revising with Ivan, attending workshop

#ivan

_{I think it is because yesterday I had dinner with Ivan and he revised MSS anat with me. And my brain power is restoring (lol) so I can keep up with his teaching! And I revised and remembered all, if not most, muscles, actions, innervations and vascular supply of the body (except head) in just three hours. We did touch on some head and neuro anat too. Omg. Three hours. Only.}

Yuh so we were revising. I forgot what happened, but at one point he was talking about serratus anterior and its action. So I began punching thin air while sleeping. Oh in the dream we were revising in an alley. And he was going to measure my punching force using my phone camera + app, to check if I have myasthenia gravis... Because I was weak asf At first i did punch weakly, but later I got stronger and punch with more force (although it was still weaker than average). And my right arm punches are more forceful than the left ones.

yee I forgot what happened before and what happened next.

At some point I was late to a class. Oh it's like MHFA. With a bunch of counsellors (made up ones in dream). But they're teaching EBDM and public health content. It was more like a “sign up if you're interested” workshop with two lessons in total. But then anyways I signed up and attended the first. They taught something that they said wasn't taught in the main lecture series but would come up in the exam. So I was kind of :O and slightly happy I didn't miss out on stuff. Although it was kinda scary to think (if they allow content that are not covered in whole class lectures to be examined)

On the second lesson there should be an exam. And I knew they're gonna organise the exam at around 30 minutes into the lesson instead of immediately, so I was late but not too worried. I was late because I wanted to make a notebook with my study notes. But I couldn't find the appropriate tools to make the book. For example, I had a small slip of memo that I wanted to stick on my self made study booklet. But I couldn't find an appropriate needle (all too big or too small), and a working thread (the thread was too big and the ends were coming out like cauda equina so I can't put the thread through the needle even if I have the correct needle) to sew the memo to the page. Oh also Ivan's revision material was two large stack of printed notes. And he annotate with mechanical pencil on the notes. Instead of his tablet irl.

I went there and later we had the exam. It was two google forms on ipad. Multiple choice questions. I finished the first one and was onto the second one. But I ran out of time (she announced one min left but I had a bunch of MCQs not yet filled in/ read) and the teacher was already explaining the questions. But the form submissions has not closed yet so I could submit it despite the teacher announcing times up. I wasn't panicking at all in the dream. I just answered in my own pace. And I knew the answers so I wasn't scared.

Yeah that's about it.

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heading for lunch, primary kids

#primschool #ivan (didn’t really appear) I had my lunch break at primary school. I was carrying school bag. I was going to meet up with Ivan and eat with him.

On the way down I saw my prim school classmate. (I forgot what she did, but we chatted) Before leaving school, i saw the kids I looked after, sitting together playing on a bench/ table So I went to play with them for a while (5 mins) (actually felt like a long time but I knew it was just 5 minutes) We were mimicking each other’s sounds and echoing back. It was fun. We had fun.

(This dream ends here) _{(i think it was because i was texting ivan yesterday night and we talked briefly about the past so yeah)}

postgrad revision support, wrong bus, tourist spot w char

#pblmate #charlottec

Postgrad (A smart guy called Jeff from this year’s pbl) teach and revise with me while we were walking on the road. He was holding my ipad to test and jot notes for me. Although I haven’t revised the content (head and neck arterial supply, nerves), I can answer him easily and correctly (now after waking up idk right or wrong but feels accurate)(no i think it’s wrong)

Postgrad’s doggy/ partner was ivan, apparently

And while he’s teaching we went queuing for bus We saw a lady who had one of her feet amputated, maybe she’s the one on the news about a dental surgery failure (entirely dream). And she was walking/ hopping with a stick. I felt sorry for her. And she doesn’t have prosthetic feet too. The amputated surface was bare. No socks.

While waiting for the bus, i wasnt aware the bus entrance is alr mtr entrance (like mong kok east station moko exit) So i was queuing w him to try to learn more when I can/ when he’s here

And we boarded the bus tgt There were two seats tgt empty We planned to sit there After I sat, I looked and saw a domestic helper took his seat so Jeff was standing He say it’s fine

I spotted another two seats tgt, and a woman was hinting at us for the seats too, I thanked the woman with gestures 🙏🏻 But jeff arrived at his station So he said to me (around this meaning i forgot the exact sentence) you’re a dum dum but you’re not stupid, I hope you can get through the exam And left the bus While leaving i tried to tell him “yeah im a bit dum dum this year due to some reasons”

It was me alone on the bus I was admiring the scenery outside. There was ngong ping 360 near hku. Wow. I can see the cable cars. Oh theres ngong ping 360 mtr station. Background was big green mountain. Sky was blue. Sunshine is yellowy. Such a nice day.

