private session with Arthur

#Arthur #ruth

the setting: I was living in this city in a hotel with my parents (somehow I wasn't living in our home or my dorm). I had a hinge that today's scheduled session was in the morning around 10/ 12ish. So I was awake from around 8 or 9 in the morning as I was scared of missing it. My calendar recorded it as 14:00 though.

I went to sassoon road to revise and work. It was around 12:40ish when I suddenly had the urge to double check the meeting time. The meeting time was 11am. The 140 was something else. I mistook it and recorded 1400 as the time. I checked my phone and saw Arthur actually whatsapped me if I was coming around that time. I immediately replied, oh no I am so sorry etc etc

And his replies are like ohnoo no worries (something looking casual), and his message style is just like me, with kaomojis and emojis and cuter eng words. I was a bit surprised but happy. I was wondering if he was trying to mimick me and attempting to get closer to me/ into my world. And I welcomed it. I felt quite warm.

I told him I was free rn but i have class at 330/420? until 1830 and hes like he cannot do the session then cuz I have class, but said we can do it after 1800 till 2230. I'm like ooh He proposed casually we can grab something to eat together after 6, and then he'll drive me to his “old small office apartment” to have the session. Had to keep it lowkey or else he would definitely be reprimanded and scolded by Ruth. I replied (a bit excitedly), oh we're going to your home?? :O just before I type that, he unsent that message and gave me a smiley face He corrected me (playfully but slightly seriously), it is an “office apartment”. I'm like ooh okey (I could already foresee myself sitting in his car, driving after dark to his home, chilling after eating cup noodles, or takeaway street food together by the dimly lit desk, in a slightly cramped apartment, probably watching anime together too... And who knows what would happen afterwards. If he was not “making it happen” I would try my best to “make it happen” * wink *)

And then I went back to my hotel, and secretly reserved additional a solo room (without my parents). And I started playing with my doll – a Furret _{(I bought it a week ago)} – in that room. It was pleasurable. But I had to be conscious on not getting period blood smudged on my doll. (period was like day 4 ish, not tooo much but still quite risky smudging) And I was quite tensed because I was worried my parents would barge open the door any time, when supposedly that shouldn't happen as this was an individual booking of the hotel room.

I was relaxing with Furret while whatsapping Arthur at the mean time, chatting about random stuff, like buying what type of messenger bags, what we were up to.

— I woke up briefly. But I wanted the dream to proceed to actually meeting Arthur, so I went back to sleep. But the storyline didn't proceed any further.

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I think it was because I forgot to attend the last day of an experiment, and that experimenter whatsapped me if I was coming. I missed it and replied in the afternoon, but she wasn't available in the afternoon, so I kinda ruined the experiment as the training had to be done in consecutive days. And I kinda like that experimenter, tomboyish. A bit like Ruth. and I think I ruined her impression on me. (cuz I was late for another day as well)

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bpd diagnosis discussion among wellness team

#arthur #ruth #t

I was listening to a talk about exchanging to overseas universities in the common area in my dorm with a dream guy friend (not irl)

(there was a university called ... tomato university in canada... and the girl who was tryna promote the uni was wearing a tomato mascot outfit... oml)

Anyway, the guy friend left right before the talk ends, and I helped him collect his handouts and worksheets and I looked back and saw Arthur sitting kinda diagonally behind me, using his phone. I looked at the screen and saw my emails (not irl) with him. (using outlook) The content of the emails were all conversations I had during the session. I asked him what that was, and he swapped to whatsapp and showed me a whatsapp group where he sent all our conversations out. He explained he kept the emails and forwarded them to a group with the rest of the wellness team, and this group is specifically to monitor? my behaviour through discussing about my words with him. (sentences with the vibe like I'm never gonna leave you/ just you/ previous “arguments”/ sentences about I like him a lot) I was checking the whatsapp group members but I couldn't recognise the people, as they are using their default names (not phone numbers nor contact numbers) which were all nicknames. But apparently that's the team. The group chat was kinda quiet though. Just him sending out the convos and occasionally someone would reply briefly. I suspect they were discussing in person.

