Neko

dream

ivan

I remembered the dream, but the memory was fading so I tried to recall the whole dream once in my brain, I thought I was jotting down in my log but wasn't, now I woke up and I cannot remember most of it

bonus marks, messaging

#secschool #arthur #ivan Went to hotel with my family. [Something happens I forgot], I had a competition/ presentation against other schoolmates about academic stuff also in the hotel. One of my “competitor”/ “schoolmate” was Bernice. (an irl friend who was pretty smart and went to Cambridge; supported me since way back in F2 when she was F3)

One of the teachers assessing us was Arthur. (hmph I am still angry and guilty) I did the presentation first, and followed by other classmates and then Bernice. I left midway during my presentation

After the whole thing, they announce the marks. I didn't know and didn't bother. Bernice was very excited to bring me the good news that I score like 90% and I got a bonus mark of 40 marks so it made my mark like 350 over 100 marks (yes the calculation doesn't make sense) I find my 90% fair enough since I left midway and I didn't do the last 0.25 part of my presentation I asked how about her, apparently her base score was 100% and she also got bonus mark i forgot it was 40 or 30, but it made her mark like 400 over 100 marks Anyways the average marks other classmates got was like 20 marks (low base mark and Arthur didn't give them any bonus marks) so our marks were ridiculously high, and Bernice and I were number 1 and 2 respectively I glanced at Arthur who was still sitting at the 評判 table, he was smiling in a loving way at me. In the dream I was wondering maybe Arthur liked me a lot and I was pretty happy.

HUHHH >:oooooo

ok second part [something happened in between but can't remember] Morning at home/ dorm/ whatever place with a pantry, with Ivan

I was checking out Arthur's instagram and I initiated a simple conversation on ig (can't recall what it was about) I was very cautious about it since I thought it was my first time actually DMing him so I was pretty polite and stuff but then after I messaged I swiped up and saw I actually had a lot of past conversations with him, and they were like super casual stuff, like I sent a post about different outfits and I asked him which one did he prefer on me. And he'll answer (I didn't look at what he answered when rechecking the convo though)

And then I went to do other chores for a while (I think I went to wash dishes and make breakfast for Ivan and me) I came back seeing a new convo in my phone screen, apparently I sent multiple messages and Arthur replied. Turned out Ivan used my phone to pretend to be me and messaged him wild stuff when I wasn't looking. I forgot the content of the new convo, but it was something out of the blue like, can you be my dog or something, and he was super chill about it and replied yeah lmao

When Ivan saw me noticing the chat, he took my phone and wanted to type more And I got very anxious and embarrassed I was like aaaaaa why did you text him THAT, and I snatched my phone back to send “Sorry it was Ivan, not me”

And later I was chatting with Arthur about other stuff, like I bet you're ENTP, and we discussed that

oops i got distracted and didn't jot down the rest, i forgot what happened next, anyways it felt like a pleasant dream

at last I apologised for something, and then he apologised for “a person chatting with me on instagram” (like he didn't admit the account was his but he “apologised” on behalf of “a user” that contacted me).

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I was taking too many afternoon naps this week. Lacking time to practice my osca

passed away relative

Oh! I think yesterday (Friday May 3 before therapy) I dreamt of my relative who have passed away recently (I had a long long dream but I didn't remember a single thing, so I didn't write about it) (the one I didn't attend the funeral + cremation + 拜山) (I remembered she was nice to me irl) I dreamt we were in a relatives meal gathering, but only me can see her Her seat was next to me and I was apologizing to her for not coming and she comforted me and said it is okay she encouraged me and I cried pretty hard in the dream and then afterwards I led her to a garden outside the restaurant where we said farewell and she walked out of the garden gate (very bright white light outside the gate) and she left

final therapy session

#ivan (May 4 dream) By the time I typed it all out, I would have forgotten the latter half of the plot, so I just scribbled it in my iPad

Also green backpack in dream looks like 970's backpack in real life. But initially in the dream I thought it was Ivan's

Right click and open image in new tab in order to zoom in if it is too small

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(Oh hey I discovered I can add tags so I will be tagging people’s names on their first appearance in each entry)

