fantasyisbad

I feel okay. I think I really need to go visit a psychiatrist or psychologist. All this non sense that I can do it on my own is not helping me very much. I won't say, I am not improving. But I don't think I am improving much really. It will take very long to make meaningful changes.

Going on the bad path was so easy. You don't even need to do anything.

I think the quote that if you are not improving or becoming better you are becoming worse is true. There is no stagnation. It is just very slow deterioration.

I need others help to go back to the better path/ flow. But I am too fucking stubborn to ask for help. I am writing here.