arthur's japanese lesson, drive to Cardiff

#arthur it was actually a therapy session. but later became japanese lesson and he's teaching me japanese in his (home?) and there were other students waiting for him to teach japanese as well (2 pairs of parent + baby, and another 叔叔) but he sat next to me and talked too long with me so one pair of parent baby left and he was like oh shit (cuz he lost a client?) but continued teaching me and then we leaned closer to each other i think his hands were on my breast and body I am also touching his hands and arms We loved each other. I actually wanted a hug from him badly, I guess that counted... so I was kinda satisfied (but not enough) I put my face next to his and i felt his “glasses arm” on my face? (I was wearing con so it wasnt clashing) so much tension and my heart beating quickly hehehehe he dirty talked slightly saying 你唔好喺度叫啊 so I 惡趣味 and moaned to him

later the lesson bell rang and he ended the lesson, the other “classmates” left (they felt like NPCs) and he offered to drive me back

so I sat in his car originally at the backseat his car was kinda big/ tall like those range rover type

I asked if I can sit at the front passenger seat (there was a tablet in front of that seat) he said there are some “male adult oriented tv shows” that I probably won't want to watch this piqued my interest and say bro i am adult too and idc so he just let me change seat

so i am next to him now

I think people who drive had very great charisma to me, they felt dominant and reliable (especially good drivers)

and apparently the drive was slightly longer than i expected cuz he was driving all the way to cardiff

during the trip we started to get silent as there was nothing much to say I began contemplating on myself and I told him im a bit 自卑 and seems that I am doing all this because I am controlling

it felt bad because i am affecting a lot of people by this controlling urge of mine and i only started to wonder if i am controlling after several psych app tests & others asking jokingly and I couldn't deny the fact that I think perhaps I am really quite controlling & all the stuff I did made sense if I associate the cause to this, despite thinking there should be a more “root cause” behind being controlling

and i think i got that because my mum was a bit controlling so I grew up to become controlling too, to try to get back what i deserve from her but i shouldn't blame her for me being controlling to other people/ everyone...

and then we drove past nottingham and i pointed at a building asking arthur if that's the place he studied before he said yes

later we arrived at cardiff but we decided to tour around before dropping me off but there were many stairs and our car couldn't handle that so we swapped to a smaller cart which he had prepared in the car it looked like a pram but can fit both of us

the tourism department spotted us and said there was an elevator service at 2pm every saturday? or wed? (anyways once per week) but for people to book in advance which is literally now but we didn't book so I was planning to carry the pram up the stairs, it wasn't much stairs anyways

but arthur briefly went away and came back to me, saying the elevator lady was willing to give us the elevator pass too so we rode the elevator in gratitude to visit the cardiff museum

predator (of a daughter) in museum

saw a man going after a girl. they were father / daughter they entered a bathtub booth in the museum and the father wanted to harrass the girl quite unsettling anyways finally the father got caught by security guard the daughter quickly escaped in fear

meeting prim/ sec school friends

#primschool I was at the mtr exit, waiting/ gathering for a physics exam soon, saw quite some secondary school people, and zoe cheng from primary school zoe deferred one year and was now in 5A (which means i am in f6?) (she was a very studious and bright classmate I looked up to in primary school – I haven't seen her since then; briefly whatsapped after release of DSE results) she deferred because she had a mushroom skin infection from drinking too much mushroom soup every day

later I realised I didn't pick physics as my elective, so I actually didn't have the physics exam, so I waved goodbye to Zoe, and we hope to see each other again soon.

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I miss them

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heading for lunch, primary kids

#primschool #ivan (didn’t really appear) I had my lunch break at primary school. I was carrying school bag. I was going to meet up with Ivan and eat with him.

On the way down I saw my prim school classmate. (I forgot what she did, but we chatted) Before leaving school, i saw the kids I looked after, sitting together playing on a bench/ table So I went to play with them for a while (5 mins) (actually felt like a long time but I knew it was just 5 minutes) We were mimicking each other’s sounds and echoing back. It was fun. We had fun.

(This dream ends here) _{(i think it was because i was texting ivan yesterday night and we talked briefly about the past so yeah)}

postgrad revision support, wrong bus, tourist spot w char

#pblmate #charlottec

Postgrad (A smart guy called Jeff from this year’s pbl) teach and revise with me while we were walking on the road. He was holding my ipad to test and jot notes for me. Although I haven’t revised the content (head and neck arterial supply, nerves), I can answer him easily and correctly (now after waking up idk right or wrong but feels accurate)(no i think it’s wrong)

Postgrad’s doggy/ partner was ivan, apparently

And while he’s teaching we went queuing for bus We saw a lady who had one of her feet amputated, maybe she’s the one on the news about a dental surgery failure (entirely dream). And she was walking/ hopping with a stick. I felt sorry for her. And she doesn’t have prosthetic feet too. The amputated surface was bare. No socks.

