bloody bandages; explaining assault

#claudia ’s bf #JY

I was woken up in my dorm bed. I saw there was a few bloody unopened bandages at the end of my bed. By my leg/ foot. I wondered when I had put my bandages from the shelf onto my bed. Her bf (ernest) asked me about the assault. So I told him. And we simulated the situation with consent. In the toilet in front of the mirror. He was nice that he shoved his dick to the left before pressing down even harder.

Claudia was actually in the room next to us, when she chimed in saying JY was indeed sus

falling merry go round

Everyone was on a … circular bicycle kind of thing, like a merry go round. The floor would eventually disappear. So if they stop, they will fall. Many quitted the “game” and observed by the side. Only like four people remaining that were playing the game. At first there were also three girl otakus (one of them looked like Ame from Needy Girl Overdose) that were doing nothing and just sitting in the bicycle, people despised them. They didn’t care. (They later also contributed) And towards the end, a brother and younger sister goldfish also joined.

Meanwhile I wondered why they would continue, if quitting wouldn’t kill them (as the audience weren’t dead), but stopping the effort in the merry go round would.

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聲嘶力竭的吶喊 終究還是被震耳欲聾的嘲笑聲蓋過。

a failed lawsuit

#jy #mum #dad #claudia

I had to attend the court as I was sueing JY But I was going there with my mum and dad, and they had no idea what was going on. At the reception spot/ lobby of the court (looks like M&S food section), I guided them to the audience section and told them I would come back later.

After checking the seating plan, I had to walk through crowds of seated people to reach my special area.

I was a bit embarrassed because JY had invited some of his professors to sit as audience. And I covered my lower face with a brochure to reduce the chance of him and the professors recognising me (although it was pretty useless).

They were all wearing the ppe clothing. Some audience was wearing green, while many wore yellow. JY wore yellow too. I was in my casual wear- tshirt and sweatpants. _{(irl: green is student helper/mentor, yellow is for professors, blue for students)}

My hands began to shake violently. My body too. I was still affected by the incident, it seems.

I was just in time for the start of the hearing. But then the judge suddenly said, I had to be in yellow outfit in order to enter.

I rushed to another room (another audience section – that my parents were probably in but idc anymore), and wanted to borrow any clothings from anyone I know. I saw Claudia and her bf. The whole audience section was dressing in yellow ppe. So I didn't want to borrow the one from them because or else they would be the odd ones out/ can't listen to the hearing.

So I rushed out of the court back to the M&S food section and searched the shop for any yellow clothes, because when I was waiting while entering, I recalled there was one. I couldn't find it, and time was running out because the court hearing was ongoing and didn't wait for me, so I asked the shop keepers if they have yellow clothings. Two kind shopkeepers (one older one younger female) began to find it for me too.

Finally I got a yellow top, and rushed into the court. The court was full of laughter, with the judge laughing along with JY's side (JY + his lawyer), and the audience too. They were all laughing how I mistaken JY's big ass phone as his dick, how I was too sensitive and I made up what had happened... About how I am a liar... ...

The judge also announced times up, and ended the hearing as I entered.

I angrily yelled and quarrelled back. But... they were all too loud, and no one listened to me... the judge also talked over my voice... they were all laughing at me and scolding me for something I didn't even do..., and I am the fool

No one cared My friends were all in the second audience room

no one cared

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hku open day, can't find Arthur, convenience store

#jy #arthur (not there)

psyd biggggg hall

BRO i forgot to write the log

??????

ok went to hku open day. On my way to the lecture halls at cpd LG floor. While I was heading there, I saw the prof (JY) walking towards me and went past me. I was slightly concerned for a sec but he didn't spot me out. He looked a bit troubled though... _{(I think I dreamt this because during the day when I was going to help out at the mid-autumn booth, I saw him queuing at the Starbucks at the lobby looking a bit troubled. He was wearing a suit and looks much taller than I expected (like at least 5 cm taller from like 175ish->185cm or what, so I wasn't sure if it was him for a sec, but I looked at him for a few times and I am pretty sure it was really him. And he looked troubled again, he's like frowning. lol... and then I whatsapped ivan about it)}

Anyways, I continued on and entered the lecture hall which was the furthest down the corridor. It was super big like a grand book store. Super spacious like a museum but it's a book store. There was a mini section (like an area for talks in a book fair), and PsyD people were sitting there listening to lecture. I was embarrassed to walk past them cuz I was looking for Arthur who was possibly deeper down the bookstore.

He wasn't there, so I quietly/ sneakily walked past the mini section to exit the bookstore/ lecture hall, feeling kinda embarrassed.