Arthur admitted slowly but frankly that he thought I was a bit borderline, to which I said it's ok cuz I felt I was kinda this too. And I felt a bit recognised because I haven't had a definite answer from him before. But internally I was also slightly upset because they think I have such a condition.

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Halloween event: searching Ruth's Guinea pig in Disney

#ruth #chinok #secschool #uni

I was having dinner in school food court, assigned into tables with secondary school schoolmates (weren't that familiar). One of the waiter seemed a bit intellectually disabled + mentally handicapped, a bit schizo some of the classmates accidentally and unknowingly provoked him by saying things that didn't align with what the waiter was saying when he came around to serve dishes. During the most serious time, the waiter seemed he was about to explode. So I spoke up and chatted along with the waiter and agreeing on his points (which were diverted from what he was mad about), so I swap his attention away We sort of had a conversation which was not too meaningful, but enough to stop him from exploding. He's like a damp firepit now

I felt relieved.

Later we all had to go to a computer room. I was chatting a bit loudly until we entered, and I realised the people inside the room were super silent. I was kinda embarrassed but luckily I realised the silence pretty soon so I wasn't that embarrassed. Turned out they were assessing the audio noise in their headphones. So basically we had to record voices and noises using the headphones w microphone and equipment we got assigned with, but in order to eliminate unnecessary noises, like the accidental breaths into the microphone, the school will determine our personal baseline noise level first.

And we had to get the equipment and then participate in a halloween event by wellness team. (I wasn't sure whether the equipment was related to the event, but the event was definitely organised by wellness team)

So we were watching a slides presentation in the room to get briefed about the event. So Ruth got a golden guinea pig. (imo it is a very cute cat, but somehow it said guinea pig so guinea pig it is) And she put it somewhere in Disney. And we were going to find it. There were clues about the guinea pig, like size data, a picture of Ruth dressed in feminine clothes by the shore; (and also more info about ruth- like which district and which building she lives in – I was like SEE i think she lives in mid-levels) _{(not confirmed irl- just purely my imagination)}

And very quickly our group is leaving to catch the Disney shuttle van. But I was far from ready. I needed to wear my socks, my shoes, get my disney headband, pack my bag... and my phone started to glitch as well- the keyboard function broke. And I can't interact with anything, I tried sending messages in our team chat but it would just send random stickers and irrelevant texts. Chinok looked over to check on me as I looked confused. and I was choosing which plushies to bring with me, as I have a few- a disney related kuromi, a momonga, a dumbo...

They asked me/ looked like they wanted to wait for me, so I told them not to wait for me, and go on the 6 shuttles and I will catch them later

I eventually took dumbo I think because it was the most comfortable and softest to touch. _{(Dumbo was a high school christmas present from 6grass to me during school christmas party- and jau touched it during the party so I was overjoyed)}

i rushed out in the rain, keeping dumbo under by coat in my chest/ where the heart was, to get on a shuttle metro cuz the road led me there (i was kinda lost and I thought the metro won't be too far from the shuttle van destination as they were both Disney related) But the metro actually went back to the urban districts (there was a hidden mini side / another Disney park)

I was like oh,,, and then I wondered what if we got kinda tricked and actually Ruth hid the guinea pig there instead. And I checked the slides and saw one of the photo is the disney receipt and there was the disney address it was actually this one that I was heading alone

The metro line was brown, just like the Tuen Ma line. _{(maybe because I rode that line during the day to get to my driving school)} I got off around that disney station (the station didn't say there was a disney though) Hopped on a bus. But later it was in a traffic jam as it was Halloween and there were so many people on the street. (The road was like shared with pedestrians, so the bus cannot force through) I got off immediately and walked along the street to find the place where Ruth took her picture.