While waiting for the bus, i wasnt aware the bus entrance is alr mtr entrance (like mong kok east station moko exit) So i was queuing w him to try to learn more when I can/ when he’s here

And we boarded the bus tgt There were two seats tgt empty We planned to sit there After I sat, I looked and saw a domestic helper took his seat so Jeff was standing He say it’s fine

I spotted another two seats tgt, and a woman was hinting at us for the seats too, I thanked the woman with gestures 🙏🏻 But jeff arrived at his station So he said to me (around this meaning i forgot the exact sentence) you’re a dum dum but you’re not stupid, I hope you can get through the exam And left the bus While leaving i tried to tell him “yeah im a bit dum dum this year due to some reasons”

It was me alone on the bus I was admiring the scenery outside. There was ngong ping 360 near hku. Wow. I can see the cable cars. Oh theres ngong ping 360 mtr station. Background was big green mountain. Sky was blue. Sunshine is yellowy. Such a nice day.

And I realised I went on the wrong bus. _{(reminded me of that time I rode shuttle bus to med campus for MHFA. Nice sunset on the way, shining on the mountain and bro the bus skipped my stations and went down to stanley ho swimming pool so I walked all the way up)}

I realised I should leave the bus at one station where there is the ngong ping 360 mtr station. But i went to the door too late and the bus was leaving, so even when I knocked on the door and raised my voice (actually sounded too nice maybe he didn’t hear) to ask the driver to stop, he didn’t stop. Seems some others also wanted to leave but so we stood by the exit door to wait for the next station.

I checked my kmb app to see what this bus leads to fortunately the last two stations (just two remaining) were also close to ngong ping mtr, and bus app showed mtr logo next to terminus station So I stood and waited While i was amused and annoyed because i needed to switch lines for so many times (in the dream it was like 5 times) on the way home.

Arrived at a tourist spot Tourist spot have weird stalls selling weird goods. Gross. They recruited naked models to display their products (e.g. face cream, sanitary pads) And they’re sexualising the products, they’re showing weirdly suggestively shaped sanitary pads that looked like a T shape and they stick it on model’s abdomen and announced to all the men watching, that they know what they mean if they put the T shape a little bit lower (aka make it seems like a dick is penetrating their privates) They told the models to dance together too. I felt gross And the face cream one, the host put a lot of cream onto two models And they became frog headed. Also the cream has the drug function of making people horny. Very eerie.

I left by walking further to see what other booths they had in the mall. General chiikawa stuff. I saw charlotte. I pointed the beautiful sunset to her. Rainbow coloured. Even the sand was rainbow coloured. There was a photoshoot booth / decoration (a little bit like 鳥居) on the beach. We went to take pictures together. I rode on Charlotte’s back / she carried me on her back and we dashed around on the beach. It was fun. There was a boy with us while we were taking pics too. In the dream it was charlotte’s boyfriend. I didn’t talk at all to the boy Anyways the pictures were all three people. At first I tried to use my phone because it has live photo function, but the phone auto edit it to be very dark. Later the boy lended his camera to a passerby and the passerby took pics of us three.

Later we went to the chiikawa store (actually a restaurant), and they were nearly closing. The chef gave us a bowl of rice pudding and sauce (the sweet one used on eel sushi and eel rice). Seems like we need to mix them. Idk cuz they’re in full Japanese. Charlotte almost ate one when they stopped her. They just wanted us to try mixing for fun, not eating. The food seems to be used for serving gods. The Japanese chef was explaining to Charlotte about it, but she couldn’t understand. I remembered this mochi snack very very long time ago in HK, where you mix the cubes with coconut powder/ sugar. So I was “mochi!” And the japanese was like “hai! Mochi!” And I was gesturing rolling the cube to charlotte. Hopefully both sides understand what I was trying to say. (I did say some cantonese but mostly the Mochi and gesturing to keep the chef on the same page)

So she got it and we had fun together

Dream ended.

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reading books at bookstore

#mum

I was at the bookstore wanting to find story books to read The bookstore feels Chiwah but premium version with collab with eslite bookstore. There was a starbucks and several cafes nearby but I didn’t bother with it. I was here for the books. I found this pile of books with a similar illustrator designing the cover – it reminded me of the cover of one of the books I used to have – Pax

So I was browsing through the pile Turned out there was a series number on the side of the book I was searching for the first book in the series because I want to start from the first one obviously But I can’t find it But instead I found a pre-packaged set of books. From book 1 to book 13. I checked the price. One book was like $140? but all books costs $270 in total So I took the pre-packaged set

I also stood by the shelf to read a book in another pile. It’s more of a mental health related book. I think it’s about PTSD. And in the content page seems the writer illustrated different symptoms of ptsd by sharing various people’s stories about it. I forgot the actual content. I just remembered in the dream I was very engrossed in the book.