Later I went to the convenience store with my friend, and we were waiting for someone. (I am not entirely sure why are we waiting though) While we were waiting, the dream ended.

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swimming class, recalling meeting about JY

#jy I put things in locker before swimming class, kind of disgusting because the locker on top of mine was dirty and has unknown liquid like pee, surrounding lockers were dirty too. But the cabinet I chose was the only vacant one so I needed to use it. Saw a small cockroach walking closer to me, it was super gross _{(Maybe it was because I was riding the MTR yesterday and I found 2 seats with unknown liquid like pee, 2 seats with period blood, and 1 whole row with giant poop smear. And I took a seat nearby which appeared clean)}

When I was heading for the swimming class with my uni classmates I recalled I met Julie regarding that incident, and I was rather annoyed when she said JY explained maybe it's his phone, cuz I really don't think phones are sausage shaped. But it wasn't that bothering me because this response was kind of expected and I don't want to deal more with it. But I thought I could question that back then instead of just nodding my head to Julie _{(yea I met with her two days ago) And then we started the swimming lesson}

weird toilet; furious to family, dragging snooker table around

#mum #dad The swimming pool toilet was slightly weird. The compartment was big and L-shaped, but the bidet was near the door instead of within the L shape. And when I close the door, there was still a gap, and students outside can see if I was sitting peeing. So I used my body towel to block away the gap.

Later I met with mum and dad. I think we had an argument, as I was yelling so much in the dream. We were at downstairs of our home, and I was too angry and kind of wanted to escape (?), and had loads of power so I was pushing a giant snooker table everywhere, from home to downstairs, to basement and back up, back and forth _{(hmm my roommate got a bf after going to the bar and pool with him, just 4 days from knowing each other, interesting)}

Psychologist meeting, Arthur shares my dreams, 絵馬 nametag

#arthur #secschool #PBLmate #Joseph They're organising a public meeting in Arthur's room (slightly bigger) with psychologists from various places (like 6-8 people), and took rounds to share? A few of my friends were there too (Ruby and Joseph) And then it was Arthur's turn, he went to the table with his desktop and opened this website. He mentioned a dream about me making stickers from what I drew/ random cute stuff like kaomojis I chuckled and was a bit embarrassed, although no one else knew the dream was mine He actually printed the stickers out for us to pass it down to take a look at And he seemed to be thinking about how to interpret the dream. Since in the dream I knew I dreamt that because Ruby liked to make handmade stickers, so I walked to Arthur's back to tell him about it and no need for him to overinterpret _{(Ruby doesn't make stickers irl)}

As they were passing down the sheets of stickers, Joseph took a medium sized sticker. It looked like a design about the secret garden and the rabbit from Alice in the wonderland, very cottage vibes and felt vintage. I was slightly surprised when Joseph took it, as it was just “sample stickers” Arthur passed down that I thought was for viewing only. But then I thought it was a good idea as stickers were meant to be used and we could always print more if we needed. So I encouraged others to take them as well if they wished to.

When Arthur started talking, I looked at his front and saw he had a nametag on a lanyard. I was very curious of the tag so I stared at it. He kind of didn't want me to look at it/ focus too much on it though, so he tried to turn away but I grabbed the tag firmly, I think I kinda pulled on the lanyard so it made him kinda uncomfortable. :P Actually the nametag is an 絵馬 (both shape and size and also wooden) (kinda big), on which was a project sekai card of 4 girls _{(I think it's the character card my friend got and posted on her ig story like a week ago, not sure)/sub>}

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nice library study tables

Maybe because I went to the library pretty early so there were a lot of vacant solo tables with just about right amount of sunshine that was shining the table but not too hot. It was nice.

mum threw away my phone

as a punishment I think mum threw away lots of stuff like two of my phones. Actually the family were doing a biggggg tidy up at home. But finally mum gave me back my two phones, she was just trying to scare me because I wasn't polite to her. I felt annoyed

Also I was chatting with quite some people (regular amount) on WhatsApp, and the interface design was like Line, which was very cool, but slightly confusing when there were many ads and non-friend official accounts.

practical stations at bookstore. wilted plant, solo practical

#ivan #jy #uni #mum #dad

We had a practical session at a large facility which was half clinic half bookstore. There were a total of three stations (initially, clinic waiting area, vaccine area and bookstore) (idk why later on there were many different stations). Ivan was in a different station for rotation.