I walked past the crowd and went up an alley. There were many rats running around but I still walked up quickly. I wanted to find the guinea pig. There were less and less people gathering there as it was more unhygienic and secluded. I imagined her exposed legs. Rather slim and smooth. I looked at her hands. Ahaa. And she put on kinda sexy eye makeup. _{(huh interesting she always wore long pants irl)}

Eventually I arrived at a cliff on the mountain, and looking down was the coast. It was the place Ruth took her pic. But not the exact spot. There was an escalator down to the seashore so I went down to see whether that would make me closer to the spot. Tried and didn't. I planned to took the escalator back up when I saw a mini museum thingy, so I asked the entrance security guard about the guinea pig, whether she knew about it or even was taking care of it in case someone gave it to her. She had no recollection of it, and she seemed uninterested in our convo

I took the escalator back up and found the exact spot. I imagined Ruth in a beach dress just like in the pic, standing by the rock “fence” thing by the cliff, and just enjoying the wind and beautiful scenery.

I can't find any guinea pig though. Then my phone received a group chat message (group of all participants including those from other teams), people asking whether it was the location on her receipt. I was like shit, they discovered, and I don't like the fact that they would be the one finding guinea pig and this nice secret destination that should be just for the both of us

So I kinda panicked and tried to run around back and forth to find the guinea pig. I wanted to be the one who find it. (And get noticed by Ruth.)

And I woke up.

_{Now after I wake up I think I could read the guinea pig data file, what if the guinea pig is so small that I can't see without really checking every bush/ every blade of grass? What is the Guinea pig? Something atypical? Who knows? Maybe I need to make use of all the given information.}

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roommate sh

#claudia I was just scratching and making cat scratches on my bed, and my roommate was sitting by her desk. Then she turned around and showed me her freshly cut arm with long cuts and blood slowly coming out like little droplets out of the lines I think she asked me something but I forgot (it was very graphic but I wasn't feeling much from seeing it??)

anyways turned out she was cutting but I thought she was revising by her desk ye _{(maybe because I think she stress herself out a lot and she got a fever by overworking)}

hon's letter

#charlotteh I was sitting at university upper street, and among the crowd walking by, I saw charlotte hon in her law cape ?? walking by. I think she graduated/ was graduating. I waved at her and she waved back. I was surprised and happy because so far I haven't seen her in campus at all since the beginning of uni. She chatted briefly with me and took an elevator next to me and went down and left, cuz she was busy.

Later I received a digital letter (hmmmm not email), saying things like, friends are meant to support each other, and asked me if I disinfected and how are my thoughts and to reach out to them anytime if I ever feel like it

I was touched, and at the same time wondered if charlotte c told others (like jamie and her)

exhibition fair with mum

#arthur #ruth #mum #caitlyn #cecilia

I wanted to go to the exhibition fair to buy something/ collect something from Arthur but mum kept bugging me like where exactly was I going, what did I bring with me and I accidentally answered wrongly and “invited” mum to go along with me bruh also at one point mum was saying something really stupid and I was frustrated and grumbled during my sleep- (i hope my roommate didn't mind)

and I tried to get away from mum once we entered the fair and I was pretending shopping until I saw Arthur by his booth, I think he was promoting his own organisation we had a brief convo and I walked around to check if mum was there I saw her also walking around and she saw me so we got together again, and I had to pretend nothing happened, and Arthur also just looked at us and pretended nothing happened between us

and then caitlyn's and cecilia's mum came and they gathered together later I think I had a slip of the tongue and caitlyn's mum kind of caught it and inferred that I know ruth, who was her therapist. I didn't have much to explain, I could only say oh she worked at hku cedars (LMAO), and I help out in related fields so yea

and basically they're chatting about therapy is good and caitlyn's mum find it quite rewarding and useful, and then Arthur came around naturally to have a chat/ promote his work I think at some point they also raised the idea of getting therapy to my mum mum was just treating it as casual talk without actually reflecting on this idea i think

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finding surgeon

#mum #ruth (actually didn't appear)

Mum liked to be close with famous people. In the dream she went for surgery. After coming out, she said there was a famous doctor (a pretty big neurosurgeon in our faculty) who was on the next bed of her surgery (as a patient). She told me to find him for her in order to let her say words like she recognises you and they can be closer or whatever