I remember during reading, Mum walked by and was searching for good books too. But somehow in the dream she walked up to me and scolded me, and then walked away. I forgot what she scolded me for. Ah! She wanted to buy one of the books in the $140 pile. But she couldn’t find the one she wanted. So she was irritated. And somehow she released her anger onto me. And I told her I got the whole set, but seems she wouldn’t listen in the heat of things so I didn’t bother to repeat. I just let her scold me while I was reading the PTSD book.

becoming a successful lion

#primschool

Setting was primary school.

Somehow I converted from a herbivore into a lion. And I was the boss of all the lions here at primary school. But since I didn’t have experience in catching prey, I followed what other lions were doing. They were standing by the fence. So I stood there too. There were two wired fences between us and a small grassland (the size of a playground) I recalled in my herbivore days these grass must be very yummy. But now we were waiting for our prey to appear.

After a while, a shepherd brought several sheep with him. We have to wait till the fence had automatically fallen before we could catch them.

The fence fell! Some ran out. Since it was like part of the fence falling instead of the one in front of me, I was slightly late. But I ran and caught with much accuracy. I caught two sheep and began munching on them. Many didn’t catch and there were little sheep and many lions so obviously many lions were still starving. But they would stay and wait for any possible new sheeps coming.

Anyways after eating I’d like to have more so I returned to the grassland. But there weren’t new sheep. And I wasn’t that hungry after eating two so I returned to the lower open playground, where we would have our morning assembly soon.

While I was walking, a little herbivore was chatting with me. She’s asking me if I’ll introduce more workers in the tuck shop because there was none. I apologised and asked her if she got whatever snack or drink she wanted now, she said no because there was no staff. I said I’ll find people and figure it out, because currently most were lions but we need herbivores to deliver these jobs. (Because lions may treat this job as a way to catch and eat herbivores since only herbivores need to use the tuck shop- only herbivores eat snacks. So we can’t recruit lions.)

Anyways I thanked her for telling me and I left. I actually wanted to walk around to look for more prey but most people have lined up, and the host was also almost ready (those hosts were humans. They’re the only humans in the school- not counting shepherd) so I returned to my class queue. I was a bit embarrassed because I turned into a lion. But seems my surrounding classmates didn’t really mind. And for some reason those around me were still herbivores. But in many further away classes they’re all lions.

Dream ended.

(Also the sheep taste like 巴東牛肉 i had yesterday night) (LMAO)

_{(side note: when i was small (before/ during kindergarten), I wasn’t sure if it’s because I kept watching animal world, i sometimes have dreams where I was an animal in the wild. These several dreams were rather vivid so it stuck with me. (0. Had some imagination if I’m some sort of dumb amoeba and algae) 1. I was a mountain goat, and I couldn’t escape from a tiger. It bit me on the thigh and I died 2. I became a tiger but I got killed by lions for some reason 3. I was a lion but alone and old and frail and I got killed by an elephant 4. I am an elephant and I got shot by poachers to get my ivory The dreams always ended when I wss dying. And these dreams appear between months/ years (didn’t reappear) but in this specific order lol Damn and then sometimes I wonder is this why I’m a human now And I sometimes do those random “psychological quizzes” testing what you are in your previous life and I was an animal lol. There were some other options like some identity from space or whatever but nah I’m an animal) I believe it’s just wild imagination but it’s interesting to bring it up}

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competition/ exams; hide again

#primschool

The competition/ exam is splitted into two sections. Part A is swimming; part B are calligraphy/ drawing and fishing. They are all hosted in my primary school covered playground. Participants are my schoolmates from the same form (but many I didn’t know- no such people irl). We all have to bring our own gear and tools: swimming suit, calligraphy brush and fishing rod. However everyone brought them except me.

As I was queuing up during the assembly to listen to the briefing, I asked my friend Chloe Cheung who was in front of me, to lend me her gear when it’s not her turn for the exam. I promised her if she needed the gear she could directly take it back. She agreed.