I was being super loud with my friends, because I discovered the plant I had been caring for had wilted, and I was cleaning away the dead branches. And my classmate was saying there were bugs on my plant and I insisted there wasn't, cuz there wasn't, so she picked up a giant bug and put it on my shoulder, so I shrieked loudly. So the very strict teacher in Ivan's station were scolding the students in their station, including Ivan (cuz the environment was loud). They looked like they were used to the scolding and so they apologised in a very hea manner. I felt bad for them because I was the one who made it so loud.

Next I was a bit distracted by the surrounding, and when I turned around, they rotated, but I couldn't find which station my groupmates had rotated to. I searched the clinic and the bookstore and asked other students, but they didn't know too. Ivan had finished a clinic session called “vaccine”, but my groupmates weren't there. So I just randomly started following an unknown group at the bookstore, listening to how the teacher was teaching drawing styles for anatomy I think?

And later this group had rotated to a nearby station also in the bookstore, it was a tech/ vr session by JY (aka that dude). I began to start feeling a bit nervous and slightly shaking. I was also holding a book with both hands and I put the book behind my back covering my butt. I kinda shrink in a way I wasn't standing straight. I was among the front row people though. So not exactly hiding. I think the people sitting at the waiting area nearby were looking closely at me for my reactions. Not the group that I was having the practical/ this station with though. However it kinda surprised me because JY was trying to teach and speak in cantonese entirely, and his cantonese was kinda broken. I was wondering if it was because the faculty forced him to use cantonese instead of mandarin, and I found it slightly funny. I am still stressed though, so I abandoned this group and went searching for another practical group that I can stick to.

The next group was a very boring chinese poem analysis group. The teacher was having KY Yuen vibe but not him. We had to follow his words to write notes.

After this station I went to read (actually just watch) a couple of drawing books, and then I went back to the place where I had the drawing style practical. There was a new station where we can read art techniques books and look at the samples, and the teacher also talking about it. This was like my favourite station in the whole practical.

Finally, somehow my mum and dad gave me a chance to get an extra station with the boring KY Yuen vibe guy. Initially I was trying to dodge it by going into different book aisles to find books I liked. But eventually I think they spotted me and so I was back with learning the poems and stuff. I got a cool fountain pen where stuff I wrote would became popping out- like plasticky feeling pop out words. So I was writing down the poem sentences the dude was talking about on the corners of my book. Maybe he found that I was quite studious, so finally he played some music while he read a paragraph in the book (he had a copy of the book too). He was crying while reading it. I used my pen to frame out this paragraph, while thinking, this pen design was pretty interesting, and the texture was super fun to touch (* repeatedly touches my notes *) maybe the blind people can learn braille with it. Or maybe if the teacher only had like two students, the teacher can just set up exercises and exam papers by handwriting them with this pen. And there was no need for a braille printer. This was so good. Eventually the KY Yuen dude ended his class in tears (he's too invested in his paragraph and it was about time as well), and my mum and dad were gonna talk to him about the class. Meanwhile I walked off again to check stationery and books I liked, and I put down all the books I planned to buy/ liked, because they weren't necessary anyways.

Later my dad came to find me. He sort of ask if I wanted it- I was holding a memo holder. And then he asked what are the places nearby to have lunch, we're gonna have lunch with the KY Yuen dude. I just kinda froze and looked at him, because I was thinking, you guys wanna have lunch and you're asking me for ideas and do all the stuff again... (I also didn't want the memo holder too) _{(Maybe it was because they were pushing me to have a haircut, but urged me to do the reservation for the haircut. I did it but I was annoyed)}

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class hideout spot with A

#A #cecilia some sort of apocalyptic setting I was rushing home because outside was unsafe? probably a virus incoming Also saw some electric sparks on the ground, and the spark didn't go away. On top of the spark there was some high voltage electric wires hanging too. There were more and more sparks on the ground so I decided to head back to my estate When I was riding in the lift back to my floor, there were some classmates from other classes back in primary school. (We don't know each other personally but we know each other's presence in the form) They said they had repurposed a big activity room as a hideout spot for people, and asked if I wanna join

I was thinking although the virus was contagious, I think sticking to people was safer than being alone and left out and not knowing what was going on in the outside world. So we got off at their floor, which was lower than my home.

It was a large meeting room. I saw many faces from their friend group, which I wasn't familiar but still we sort of know each other. My childhood friend, Cecilia, was there too (she's from that friend group). I asked if I can sit here (a seat closer to them) _{(she was catcher C from last last dream entry- hide & seek flying)}. They said sure and I sat _{(probably because my reputation was pretty good? irl too. I mean there was a schoolmate idk and she looked delighted and waved at me when she saw me in a restaurant lol? idk what's happening so I hiiii-ed back)}

After a while there was a person entering the room by herself. It was A. The atmosphere in the room was slightly tenser than before, since actually many people didn't really like A, but they wouldn't show it literally. I was a bit annoyed to see A even when the apocalypse is coming. Idk who tf invited her.