So, me, still in my scrubs (I work in that hospital), I went to search for that doctor. I walked around in the hospital but there was no sign of the doctor. Maybe he already left after his minimally invasive surgery. I followed two staff to the back corridors where they led to different doors. I entered one door. It was the backdoor of a supermarket (so the hospital and supermarket were interconnected)

I was in the supermarket. I was a bit confused but I briefly walked around to find the surgeon. Seems not here. I saw the staff that went through the door entered another backdoor. And they were talking about mental health team or whatever. So I sneakily followed through the backdoor and it was a staircase. One of the staff went up. After he (I assume it was a man) went up, I stood by the staircase of the original supermarket floor. I want to wait for the man to either come down or I wait long enough and go have a check.

In the middle of waiting, a figure who was wearing kind of punky clothes (in a good looking way) walked by. She ignored my presence. (maybe because I was hiding/ acting low-key). I looked and felt the person was like Ruth. So I kind of act coughing or humming songs because I wasn't sure so I wouldn't directly address her. But when I look closer, it wasn't, so I was relieved and glad I didn't yell and say hi to the person.

Later I went up a floor to see what was it. It was a mental health wellness room. But rather creepy. Because the staircase was dark and was made of old looking concrete. And the mental health room was on the top of the staircase. (There is one more section of the staircase going up, but it ends into the wall, so I wouldn't count that as one more floor, although it said 8/F)

Anyways, I looked inside. There was a young little girl in shocking pink dress, with her back towards me. She was talking to a woman (at first I thought it was my secondary school art teacher, but soon I realised it was Ming Yi teacher aka Cantonese opera lesson teacher – yes our secondary school has niche mandatory courses)

Since the woman was sitting towards the direction of the door, I was scared of being discovered, so I hurried down the staircase.

Back on the supermarket floor of the staircase, actually there was a side path which led to a hidden corridor to all classroom doors. The path was initially blocked by a double door. The first one you need to press a button to unlock it. The second one you can just push it open. Coincidentally a staff walked by and just pressed the button. So I followed through. I used a little rectangular thing on the floor to hold the door open, because I couldn't see such a button on the other side of the door. I was guessing if I needed a staff card to access, then in that case I would be stuck here. The second door was simple, I just push it open, but I am worried again if it shut and it was a one-way door and I couldn't open from the other side. So I was holding the second door open (because there was only one door “holder”? and I used it on the first door)

So the dream ended here with me holding the second door open.

my own loft became family trip

#dad

Japan trip! With me alone. I was checking in a place with my luggage. There were two elevators, I entered the one which came earlier. I checked my tag on the room key, it said 6/F. So I was finding the button to 6/F, when I realised this elevator is for odd numbered floors only. But I was too lazy to get out and wait for the other elevator. I blinked and looked away from the buttons for a brief time. I looked back and the 6/F button was here. I pressed it. At first there was no response (no light after pressing button, lift wouldn't move), but after pressing it multiple times the lift worked. And the lift opened at 5/F which was what it was supposed to do at first place (odd numbers) And I was slightly scared of elevators too so I got off quickly. _{(scared because I had way way way too many nightmares about elevators and escalators not reaching the floor I wanted when I was small. So usually in the dream as long as it opens and it was close enough to my floor, I would just leave. Because they could never put me on the perfect floor)}

I got out and walked for one floor with my luggage. (It wasn't tiring at all) I checked my tag on the key again and found my room. I entered with the key. The room was really nice. Very white, clean, the furniture was sleek. I quickly checked if the door locks work, and then I close my door immediately. I continued to look around in the room. Big TV. Somehow there were three beds. One double bed in the middle, two single beds on the sides. It wouldn't be too worrying if there were only two beds in total, because I can still kind of rationalise why me, one person only, would have two beds (e.g. inviting friends over; room provider only has double person room) But now we have three beds. And then I looked back at the door and found it was open. I tried to close it but it wouldn't click, it would just open again I figured out there was a silk scarf which was tied onto the door knob that was stuck between the locking mechanism. Me, slightly confused because there wasn't any when I just came in, removed the scarf and threw it on the floor outside. Because I couldn't move/ nudge the long scarf away from the lock, the only way is to untie it and throw it away. Now the lock worked. I looked back into the room and saw my dad's shoes. And then I looked back at the lock and it didn't work again. And I heard my parents outside. They were checking into the same room. But seemed they didn't have the key. (Maybe because I took the only key and went in first). But because the lock wasn't working, they just marched in with their luggage.