However our student number was rather close so I was worried if we would get assigned to the same exams at the same time, and I wouldn’t be able to get a set of gear too cuz then she would be using it. And while we were walking up into the covered playground after assembly in the open playground, I remembered I was on my period so I would get her swimming suit dirty. But I would take her swimsuit back home to wash before returning it, but I hope she wouldn’t mind… because it was blood after all

Anyways the teacher, ptam _{(a primary school teacher who taught random subjects- didn’t really teach me the main big subjects so I wasn’t that familiar with her. But according to my many friends who got taught by her, she was a nightmare as she scolded people with prejudice without giving them chance to explain. And she was especially infamously bad towards the girl who chased after me with scissors- people said she’s schizo but imo it’s just ADHD and she’s just goofing around… she got kicked out (because of her). But the teacher also quitted a few years after we graduated)} Ok back to the dream. P Tam blew a whistle and began to run in laps. I could see that she wanted us to follow her to do warm up exercises. But I didn’t want to, because 1 I hate sports 2 warm up means we needed to swim and I don’t have my swimming gear because we’re in the same exam batch so I wanted to delay this for as long as possible And everyone else couldn’t understand what P Tam was doing. And I pretended to not understand too. Ofc I wouldn’t explain to them. And the teacher was fairly bad so I’ll just watch. So we just stood there watching.

P Tam repeatedly this for a few times, only one or two students followed, and they also stopped following after one lap because no one else was doing it. Yet P Tam didn’t explain what she was doing, and she just gave up

So we went to section B of the exam first, which were calligraphy/ drawing and fishing. Section B of the exam was hosted on another place

(eeeek i got distracted again while typing wtfffdhdhdjdhshsh)

We went to main building in main campus, very old. There were also big mosquitoes Anyways we entered a fishery room for the exam

We first played hide and seek for some reason I had to take a blue cube and put and hide it as far from us as we could. And the hunters would trace that cube. And they will try to use the cube as a clue to find us Well eventually we got caught. But we delayed a lot of time for the exam so we were running out of time. After Chloe finished with her calligraphy and drawing, I got her pen and I only have like 5 minutes to draw a pic according to the given sentence, and copy some calligraphy words.

I think the sentence was something about expectations and travelling. (The original sentence was coherent but I forgot). And after thinking for a few seconds I got a eureka moment and I drew a boat on the sea. The examiner asked what I was doing, so I explained my thoughts while trying to draw I then planned to draw two big eyes (big face) behind the sea and the boat (which was in fact, a fishbowl), to represent expectations and anticipation. But unfortunately I drew one of the eye too small (and there was no pencil for me to sketch, I had to directly use the brush with watercolour) so I had to shrink the size of the girl at the back to make the ratio right But I still sort of messed up the girl’s face, and I told the examiner ahh damn I drew it badly. And then I started to fix the girl’s face. The examiner commented, nah it’s getting better, you’re fixing it. To which I answered yes. _{(hmm this observing examiner’s speech reminds me of Arthur and Charlotte C. Because it felt like something he would say. Also I fixed Charlotte’s drawing on my uniform and it felt exactly like that- I was fixing the hair too) something like this}

After finishing the drawing I still have a minute to write calligraphy. I was writing english when I realised it felt off using this chinese soft calligraphy pen, so I grabbed another paper to write chinese. And then the teacher gave me a paper with English script for me to follow, so I grabbed another paper again to write English, but the soft pen was so hard to use and my words became very ugly because the ink on the brush is a bit hard to control and it spreaded (like those holes in the alphabets are also filled with ink)

Haven’t went fishing (I wasn’t even done with the calligraphy too), and the dream shifted to another

math exam, extended time

#T Calculator was quite difficult to press. Because I upgraded it and added a lot of formulas, so I had to cycle through the formulas to find the one I needed, because I don’t know the code/ number for the formula to call it directly

I kept pressing but the answer didn’t make sense in the way I think it feels off and there should be a better answer So I swapped methods for a few times (they are geometry and coordinates questions which were topics I liked). The question I got stuck with was actually just a simple triangle question. The calculator is glitching (because of the formulas I added) and was kind of stupid

Finally I found a big error in my method and I needed to redo the whole thing (Actually was because I was too lazy to plot the triangle properly so I didn’t notice two coords lies on the same x axis, which made the triangle very easy to solve)

(And then I calculated the area, but actually the question was asking about perimeter and I could just use pyth thm, I chose it over sin cos tan cuz I have the other two lines alr)

But I didn’t have enough time, because my brain was jammed and my calculator wasn’t obedient, but still I tried my best to press as fast as I could and write down my steps

And then the exam coordinator announced there would be an extra two minutes for the exam. I noticed the familiar voice and it was Vincci’s _{(lol first time in dream heh also I finally spelled her name correctly oml so sorry)} But I didn’t have time to look up, I was focused on my work. I think I briefly looked and it was actually Vincci but I wasn’t sure

Well I got a few steps more and I was nearer to the final answer but times up I continued writing but no one stopped me. She collected the papers from the other side of the room first, and as she arrived at my side I got the answer too No time to double check and I was pretty sure it was wrong because I pressed the calculator too quickly

