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Usefulness needs context. Things with many functions may be attractive but will those functions be put to use? Is a good list of things to consider applicable to what you are currently doing? Do you imagine some information you come across will be useful to someone else or is it useful to you?
If it doesn't help you take action, it is a distraction. It's true you need goals in order to be distracted from them. You can wander down side streets on an exploratory walk, it's only being sidetracked if you have a destination that you are moving toward.
view2021/5/19 #poetry
Rather than go out and buy something new, I use what I've got, I try to make do.
Most of the time I've got all that I need. Most of the time I've got way more, indeed.
Almost all of the time I could do, with a bit less, letting go of a few.
I can pare down. I can and I will. I promise myself to go in for the kill.
Get rid of a couch, eschew a new toy, I'll take what I have and I'll learn to enjoy.
I've got the big skill way down to the letter, keep new things away, don't spend and regretter.
I must become better at throwing away. Some things I can't give, and they tend to stay.
One day where I live will be clutter free. The feeling of space will bring joy to me.
view2021/5/18 #poetry
I'm so good at what I do.
I'm so proud of coming through.
I've got skills I like to share.
I'm happy to bring my talent to bear.
I want to show the things I feel.
I've got to write to make it real.
I'll take my time to make it good.
I'll be deliberate like I should.
I'll put the required effort in.
I'll make a mark.
I'll leave a pin.
I'll really quite sincerely try
to finish up before I die.
view2021/5/17 #poetry
Hyperfocus
Hyperfixation
Hyperrelaxed
As if time doesn't exist
Days and days go by
I could spend a whole life wandering
Nowhere in particular
Many do but this is wandering at speed
Running around
On the playground
Going up and down
Exhaustion can't catch me
But I can find myself roaring down a new track
And not even remember where I'd been
Lost in an endless tunnel of interest
view2021/5/16 #poetry
Take a break
A break to think
What about?
There are many thoughts that have been waiting to be thought more thoroughly.
Pick one.
Stick with it.
How do you know if the thought is the same thought that has transformed as you thought it or a different thought?
Sometimes that is obvious, when it isn't compare the thought as it was before to the thought now and notice.
How do you know when it is thoroughly and completely thought?
It seems time to take action.
The line between thought and action is strange.
Sometimes thoughts are action instructions,
sometimes thoughts are contemplative.
Sometimes they bleed together or flow back and forth.
Adjusting thinking intentionally while in action is not usually practical.
Being aware that you are thinking changes the direction or speed of the thinking.
Thinking about the thinking takes more time than is available in many activities that require decisions.
After action analysis is the way to adjust thinking patterns for future action.
view2021/5/15 #poetry
To the beach, to the beach
Today I will go to the beach
There is no sun
But I'll have fun
I'll take my bike
I'll ride there fast
I'll walk and hike
the sand at last
I really like
The ocean sound
The waves that build
As the Earth spins 'round
If I could live there
I suppose
I'd stand by the water
dip my toes
much more often
than I do today
even though the beach
is not that far away
view2021/5/14
I read today about computers being better at games than people. That pretty much all games have been conquered by AI. singularityhub.com/2019/02/10/what-games-are-humans-still-better-at-than-ai/ newatlas.com/ai-2017-beating-humans-games/52741/ This is false.
There are games that AI can not yet play.
– Narrative or story games
– Games with no wining state such as exploratory games
– The Transformation Game
– Ouija
– Tag, Rabbit on a Hill/Statues, or other physical game that a robot hasn't been specially designed and built for
– Most games that haven't had anyone program or train an AI specifically for
Some of these require a subjective experience for it to be a “game” at all. A story or explorable landscape can be scraped by a computer but what would that accomplish?
AI or a simple program can create explorable landscapes, interesting art or story, and can be used as a tool to make complex and interesting things or to “collaborate” with on making things.
Interactive Fiction and its many genres have a great wealth of options for both solo and multi-party play that AI would be practically useless for. Experience over winning/result may be the lesson of the century.
view2021/5/13
Not the most successful interview, but I got what I wanted. Some practice, some feedback, and to not have to work in a stuffy 'only our brand of nonsense' environment. And oh my goodness, how delightful it is to give a massage. How I was able to just let that go for a year I have no idea.
I think that life can be all fun all the time. Like a shelter, it takes work to set up and then it's just there. A little maintenance now and then. Just a little. I can feel it. Not too far out of reach at all.
All fun. When the goal is juicy the work is sweet.
view2021/5/12 #poetry
Took too long
Day went by
Wish I had
More time to try
Get things done
Read for fun
Walk in the sun
Do what I need
To feel like I've won
It's so hard to stay on task
No responsibilities
Schedule relaxed
I'd like to stack
Accomplishments high
From the outside it looks
Like I don't even try
One simple habit
At least I fulfill
It can be hard
But it gives me a thrill
One day soon
I'll change my tune
Feel really nice
And dance under the moon
view2021/5/11 #poetry
Well, seems I got poison oak again. Hot water, amazing.
Hotter = better
More than I can usually take.
Would I be able to enjoy a branding?
Jumping into a fire?
Probably not. It only feels like it.
Takes some mental energy to resist the itch.
Not much, but enough that concentration falters.
A continuous distraction itself as well.
Mental tasks become more effortful. Material tasks a helpful distraction from the sensations.
Not many of those for me to fulfill today though.
Perhaps weeding...
I was unable to forever avoid the shower, taking only baths. Once in a while a shower is nice. Would be nice a lot if my skin could take it.