And I realised I went on the wrong bus. _{(reminded me of that time I rode shuttle bus to med campus for MHFA. Nice sunset on the way, shining on the mountain and bro the bus skipped my stations and went down to stanley ho swimming pool so I walked all the way up)}

I realised I should leave the bus at one station where there is the ngong ping 360 mtr station. But i went to the door too late and the bus was leaving, so even when I knocked on the door and raised my voice (actually sounded too nice maybe he didn’t hear) to ask the driver to stop, he didn’t stop. Seems some others also wanted to leave but so we stood by the exit door to wait for the next station.

I checked my kmb app to see what this bus leads to fortunately the last two stations (just two remaining) were also close to ngong ping mtr, and bus app showed mtr logo next to terminus station So I stood and waited While i was amused and annoyed because i needed to switch lines for so many times (in the dream it was like 5 times) on the way home.

Arrived at a tourist spot Tourist spot have weird stalls selling weird goods. Gross. They recruited naked models to display their products (e.g. face cream, sanitary pads) And they’re sexualising the products, they’re showing weirdly suggestively shaped sanitary pads that looked like a T shape and they stick it on model’s abdomen and announced to all the men watching, that they know what they mean if they put the T shape a little bit lower (aka make it seems like a dick is penetrating their privates) They told the models to dance together too. I felt gross And the face cream one, the host put a lot of cream onto two models And they became frog headed. Also the cream has the drug function of making people horny. Very eerie.

I left by walking further to see what other booths they had in the mall. General chiikawa stuff. I saw charlotte. I pointed the beautiful sunset to her. Rainbow coloured. Even the sand was rainbow coloured. There was a photoshoot booth / decoration (a little bit like 鳥居) on the beach. We went to take pictures together. I rode on Charlotte’s back / she carried me on her back and we dashed around on the beach. It was fun. There was a boy with us while we were taking pics too. In the dream it was charlotte’s boyfriend. I didn’t talk at all to the boy Anyways the pictures were all three people. At first I tried to use my phone because it has live photo function, but the phone auto edit it to be very dark. Later the boy lended his camera to a passerby and the passerby took pics of us three.

Later we went to the chiikawa store (actually a restaurant), and they were nearly closing. The chef gave us a bowl of rice pudding and sauce (the sweet one used on eel sushi and eel rice). Seems like we need to mix them. Idk cuz they’re in full Japanese. Charlotte almost ate one when they stopped her. They just wanted us to try mixing for fun, not eating. The food seems to be used for serving gods. The Japanese chef was explaining to Charlotte about it, but she couldn’t understand. I remembered this mochi snack very very long time ago in HK, where you mix the cubes with coconut powder/ sugar. So I was “mochi!” And the japanese was like “hai! Mochi!” And I was gesturing rolling the cube to charlotte. Hopefully both sides understand what I was trying to say. (I did say some cantonese but mostly the Mochi and gesturing to keep the chef on the same page)

So she got it and we had fun together

Dream ended.

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work w friends; breakfast! with ruth n many others

#secschool #chinok #pblmate #onlinefrd #ruth #arthur #T #6grass #ivan #primschool (lmao so many tags) Ok so Work with Mancy until sunrise at place like chiwah. Mancy was working on EY registering exchange stuff. Saw sunrise outside window. Later I left.

Went to place like lab block in sassoon, to have MHFA lesson by Vincci (lol first time thinking and seeing her in dream heh) After lesson I think I went back near med lib. I think my PBL group was gathering for something (related to studying). After that, near 6pm I grabbed ChiNok to go tgt back near lab block. He didn’t really know what I was up to, I think I gave a random reason and he didn’t pushed me away when I legit grabbed and pull him along with me. I was waiting near lab block exit in order to see if I can see Arthur (and others) leaving after work. I don’t know if I saw him or not, I actually forgot how the dream went. Because Ruth walked by and chatted with me. (I think I abandoned ChiNok starting from here, but I was pretty sure there’s another person next to me. Oh maybe Yuki??) _{(new person unlocked in dream- if you’re reading go ask Vincci who that is; basically online friend whom we knew each other since 2020 but met physically for the first time during MHFA lmfao)}

And then Ruth stood in front of me and asked me how we’re doing, while looking at me. I think I answered something like ok, because my friend was next to me and I can’t talk too deep

And then Ruth was very chill And she asked how was MHFA and began to test me on some easy concepts of the lesson (but was actually med stuff..,..,..,.) I got the first two wrong, but I guessed the third one right, but not exactly 100% correct. I was chuckling with my friend. Well but Ruth said my answer was right, and she encouraged me.