_{(The extended time reminded me of two things: 1. A chem test in f5-6; 2. A math exam in p1. Regarding the chem tests, our chem teacher would give everyone two more minutes when she saw a lot of people (i suppose) weren’t finishing the test yet. (Because she’s the only person teaching the form and she made the paper so she could set the rules) which saved me a lot (every time I was running out of time she gave us all extra time, idk if it’s just me or everyone else has no time tbh- because sometimes others had actually finished the paper, and most of the time people didn’t comment how the extra time saved them, so I have never brought it up too) Side note oh my god vincci reminds me of a nicer version of chem teacher- chem teachers were always 傲嬌 for some reason idk; and also my mum’s sister lol they both looked very tired despite seemingly energetic 2. Math teacher in p1. I was pretty good at math in p1- I don’t think I’m the top cuz I don’t have full mark. But for some reason our Math teacher, whom I later heard from others as a pretty mean and fierce woman, really liked me and I think she’s really kind! And in one math exam (yes exam), I haven’t learned the concept of algebra/ in this case using symbols hearts flowers to represent an unknown number. So I was stuck there for a long time without proceeding to the rest of the paper, and I ran out of time. And the math teacher gave everyone an extra 5 minutes, but directed to me. (Everyone’s finished with their papers and only I was working). I was very grateful but I still couldn’t solve it. Anyways the teacher was really kind heheheeh I wasn’t sure how I did for that exam, I think I actually got like 55 or what, but it’s the only time my mum didn’t really scold me that hard because she knew she hadn’t taught me algebra- she was actually being reasonable back then- before I got third in class in primary 3- that’s when she “discovered my potential” and started being very pushy)}

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work w friends; breakfast! with ruth n many others

#secschool #chinok #pblmate #onlinefrd #ruth #arthur #T #6grass #ivan #primschool (lmao so many tags) Ok so Work with Mancy until sunrise at place like chiwah. Mancy was working on EY registering exchange stuff. Saw sunrise outside window. Later I left.

Went to place like lab block in sassoon, to have MHFA lesson by Vincci (lol first time thinking and seeing her in dream heh) After lesson I think I went back near med lib. I think my PBL group was gathering for something (related to studying). After that, near 6pm I grabbed ChiNok to go tgt back near lab block. He didn’t really know what I was up to, I think I gave a random reason and he didn’t pushed me away when I legit grabbed and pull him along with me. I was waiting near lab block exit in order to see if I can see Arthur (and others) leaving after work. I don’t know if I saw him or not, I actually forgot how the dream went. Because Ruth walked by and chatted with me. (I think I abandoned ChiNok starting from here, but I was pretty sure there’s another person next to me. Oh maybe Yuki??) _{(new person unlocked in dream- if you’re reading go ask Vincci who that is; basically online friend whom we knew each other since 2020 but met physically for the first time during MHFA lmfao)}

And then Ruth stood in front of me and asked me how we’re doing, while looking at me. I think I answered something like ok, because my friend was next to me and I can’t talk too deep

And then Ruth was very chill And she asked how was MHFA and began to test me on some easy concepts of the lesson (but was actually med stuff..,..,..,.) I got the first two wrong, but I guessed the third one right, but not exactly 100% correct. I was chuckling with my friend. Well but Ruth said my answer was right, and she encouraged me.

Later I think my friend left for some other thing so it was just me and Ruth now !!

Ruth still looked very chill. She asked me how do I feel about the news yesterday night. I was a bit confused and asked her what news. She said there was a med student who jumped off in the washing machine room in the residential hall. And we began to walk back to the breakfast hall probably at main campus (it wasn’t that far in dream) to have breakfast. It felt like some sort of study tour where the breakfast buffet is planned and we’re going to have it.

Back to the conversation, I said oh I didn’t know. And I thought to myself I’d rather choose my own room which had my own washing machine (it made sense in the dream) as the place to jump instead or else people would find me too early and it’s useless And then Ruth seemed to read my mind and she said maybe her/ your _{(I forgot what pronoun she used)} own room is better, right? I said yeah…

We walked by chiwah again but the sky was early morning, not bright yet, but nothing special I think we were chatting about another topic but I forgot just now :(( (probably some actual “how’s life” type of stuff…? And it was bidirectional and she also answered, not just me)

And we arrived at the dining hall. The first table was fruits, I dislike fruits so I swiftly walked away to the other table, but Ruth seemed she didn’t know because I was near her the whole time and I left too quickly I saw she wanted to use the tongs to get some chopped fruits for me but she subtly looked around and I wasn’t there, so she gave it to others. I felt a bit sorry but I decided no fruits over staying with Ruth lmao

