arthur's japanese lesson, drive to Cardiff

#arthur it was actually a therapy session. but later became japanese lesson and he's teaching me japanese in his (home?) and there were other students waiting for him to teach japanese as well (2 pairs of parent + baby, and another 叔叔) but he sat next to me and talked too long with me so one pair of parent baby left and he was like oh shit (cuz he lost a client?) but continued teaching me and then we leaned closer to each other i think his hands were on my breast and body I am also touching his hands and arms We loved each other. I actually wanted a hug from him badly, I guess that counted... so I was kinda satisfied (but not enough) I put my face next to his and i felt his “glasses arm” on my face? (I was wearing con so it wasnt clashing) so much tension and my heart beating quickly hehehehe he dirty talked slightly saying 你唔好喺度叫啊 so I 惡趣味 and moaned to him

later the lesson bell rang and he ended the lesson, the other “classmates” left (they felt like NPCs) and he offered to drive me back

so I sat in his car originally at the backseat his car was kinda big/ tall like those range rover type

I asked if I can sit at the front passenger seat (there was a tablet in front of that seat) he said there are some “male adult oriented tv shows” that I probably won't want to watch this piqued my interest and say bro i am adult too and idc so he just let me change seat

so i am next to him now

I think people who drive had very great charisma to me, they felt dominant and reliable (especially good drivers)

and apparently the drive was slightly longer than i expected cuz he was driving all the way to cardiff

during the trip we started to get silent as there was nothing much to say I began contemplating on myself and I told him im a bit 自卑 and seems that I am doing all this because I am controlling

it felt bad because i am affecting a lot of people by this controlling urge of mine and i only started to wonder if i am controlling after several psych app tests & others asking jokingly and I couldn't deny the fact that I think perhaps I am really quite controlling & all the stuff I did made sense if I associate the cause to this, despite thinking there should be a more “root cause” behind being controlling

and i think i got that because my mum was a bit controlling so I grew up to become controlling too, to try to get back what i deserve from her but i shouldn't blame her for me being controlling to other people/ everyone...

and then we drove past nottingham and i pointed at a building asking arthur if that's the place he studied before he said yes

later we arrived at cardiff but we decided to tour around before dropping me off but there were many stairs and our car couldn't handle that so we swapped to a smaller cart which he had prepared in the car it looked like a pram but can fit both of us

the tourism department spotted us and said there was an elevator service at 2pm every saturday? or wed? (anyways once per week) but for people to book in advance which is literally now but we didn't book so I was planning to carry the pram up the stairs, it wasn't much stairs anyways

but arthur briefly went away and came back to me, saying the elevator lady was willing to give us the elevator pass too so we rode the elevator in gratitude to visit the cardiff museum

predator (of a daughter) in museum

saw a man going after a girl. they were father / daughter they entered a bathtub booth in the museum and the father wanted to harrass the girl quite unsettling anyways finally the father got caught by security guard the daughter quickly escaped in fear

meeting prim/ sec school friends

#primschool I was at the mtr exit, waiting/ gathering for a physics exam soon, saw quite some secondary school people, and zoe cheng from primary school zoe deferred one year and was now in 5A (which means i am in f6?) (she was a very studious and bright classmate I looked up to in primary school – I haven't seen her since then; briefly whatsapped after release of DSE results) she deferred because she had a mushroom skin infection from drinking too much mushroom soup every day

later I realised I didn't pick physics as my elective, so I actually didn't have the physics exam, so I waved goodbye to Zoe, and we hope to see each other again soon.

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I miss them

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peer supporter event, eat delicious meal; “free” meal from delivery man

#T

vincci was busy i was leading some primary school kids along with other peer supporters their school lift was small tried going into lift to 4/f but other taller primary school kids with bigger furniture went to 6/F first

then we finally arrived our floor, where they invited a gov funded eng teacher? speech therapist? to come teach some other organisers include our counsellors then we had a very very very very delicious indonesian meal so delicious i tried opening and closing eyes to confirm if it was real life or dream, but confirmed it was real life ... it was dream

so yummy

anyways later i went to a fast food shop for beef rice like 吉野家 but the chef preparing meal was very busy, and the cashier as well, and i sort of avoided the counsellors cuz i don't want to explain why i want food and then a delivery guy walked by and saw me waiting, so he went to the chef/ food window and help me get a big big big box of beef rice it was $16.xx, I asked him if he has payme, he said it's just 16 dollars (no need), and i said I have payme qr code if he wanted to scan, and he didn't and waved goodbye

delivery fee increased

i was trying to return my jeans cuz taobao shop delivered wrongly (bruh) (irl) and i found this person who can carry it to mainland to deliver back, which would be cheaper than going from hk directly

then in the dream he raised the price from 3x to 4x and i was a bit annoyed

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missed opportunity to pat a cat

a long dream but the first part is fuzzy now

i just remembered learning the two nose sinuses looked like skull shape, and within one skull shape there was another four, and arranged in like the album cover of bohemian rhapsody wtf lol

and I think I have having some “cognitive processing” in the dream for today's social psych mid term (bruh I didn't know there was one, luckily roommate's bf told me)

(a lot happened in the middle)

at last finally I was cleaning up after a gathering. I was wiping a glass coffee table when I saw a black cat underneath. So I wanted to touch it. Initially my (father side( relatives/ mum seemed didn't really like the idea, so I didn't touch it despite it looking welcoming. Then they said whatever I wish and I tried to touch it but it hopped out of the table drawer and walked away

So I didn't touch it

slightly fat black furry cat, so cute

and then i woke

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聲嘶力竭的吶喊 終究還是被震耳欲聾的嘲笑聲蓋過。

a failed lawsuit

#jy #mum #dad #claudia

I had to attend the court as I was sueing JY But I was going there with my mum and dad, and they had no idea what was going on. At the reception spot/ lobby of the court (looks like M&S food section), I guided them to the audience section and told them I would come back later.

