almost raped by dad + chased in mall

#dad #mum #jy #claudia

what the fuck is this dream

In the dream, I was napping on my bed (same bedroom setting as irl) naked when I felt someone putting his hands on my chest. It held my breasts tighter and tighter and I began to feel uncomfortable by the touch. I then listened to my surroundings and heard someone breathing behind me/ next to me on my bed. I assume it was mum. I wasn't too bothered until I heard another person's breathing sounds coming from the side of the bed and it seemed like it was from the one groping my chest.

Then I heard the “presumably mum” person spoke. Her voice was mum's indeed. She was whispering to the groping guy about something. It occurred to me that they were planning for the groping guy to rape me. Thinking “no way, I was already raped by jy _{(I thought so in the dream)}, I don't want to be raped again”, I opened my eyes in shock and saw dad naked with just his boxers, and his dick was out. Mum and him noticed I was awake. Dad hurriedly tried to shove his dick back into his boxers. I saw his dick and it was dark in colour. He tried to explain he didn't do anything bad to me.

Later I went out from home to a mall. I saw a policewoman and reported on dad. As I was explaining to the lady what had happened, I saw my parents from afar, staring and shaking their heads in disapproval. Later I went to shop in the mall and saw Claudia walked past from afar. I tried to chase after her to say hi because I haven't seen her for a long time, but she was too quick, and I arrived at the ladies clothes department. There was an event starting at the department, which was a chase game. And I was getting chased by two girl Caucasian teenagers. I tried to change my outfit using the clothes there but I could only get rid of them for like a few seconds until they found me to be very suspicious for running around and realising I was the prey again.

_{Anyways today I felt incredibly awkward seeing my parents. oh my god I hate this dream what the actual fuck is this okay i suspect it was because two days ago I read a lecture about child (physical, sexual, psychological) abuse, and also had a realisation after gossiping with friends that quite a few male friends who were interested in my cooking and recipes were just trying to hook up with me and my disappointment was immeasurable and my day is ruined the only thing I was satisfied in the dream is that I was proactive and comfortable in reporting the incident to the authority.}

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dream from weeks ago, I am finally writing it down. And I will correct the date in this entry

TOTK coop with A

#A

We happened to be waiting for buses at the same time at the bus stop. We took out our switch lites and played on a coop world in zelda tears of the kingdom. _{(I kept misremembering it was TOTK – i haven't played that much Zelda games)} We were at the balcony of a tall castle and we were moving TNTs together to the same spot and blast the place together. It was actually not bad.

solving Claudia's family issues

#claudia

I probably met Claudia on my way back. And together we went and see Claudia's mum. Her mum looked friendly and gave me a free makeup. When she was doing the makeup on my lips (like drawing the lip line at the two edges using a lip pen), it was actually pretty forceful and I felt quite painful, but not to the point of yelling. So yeah. It's like forcing me to get bigger “mouth” and a bigger smile.

And then we arrived at Claudia's house, along with three other friends of Claudia that idk. And I saw Claudia being frustrated at her family for different stuff. And I decided to reason and “debate” with her family on behalf of Claudia. And eventually they sort of solved the issues. I felt proud.

And then we four “Claudia's friends” stood in a row in front of her parents. And her parents/ Claudia gave a thank you gift to one of the friends who didn't contribute much-This guy was also one of our uni students, but also opened a very cheap and affordable small fried pork curry rice restaurant. She gifted it because this friend helped her a long time ago. In the dream, I felt a little bit shocked, but wasn't really feeling bad because I wasn't looking for rewards when I was helping her. (Although now as I am writing I felt slightly slightly bad because another person got the gift but not me)

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bloody bandages; explaining assault

#claudia ’s bf #JY

I was woken up in my dorm bed. I saw there was a few bloody unopened bandages at the end of my bed. By my leg/ foot. I wondered when I had put my bandages from the shelf onto my bed. Her bf (ernest) asked me about the assault. So I told him. And we simulated the situation with consent. In the toilet in front of the mirror. He was nice that he shoved his dick to the left before pressing down even harder.

