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2021/5/21 is a first part of a first draft of something Let's see… There is just one thing that you need to know. Whatever place in heaven or hell that you may find yourself this one thing will keep you free, able to move to where you would go, to change your experience. This is the action of free will, how it operates on a fundamental level. Without conscious understanding of this action it may be called into question whether one has free will or not, for having it and not using it nor knowing how amounts to not having it. The difference is one who does not know can learn. Personally I don't give this thing a name because any name can have other meanings attached to it. A named concept can become distorted by being stuck onto new or different things or be put into a context that doesn't fit. Names also let you argue semantics. We exist insomuch as we experience anything at all. Within that experiencing, for the most part, we have a contrast between self and other, a viewpoint and perspective of separation. Experiences without that separation don't often fit into a narrative and are difficult to attach memories to so they seem ephemeral or incomprehensible from the narrative viewpoint. In my current narrative I experience myself able to think about my thinking. I can think and I can notice thoughts and ideas. Often when I am thinking I do not see the idea or thought as separate from myself. I become the action of thinking that thought and notice only things that result from it or are separate from the identity of me within the perspective of me inside that thought. While I am within the identity perspective of acting as that thought I am limited by it's constraints. In order to change that experience and have different limitations I must change or abandon the thought. Just as when wearing glasses one is not constantly aware of their presence but is always looking through them and therefore seeing everything from the perspective of vision through the glasses, one will be experiencing their experiences through many layers of identity, thoughts, beliefs that color their experience but are not always apparent. These filters can be changed but you can't act on them directly. You can't act much at all. Your thoughts and filters may act like complex programs that carry out activities and act upon your experience but you don't have a steering wheel in this process. You don't actually have control on a large scale level. You only have one way to control anything and that is more basic and it is binary. On or off. That is your power. You can either attend to an experience or attend to something else, be it a thought, feeling, external, or internal situation. *Nothing is also something else


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2021/5/20 Usefulness needs context. Things with many functions may be attractive but will those functions be put to use? Is a good list of things to consider applicable to what you are currently doing? Do you imagine some information you come across will be useful to someone else or is it useful to you? If it doesn't help you take action, it is a distraction. It's true you need goals in order to be distracted from them. You can wander down side streets on an exploratory walk, it's only being sidetracked if you have a destination that you are moving toward.


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2021/5/19 #poetry Rather than go out and buy something new, I use what I've got, I try to make do. Most of the time I've got all that I need. Most of the time I've got way more, indeed. Almost all of the time I could do, with a bit less, letting go of a few. I can pare down. I can and I will. I promise myself to go in for the kill. Get rid of a couch, eschew a new toy, I'll take what I have and I'll learn to enjoy. I've got the big skill way down to the letter, keep new things away, don't spend and regretter. I must become better at throwing away. Some things I can't give, and they tend to stay. One day where I live will be clutter free. The feeling of space will bring joy to me.


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2021/5/18 #poetry I'm so good at what I do. I'm so proud of coming through. I've got skills I like to share. I'm happy to bring my talent to bear. I want to show the things I feel. I've got to write to make it real. I'll take my time to make it good. I'll be deliberate like I should. I'll put the required effort in. I'll make a mark. I'll leave a pin. I'll really quite sincerely try to finish up before I die.


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2021/5/17 #poetry Hyperfocus Hyperfixation Hyperrelaxed As if time doesn't exist Days and days go by I could spend a whole life wandering Nowhere in particular Many do but this is wandering at speed Running around On the playground Going up and down Exhaustion can't catch me But I can find myself roaring down a new track And not even remember where I'd been Lost in an endless tunnel of interest


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2021/5/16 #poetry Take a break A break to think What about? There are many thoughts that have been waiting to be thought more thoroughly. Pick one. Stick with it. How do you know if the thought is the same thought that has transformed as you thought it or a different thought? Sometimes that is obvious, when it isn't compare the thought as it was before to the thought now and notice. How do you know when it is thoroughly and completely thought? It seems time to take action. The line between thought and action is strange. Sometimes thoughts are action instructions, sometimes thoughts are contemplative. Sometimes they bleed together or flow back and forth. Adjusting thinking intentionally while in action is not usually practical. Being aware that you are thinking changes the direction or speed of the thinking. Thinking about the thinking takes more time than is available in many activities that require decisions. After action analysis is the way to adjust thinking patterns for future action.


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2021/5/15 #poetry To the beach, to the beach Today I will go to the beach There is no sun But I'll have fun I'll take my bike I'll ride there fast I'll walk and hike the sand at last I really like The ocean sound The waves that build As the Earth spins 'round If I could live there I suppose I'd stand by the water dip my toes much more often than I do today even though the beach is not that far away


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2021/5/14 I read today about computers being better at games than people. That pretty much all games have been conquered by AI. singularityhub.com/2019/02/10/what-games-are-humans-still-better-at-than-ai/ newatlas.com/ai-2017-beating-humans-games/52741/ This is false. There are games that AI can not yet play. – Narrative or story games – Games with no wining state such as exploratory games – The Transformation Game – Ouija – Tag, Rabbit on a Hill/Statues, or other physical game that a robot hasn't been specially designed and built for – Most games that haven't had anyone program or train an AI specifically for Some of these require a subjective experience for it to be a “game” at all. A story or explorable landscape can be scraped by a computer but what would that accomplish? AI or a simple program can create explorable landscapes, interesting art or story, and can be used as a tool to make complex and interesting things or to “collaborate” with on making things. Interactive Fiction and its many genres have a great wealth of options for both solo and multi-party play that AI would be practically useless for. Experience over winning/result may be the lesson of the century.


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2021/5/13 Not the most successful interview, but I got what I wanted. Some practice, some feedback, and to not have to work in a stuffy 'only our brand of nonsense' environment. And oh my goodness, how delightful it is to give a massage. How I was able to just let that go for a year I have no idea.

I think that life can be all fun all the time. Like a shelter, it takes work to set up and then it's just there. A little maintenance now and then. Just a little. I can feel it. Not too far out of reach at all. All fun. When the goal is juicy the work is sweet.


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2021/5/12 #poetry Took too long Day went by Wish I had More time to try Get things done Read for fun Walk in the sun Do what I need To feel like I've won

It's so hard to stay on task No responsibilities Schedule relaxed I'd like to stack Accomplishments high From the outside it looks Like I don't even try

One simple habit At least I fulfill It can be hard But it gives me a thrill

One day soon I'll change my tune Feel really nice And dance under the moon


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