it exactly, but definitely horny and not aroused). Cora added, it could last you the whole night, and was perfect for bar nights.

As we exited the shop it was dark outside already, and we were walking uphill towards a bar. I think I asked Cora if she’s ready to hit on some men

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Yeah bruh can’t believe i asked her that in the dream _{hit on me first pls- or did she}

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My recent dreams are a bit difficult to be recalled in full. They’re like pieces of shards

bicycle and school

#secschool #arthur

I got a small and handy bicycle. It had a white body and small thick black tyres. Pretty cool. It was easy to lift as well. Maybe I often used it for commute to and from school.

I think at some point in the dream in the school, I said my farewell with Arthur. But later on the street outside school, I saw Arthur queuing up to order food from a food stall. He was the second in line. There were many people queuing behind him too, including my secondary school friends. I was delighted to see him.

I turned around to do something real quick, hoping he would still be here when I was done with my things. But he left. I ran along the road and saw his back. But I couldn’t keep up with him and lost him.

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Halloween event: searching Ruth's Guinea pig in Disney

#ruth #chinok #secschool #uni

I was having dinner in school food court, assigned into tables with secondary school schoolmates (weren't that familiar). One of the waiter seemed a bit intellectually disabled + mentally handicapped, a bit schizo some of the classmates accidentally and unknowingly provoked him by saying things that didn't align with what the waiter was saying when he came around to serve dishes. During the most serious time, the waiter seemed he was about to explode. So I spoke up and chatted along with the waiter and agreeing on his points (which were diverted from what he was mad about), so I swap his attention away We sort of had a conversation which was not too meaningful, but enough to stop him from exploding. He's like a damp firepit now

I felt relieved.

Later we all had to go to a computer room. I was chatting a bit loudly until we entered, and I realised the people inside the room were super silent. I was kinda embarrassed but luckily I realised the silence pretty soon so I wasn't that embarrassed. Turned out they were assessing the audio noise in their headphones. So basically we had to record voices and noises using the headphones w microphone and equipment we got assigned with, but in order to eliminate unnecessary noises, like the accidental breaths into the microphone, the school will determine our personal baseline noise level first.

And we had to get the equipment and then participate in a halloween event by wellness team. (I wasn't sure whether the equipment was related to the event, but the event was definitely organised by wellness team)

So we were watching a slides presentation in the room to get briefed about the event. So Ruth got a golden guinea pig. (imo it is a very cute cat, but somehow it said guinea pig so guinea pig it is) And she put it somewhere in Disney. And we were going to find it. There were clues about the guinea pig, like size data, a picture of Ruth dressed in feminine clothes by the shore; (and also more info about ruth- like which district and which building she lives in – I was like SEE i think she lives in mid-levels) _{(not confirmed irl- just purely my imagination)}

And very quickly our group is leaving to catch the Disney shuttle van. But I was far from ready. I needed to wear my socks, my shoes, get my disney headband, pack my bag... and my phone started to glitch as well- the keyboard function broke. And I can't interact with anything, I tried sending messages in our team chat but it would just send random stickers and irrelevant texts. Chinok looked over to check on me as I looked confused. and I was choosing which plushies to bring with me, as I have a few- a disney related kuromi, a momonga, a dumbo...

They asked me/ looked like they wanted to wait for me, so I told them not to wait for me, and go on the 6 shuttles and I will catch them later

I eventually took dumbo I think because it was the most comfortable and softest to touch. _{(Dumbo was a high school christmas present from 6grass to me during school christmas party- and jau touched it during the party so I was overjoyed)}

i rushed out in the rain, keeping dumbo under by coat in my chest/ where the heart was, to get on a shuttle metro cuz the road led me there (i was kinda lost and I thought the metro won't be too far from the shuttle van destination as they were both Disney related) But the metro actually went back to the urban districts (there was a hidden mini side / another Disney park)

I was like oh,,, and then I wondered what if we got kinda tricked and actually Ruth hid the guinea pig there instead. And I checked the slides and saw one of the photo is the disney receipt and there was the disney address it was actually this one that I was heading alone

The metro line was brown, just like the Tuen Ma line. _{(maybe because I rode that line during the day to get to my driving school)} I got off around that disney station (the station didn't say there was a disney though) Hopped on a bus. But later it was in a traffic jam as it was Halloween and there were so many people on the street. (The road was like shared with pedestrians, so the bus cannot force through) I got off immediately and walked along the street to find the place where Ruth took her picture.

I walked past the crowd and went up an alley. There were many rats running around but I still walked up quickly. I wanted to find the guinea pig. There were less and less people gathering there as it was more unhygienic and secluded. I imagined her exposed legs. Rather slim and smooth. I looked at her hands. Ahaa. And she put on kinda sexy eye makeup. _{(huh interesting she always wore long pants irl)}

Eventually I arrived at a cliff on the mountain, and looking down was the coast. It was the place Ruth took her pic. But not the exact spot. There was an escalator down to the seashore so I went down to see whether that would make me closer to the spot. Tried and didn't. I planned to took the escalator back up when I saw a mini museum thingy, so I asked the entrance security guard about the guinea pig, whether she knew about it or even was taking care of it in case someone gave it to her. She had no recollection of it, and she seemed uninterested in our convo

I took the escalator back up and found the exact spot. I imagined Ruth in a beach dress just like in the pic, standing by the rock “fence” thing by the cliff, and just enjoying the wind and beautiful scenery.