Claudia was actually in the room next to us, when she chimed in saying JY was indeed sus

falling merry go round

Everyone was on a … circular bicycle kind of thing, like a merry go round. The floor would eventually disappear. So if they stop, they will fall. Many quitted the “game” and observed by the side. Only like four people remaining that were playing the game. At first there were also three girl otakus (one of them looked like Ame from Needy Girl Overdose) that were doing nothing and just sitting in the bicycle, people despised them. They didn’t care. (They later also contributed) And towards the end, a brother and younger sister goldfish also joined.

Meanwhile I wondered why they would continue, if quitting wouldn’t kill them (as the audience weren’t dead), but stopping the effort in the merry go round would.

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marrying random groupmate

#roy (looks like) #claudia

So we were kind of like good friends pretty chill One day this dude proposed to me (in the dream we were groupmates, but now i think he gave me the vibe of my driving coach) And im like uh why not, sure And we are gonna arrange stuff

We walked on the bridge to med campus And there were actually two offices there, the first one is the primary school teacher’s staff room and the second was the secondary school one And I saw ptam in front of the primary school one, so i dragged my friend to walk away quickly, telling him this teacher was bad

I forgot the order of the dream, but anyways we got the marriage celebration, i was wearing long dress and kept tripping myself over cuz I’m wearing platform shoes too Our parents were here Mum was kinda annoying again but I sort of ignored her Dad was kinda cringe too

Anyways we got it done, our background music is an opening music from a random tv show And we have a video to go along with the music, they were just shutterstock photos of two people, photoshopped with our faces in it

Lmao

Then I returned to my dorm and had a nap with some gloves (3?) filled with warm water or blood. They felt nice as if I was holding hands with someone When I woke up, I found the lower part of my bed was all blood. Turned out the glove with blood bursted when I was asleep, maybe I was holding it too tightly cuz it felt nicer The ones with warm water didn’t burst

Ye and I told my roommate not to report to the hall staff/ student leaders cuz I was scared of getting reprimanded and I can try cleaning it myself, but it was too late. The student leaders whatsapped her back nicely and I actually get free cleaning supplies and no penalty. Slightly surprised

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spooky dorm door

#claudia ('s boyfriend) day before yesterday

I am in our dorm room. Her boyfriend came to visit her. My roommate was rather busy coming in and out of the room occasionally, so he sat by the door to wait for her.

But every time after he operate the room door, the door would suddenly open itself after some time. I found it hilarious. I wasn't scared because the door wouldn't open itself if I was the one interacting with it. But after like 5 to 6 times he became a bit frustrated and also spooked out. And then I got a bit scared as well. During one time my roommate was briefly here, the guy told her about it and she laughed while heading out again.

I went to close the door again, and tried to demonstrate to him how he should close our door. And after comparing, I realised it was because I would press the door inwards firmly for a second time to make sure it was closed, but the guy didn't know so he just flung the door shut, which wasn't shut

Now the issue was closed at least before the next time someone opens the door e.g. roommate reenter or this guy wants to try again

_{(Oh maybe because I used to do this to my home bedroom door to make sure it was actually closed, because the door “clicks” after closing weren't trustworthy at all)}

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roommate sh

#claudia I was just scratching and making cat scratches on my bed, and my roommate was sitting by her desk. Then she turned around and showed me her freshly cut arm with long cuts and blood slowly coming out like little droplets out of the lines I think she asked me something but I forgot (it was very graphic but I wasn't feeling much from seeing it??)

anyways turned out she was cutting but I thought she was revising by her desk ye _{(maybe because I think she stress herself out a lot and she got a fever by overworking)}

hon's letter

#charlotteh I was sitting at university upper street, and among the crowd walking by, I saw charlotte hon in her law cape ?? walking by. I think she graduated/ was graduating. I waved at her and she waved back. I was surprised and happy because so far I haven't seen her in campus at all since the beginning of uni. She chatted briefly with me and took an elevator next to me and went down and left, cuz she was busy.

