arthur's japanese lesson, drive to Cardiff

#arthur it was actually a therapy session. but later became japanese lesson and he's teaching me japanese in his (home?) and there were other students waiting for him to teach japanese as well (2 pairs of parent + baby, and another 叔叔) but he sat next to me and talked too long with me so one pair of parent baby left and he was like oh shit (cuz he lost a client?) but continued teaching me and then we leaned closer to each other i think his hands were on my breast and body I am also touching his hands and arms We loved each other. I actually wanted a hug from him badly, I guess that counted... so I was kinda satisfied (but not enough) I put my face next to his and i felt his “glasses arm” on my face? (I was wearing con so it wasnt clashing) so much tension and my heart beating quickly hehehehe he dirty talked slightly saying 你唔好喺度叫啊 so I 惡趣味 and moaned to him

later the lesson bell rang and he ended the lesson, the other “classmates” left (they felt like NPCs) and he offered to drive me back

so I sat in his car originally at the backseat his car was kinda big/ tall like those range rover type

I asked if I can sit at the front passenger seat (there was a tablet in front of that seat) he said there are some “male adult oriented tv shows” that I probably won't want to watch this piqued my interest and say bro i am adult too and idc so he just let me change seat

so i am next to him now

I think people who drive had very great charisma to me, they felt dominant and reliable (especially good drivers)

and apparently the drive was slightly longer than i expected cuz he was driving all the way to cardiff

during the trip we started to get silent as there was nothing much to say I began contemplating on myself and I told him im a bit 自卑 and seems that I am doing all this because I am controlling

it felt bad because i am affecting a lot of people by this controlling urge of mine and i only started to wonder if i am controlling after several psych app tests & others asking jokingly and I couldn't deny the fact that I think perhaps I am really quite controlling & all the stuff I did made sense if I associate the cause to this, despite thinking there should be a more “root cause” behind being controlling

and i think i got that because my mum was a bit controlling so I grew up to become controlling too, to try to get back what i deserve from her but i shouldn't blame her for me being controlling to other people/ everyone...

and then we drove past nottingham and i pointed at a building asking arthur if that's the place he studied before he said yes

later we arrived at cardiff but we decided to tour around before dropping me off but there were many stairs and our car couldn't handle that so we swapped to a smaller cart which he had prepared in the car it looked like a pram but can fit both of us

the tourism department spotted us and said there was an elevator service at 2pm every saturday? or wed? (anyways once per week) but for people to book in advance which is literally now but we didn't book so I was planning to carry the pram up the stairs, it wasn't much stairs anyways

but arthur briefly went away and came back to me, saying the elevator lady was willing to give us the elevator pass too so we rode the elevator in gratitude to visit the cardiff museum

predator (of a daughter) in museum

saw a man going after a girl. they were father / daughter they entered a bathtub booth in the museum and the father wanted to harrass the girl quite unsettling anyways finally the father got caught by security guard the daughter quickly escaped in fear

meeting prim/ sec school friends

#primschool I was at the mtr exit, waiting/ gathering for a physics exam soon, saw quite some secondary school people, and zoe cheng from primary school zoe deferred one year and was now in 5A (which means i am in f6?) (she was a very studious and bright classmate I looked up to in primary school – I haven't seen her since then; briefly whatsapped after release of DSE results) she deferred because she had a mushroom skin infection from drinking too much mushroom soup every day

later I realised I didn't pick physics as my elective, so I actually didn't have the physics exam, so I waved goodbye to Zoe, and we hope to see each other again soon.

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