The other tables were full of food I wanted to eat. Gigantic sushi, sashimi and oysters.!! I looked through what dishes they had provided and I got my tray. I think I accidentally knocked over a ramen spoon (those big ones) onto the ground. I didn’t plan to pick it up because it was dirty and idk where to put it. Also I had some food targets in mind esp a fish sushi which has one remaining. Someone next to me picked it up and put it to the return tray. I looked and it was my primary school friend Nickole. I thanked her but my voice was too too low, like whispering. So I thanked her again, this time slightly louder but still whispering and in a singing tone. I was pretty sure she couldn’t hear it, but I heard her whispering/ humming something like no problem I was walking back to the food tables and someone said hi to me. It was Winnie, one of my “6 grass” squad members. We said hi because it’s been such a long time seeing each other. I asked if I can sit with them for breakfast and she said ofc! Just at this time, the other members of my friend group came. Candice pointed out there’s “the person” walking towards us. It was Maisie, also a sec school friend (who was depressed) (but 6 grass don’t know her) We briefly said hi And then around the corner there was Ivan choosing food. And a few steps behind him, Ruth was watching (us). I noticed Ruth but ignored her. I said Hii to Ivan, and my tone became very close to Ivan, I asked him what he’s choosing what he’s gonna eat, and told him I’m gonna have that sushi and oyster because it just so happened last night before sleep I saw instagram reels about these exact same food and I wanted to eat, and such a coincidence! There’s the same thing here. _{(now the fun thing is the above sentences are true. I did watch red book reels before sleep and saw and wanted to eat these, they’re actually the same)}

Anyways yeah dream ended here before I actually got any food. Lmfao I abandoned my Ruth lol ahwhaoNqjsajdbkaa

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deep sharing

At a random study room People were writing down what they were aiming for in life/ purpose in life on memo slips

A lot of people wrote the same thing (i forgot what but it sounds good, I think it’s something like enjoy life) but that’s not what I was thinking of because I haven’t sort out what I should do honestly So I wrote something along the lines of discovering new stuff/ fun stuff/ passion/ life/ every day (?? I forgot

gaming and hotpot

#cecilia #primschool I was playing splatoon 2/ 3? in a team with my nintendo switch at the tournament Our team was competing with another team There were spectators

And the opposite team were bots So basically this match was humans vs bots And we lost

The spectators on the bot side were cheering Those on our side just sat there with a bored annoyed face I felt embarrassed because the bots were supposed to be dumb

But because I haven’t played for so long I spent a lot of time learning the controls and I forgot how stuff worked, so I kept getting destroyed by the other team

After that Cecilia (primary school bff) led some primary/ secondary school classmates came to our table with lots of ingredients to make hotpot

And they cooked and shared the hotpot with us happily, because we worked in the tournament

woman singing

#mum Later I was watching a show between two big beefy black basketball player on TV. They were chit chatting with the judge on the basketball ground before starting the competition.

The right dude went inside the changing room and came out. They were putting on a show. The “black guy” started singing cantonese songs. I was very surprised. I looked at him and said to my mum, next to me, hey this was funny I didn’t expect that, and he was pretty good at cosplaying as a woman

And my mum said, she’s a woman the whole time

So I was a bit shocked

_{(thoughts: reminded me of that one time I shared a 小紅書 video to my mum about makeup, and my mum instantly pointed out the “woman” was a man. I denied and said she has to be a woman because she looked like one. She said no, women doesn’t sound like that. We scrolled through the page, she didn’t declare her gender but didn’t feel straight. So I looked again and realised she’s transgendered. And I felt a bit dumb for not realising that. I kept assuming the wrong gender for other people too}

supplementary revision

#secschool #PBLmate #uni On my way from cym/ meng wah complex Someone called me and so I stopped Her face was identical to a secondary school schoolmate but we haven’t been in the same class before. Her name was Melissa (but in the dream I mixed up with Vanessa, and I do have a supplementary friend who called Vanessa) She was asking me about a med question she was confused about So I explained to her in detail (It made perfect sense in dream but I knew irl it was made up) She was very thankful Turns out she’s taking supplementary too She asked me again what my EY choices are, she forgot the sem 2 exchange one So I told her again (i didnt feel like I have met her before in the dream though) And she reassured me. So I encouraged her too. I ask her where she’s going rn She said to the library So we walked there together to revise together Dream ended. (Edit: I think I also say something about me going for therapy, and Vanessa also asked who else was having therapy. And I didn’t tell her about Ivan)