Turned out this mini studio/ loft was actually our family hotel room and we were going on a trip... I was very disappointed. Because when I entered the room alone, I was overjoyed to see my own new space and I can try to manage my own living as a capable independent and functional adult. (I thought I was either going on an exchange or travelling alone.) But it was a family trip. And family was a stressor.

Mum was like, why are you putting up such a face? We paid for this expensive family trip despite running out of money, so that we can make you happy! I was pretty upset but I didn't reply anything back. Because it seemed like they were deliberately making me guilty.

Really quickly after they put down their luggage and roaming around the room loudly, they wanted to go out together (with me) to explore the neighbourhood (and I think to stalk my friends). _{(which for some reason made sense, because one time our PBL group went for dinner at my neighbourhood, and we sat near the entrance glass panel,,, and they walked by coincidentally and looked at every one of us amusingly. They told me later on when I got home. I was oblivious to this if they didn't say. Rather creepy hhahaah)}

Before going out we needed to turn off the TV. (They turned it on and was blasting mainland TV shows...) It took so long and many tries. Mum tried a few times before giving the remote to me to turn it off. But I couldn't too. It would just turn black for a sec and resumed the show. Anyways finally I figured it out and turned it off. But Dad wanted to try it himself using his own way, so he took the remote and was pressing buttons on the modem also. I was pretty annoyed because I already turned the TV off, he was just wasting time problem solving a now solved problem He turned it on again with the buttons and couldn't shut it down. Mum was yelling at him. I was annoyed. Dad was annoyed we were being impatient. Finally Mum told me to just turn off the TV using my method and ignore what Dad was doing. So now the TV was off.

Now they were picking hats to wear before going out. I thought it was just a simple task. I just see the one which matched my outfit and I pick that. And then I also picked one for Mum because she was wasting time and her taste was awful. And then Mum began to kept praising me for such a good taste. I felt uneasy and a bit scared.

Dream ended. Sigh! I was picturing a nice quiet overseas exchange me-time! Now it was a noisy and unnecessarily hectic family trip. Awful.

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work w friends; breakfast! with ruth n many others

#secschool #chinok #pblmate #onlinefrd #ruth #arthur #T #6grass #ivan #primschool (lmao so many tags) Ok so Work with Mancy until sunrise at place like chiwah. Mancy was working on EY registering exchange stuff. Saw sunrise outside window. Later I left.

Went to place like lab block in sassoon, to have MHFA lesson by Vincci (lol first time thinking and seeing her in dream heh) After lesson I think I went back near med lib. I think my PBL group was gathering for something (related to studying). After that, near 6pm I grabbed ChiNok to go tgt back near lab block. He didn’t really know what I was up to, I think I gave a random reason and he didn’t pushed me away when I legit grabbed and pull him along with me. I was waiting near lab block exit in order to see if I can see Arthur (and others) leaving after work. I don’t know if I saw him or not, I actually forgot how the dream went. Because Ruth walked by and chatted with me. (I think I abandoned ChiNok starting from here, but I was pretty sure there’s another person next to me. Oh maybe Yuki??) _{(new person unlocked in dream- if you’re reading go ask Vincci who that is; basically online friend whom we knew each other since 2020 but met physically for the first time during MHFA lmfao)}

And then Ruth stood in front of me and asked me how we’re doing, while looking at me. I think I answered something like ok, because my friend was next to me and I can’t talk too deep

And then Ruth was very chill And she asked how was MHFA and began to test me on some easy concepts of the lesson (but was actually med stuff..,..,..,.) I got the first two wrong, but I guessed the third one right, but not exactly 100% correct. I was chuckling with my friend. Well but Ruth said my answer was right, and she encouraged me.

