bj for unknown frd, jau; passed supple exam

#mum #ivan #jau #uni

Originally I was playing hide and seek at home. The seeker was dad. I was in the living room alone, revising. I felt like I was still a secondary school student. Occasionally I remembered I needed to hide instead of studying by the table, so I went to curl up and hide next to the entrance door. I found that there was no place to hide, so I went to the area near the kitchen. That place can be slightly peeked by people in the master’s bedroom at a particular angle. My mum was on the bed and saw me. She was looking at me. I frowned but she was still looking. I became mad and left the house angrily.

I was alone at night at some far places near my neighbourhood. It was near “the coast” but the area was industrial. Weird To Kwa Wan ish.

I was finding places to hide. Like among the pipes in the industrial area. That’s when Ivan spotted me. He then took me to a supposedly better mysterious place he knew which was better for hiding. When we arrived at the hiding spot, someone was super near (walking on a staircase above our spot), and found us out.

Ivan asked me if I mind meeting up with his friend _{(probably the one who found us out but I dont recall too exactly)} too

We met up with his friend. Ivan told me to give his friend a blowjob.

(I haven’t done it yet. But I was already preparing and picturing the scene in my imagination.)

Looking up (upper area with a footbridge, like uni upper street), his friend has called his pals to secretly photograph us.

Two students + 2 parents with cameras. One of the students was holding the phone to take video of us. The other one was using the parents film camera very casually to take pics for the parents. Like using burst shots and not holding the camera properly. That must be expensive lol.

I felt slightly surprised, slightly slighly betrayed but no other emotions… later somehow I knew I needed to give jau a blowjob too (it’s a she though)

Later I entered the med lib? QMH? which was near the industrial tubes. We’re gonna receive our exam results here. Actually the timetable was given to me by Ivan just now when we were hiding. I don’t really have the email notifying me.

Entering the venue, I took a seat. Others were waiting for the release of the proper exam meanwhile I was receiving the supple one, but they didn’t know because I didn’t tell them.

Before the event began, Mandy Liu came and asked me for my plans in EY. So I told her my plans and how I’m gonna incorporate medicine inside my plan too, to revise more. After chatting, she gave me a document to congratulate I passed.

Later I, along with other classmates, were collecting a document bag. I opened mine and it was actually my plans for the EY (basically what I told Mandy before). And the sample answers for all the exams on the courses I was planning to take in EY.

I realised maybe I would’ve failed, but because I looked eager for EY and how EY may benefit me, they let me pass the exam. Maybe that’s why I didn’t receive the email too.

I was crying moderately in the dream. _{(I very seldom cry in dreams)}

teach math; hanging out

#secschool

I went to medlib / other lib to revise my med again. I took a random seat. Edwina was next to me as I walked past. She asked me to help her with a math question. So I proudly taught her.

After revising for a bit, I left the lib and went on the street. Yuki and her friends walked past. They waved at me and invited me to hang out together so I said sureee and walked together.

Dream ended.

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group leader

I’m the group leader for a group. Just like a tour guide. Our group is assigned with ky yuen as our tutor… and other groups are assigned with other typical professors… Lmao Thats it

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homework results one meh one good

#ivan

(I am sure there was a complete plot, something before this.)

leaving mmw block after listening to a med homework debriefing. My mark was meh. There was a dude on the road who was like yeeeeeesss (i think he got the highest mark and our marks were so far apart) Ivan also walked by and prob said hi to me. His marks were decent.

I was leaving for lunch actually. But I turned around to return to the block because I wanted to go to 1/F for I think a coffee vending machine. or to collect my another homework. I entered the block but it was coincidentally 1pm, which meant it was the resting time for the block, and the security guards were closing off the area. So I was at the lobby along with others. There was a paper flying down to me. It was my chinese homework. I got a rather high mark (990 x2 + 950) (wow), I felt a bit surprised but not reallly happy because I was still thinking of my med homework. Some friends (forgot who. W in 6grass?) saw me and asked me what's the paper. I handed it to them and they saw the results and were praising me. I didn't really respond with joy.