Later I think my friend left for some other thing so it was just me and Ruth now !!

Ruth still looked very chill. She asked me how do I feel about the news yesterday night. I was a bit confused and asked her what news. She said there was a med student who jumped off in the washing machine room in the residential hall. And we began to walk back to the breakfast hall probably at main campus (it wasn’t that far in dream) to have breakfast. It felt like some sort of study tour where the breakfast buffet is planned and we’re going to have it.

Back to the conversation, I said oh I didn’t know. And I thought to myself I’d rather choose my own room which had my own washing machine (it made sense in the dream) as the place to jump instead or else people would find me too early and it’s useless And then Ruth seemed to read my mind and she said maybe her/ your _{(I forgot what pronoun she used)} own room is better, right? I said yeah…

We walked by chiwah again but the sky was early morning, not bright yet, but nothing special I think we were chatting about another topic but I forgot just now :(( (probably some actual “how’s life” type of stuff…? And it was bidirectional and she also answered, not just me)

And we arrived at the dining hall. The first table was fruits, I dislike fruits so I swiftly walked away to the other table, but Ruth seemed she didn’t know because I was near her the whole time and I left too quickly I saw she wanted to use the tongs to get some chopped fruits for me but she subtly looked around and I wasn’t there, so she gave it to others. I felt a bit sorry but I decided no fruits over staying with Ruth lmao

The other tables were full of food I wanted to eat. Gigantic sushi, sashimi and oysters.!! I looked through what dishes they had provided and I got my tray. I think I accidentally knocked over a ramen spoon (those big ones) onto the ground. I didn’t plan to pick it up because it was dirty and idk where to put it. Also I had some food targets in mind esp a fish sushi which has one remaining. Someone next to me picked it up and put it to the return tray. I looked and it was my primary school friend Nickole. I thanked her but my voice was too too low, like whispering. So I thanked her again, this time slightly louder but still whispering and in a singing tone. I was pretty sure she couldn’t hear it, but I heard her whispering/ humming something like no problem I was walking back to the food tables and someone said hi to me. It was Winnie, one of my “6 grass” squad members. We said hi because it’s been such a long time seeing each other. I asked if I can sit with them for breakfast and she said ofc! Just at this time, the other members of my friend group came. Candice pointed out there’s “the person” walking towards us. It was Maisie, also a sec school friend (who was depressed) (but 6 grass don’t know her) We briefly said hi And then around the corner there was Ivan choosing food. And a few steps behind him, Ruth was watching (us). I noticed Ruth but ignored her. I said Hii to Ivan, and my tone became very close to Ivan, I asked him what he’s choosing what he’s gonna eat, and told him I’m gonna have that sushi and oyster because it just so happened last night before sleep I saw instagram reels about these exact same food and I wanted to eat, and such a coincidence! There’s the same thing here. _{(now the fun thing is the above sentences are true. I did watch red book reels before sleep and saw and wanted to eat these, they’re actually the same)}

Anyways yeah dream ended here before I actually got any food. Lmfao I abandoned my Ruth lol ahwhaoNqjsajdbkaa

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sorry I forgot my dreams again…

rooftop skating ring

#mum (i think I was with two people. I forgot who they were. We went to a shopping mall with an ice skating ring on the top floor (a recurrent one in many dreams since young)

We were walking. I was cold. Maybe the ice spreads the temperature to the air. Very cold.

We wanted to do some activity, but the ice skating ring is full We opened a side door to the balcony, expecting another ice skating place.

We opened the glass door (feels like festival walk), and outside was raining heavily and the ground has so much water I wasn’t sure if it was a pool or if the rainwater caused it to be like that.

They (the two people walking with me) wanted to step in I told them someone wrote something on the stairs (leding to the pool) on the floor It said there were bugs in the pool (Apparently people fish here so they leave a lot of bugs to attract the fish

We walked away to other parts of the shopping mall.

supermarket shopping

#ivan We went to a Japanese based supermarket (Apita? Aeon?) + another random girl We were shopping around We ate jelly mochi things, it’s some sort of self mix packs, it was slightly sweet because of the sweet sauce and was yummy. I recommended ivan to mix it with milk and it would be even more delicious.

