fantasyisbad

There are certain things that might feel good to do. It might even be something that you are doing to make the world a better place, etc. But if those things make it difficult to better yourself, What would you do?

Antiporn

I like the idea of being against pornography. I believe it is an important fight. I truly believe it is bad for everyone involved expect maybe the producers. So do I believe in feminism too.

But the truth is that I can't do it. I am recovering and I need to stop reading more anti porn resources, books, posts etc.

I can't read Gail Dines book, etc. It is possible but why suffer that much now. I can come and read once I have recovered. I don't need to convince myself. I know it is bad for me. I thought caring for the society will make me feel good. It does but it is temporary. Even if you successfully feel good and don't watch porn it is possible you are using it just a moralistic, something that others can't but you can thing.

But I believe I am better than that. So, I will come again to r/antipornography, r/pornismisogyny, etc when I have recovered.

Female oriented subs

FDS, twox, etc. The overly female oriented subs are bad for my self too. It is just good for women. Not men. So, I should make it impossible to go there too. I don't need to know the tips or tricks men do or women do. Because if I ever needed to, I will come and look for it somewhere or read a book.

It is either I can't compete because some men are so amazing. Or I think I am great because some are so bad. And I feel very good about it. Both are problematic.