Somehow later I got a song in the dream. Very Mrs. Green Apple vibe.

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packing for gathering

So I was packing my switch for a gathering with friends (6Grass squad). When I was heading to the venue I realised I didn't pack my pro controller. And that means I wouldn't have enough joycons for everyone. (Friend/ party room has two, I am bringing two, and five of us are going) _{This was one of the worries I was thinking of lol. Maybe it's a sign for me to remind my friend to bring hers too.}

school exotic pet dissection

It was a rather long dream. Initially we (students) were at a place like hall/ basketball court. There were different side panels and booths teaching different med stuff. People were crowding at the booths to learn and revise, and the lecturer would test us on the content of the booths. I couldn't answer any though, they're too hard to memorise.

Later I was about to leave via a longer more crowded hallway. but a professor stopped me. It was the anat teacher for my table this year. He asked me if I could help with handling something and bring it to the counter in front. I agreed.

He put a black exotic animal on the anat bench. It was a new species. It moves like a combo of cat and snake. But I felt like it was a mini dragon. It was at the size of an adult healthy cat, slightly more obese. No hands, no ears, furry black hair. Big cute eyes like cats. Weirdly adorable.

It was rather fierce though. I tried very hard in order to carry this cat-like animal. It hisses at me and might scratch me.

The teacher also gave a dog for the person on the left of me to carry to the counter. The species of the dog was like the one in the meme where people edited and voiceover a sarcastic laugh on a laughing/ panting dog. _{(Google sarcastic laughing dog meme)} The dog was easy to handle though.

Anyways after a long long time of carrying it and making it stay in my arms when moving, we reached the counter at the front of the hallway. Along with the person with the dog.

The counter was a cashier. We queued up and finally it was our turn. The teacher arrived at the cashier too. He told us to clip its body and ...legs (well maybe it has legs after all idk) using two clips. The clips had some pharmaceutic stuff that can calm the animal. Usually you don't need that much for sedative use. People don't use these clips. For euthanasia you use one clip. But this one took us two clips for it to stop moving and vibrating.

When it finally stopped vibrating, I was still wary if it would try to escape. So I slowly lifted my hands, which my fingers were tangled in its fur because I needed a firm grip on it. I warned the cashier to be careful too.

I lifted and looked at my palms. They were bleeding. And there was a giant hole at the base of my palm, I guess it was from the animal bite. I was slightly in pain while holding the animal, but now looking at the palm? Not so much. Maybe because the bleeding has slowed down and the blood had started to coagulate I guess.

The teacher proceeded to dissect on this freshly “sedated or dead” animal. He was dissecting stuff like gluteus maximus ..... the quads... He asked us to identify the muscles and compare it with human muscles.

_{eeeeek i hate lessons ashdjksafhd I already finished my exam bro gimme a break} Well but in the dream I was rather engaged in the lesson I guess. (By which I mean I didn't feel like I am disgusted.)

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update cv

The only thing i remembered is someone (my academic advisor? Ruth? Who??) told me maybe I should update my LinkedIn profile. I asked her if that means I add my certificates and volunteering work, and she responded something like a yes? Or maybe she didn’t respond. Idk.

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Side note: Having dreams daily now still but it gets fuzzier day by day. The dreams are more fragmented too. They’re like 5-6 short scenes instead of 1-2 long stories. Which makes it even more difficult to recall in terms of plot (as I usually remember a few significant events, and I’ll automatically follow my stream of thoughts and eventually write the whole dream out). On the other hand, on the days with no dreams/ blurry dreams, my mentality was better🤔🙂‍↕️ so essentially I’m redeeming my mental health with vivid dreams. I’m having mixed feelings about this lol.