Later we went to the cool isles (those cooling shelves) And ivan was choosing sashimi Meanwhile i was looking at another place where they sell premade dishes in a large quantity but in a low price There was a big dish of eggplants It was too much though _{(i think I dreamt of eggplants because one day my whole meal at uni was eggplants + rice but my mum next day asked me if i wanna eat eggplants so i said no, yet she bought me eggplants meal, i asked why, because she wanted to eat) (so I am tired of eggplants now)}

And i began to look at those snack sausages in bundles. Unfortunately those weren’t exactly the snacks one, but cooked, so I can’t store them for too long _{(i thought of smacks sausages probably because recently I wanted to save money but needed to eat something to make my stomach shut up, so I was planning on buying snacks sausages to bring to school.)}

I forgot what’s next.

Also a bit sad today because they wanted to chat with me, i chatted with them but I don’t trust them anymore. Last time I chatted the next day she scolded me on the same thing again It was too late and I am confused They finally noticed me, but I felt like my heart is torn to shreds I dont know

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There are multiple dreams

alienated at school

#secschool #primschool #charlottec I was walking on the street during a return trip in seconary school study tour i was walking (alone) with the queue from other class They were all revising for dictation, holding textbooks to memorise I wasn’t holding the book like them They laughed at me, said some mean sentences and kind of wanted to push me out of the way (It seemed it was because they’re jealous I wasn’t holding a book to revise, so maybe I didn’t have dictation, but they probably didn’t know I have dictation too and already revised)

Somehow (idk if it was the same dream), I was on a shuttle bus, I saw charlotte diagonally behind me. The seat i chose, there was a black guy from the seat behind me and extend his legs onto my seat (there are no 靠背 for my seat so he can put his legs) I tried to move his legs or passive aggressively use my bag to kind of move but he didn’t move

Anyways I sat in the small half without his legs and turned around to talk to charlotte

I turned back to front and later turned back again wanting to talk to her, ans realised she changed seats and sat further away

Anyways I got off the bus later and got to school. (The class was secondary school students but the school was primary school) Me and the bad class went for the morning assembly And when it finished, I immediately ran to the further staircase (there were three staircases at school) and hid there

I met with some kids I looked after in primary when I was a school prefect We chatted And they led me to their classrooms where I took a sneak peek at their current classes. I felt happy for them

And I was still watching for any mean classmates who were seeking for me

I was kinda worried

But eventually I had to get back to the crowd So I went back to the staircase they were using

I was surprised to see they all were dressed weirdly- their bodies became obese but jelly/ crystal like, and they didn’t fully pull up their panties I can see some cabbages in their anus I was confused and asked them They told me they were punished

only one in MHFA

So I was at uni campus, after lecture Ivan was walking and I saw A wanting to have lunch with Ivan, I was jealous and slightly angry, so I waved happily at them to say hi Because I told Ivan and he knew A was rather bad

Anyways they chatted for a bit and separated paths

So the three of us went separate ways because Ivan didn’t come up to me either

Later I received a whatsapp notification from someone in the volunteer helped team, she added me to a MHFA group I looked inside to see what people were inside Seems except me, the others were helpers/ mentors And later people from our group got added to another big group Turned out they combined two MHFA group because there were too little people (the other group only has 3 participants and some mentors)

I felt slightly embarrassed because I didn’t want to be in the spotlight

Arthur’s old ig acc

#ivan #arthur I was walking around and saw a shop and their title is ポケノモン I was weirded out because it was pokenomon So I searched on ig (In the middle of searching I got a notif I got followed by an acc with huge following and only followed 8 people, and posted only scenery pic of their house) And ig search suggestions gave me an acc of a labrador (i assumed it was not golden retriever in the dream somehow) The dog’s name was Latx Profile pic was Arthur and Latx The ig profile was made in memory of Latx, apparently it died and it was a dog he had well before Amber

I read the ig bio and searched for words I didn’t understand Turned out he had a condition where he couldn’t sleep for more than half of sleeping hours (not ‘insomnia’) And he followed a bunch of pride accs

Lol And then I sent it to ivan Ivan replied, his voice oml I can’t stand hearing him say “🥺哥哥～❤️” I can’t unhear it and ses him the same way again

I was like ??????? And turned out he watched one of the reels in his acc and he was saying 哥哥 to the dog when they were playing (Maybe the dog has siblings idk)

I wanted to dm ivan saying nah ‘one time he imitated my cute tone in a sentence and it was super cute’, but I decided not to I was intrigued and wanted to press inside the acc again to listen to it too, but the dream ended.

