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My reason for learning more about porn was always around how to make myself stop watching it. I didn’t feel anything about the woman in the video. For that matter I didn’t think about the man in the video either.

I have never even heard that people in those videos don’t like being there.

I guess this is the price for being introduced very young I suppose.

Anyways I can’t really say it was just porn though.

I was very shy, introverted and egoistic and angry too.

It was like the perfect thing for me to get hooked.

It is also my fault too

Revenge Porn

I believe, only in 2020 I learnt about revenge porn.

I learnt that, these so called amateur pornography that so many people love mostly contained this.

Of course I can’t say I didn’t feel superior. I could only watch high quality studio made ones. It is both my tech craziness and superficial porn addiction encouraging extremeness and variety.

I will come to studio porn later.

Sex Trafficking in Prostitution

I had heard about Sex Trafficking in Prostitution.

It made a lot of sense. I mean why would anyone in those Nordic countries be so open to being a Prostitute.

I mean it is not really a job where you can advance or retire. There is no stability or royalty. I don’t like the term sex worker. I also don’t like Prostitute.

The sex worker makes it seem like it is just something normal and that everyone should just accept it.

The Prostitute makes it seem like it is somehow their fault. I mean I read about this in r/fourthwavewomen or Andrea Dworkin. Not sure where. Maybe r/FDS?

Sex Trafficking in Porn

But I had never heard of Sex Trafficking in Pornography.

I mean it makes sense retroactively, I suppose.

But still it never made sense. Even now it doesn’t feel real.

But just because it doesn’t feel real doesn’t mean it doesn’t happen though.

Education is not even good

I learnt that anal is something that most women don’t really like. And for some it is really painful it seems.

So, what I have learnt from porn is not true too it seems.

I mean it should have made sense I suppose. How would watching something be as good as the real thing. How could you become a good sex partner just by watching porn.

But now I am convinced that watching porn makes you a worse partner than someone who doesn’t watch it.

Extremeness and variety is natural consequence

I remember being unable to watch anal a few years back. But after that anal became normal to watch.

I also remember when they promoted a pornstar’s first anal.

I remember the first time I watched hard core videos as a child/ Teen. I really disliked it. I searched about it. Then in internet people told to search about soft porn.

That is how I started.

Normalization of violence

Many people say that their first time watching porn video was so disgusting that they didn’t even continue.

I don't understand. I think it was that way too I guess. But I just didn’t feel that much to not never watch I guess.

Maybe I thought it was what growing up and masturbating meant. I don’t know.

Real Emotions

Some people say that they can see the emotions of the women in the videos, etc. I don’t know if I really can’t see such emotions. Maybe my I just treat them as non real people when I participated in it.

I feel bad not being able to see these subtle things.

Submissive nature

After learning about Male Gaze, Patriarchy, How porn influences things.

I could easily see bad things. Like how in most videos the male gets a blowjob. But the female’s doesn’t get the same treatment.

Even the blowjob is not innocent.

There is the obvious Submissive posture. Where the woman is squatting but the man sits or stands. There is obvious power dynamics too.

The forceful pushing of the women’s head.

The act of using the women’s mouth like a fleshlight.

Of course sometimes it happens to men too I guess. But the former is much more likely though.

CP was in PornHub

I didn’t know about it. But apparently many videos were removed from Pornhub, etc since they could be from children, etc.

But the disgusting thing was men in reddit complaining about the news saying that amazing videos were taken. Sure they could be talking about some other video. But still how is that okay?

#nsfw