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revision together

#pblmate

Human and Jane At first revised w Jane but later I spent more time revising w Human In a shopping mall I learned some knowledge but didn’t share it with her

Later I got confused about some learning points so I “dragged” Human, Human wanted to activate her banking account at the bank actually, but she was explaining the stuff to me. Innervation on/ near the sphenoid bone. _{(Maybe because some appeared in the exam. I planned to revise them that day before the exam but didn’t)} The bank almost closed- the staff was pulling the blinds thing for the entrance, half of the entrance just closed, Human was saying nvm, but I told her to go quickly when the other half was still open, so she went.

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mainland tuen ma line, school at midnight

waiting for mtr in mainland, somewhere like shenzhen. The vibe of the line feels like tuen ma line, a bit “historical/ museum like” design with mustard yellow colour. There was a group of faculty staff near me also waiting, chattering. One noted one of the terminal goes to their office, the other one goes to Raymond (one of the staff)'s home where they party together _{(Raymond is cool) (haha)}

at one point i got off the train and exited the station. and I needed to reenter and got bags checked etc at the security. While I was waiting, a girl was chatting with me, about the walls of the museum (which is also a historical site) nearby. She initially thought they painted a 清明上河圖 but I saw they just carved some calligraphy words so I told her about it, and we continued happily talking about the outer design of the museum

my turn at the security, she was chatting with me and later let me pass, but she didn't check my bag/ ask me to put on the xray machine belt

entering the station, was the museum itself. I met a dog who looked beaten up and (actually very ugly and swollen). But the dog was looking at me with begging eyes. So I adopted it and petted it on its head. A lady (seemed my friend in dream), asked/ hinted me why I adopted such a dog, and I explained to her it looked really poor (可憐) and I told her seems it understands human language (hinting not to say the word ugly), so we tried to dodge the word ugly.

(ngl it was really ugly) (it's the swollen very obese/ oedema, hairless type of ugly)

and then I went to school at midnight, it was a school introduced by (either a passerby or a friend who walked by). It was super dark. I turned on the flashlight on my smartphone. I entered a classroom he named (probably because it was his classroom). I hid under the table (because I wasn't supposed to be here, and not at this time too). Looking out at the window, I saw teachers ending their work and leaving the staff room. (because the building is like rectangular shaped and hollow inside like a rectangular donut, so like I was looking across my side of the horizontal corridor to the other side) A few saw me, and even waved at me, including my f5 and f6 classmistresses.

Later they all left the staff room (i suppose), the office light was turned off.

There was more to the story, I think I met some friends at some point, learning/ studying again, but I wasn't sure.

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tidying revision stuff, younger mum ate a lot

#mum

mum was cooking in the kitchen. I find my schoolbag to be very heavy, so I was tidying my “plastic a4 bag”, where I store my worksheets. It didn't look like there was a lot of stuff inside, but I manage to get huge stacks of worksheets I stored this academic year (form 5), along with lots of worksheets in previous two years especially form 3. I also found a lot of school ties, and pin badges (the badges you obtain when you are working in the class committee.) I was reminiscing the times when I was part of the class committee. Although I was doing minor positions. (I didn't think of any position specific in the dream, maybe because the pin badge just said something like class helper (no such pin badges irl). But there was also one that has the identical design as from my primary school, which was a bus/ nanny van prefect badge.

I also found pairs of white and black socks inside. The white socks are short, like the ones you wear with summer uniform, while the black ones were longer like almost to the knee. (My irl school wore only white socks though).

There were also two satin dresses. Exotic, royal blue and a darker blue. Like those oriental dance skierts. Idk why lol

There were also a lot of envelopes. Some were mailed to other classmates (weaker academics). Maybe I was the subject coordinator so I was receiving the mail on behalf of them, and they didn't want to keep the mail/ read them so they all made me keep it. Some mails were mine though. Most I got (which were for me) were opened already. Some I kept the mail content, which were school cards. Somehow I got three. Maybe because I kept losing them so I kept reapplying for them. They look silver, like the disneyland silver card, lmao. Actually looks decent.

