Daily writing practice
2022/2/4 #poetry I should be getting to sleep now but I've one last thing to do I really want to finish it before my day is through. There won't be any consequence if I leave it undone but I'll have lost my confidence and that is never fun. I'm really only doing it for myself alone but even so I value that my streak will not be blown. Even though it's gotten late I'll take the time I need, it never seems to be as good when done at super speed.
2022/2/2 #poetry The bench is a great vantage point. It is situated right in a perfect location for being used and therefore a high traffic area and therefore the perfect place to observe those that make up that traffic. When you use it you are considered to be doing exactly what is expected, should you stop and observe from the middle of the traffic flow you would be doing the unexpected and be too conspicuous. The bench doesn't make you invisible but it subdues your presence. You are lower, you are still, you are not ready for action. Hardly a threat. I sit on top of the backrest and make myself conspicuous. I'm the same height, and I'm doing something unexpected. When I look at someone, they notice. I could be a threat. I could be interesting too. Sunglasses are a trick. They actually do render an important part of you invisible. I don't like to be invisible but I understand why so many people do.
2022/2/1 #poetry It didn't go according to plan today. I was really expecting to have things be different. That things would work out and I'd get everything done. That I wouldn't have to worry about all the pieces that were out of my control because I'd done what I could. That I'd make it just in time. That I could reach people to let them know plans had changed. Things really didn't work out today. I'm sorry I wasn't able to keep everything together. I'm sorry I didn't have more control. I'm sorry I overextended myself. I'm sorry I didn't double check before I got going. Things were really nice today. I got to enjoy the time I had and let go of what was out of my control. I got to be outside. I got to relate to people around me. I got to have my needs met. Today was just the way it was and I was able to accept it. Take it as it came.
2022/1/31 #poetry Waiting, very clearly with nothing to do, I notice something obvious that I wouldn't have noticed otherwise. Those moments when, freed from necessity of action, nay, forced to pause, are a space that was itself waiting for its opportunity to grant you new insights and observations. You can practice breaking away from purposeful activities. It is unquestionably of extreme value. No amount of practice can bring you the skill of getting to that space that is visited when waiting, without distracting, that clears away the deepest feeling of need for purpose. A purpose is being fulfilled, but it requires nothing of you but presence, and one purpose is enough, so you can otherwise be free. The mind then isn't clear just from lack of need for action. It will take up where it left off on everything that it hasn't had time to deal with. If there's nothing more to deal with or if this seems an inappropriate space to deal with anything then the clarity comes up. A nowness. Senses open. Time halts, nearly, minutes stretching on, breaths clearly marching you forward but each one a whole life. Lives upon lives of plentitude.
2022/1/30 #poetry Today is pretty exciting, I know that I can't do everything that I think I might want to do but I want to do so many things that surely I'll do some of them. Today is pretty exciting, since I'm free to have my schedule anywhichway I want I'm certainly going to enjoy the flow of taking things as they come. Today is pretty exciting, I've got energy and ease, I've got focus and interest, I've got chores I can very well put off and for good reason. Today is pretty exciting, the weather is fine and the city is slow, I have no one to meet and nowhere to go. Today is pretty exciting!
2022/1/29 #poetry You could find out so very easily. You could use the incredibly numerous resources at your disposal through the internet. You could find them with a search or even ask. But instead you would rather confirm your current beliefs or reinforce new beliefs that suit your whims. I'm not saying that it is easy to figure out what is accurate. Nor that it doesn't take work. Just that you could compare information, sources, and arguments that favor opposing opinions and see which ones are emotionally driven and which ones are based on solid logic. That wouldn't make it impossible for you to be fooled, but it would make it a lot harder. Attempting to avoid being fooled by agreeing with anything that threatens that you will be fooled by others should you ignore it is not such a great tactic. Attempting to reconcile conflicting information rather than taking any dictum as wrote will go a long way toward actually preventing deception.
2022/1/28 #poetry Simple foods are nice to prepare. Easy, quick, and fun. All I do is pull it out, maybe heat it up, and I'm done. Then I get to eat it. Now I can go slow. To savor each mastication, and the flavors they bestow. I do have time to cook, I could make more complex things, But I just don't have the interest, despite the satisfaction it brings. Perhaps if you'd like to join me, to either make or consume a meal I'd find it more enticing and find culinary zeal.
2022/1/27 #poetry I saw the cactus in the morning. Covered in dew, looking like an overengineered dessert. The early light giving it a soft glow. The illumination weaving through the drops. The gentle mantle of light giving it a false appearance of delicate softness. A shining white vale around a crisp green column. The tiny spines all dressed up in white fullness, fattened with moisture. Wispy white needles obscured, blurred together to seem like a fuzzy fur. I delighted in the moment. I demanded that I would not let it pass unnoticed. That I should savor it completely. Declaring to myself that this simple experience of wonder was not one I could easily reproduce or find elsewhere on a whim. That this time was worth it. That I should focus on nothing else. That I must enjoy.
2022/1/26 #poetry I agree with you. I think you know what you mean. I think you say it well. I think that you have perfect ideas which are logically consistent with themselves and each other. I think that you are able to construct meaning within the worldview that you have chosen to adopt. I think that you are able to adapt your thinking to include new information and are able to create a coherent total picture that does not rely on patching holes as they crop up with inconsistent reactive rationalization. I think that you are interested in being accurate.