I can't find any guinea pig though. Then my phone received a group chat message (group of all participants including those from other teams), people asking whether it was the location on her receipt. I was like shit, they discovered, and I don't like the fact that they would be the one finding guinea pig and this nice secret destination that should be just for the both of us

So I kinda panicked and tried to run around back and forth to find the guinea pig. I wanted to be the one who find it. (And get noticed by Ruth.)

And I woke up.

_{Now after I wake up I think I could read the guinea pig data file, what if the guinea pig is so small that I can't see without really checking every bush/ every blade of grass? What is the Guinea pig? Something atypical? Who knows? Maybe I need to make use of all the given information.}

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spooky lift, fake dad

#dad Dad came home from work. There was a ring in the front door. The back door opened at the same time and dad came from the back. We looked through the door hole in the front door and saw another dad as well. But something tells me it was fake, and i was more certain of it when dad was here from the back door It was supposed to be a cake delivery at the front door. And that person wasn’t holding any cake. I didn’t open the door for it. Mum also agreed, dad was just settling down after work so he didn’t really get involved

Later this person left and another colourful monster came. Didnt open After like 15 mins of it standing there, it left and another colourful monster came out of the lift and stood again Didnt open After a long 30 mins it left. And finally a young man carrying a colourful suspicious cake came. Although the cake was unusually vibrant and sus, i opened the door. He apologised profusely for being late because the lift was acting strange. I thanked him and immediately closed the door cuz I was scared monsters will come out of the lift again.

There were no monsters so far. And i was a bit curious so I went to the corridor to look at the lift. It wasn’t going to the floor it was supposed to. (Like in most of the dreams).

I think something happened and I kept trying the lift along with other lift passengers. The buttons on the lift weren’t even in order. And finally, I figured out. Button 31 goes to 4/f. (Like add the two numbers together). But some rules are like sometimes it subtract if the initial sum has a bigger floor number than what the building has. Anyways after figuring out, the dream ended.

second in marathon

#secschool #arthur Someone held my hand and brought me to a headstart. I was mainly competing with another duo of Zoe Cheng and (Ruby i think) (both very bright and competent classmates I liked a lot) With the person leading me, we were rather ahead. But later the person released her hand and I’ll have to continue this marathon on my own. I kept the pace but the duo was slowly picking up the speed because I sort of slowed down compared to before. When we were racing head to head, I tried to run harder. So I was a bit behind but not too much, like within 2 metres. At the final 100 m, I picked up my speed and ran full force to the finishing line. I think I was faster because my side of the finishing line was kinda closer. (It was a curve) So I was faster then them I think And i heard i got second (an unknown guy was the first with 1h 37m?) And i spent two hours exactly.

Random auntie/ meagan yu’s mum was surprised at my final sprint. I explained i kept some energy during the marathon just for it.

But despite winning I felt a bit empty because Arthur wasn’t joining this marathon, and I won’t be there to see his marathon race.

Japan shopping, unsupportive mum

#mum In Japan. At first i was chilling in my dorm with my roommate. Later mum came and interrupted us. And mum lied in my bed as if it was hers. And I just stood there cuz i had no bed. I felt gross for her to get inside my bed and blankets and touch my cushions

Later me and my parents went to an anime department store. Dad was supportive and walked behind me and shopped and offered suggestions although he didn’t really know the anime Mum was just trying to make us stop shopping and leave I feel unhappy.

I was trying really hard to find Rika / チリ’s merch in pokemon store but they only had figures and not the mats I was looking for. There were so many colours of the mats with different trainers and pokemons, but just not her. and mum kept telling us to leave so i was pretty stressed. (Mats as in like those children’s puzzle foam mats where you can buy one piece of different colourful pattern)

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typhoon dragon, prepping items, sharing

#relative #mum #A #cecilia #caitlyn #arthur #secschool

There was a big typhoon coming, and it was a bad omen, because it was on the trajectory path to a certain building in North Point, which was infamous for being haunted (?? lol). It had eerie green lights on the outer wall of the building. There was also a Chinese style dragon emerging out of the harbour. It was menacing. The typhoon was scary.

A random relative (dad's sister) wished me happy mid autumn festival _{(this relative's daughter wished me that on whatsapp yesterday night)}

And then I went to gather with my primary school friends, Cecilia and Caitlyn

Mum wanted to buy the dress I bought for high table dinner, but we went to the department store and that shop had sold out on all dresses

I went back to the gathering spot and saw two seats next to Caitlyn (the row has Caitlyn and Cecilia). But Caitlyn was using her arm to cover the seat next to me. So I thought maybe she was reserving the seat for her sister or other closer friend, so I picked the other seat which was further from Caitlyn, which was also fine A and her friends were sitting on the row behind us.

A's friend gave a (motivational) speech on how we should deal with the typhoon.

Somehow when we were all listening, we were all taking umbrellas out. But the shopping mall was indoors.

Later there were sharing sessions about different stuff, one of the session Arthur was the guest, and he's taking a smoky blue fabric long storage box, in which clients would lie inside (lmao?? like a cat) to have their therapy session. And he's sharing about how one client was rather naughty (? not sure about the word), and used his yellow highlighter to scribble on the side of the storage box

lol now i got distracted and forgot the other parts of the dream

eventually me and Jenny led the gathering group out of the shopping mall to another spot to protect ourselves from the typhoon. It felt good to be a leader?? :)

meow meowo moewwmeowmeow

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