I have to change my mind about the data
I have not actually been very concerned with my use for quite some time now. Yes, I do see it from time to time. But I don't try to remember the numbers. I have not even calculated the total last year. Only months were done.
Because I used my own loophole. I only cared about how many real videos I watched. I just dismissed the other types.
But to recover, I can't do this. I need to face the reality that I still have a big problem.
It is not ideal. I have to force myself to see everything as a porn relapse. I have been unconsciously not doing it.
But I think this is something that should happen. Otherwise I will always be not in track with reality. Just having data alone is not enough, the interpretation and emphasis is also important.