Later I think my friend left for some other thing so it was just me and Ruth now !!

Ruth still looked very chill. She asked me how do I feel about the news yesterday night. I was a bit confused and asked her what news. She said there was a med student who jumped off in the washing machine room in the residential hall. And we began to walk back to the breakfast hall probably at main campus (it wasn’t that far in dream) to have breakfast. It felt like some sort of study tour where the breakfast buffet is planned and we’re going to have it.

Back to the conversation, I said oh I didn’t know. And I thought to myself I’d rather choose my own room which had my own washing machine (it made sense in the dream) as the place to jump instead or else people would find me too early and it’s useless And then Ruth seemed to read my mind and she said maybe her/ your _{(I forgot what pronoun she used)} own room is better, right? I said yeah…

We walked by chiwah again but the sky was early morning, not bright yet, but nothing special I think we were chatting about another topic but I forgot just now :(( (probably some actual “how’s life” type of stuff…? And it was bidirectional and she also answered, not just me)

And we arrived at the dining hall. The first table was fruits, I dislike fruits so I swiftly walked away to the other table, but Ruth seemed she didn’t know because I was near her the whole time and I left too quickly I saw she wanted to use the tongs to get some chopped fruits for me but she subtly looked around and I wasn’t there, so she gave it to others. I felt a bit sorry but I decided no fruits over staying with Ruth lmao

The other tables were full of food I wanted to eat. Gigantic sushi, sashimi and oysters.!! I looked through what dishes they had provided and I got my tray. I think I accidentally knocked over a ramen spoon (those big ones) onto the ground. I didn’t plan to pick it up because it was dirty and idk where to put it. Also I had some food targets in mind esp a fish sushi which has one remaining. Someone next to me picked it up and put it to the return tray. I looked and it was my primary school friend Nickole. I thanked her but my voice was too too low, like whispering. So I thanked her again, this time slightly louder but still whispering and in a singing tone. I was pretty sure she couldn’t hear it, but I heard her whispering/ humming something like no problem I was walking back to the food tables and someone said hi to me. It was Winnie, one of my “6 grass” squad members. We said hi because it’s been such a long time seeing each other. I asked if I can sit with them for breakfast and she said ofc! Just at this time, the other members of my friend group came. Candice pointed out there’s “the person” walking towards us. It was Maisie, also a sec school friend (who was depressed) (but 6 grass don’t know her) We briefly said hi And then around the corner there was Ivan choosing food. And a few steps behind him, Ruth was watching (us). I noticed Ruth but ignored her. I said Hii to Ivan, and my tone became very close to Ivan, I asked him what he’s choosing what he’s gonna eat, and told him I’m gonna have that sushi and oyster because it just so happened last night before sleep I saw instagram reels about these exact same food and I wanted to eat, and such a coincidence! There’s the same thing here. _{(now the fun thing is the above sentences are true. I did watch red book reels before sleep and saw and wanted to eat these, they’re actually the same)}

Anyways yeah dream ended here before I actually got any food. Lmfao I abandoned my Ruth lol ahwhaoNqjsajdbkaa

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crazy people at beijing metro station

#secschool #caitlyn Multiple crazy people (like actually look mentally retarded with twitched faces, weird smiles, and poor dirty messy outfits) Kept wanting to snatch my notebooks if I want to leave the station I cannot hide because these people can see Horrible My notebooks had all my revision notes inside so I couldn’t abandon them because I needed it, and also I didn’t want to just give them away, I put my effort into making them bro

Those crazy people just want to hoard them for no purpose/ to entertain themselves by looking at our dismayed faces

_{(so angry I think I have these poor angry wicked people in my brain so I can’t snatch and retrieve my knowledge in revision)}

After trying multiple times (multiple day and nights), a few friends walked by and about to exit the station I asked my tallest and closest friend to stop and help me carry some of the thicker notes when they were leaving, and they can give me the notes when we arrive at our destination (Because I had a stack and my new plan was to tuck them all under my shirt)