Later I received a digital letter (hmmmm not email), saying things like, friends are meant to support each other, and asked me if I disinfected and how are my thoughts and to reach out to them anytime if I ever feel like it

I was touched, and at the same time wondered if charlotte c told others (like jamie and her)

exhibition fair with mum

#arthur #ruth #mum #caitlyn #cecilia

I wanted to go to the exhibition fair to buy something/ collect something from Arthur but mum kept bugging me like where exactly was I going, what did I bring with me and I accidentally answered wrongly and “invited” mum to go along with me bruh also at one point mum was saying something really stupid and I was frustrated and grumbled during my sleep- (i hope my roommate didn't mind)

and I tried to get away from mum once we entered the fair and I was pretending shopping until I saw Arthur by his booth, I think he was promoting his own organisation we had a brief convo and I walked around to check if mum was there I saw her also walking around and she saw me so we got together again, and I had to pretend nothing happened, and Arthur also just looked at us and pretended nothing happened between us

and then caitlyn's and cecilia's mum came and they gathered together later I think I had a slip of the tongue and caitlyn's mum kind of caught it and inferred that I know ruth, who was her therapist. I didn't have much to explain, I could only say oh she worked at hku cedars (LMAO), and I help out in related fields so yea

and basically they're chatting about therapy is good and caitlyn's mum find it quite rewarding and useful, and then Arthur came around naturally to have a chat/ promote his work I think at some point they also raised the idea of getting therapy to my mum mum was just treating it as casual talk without actually reflecting on this idea i think

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聲嘶力竭的吶喊 終究還是被震耳欲聾的嘲笑聲蓋過。

a failed lawsuit

#jy #mum #dad #claudia

I had to attend the court as I was sueing JY But I was going there with my mum and dad, and they had no idea what was going on. At the reception spot/ lobby of the court (looks like M&S food section), I guided them to the audience section and told them I would come back later.

After checking the seating plan, I had to walk through crowds of seated people to reach my special area.

I was a bit embarrassed because JY had invited some of his professors to sit as audience. And I covered my lower face with a brochure to reduce the chance of him and the professors recognising me (although it was pretty useless).

They were all wearing the ppe clothing. Some audience was wearing green, while many wore yellow. JY wore yellow too. I was in my casual wear- tshirt and sweatpants. _{(irl: green is student helper/mentor, yellow is for professors, blue for students)}

My hands began to shake violently. My body too. I was still affected by the incident, it seems.

I was just in time for the start of the hearing. But then the judge suddenly said, I had to be in yellow outfit in order to enter.

I rushed to another room (another audience section – that my parents were probably in but idc anymore), and wanted to borrow any clothings from anyone I know. I saw Claudia and her bf. The whole audience section was dressing in yellow ppe. So I didn't want to borrow the one from them because or else they would be the odd ones out/ can't listen to the hearing.

So I rushed out of the court back to the M&S food section and searched the shop for any yellow clothes, because when I was waiting while entering, I recalled there was one. I couldn't find it, and time was running out because the court hearing was ongoing and didn't wait for me, so I asked the shop keepers if they have yellow clothings. Two kind shopkeepers (one older one younger female) began to find it for me too.

Finally I got a yellow top, and rushed into the court. The court was full of laughter, with the judge laughing along with JY's side (JY + his lawyer), and the audience too. They were all laughing how I mistaken JY's big ass phone as his dick, how I was too sensitive and I made up what had happened... About how I am a liar... ...

The judge also announced times up, and ended the hearing as I entered.