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Patient group, car escape, passed exam?

#ivan Patient group Led by tall guy like arthur but not him, it was just a random guy

Tour around our facility (a facility was keeping patients like us) On the stairs (spiral metal stairs outside building) He said many people jumped here And our group moved on I stood there gazing and looking down from the stairs to the ground The guy checked on me and asked me what’s up let’s continue/ move on (i forgot his exact wording)

After the tour our patient group sat in a circle on the ground on a picnic mat We were chatting Im the oldest… (i was 21 in dream..! Huhhh) Another girl was 20 And the rest were like 16 17 some are like 14

I think the patient group is people with emotion dysregulation Some of them have depression

Somehow later we needed to escape Stole and ride a car with another person, driven by tall guy Very fast, almost drifting in tunnel Wrong lane, enter a hidden road for hospital waste truck to deposit and combust dead people’s clothes There were many staff checking id at different “checkpoints” We drove past because we weren’t supposed to be there

Still wrong lane multiple times So we went through different deposit places for a few times

Many cars were after us

Eventually we ended up in a relatively more secluded area

We decided to change cars because the secluded area is small and we can be easily spotted

But the other cars were all toooo old, so we couldn’t switch cars Two cars drove by and they have pikachu ears and tail, one was older than the other _{(i think it’s purely because I was playing pokemon before sleeping)}

We saw a car decor shop opening We walked in The car decor style is to make the cars vintage by adding a lot of 瀝青 on the car as decoration

We gave up the idea of decorating our car cuz it was too late

We hid in the stores Some more people entered, they were also hiding.

Later a few people came to ask for our identity. They were the people seeking for the group of people who later entered, not us. Although im pretty sure it was fine saying my real name, I lied saying my name is Bernice. I was natural so they didn’t bat an eye.

And then somehow Ivan appeared in the dream and he lied his name was Monsieur something something Unfortunately one of the staff spoke french, she said to ivan his grammar for saying his own name was wrong, it should be something something __french preposition monsieur, and began to suspect him, although he originally wasn’t part of the suspects

Anyways later we got out of the shop and we received our exam papers (the papers just appeared on our palms) They were marked but the total mark has to be calculated by ourselves Ivan was so stressed But ofc he was fine I was calculating I passed The passing mark was 20, which was 50%. I got 24.5.

Though I remembered the full mark was 60, not 40, idk why lol… but it made sense in the dream And supposedly passing is 60% irl

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Lemme jot some key points

dumb worksheet

Joseph (scary eng tutor) found a rough work worksheet on which i wrote dumb shit like those junior secondary dumb jokes

I tried very hard not to laugh every time i look at the ws but i cant, and i would laugh so loudly

Idk how joseph thinks, he just look at me laugh

I was scared while laughing too Because this tutor was famous for scolding people harshly (… but except me… I’m the teacher’s pet)

changing groups

#primschool I was grouped with some people idk, which was fine But later i went to the library in primary school, i found my classmates, turned out they thought i was absent so they automatically added me to their group. Now idk whether to abandon the old group which was already short on people, or turn down my nice friends in order to keep my “promise” with the old group

Ivan’s bbq part time job

#ivan Ivan took a part time job to work as the guy who helps cook barbecue stuff on a double deck bus. The top deck was cooking realllly nice meat (beef pork etc) (very thick and juicy and looks super good) Everyone was looking at him cooking

The lower deck were some cute plush dolls, he was also heating them

Later after the meat were distributed/ sold?, he took a big sac he said he collected from second hand stores one by one. He put all the stuff from the sac onto the two decks. They were all cute plush dolls. They’re all abandoned by their owners but all in perfect condition, and the designs were pretty. He begin to cook them on the grill.