Previous (maybe a month/ 2 months ago?) dreams: wants to go visit 格仔舖ish store with a section hosted by driving coach, sells squishies, rather 童年回憶 plastic toys(?), and some pet items (turtle? Fish food?) To clarify, he does not have such a shop in real life. But I was stalking his fb back then in winter 2023 and I was suspecting if he has a side gig of running a small shop in Kwai Fong. I still don't know if it is true or not, because I don't have direct proof of the shop being owned by him. Anyways, maybe this led to me dreaming about such a shop in the dream, despite selling different things. Visited once in dream. Didnt buy anything cuz things were behind the locked glass cabinet and i didnt ask the staff to open for me. Meanwhile some of the cute items were sold out, so I was pretty upset and a bit frustrated when i woke up. But back then I didnt know why, since i instantly forgot the dream when i woke up.

Also had a dream previously about him teaching me driving again (not the same as the one this week titled reckless driver- idk what person is that in that dream) (wanted to come back to supplement this paragraph after I was done with today’s entry, but I completely forgot what this was about)


This dream:

school admission day

#ivan #mum Visited a new school today with my mum. We are applying for school. I was around junior sec level probably. It’s called DGS girl school (?) with light green uniform. While walking there my mum told me this school was more chill than a DGS third form (????) school because the “third form” one required students to graduate and take the public exam by form 3, and thats hard. (That school has the same uniform as DGS irl, blue and white dress)

It was admission day so many students and parents were going there too

Entering the school hall, we struggled to find seats. We arrived at the back left corner if the hall, and coincidentally I saw Ivan, who was my best friend (in dream). In the dream, I recalled we used to sit tgt in this school hall for other school functions too, also at that corner. However this time, there were two friends of him sitting next to him.

I planned to take the opposite two seats (this hall corner is a table with 4 seats opp to each other) which were the only ones empty. However, Ivan made up a reason and told his two already sitting friends to reallocate to the opp two seats, and I can sit next to him, and my mum next to me.

I was delighted by his arrangement. I was rather excited and “extroverted” and began to chat with him.


I forgot what happened next Maybe a very abrupt change of scene? Actually idk which dream came first. But these few events are within the same “dream” in a sense that I didn’t feel there is a blank space/ black period between the events which to me separates the dreams.


Macbook gaming

I was using macbook to run windows. Maybe because I installed a virtual desktop. I downloaded a minecraft world. Inside, I was guided through a prebuild path thing. The world/ path inside with stationed tasks is built as a tutorial for something (I didnt recall). And then I reached the final station/ big area with built pink trees and fancy houses. (I forgot the content that got announced while I was inside that area)

As I was playing that macbook, i realised I didn’t plug in the power supply. But the macbook still was almost full. (Macbook battery is pretty longlasting) Anyways I plugged it in.


Throwing congee

Another section of the dream

I was staying at home, sitting on the bed. I was sick (I forgot the reason. But it wasn’t a physical illness)

I remembered a random scene of seeing one of my older relatives (one of dad’s older brothers) sitting on my bed and pretended to be really baby-ish- like he was eating some congee with a spoon but he couldn’t/ deliberately didn’t (? I’m not sure which) put the spoon in his mouth properly so he spilled the congre on his belly. There were loads of relatives (like 20-30 ppl) gathering around him, laughing at him for his stupidity and immaturity.

Some started to play with the remaining congee and tried to throw the congee onto each other’s belly too, those who got hit also laughed. I think they looked like they had a fun time but kinda sarcastic.

Throwing red juicy giant grapes

#secschool #charlotteh

Me and my mum went into a store. As I was leaving, they began to promote a premium fruit – red juicy giant grape. (Giant like two coconuts big) My mum was interested so she went to have a taste. I remain sitting at a tall table. Someone accidentally stepped me lightly- it was Charlotte Hon (that other charlotte from dream titled cats in store) I forgot if she apologised but idc because she wasn’t intentional and it was just a light step.

Later we left/ store set up changed and I was sitting on the floor.

The crowd with the red premium grapes began to throw them on each other, since the red juicy grapes would look like fake cheap bloodstains once it got into the clothes.