We didn't greet A. A went to sit at the back of our cluster of people.

Later on it was chinese class. But tbh it was just a random class not exactly chinese iirc in one of the occasions we had to close our eyes, and the teacher was asking some questions about who you dislike in the class, and asked us to point at the person, while everyone was closing their eyes/ blindfolded. I punched A slightly. I heard A yelped lightly. Despite closing my eyes I can see other people also pointing at A (because I swapped to third-person view after entering the activity room in dream)

Afterwards, A was embarrassed and left the classroom (most likely heading to toilet), and came back later.

selfie w blythe & maxwell

#blythe (a super super tall science/ physics teacher, really liked him before he left school in f3? f4?) #jy (blythe & maxwell are both foreigners)

At first I met auntie Atlex (mum's friend). We two were walking around flower show (in Victoria Park?), chatting. Later we were queuing for some stuff, when I saw a tall figure came and queue behind me. I was very excited because this tallness was unmistakable. I looked up and saw it was really Blythe. I was overjoyed. I told Atlex to pardon a sec (because we were having a nice convo) and began to talk to Blythe. I greeted him (unfortunately I forgot how I introduced myself, probably something along the lines of you taught me science back in F2, you wrote me some encoraging words on the memo slip before you left, it's been yearssss I missed him and I told him I got into medicine !! :))) and thanked him with a gleeful smile)

After that, another teacher, Maxwell, walked by. I was surprised to see him too (although he's not a teacher I “like” in that way, just a normal good teacher) So I said hi Mr Maxwell you've taught me English before (I was pretty sure he didn't remember me) I asked them if we could take a selfie together I couldn't really read their reaction, I thought they didn't really like the idea, so I asked if they don't want a selfie can I take pics with them one by one. Anyways we were going to take a selfie using my ipad. We walked outside of the queue to the side, on a small podium. After a few tries, we finally got everyone in frame (first try Blythe was out of frame) and took a photo. The photo is a bit blurry because the camera was bad (my hand wasn't shaky, not that kind of blur). I spotted another person between maxwell and blythe in the photo. It was Yurika (a classmate). I looked back and saw her playfully looking at me. I welcomed her and thought it was amusing to see people I know together. Just at this time, Chloe Chong (also a classmate from the same class back then) walked by, I said hi to her and she discovered our group. So we decided to take a group selfie together again since it was such a coincidence we all knew them and were from the same class.

_{(OH! Reminded me of that time in Grove, where I saw Arthur, Ruth and I don't really know who's the other therapist. Angela ??? And then Ivan was behind me in the queue. It was so hilarious because we both didn't have class that day, yet the right moment the right location people I knew and liked were all here. I was thinking if Charlotte was here too then everyone I liked in the world were all at the same spot. omg. Can take a commemorative picture. I was very happy because it felt like a dream. So I got a bit too excited and hit Arthur. I guess irl if these things happen it would most likely be a funeral. Or a farewell party.)}

After the pic we returned to our seats (somehow the location swapped to a stadium) People were also walking up to take their seats. I saw the professor (JY) coming up to ask a lot of questions (like a lecture), and later on took a seat slightly diagonal and a few rows in front of me. I just observed him. I was feeling slighly unpleasant but calm. He was just sitting there.

(I think this is the first time dreaming about this prof. And his face was very clear in the dream. bruh)

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Hashtags to sort the dreams (and for me to remember what tags I have used)

• Family #mum #dad #relative

• mmmmm #T _{(<— tag for other Ts)}: #ruth #arthur #roy (driving coach); #cora #teacher –> #jau (f2 classmistress); #blythe (f2 science/ physics teacher) _{<— younger me used to ship them, bruh, but blythe is happily married} –> #cch (f3-4 classmistress); #mwong (f3-4 fmath teacher) _{<— two good friends}

• Good friends #ivan #charlottec

• Friends #onlinefrd #primschool :#cecilia #caitlyn #secschool –> #6grass (squad): #charlotteh #jamie –> F5-6: #sally #uni #pblmate –> Y1: #aiden (970) #adrian (3 day boy) –> Y2: #chinok (rhythm game boy) #joseph (nice voice boy) –> roommate: #claudia

• others #A #jy