I wanted to get some of the dolls after he finished grilling them. He laughed and say he don’t mind. (The dolls were supposed to be distributed to strangers on the street like charity work, not for me)

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Hashtags to sort the dreams (and for me to remember what tags I have used)

• Family #mum #dad #relative

• mmmmm #T _{(<— tag for other Ts)}: #ruth #arthur #roy (driving coach); #cora #teacher –> #jau (f2 classmistress); #blythe (f2 science/ physics teacher) _{<— younger me used to ship them, bruh, but blythe is happily married} –> #cch (f3-4 classmistress); #mwong (f3-4 fmath teacher) _{<— two good friends}

• Good friends #ivan #charlottec

• Friends #onlinefrd #primschool :#cecilia #caitlyn #secschool –> #6grass (squad): #charlotteh #jamie –> F5-6: #sally #uni #pblmate –> Y1: #aiden (970) #adrian (3 day boy) –> Y2: #chinok (rhythm game boy) #joseph (nice voice boy) –> roommate: #claudia #exchange

• others #A #jy #OurLady

I remembered the dream, but the memory was fading so I tried to recall the whole dream once in my brain, I thought I was jotting down in my log but wasn't, now I woke up and I cannot remember most of it

bonus marks, messaging

#secschool #arthur #ivan Went to hotel with my family. [Something happens I forgot], I had a competition/ presentation against other schoolmates about academic stuff also in the hotel. One of my “competitor”/ “schoolmate” was Bernice. _{(an irl friend who was pretty smart and went to Cambridge; supported me since way back in F2 when she was F3)}

One of the teachers assessing us was Arthur. _{(hmph I am still angry and guilty)} I did the presentation first, and followed by other classmates and then Bernice. I left midway during my presentation

After the whole thing, they announce the marks. I didn't know and didn't bother. Bernice was very excited to bring me the good news that I score like 90% and I got a bonus mark of 40 marks so it made my mark like 350 over 100 marks (yes the calculation doesn't make sense) I find my 90% fair enough since I left midway and I didn't do the last 0.25 part of my presentation I asked how about her, apparently her base score was 100% and she also got bonus mark i forgot it was 40 or 30, but it made her mark like 400 over 100 marks Anyways the average marks other classmates got was like 20 marks (low base mark and Arthur didn't give them any bonus marks) so our marks were ridiculously high, and Bernice and I were number 1 and 2 respectively I glanced at Arthur who was still sitting at the 評判 table, he was smiling in a loving way at me. In the dream I was wondering maybe Arthur liked me a lot and I was pretty happy.

_{HUHHH >:oooooo}

ok second part [something happened in between but can't remember] Morning at home/ dorm/ whatever place with a pantry, with Ivan

I was checking out Arthur's instagram and I initiated a simple conversation on ig (can't recall what it was about) I was very cautious about it since I thought it was my first time actually DMing him so I was pretty polite and stuff but then after I messaged I swiped up and saw I actually had a lot of past conversations with him, and they were like super casual stuff, like I sent a post about different outfits and I asked him which one did he prefer on me. And he'll answer (I didn't look at what he answered when rechecking the convo though)

And then I went to do other chores for a while (I think I went to wash dishes and make breakfast for Ivan and me) I came back seeing a new convo in my phone screen, apparently I sent multiple messages and Arthur replied. Turned out Ivan used my phone to pretend to be me and messaged him wild stuff when I wasn't looking. I forgot the content of the new convo, but it was something out of the blue like, can you be my dog or something, and he was super chill about it and replied yeah lmao

When Ivan saw me noticing the chat, he took my phone and wanted to type more And I got very anxious and embarrassed I was like aaaaaa why did you text him THAT, and I snatched my phone back to send “Sorry it was Ivan, not me”

And later I was chatting with Arthur about other stuff, like I bet you're ENTP, and we discussed that

oops i got distracted and didn't jot down the rest, i forgot what happened next, anyways it felt like a pleasant dream

at last I apologised for something, and then he apologised for “a person chatting with me on instagram” (like he didn't admit the account was his but he “apologised” on behalf of “a user” that contacted me).

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_{I was taking too many afternoon naps this week. Lacking time to practice my osca}

passed away relative

Oh! I think yesterday (Friday May 3 before therapy) I dreamt of my relative who have passed away recently (I had a long long dream but I didn't remember a single thing, so I didn't write about it) (the one I didn't attend the funeral + cremation + 拜山) (I remembered she was nice to me irl) I dreamt we were in a relatives meal gathering, but only me can see her Her seat was next to me and I was apologizing to her for not coming and she comforted me and said it is okay she encouraged me and I cried pretty hard in the dream and then afterwards I led her to a garden outside the restaurant where we said farewell and she walked out of the garden gate (very bright white light outside the gate) and she left

final therapy session

#ivan (May 4 dream) By the time I typed it all out, I would have forgotten the latter half of the plot, so I just scribbled it in my iPad

Also green backpack in dream looks like 970's backpack in real life. But initially in the dream I thought it was Ivan's

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