Gladys (another secondary school classmate, not that familiar, but recently I kept watching her instagram story cuz she went exchange abroad and shared different stuff every day) and Charlotte Hon took away something from me, and they escaped with the item. All I can do is to take pics and record live photos of them escaping. I can’t get up to chase after them (I needed to sit for some reason I forgot)

Gladys walked past me after a while, I think she wanted to look and laugh at me so she came over to see what I’m doing. Coincidentally, a staff was telling us (the group who was sitting) to report to them for any eye witness? And there was already a queued up group slightly far away from me which composes of people like me + their witnesses

I instantly wanted to grab Gladys by her arm, but she wanted to escape. As she was running away, there was a security staff (actually a police in uniform) near me, so I told the staff to catch her for me.

(Forgot what happens next)

driving coach’s CA

#roy

Finally revisited the store this time. I think it was a mobile services store. Something like CSL. Because I rushed/ speedwalked so quickly into the store I hit my head on one of the signs they hang at their booth. It was loud, I didn’t notice who asked me if I were okay, and I replied I felt very painful, but it was better than last time when I crashed onto something hard and that’s even more painful, so this is nothing.

I walked inside the store with a sore head. I found the driving coach’s little store area. Unfortunately the two cabinets was locked still, but there was more stickers/ notice on them: “for cancer patients only” And there are some other memo stickers with different deep words and one with a equation Some people left notes like add oil in your cancer recovery journey!! (OMG… I am so sorry I realised..) (though I think I dreamt about it because I was preparing for PBL yesterday about different carcinomas and the one in the dream belongs to the same type as the one I studied i.e. adenocarcinoma)

A staff walked past and I asked them what happened, they asked, “ooh you like him?”, then said “he went for treatment in the hospital and is not coming back any time soon”

Apparently it was a stage 4 cancer and he had a metastasis. I looked at the memos with those deep words. They are all medical jargons that I supposed to know by this time, but I completely forgot their meaning. I just remembered I saw those words before and I should’ve learnt it The memo with a equation has many α β arithmetic stuff. it’s a fraction. I think it’s for calculating his stage or mortality or something. (Note: very sure I made that equation up, you don’t calculate like this. I think my brain just mixed and recreated the QALYs and DALYs I had tutorial on a couple of days ago)

So I couldn’t purchase anything.

The staff asked if I want to learn it or something. I said yes. He lent me some laminated documents for me to take pictures of. (Really similar to pathology practical where they laminate the A4 docs for us to read and take pics and revise too) And then he rolled up some of the laminated paper, and told me to face him (i.e. orientate myself towards him). He hit me very hard on my head using the laminated paper he rolled up. It was kind of painful, but since I injured my head while entering the store already, the soreness and pain aggravated. He laughed (in a menacing way), saying I am so cheeky trying to look for tips from him for the exam. But I just wanted some more materials for revision, I was not asking for tips. I didn’t reason with him though.

I went back out and sat on the road (being specific here the location is the mini slope for cars to drive into the three resitential halls and madam ho, but I sat slightly out into the big road with traffic, but it was late night so there’s no traffic yet), studying the materials I got. I just feel like I need to study to learn more about the driving coach’s cancer and I want to treat it. Also felt a bit unhappy back then when the staff told me the coach had cancer because that means I chose the long queue for nothing and they would assign me another teacher anyways. (Slight recap: need to retake driving exam, can choose short queue (3 months) or long queue (1 year). Short queue: fast, reassign another random teacher. Long queue: slow, keep being taught by same teacher. If one day I need to take other courses I get to keep being taught by him too. IRL I chose long queue)


After waking up: Anyways I woke up tremendously sad But luckily it’s just a dream (hopefully… or is it) (I hope it’s not a sign) (omg so sorry again I hope you’re okay)

I suddenly missed my coach and I was stalking my coach’s ig (we exchanged ig back then) around 2-3 days ago but seems he didn’t update anything as always Idk if I have mentioned, but his following list are mostly pretty girls, so that night I just binge watched one of the ig acc he followed, it was a female japanese pornstar lol I heard she was famous but I am never interested in any particular pornstars so idk the names The pornstar is slightly visibly older though so not really my type. Maybe he followed years ago when she’s younger lol I think he didn’t expect me to ask him to add ig so he couldn’t “cleanse” his ig (if he has to) (i dont think he’ll do it anyways) (and now it’s too late or maybe he doesn’t care so yeah)

Hmmmmmmmmm everyone’s horny :p

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