I angrily yelled and quarrelled back. But... they were all too loud, and no one listened to me... the judge also talked over my voice... they were all laughing at me and scolding me for something I didn't even do..., and I am the fool

No one cared My friends were all in the second audience room

no one cared

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i have sooo many dreams today but only this one was stuck with me

intimate w roommate

#claudia

bruh

i think either I invited her to my dorm (we weren't roommates in dream), or she invited me to her dorm and then I thought I could be the bottom but then she asked me to help her so I began to lick her pussy as she was leaning with her back facing up, i double confirmed with her if i'm licking the right spot cuz it kinda looked different from the back I tried to use my hand to make her thigh open wider but the angle was just weird so I told her to flip sides and I licked much better a bit hairy but ok (the sensations in the dream were very vivid okay) she was rather comfy/ moan as i was getting the hang of it and then something happened and she had something to do so we stopped meanwhile I was still thinking how to lick better and make her feel even better and was thinking maybe i should search up for tips to lick better

conclusion: bruh I became top

bruh i want to be bottom bruh

bro tf i have no feelings for her bro ????

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invalid instax films

#claudia

me and roommate went to an indoors basketball court/ activity room at school we were sharing our fujifilm instax films because she wanted to take some photos with her boyfriend she/ her bf got one box of refills but they were mistakenly opened so all the films inside were now useless. (and it was the squared ones, not the mini ones) I said I have a box (mini) as well if she wanted to use it. She said nah. she asked me to open her another box of films so she can refill them in her camera (also mini sized, not square) I double checked whether she finished her existing films from the camera before opening the back. She said there was still some inside. I looked at a counter and it showed “6” (6 unused films) So I put the new films back into the packaging box and wait for her further instruction

_{i am sleepy}

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Paldea adventure w roommate; heavy rain escape; masturbation but period came

#claudia

Started off shopping for an external controller for my ipad which was an nds emulator, and I was playing retro pixel games with different locations and levels to be unlocked. And then later I got bored cuz I was kind of stuck at a certain point in the game so I started playing pokemon go There were a group of relatively uncommon pokemon around me, and I began to catch them one by one. During this time, my roommate, Claudia, walked by, so I told her she should also catch the pokemons. Just as we were catching them, the principal for the school in Paldea came around. Turned out we were in Paldea all along. The principal took us on a ride on a magic carpet to tour around the whole Paldea, meanwhile I was exclaiming to Claudia about how my ipad has such high quality graphics that I can see every detail of Paldea (and the pokemons beneath) on the screen.

Later we descended and me and Claudia went to an exhibition hall. We wanted to check out a Japanese mixed media art exhibition, with the use of embroidery and painting to a associate different pokemon types with colours. However, when we arrived, the staff told us to leave as we were just a bit over the exhibition time. (However there were still a lot of visitors inside the hall, and we wanted to stand there just to look at the exhibits, but the staff were kind of strict and fierce, so we left)

On our way leaving, there was heavy rain all of a sudden, as if the streets are going to be flooded. The surrounding streets were like my childhood neighbourhood. I grabbed Claudia to run together (cuz I knew the way out). But the streets were a bit different than irl so we turned into a wrong path, leading to a small mountain/ cliff place for tourists. There was a relatively older man (大叔) with his kid. When we were selfie-ing (idk why we wanted to selfie when we should be escaping), he demanded us to include him in the picture. He was super angry I think/ with a very bad temper. We didn't want to, but I said I could take pics of him and his kid. So I took a pic of him with his kid, and guided him slightly on how to stand, and I got the mountain view as the background. I gave him back his camera? and he was very pleased with how the photos turned out, and was thankful for us. He asked if we have time to chat/ take more pics with him or stuff, but cuz we were scared of him, we made the excuse (raining soon and we had to leave) and left quickly.

Still kinda lost in the alleys and turned a few times into the same turn with a random kinda unsettling temple with no one inside and a few suspicious monks??

Later I think me and Claudia were back to my home master bedroom, on the bed. I was kinda bored so I was masturbating (..... uh), I think I said something about I can only masturbate cuz I don't have a boyfriend but she got one so she didn't need to..?? And then I realised my period came so I couldn't masturbate

............ bruhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

There was more (other plot) but I forgot the rest of the dream

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