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There are multiple dreams

alienated at school

#secschool #primschool #charlottec I was walking on the street during a return trip in seconary school study tour i was walking (alone) with the queue from other class They were all revising for dictation, holding textbooks to memorise I wasn’t holding the book like them They laughed at me, said some mean sentences and kind of wanted to push me out of the way (It seemed it was because they’re jealous I wasn’t holding a book to revise, so maybe I didn’t have dictation, but they probably didn’t know I have dictation too and already revised)

Somehow (idk if it was the same dream), I was on a shuttle bus, I saw charlotte diagonally behind me. The seat i chose, there was a black guy from the seat behind me and extend his legs onto my seat (there are no 靠背 for my seat so he can put his legs) I tried to move his legs or passive aggressively use my bag to kind of move but he didn’t move

Anyways I sat in the small half without his legs and turned around to talk to charlotte

I turned back to front and later turned back again wanting to talk to her, ans realised she changed seats and sat further away

Anyways I got off the bus later and got to school. (The class was secondary school students but the school was primary school) Me and the bad class went for the morning assembly And when it finished, I immediately ran to the further staircase (there were three staircases at school) and hid there

I met with some kids I looked after in primary when I was a school prefect We chatted And they led me to their classrooms where I took a sneak peek at their current classes. I felt happy for them

And I was still watching for any mean classmates who were seeking for me

I was kinda worried

But eventually I had to get back to the crowd So I went back to the staircase they were using

I was surprised to see they all were dressed weirdly- their bodies became obese but jelly/ crystal like, and they didn’t fully pull up their panties I can see some cabbages in their anus I was confused and asked them They told me they were punished

only one in MHFA

So I was at uni campus, after lecture Ivan was walking and I saw A wanting to have lunch with Ivan, I was jealous and slightly angry, so I waved happily at them to say hi Because I told Ivan and he knew A was rather bad

Anyways they chatted for a bit and separated paths

So the three of us went separate ways because Ivan didn’t come up to me either

Later I received a whatsapp notification from someone in the volunteer helped team, she added me to a MHFA group I looked inside to see what people were inside Seems except me, the others were helpers/ mentors And later people from our group got added to another big group Turned out they combined two MHFA group because there were too little people (the other group only has 3 participants and some mentors)

I felt slightly embarrassed because I didn’t want to be in the spotlight

Arthur’s old ig acc

#ivan #arthur I was walking around and saw a shop and their title is ポケノモン I was weirded out because it was pokenomon So I searched on ig (In the middle of searching I got a notif I got followed by an acc with huge following and only followed 8 people, and posted only scenery pic of their house) And ig search suggestions gave me an acc of a labrador (i assumed it was not golden retriever in the dream somehow) The dog’s name was Latx Profile pic was Arthur and Latx The ig profile was made in memory of Latx, apparently it died and it was a dog he had well before Amber

I read the ig bio and searched for words I didn’t understand Turned out he had a condition where he couldn’t sleep for more than half of sleeping hours (not ‘insomnia’) And he followed a bunch of pride accs

Lol And then I sent it to ivan Ivan replied, his voice oml I can’t stand hearing him say “🥺哥哥～❤️” I can’t unhear it and ses him the same way again

I was like ??????? And turned out he watched one of the reels in his acc and he was saying 哥哥 to the dog when they were playing (Maybe the dog has siblings idk)

I wanted to dm ivan saying nah ‘one time he imitated my cute tone in a sentence and it was super cute’, but I decided not to I was intrigued and wanted to press inside the acc again to listen to it too, but the dream ended.

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Lemme jot some key points

dumb worksheet

Joseph (scary eng tutor) found a rough work worksheet on which i wrote dumb shit like those junior secondary dumb jokes

I tried very hard not to laugh every time i look at the ws but i cant, and i would laugh so loudly

Idk how joseph thinks, he just look at me laugh

I was scared while laughing too Because this tutor was famous for scolding people harshly (… but except me… I’m the teacher’s pet)

changing groups

#primschool I was grouped with some people idk, which was fine But later i went to the library in primary school, i found my classmates, turned out they thought i was absent so they automatically added me to their group. Now idk whether to abandon the old group which was already short on people, or turn down my nice friends in order to keep my “promise” with the old group

Ivan’s bbq part time job

#ivan Ivan took a part time job to work as the guy who helps cook barbecue stuff on a double deck bus. The top deck was cooking realllly nice meat (beef pork etc) (very thick and juicy and looks super good) Everyone was looking at him cooking

The lower deck were some cute plush dolls, he was also heating them

Later after the meat were distributed/ sold?, he took a big sac he said he collected from second hand stores one by one. He put all the stuff from the sac onto the two decks. They were all cute plush dolls. They’re all abandoned by their owners but all in perfect condition, and the designs were pretty. He begin to cook them on the grill.