The plan worked, but since I had just that one more notebook I couldn’t put, I secretly held it in my hands. They noticed and one little girl (dressing slightly better I guess) began to chase after me. I ran as fast as I could. I ran until I arrived at my secondary school. I chose a staircase that the little girl can’t use in the dream (because her grade is too low, the staircase is for senior students) _{(no such rule irl)} I ran as fast as I can, I didn’t even take a breather in between the 6/ 7 floors of stairs I ran to the top floor. But because there were multiple staircases, the little girl also reached the top floor. I was desperate. Still holding to my notes, I ran across the corridor and see which room was safer for me to hide. None. Because the classrooms were empty, despite some with lights on and some lights off. Maybe it’s the summer break. I ran till the end of the corridor, where it leads to the main staircase. Luckily the door next to the main staircase opened and out came a staff. It was my friend’s mum. The staff stopped the little girl in her steps. And began to scold her. I looked back and saw the little girl was my friend, Caitlyn’s younger sister _{(irl very obedient, cute and nice)}

She was crying after her mum scolded her. But her mum was showing her her phone with all the videos of her doing these gremlin stuff with other people. And she looked like she’s not sorry for them and was very grandiose. I’m not sure in the dream if she was diagnosed with NPD or not (sorry)

But I didn’t dare to leave. I was scared she was chase after me later, when the staff was gone. The kid could locate me for some reason.

bookstore promotion event w Ts

#arthur #ruth #mum

Wow first collab in dream _{(I’m pretty sure because yesterday I went to sit there and ruth talked to me) (uh ha sorry the others weren’t in the dream)}

So there’s a book store collab event We are gonna promote our uni in the bookstore (I signed up to be a helper) _{(maybe because yesterday I signed up for peer supporter stuff)}

First I get to tour around the bookstore (because it’s not my turn yet and I should know how everything works first) (like a briefing)

( Ai I wasn’t sure what Arthur did in the dream. Cuz I forgot. Maybe he was the one who led me to the room: )

I got my own little room (actually rooms but put together) It looked very secure and soundproof and the doors and walls are solid wood with many locks

I turned the locks, get inside, and locked them again. But the walls were made of fabric..?? Not wood anymore. I tried to lock them more securely with the hooks but bro they are just one sheet of fabric

As I was fiddling with the locks my mum peeked inside and came into my room……… so I went to the room separated by another wall (fabric) But my happy mood of discovering a safe spot was ruined. I was thinking if I could play with my toy and also invite Arthur in the room to have fun together because it was secure but see I can’t n it’s unsafe……….. bruh

So stupid!!

Anyways I think Arthur continued to lead me to other parts of the bookstore to give me a brief look of different sections.

And then finally he brought me to a corner which looked like a cashier. Ruth was there. He handed me to Ruth and he left (probably back to his station by the entrance to warm up? icebreak with new visitors)

Ruth and a few helpers were there. She said hi and started introducing my job in this role- to pursuade people to sign up for the hku tour (which happens in the bookstore) (it sounded reasonable in dream)

And then very quickly right after she finished briefing us, a man and a woman came (probably parents). And it’s my turn to say stuff. I was nervous but the other helpers were just looking at me. Ruth was also waiting. So I had to say something. At first the man looked crossed before I spoke, but after I began to sell our package they agreed to it and signed up.

The tour package is $90 each person if they have multiple ppl joining, up to 4 ppl in total. (At first I thought it was a ripoff, I wouldn’t buy it myself)

After they signed up, the other helpers led them to the other stations where the helpers on that side would begin the tour.