After getting everything unnecessary out (which was like the vast majority of the stuff inside the a4 bag), I was relooking at the stack of paper. (I already looked through them when I was taking them out, they are really outdated worksheets).

I relooked at the stack of notes I made in form 3. The whole stack of paper was blue. With my handwritten annotations and notes. I was proud that I shared the digital version for other students. But I have an updated thought that maybe doing past papers were more useful for them, instead of just notes. But undeniably, notes were the first step/ entrance to obtaining the core knowledge so that you can do the past papers for more effective studying. So notes were still useful in that sense.

Later, I told my mum to clean up & wash the socks and dresses for me. She told me to leave these stuff for her, she'll deal with it later. During (breaks in) cooking, she walked out of her kitchen to share about her younger inexperienced self redeeming all 20 tickets for 煎餅 at one time instead of going for 4 包子 + some medical pills she required (seemed diabetes mellitus). Meanwhile I wondered that is also too much to eat for one meal, and I felt shocked, why she ate so much when she was already having DM/ & probably obese. She wasn't aware she was sick?? _{(she wasn't diagnosed with anything irl so far)}

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a mix of different dreams

I forgot So many random things happened in the dream At least five or six things

Anyways I just know I havent revised yesterday and today morning !!!!!!! And im behind my study schedule holy shet Oh my god

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revising with Ivan, attending workshop

#ivan

_{I think it is because yesterday I had dinner with Ivan and he revised MSS anat with me. And my brain power is restoring (lol) so I can keep up with his teaching! And I revised and remembered all, if not most, muscles, actions, innervations and vascular supply of the body (except head) in just three hours. We did touch on some head and neuro anat too. Omg. Three hours. Only.}

Yuh so we were revising. I forgot what happened, but at one point he was talking about serratus anterior and its action. So I began punching thin air while sleeping. Oh in the dream we were revising in an alley. And he was going to measure my punching force using my phone camera + app, to check if I have myasthenia gravis... Because I was weak asf At first i did punch weakly, but later I got stronger and punch with more force (although it was still weaker than average). And my right arm punches are more forceful than the left ones.

yee I forgot what happened before and what happened next.

At some point I was late to a class. Oh it's like MHFA. With a bunch of counsellors (made up ones in dream). But they're teaching EBDM and public health content. It was more like a “sign up if you're interested” workshop with two lessons in total. But then anyways I signed up and attended the first. They taught something that they said wasn't taught in the main lecture series but would come up in the exam. So I was kind of :O and slightly happy I didn't miss out on stuff. Although it was kinda scary to think (if they allow content that are not covered in whole class lectures to be examined)

On the second lesson there should be an exam. And I knew they're gonna organise the exam at around 30 minutes into the lesson instead of immediately, so I was late but not too worried. I was late because I wanted to make a notebook with my study notes. But I couldn't find the appropriate tools to make the book. For example, I had a small slip of memo that I wanted to stick on my self made study booklet. But I couldn't find an appropriate needle (all too big or too small), and a working thread (the thread was too big and the ends were coming out like cauda equina so I can't put the thread through the needle even if I have the correct needle) to sew the memo to the page. Oh also Ivan's revision material was two large stack of printed notes. And he annotate with mechanical pencil on the notes. Instead of his tablet irl.

I went there and later we had the exam. It was two google forms on ipad. Multiple choice questions. I finished the first one and was onto the second one. But I ran out of time (she announced one min left but I had a bunch of MCQs not yet filled in/ read) and the teacher was already explaining the questions. But the form submissions has not closed yet so I could submit it despite the teacher announcing times up. I wasn't panicking at all in the dream. I just answered in my own pace. And I knew the answers so I wasn't scared.

Yeah that's about it.

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