I wanted to get some of the dolls after he finished grilling them. He laughed and say he don’t mind. (The dolls were supposed to be distributed to strangers on the street like charity work, not for me)

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Hashtags to sort the dreams (and for me to remember what tags I have used)

• Family #mum #dad #relative

• mmmmm #T _{(<— tag for other Ts)}: #ruth #arthur #roy (driving coach); #cora #teacher –> #jau (f2 classmistress); #blythe (f2 science/ physics teacher) _{<— younger me used to ship them, bruh, but blythe is happily married} –> #cch (f3-4 classmistress); #mwong (f3-4 fmath teacher) _{<— two good friends}

• Good friends #ivan #charlottec

• Friends #onlinefrd #primschool :#cecilia #caitlyn #secschool –> #6grass (squad): #charlotteh #jamie –> F5-6: #sally #uni #pblmate –> Y1: #aiden (970) #adrian (3 day boy) –> Y2: #chinok (rhythm game boy) #joseph (nice voice boy) –> roommate: #claudia

• others #A #jy

_{Actually had a lot of dreams the past few days but I wanna focus on my exams so I skipped recording them, I now forgot all of them lol}

_{This one is also a pretty brief log and I have left out quite a lot of details because I don't want to divert too much mental effort into recalling the dream. The actual dream was quite long as usual.}

secondary school simui

#secschool #primschool Went to school as a freshly graduated secondary school student. Rode the bus to school. Actually didn't know what is the number of the bus but I just hopped on cuz everyone was doing so.

Got on the bus, there was a digital sign like irl buses, so I know the destination and the number. Terminal station would be Western harbour tunnel

And during the trip the sign also kept reminding everyone there will be a violent homeless getting on the bus soon so it was not advised for us to stay on the bus any longer. But every passenger on the bus didn't give a shit about that including me. Maybe partly because this line is the only bus reaching western harbour tunnel. And we can't really get off anyways because we were on the highway the whole time.

Somehow the bus first drive past Ocean Park and those South Island line locations before making the turn back to western side of Hong Kong Island. During the trip, I was half hoping I can see Arthur whenever we reached a station. _{(Because yesterday noon I had lunch with Ivan and we were gossiping, and Ivan was guessing you live around that area lmao)}

One kid wearing the school uniform from my school + her mom boarded the bus during one of the bus stops at an estate

The mum began to chit chat with me after recognising my appearance (idk what she find but she just “recognised” I am some sort of famous alumni I guess). She was asking me for tips to get into Element (aka a pretty prestigious chemistry tutorial centre)

When I am about to answer, a classmate ^[1] began to chat with me and dragged me away, I couldn't really refuse or tell her to pause for a sec and wait for me to answer the parent first, because the classmate was kind of talking about her childhood trauma all of a sudden and I need to listen to her troubles first

[1] _{rarely talked irl, I just remembered in primary she was being isolated because she was chubby, and I was the only person lending a mechanical pencil for her, she needed one and needed to borrow for 10 mins and she would be back. And then after she left, my surrounding classmates were making a big fuss about it because I lent it, so I pretended and fake-explained I didn't like her as well, but deep down I thought she just needed a pencil so I just gave and I didn't dislike her at all and I don't understand why people dislike her because of her appearance. But I felt guilty still because I was untruthful to the chubby classmate and faked I didn't like her; and when she returned and thanked me for lending my pen I look completely normal, so she would think I am okay with her (which I do)(but I acted in front of others I didn't)(I feel I was fake as fuck, such a shitty person)}

And then we arrived at school and got off the bus. It was recess time. This secondary school's appearance was a mix of my irl secondary + primary school. The people inside were pretty childish, I thought they looked like primary kids.

The kid found me and so I started explaining study tips and stuff. The kid was just secondary 1, pretty young.

I was talking too much and they had an assembly. I needed to pretend to be part of the teachers standing by, instead of queueing in my class because I was too late, and somehow in the dream I thought pretending to be an adult is easier than to walk through all the classes standing still to return to my own line, that one was too cringe and I would be easily discovered by discipline teacher

I was also wearing school uniform, so even if I stood still like a teacher, other teachers also noticed lmfao, but they didn't point me out

After the assembly, I saw many parents entering the campus. I guess it was probably after school hours when parents arrived to fetch their kids back home

I was searching for the parent and the kid which I owed an answer for, as we got lost after getting off the bus.

I walked around the playground and also came across another friend (the bi one who confessed to me back in f2) and her mom

Finally the mom and kid found me and called me, so I went and explained how to get into Element in detail + other stuff her kid should do to prepare esp when she was just form 1, and then I motivated them

_{yeah dream ended It felt like back then when I just got into hkumed along with my friend M, and we made a google drive to share our notes and experiences with different tutorial centres with simuis (師妹s). :)}

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