…. Finally there was a grand show at the end of the tour. (Like disneyland parade and fireworks)

We all have to join in canoeing on the stream, where they decorated with lots of fairy lights. (The bookstore was actually very big… and the back of it was semi outdoor, so when we were canoeing we can see the dark night sky) (I didn’t see Ruth or Arthur canoeing though. Maybe all the physical work was done by us students lmao) (I think I saw Ruth on land guiding the canoes) And we had to sing while canoeing And I realised $90 tour fee was too cheap. Lol

physical dream log book & among us

Back to the bookstore. It actually felt like Eslite bookstore btw. I found this dark blue thick notebook I find it really suitable for writing my dream log. But I already have a digital version And I think I can recall better in the digital version, because if I handwrite, I’ll get carried away by writing itself and my dreams were gone, but if I’m just poking my device keyboard the memory won’t escape that easily.

Anyways so I patted the notebook and put it back to the shelf

Later I was playing among us on my ipad by the shelf. It was a big game (500 people in one game compared to the usual 10) I had the normal role (not imposter) but I had an ability to camouflage as someone alse. Which I didn’t really know what for, because there’s too many people, and no one recognised each other anyways. But I always chose to camouflage when other players walked by and when not in cooldown just to play safe.

Later eventually I died. I checked the player list. 500 ppl around 113? remaining Not too bad actually

Dream ended.

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Hashtags to sort the dreams (and for me to remember what tags I have used)

• Family #mum #dad #relative

• mmmmm #T _{(<— tag for other Ts)}: #ruth #arthur #roy (driving coach); #cora #teacher –> #jau (f2 classmistress); #blythe (f2 science/ physics teacher) _{<— younger me used to ship them, bruh, but blythe is happily married} –> #cch (f3-4 classmistress); #mwong (f3-4 fmath teacher) _{<— two good friends}

• Good friends #ivan #charlottec

• Friends #onlinefrd #primschool :#cecilia #caitlyn #secschool –> #6grass (squad): #charlotteh #jamie –> F5-6: #sally #uni #pblmate –> Y1: #aiden (970) #adrian (3 day boy) –> Y2: #chinok (rhythm game boy) #joseph (nice voice boy) –> roommate: #claudia

• others #A #jy

I forgot a huge chunk of the dream :(

data entry w ruth

#ruth Ruth needs help in entering data onto an excel doc. So I went to help her and we did the data entry together. She seemed happy? and thanked me. She told me that she interviewed quite a few people to find someone who can do the job, and I am pretty good at it/ the only one who can do it _{(? I forgot the exact wording but this is the gist)}. Turned out I was one of her interviewee, she was interviewing me for the whole time, but I didn't know/ wasn't aware. In the dream I wasn't really shocked by that though? I didn't have much emotion, I just feel pleasant because I helped her.

There are also other dreams (non ruth), I think it was with uni friends, but I can't remember Is Arthur in the dream? Not sure, I thought I caught a glimpse but idk

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undercover TA ruth

#ruth In the dream, other than having regular sessions with Arthur, I began going to Ruth’s side for some psychoanalysis / psychodynamic therapy _{(I am not sure / forgot what style she uses irl lmao)} in addition to the current humanistic ones _{I suppose (Idk what we’re doing lol) (probably y’all integrated multiple styles)}

In the dream I had a rather incomplete intake session, which basically only comprised of me stating my name and what I studied

Later she decided to blend in my social circle / uni life by disguising as TA and she replaced an actual TA during a tutorial session, to observe how I interacted with my classmates and vice versa

(I remembered at least one of my “uni classmates” are from my secondary school. But we are in different unis irl)

In the tutorial, it only reached the part when she finished taking attendence of everyone in class, then the dream stopped.

safety pants as outdoor pants

#mum _{There was more happening before this scene, but I forgot} Mum took my safety pants (but slightly thicker ones) and urged me to wear it. After wearing I asked her what I can wear outside, since there was no skirt/ pants in the pile of selectable clothes. She exclaimed with the tone of 反問ing my “dumb question”, “just wear it like this??”

And my outfit became white T-shirt and safety pants only.

And I told her it’s safety pants I need to wear something outside of it

And after she looked at my entire weird outfit again, she looked a bit embarrassed by her choice but didn’t say anything.

And the dream ended. _{(and in a few seconds’ time my mum rushed in and open my door for “better aircon air flow”.)}

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