After checking the seating plan, I had to walk through crowds of seated people to reach my special area.

I was a bit embarrassed because JY had invited some of his professors to sit as audience. And I covered my lower face with a brochure to reduce the chance of him and the professors recognising me (although it was pretty useless).

They were all wearing the ppe clothing. Some audience was wearing green, while many wore yellow. JY wore yellow too. I was in my casual wear- tshirt and sweatpants. _{(irl: green is student helper/mentor, yellow is for professors, blue for students)}

My hands began to shake violently. My body too. I was still affected by the incident, it seems.

I was just in time for the start of the hearing. But then the judge suddenly said, I had to be in yellow outfit in order to enter.

I rushed to another room (another audience section – that my parents were probably in but idc anymore), and wanted to borrow any clothings from anyone I know. I saw Claudia and her bf. The whole audience section was dressing in yellow ppe. So I didn't want to borrow the one from them because or else they would be the odd ones out/ can't listen to the hearing.

So I rushed out of the court back to the M&S food section and searched the shop for any yellow clothes, because when I was waiting while entering, I recalled there was one. I couldn't find it, and time was running out because the court hearing was ongoing and didn't wait for me, so I asked the shop keepers if they have yellow clothings. Two kind shopkeepers (one older one younger female) began to find it for me too.

Finally I got a yellow top, and rushed into the court. The court was full of laughter, with the judge laughing along with JY's side (JY + his lawyer), and the audience too. They were all laughing how I mistaken JY's big ass phone as his dick, how I was too sensitive and I made up what had happened... About how I am a liar... ...

The judge also announced times up, and ended the hearing as I entered.

I angrily yelled and quarrelled back. But... they were all too loud, and no one listened to me... the judge also talked over my voice... they were all laughing at me and scolding me for something I didn't even do..., and I am the fool

No one cared My friends were all in the second audience room

no one cared

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i have sooo many dreams today but only this one was stuck with me

intimate w roommate

#claudia

bruh

i think either I invited her to my dorm (we weren't roommates in dream), or she invited me to her dorm and then I thought I could be the bottom but then she asked me to help her so I began to lick her pussy as she was leaning with her back facing up, i double confirmed with her if i'm licking the right spot cuz it kinda looked different from the back I tried to use my hand to make her thigh open wider but the angle was just weird so I told her to flip sides and I licked much better a bit hairy but ok (the sensations in the dream were very vivid okay) she was rather comfy/ moan as i was getting the hang of it and then something happened and she had something to do so we stopped meanwhile I was still thinking how to lick better and make her feel even better and was thinking maybe i should search up for tips to lick better

conclusion: bruh I became top

bruh i want to be bottom bruh

bro tf i have no feelings for her bro ????

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friend group travel, online lesson in ikea

I was with several friends/ classmates... one of them was a rather unfamiliar friend from junior sec eng tutorial centre _{(I think I dreamt her because I saw her new post on instagram)} we were all walking on street. A passerby and her husband came towards me and were solving an issue with japanese keyboard. They can't type a certain phrase in the keyboard as it kept being detected as english. I walked towards them and offered help. I taught them how to use the 分詞 button. (It was a mechanical keyboard with manual language switch button for jp and en, and the button were very good in texture) _{(I think I dreamt it because I was adding this groupmate for project, and her phone alphabet keyboard is es+en)}

Later we went to ikea and I sat in front of a work desk, and I had online lesson. I think the desk was super bright and hard to see because they were selling lightings and put many lamps onto my desk. One or two were above my head for some background lighting I suppose, but it wasn't helping, they weren't bright enough to minimise the contrast between my seat and the desk/ laptop. The desk lamps were so bright I didn't want to work

_{kinda feel tired idk whats the point of having this dream log if no one else reads it but it's fun but no one to share and i didn't dare to share it to my friends because some dreams are nsfw}

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no lecture in morning

In the dream I should have a lecture in the morning and a tutorial in the afternoon. I asked Claudia's bf about it (he also studies psychology) and he confirmed with me that today there is no lecture in the morning

so I was pretty glad about it and slept again

_{irl I only have the afternoon tutorial}

there was more to the dream but I already forgot when I woke up haha oh claudia also complained about my alarm in the dream, so I woke earlier to turn off the alarm

OH WAIT

farewell Arthur, locking arms

#arthur

AAAAAAAAAAA eeeeeehahahehehehahaa

At secondary school I was initially looking around at the corridor to see what other classes were doing. I met some secondary school teachers too? But the main point of walking around was to find Arthur.

It was winter time, and we were wearing dark colored down jackets.

I found him, he was standing by another teacher.

I walked towards him and greeted him. I thought I have something to ask him, he was like a professor or something. He put on a white coat and I thought it was ugly (it didn't match the outfit at all) so I laughed at him. He then put a black down jacket too.

Somehow in the dream I felt like he was about to leave to work on other stuff, but I didn't want him to go away after trying to search for him for so long. So I tried to hold his hand and talk to him. The secondary school teacher left us to head to her class, while I began to interact with Arthur.

As we were walking down the corridor, I wanted more warmth so I leaned closer and locked arms with him. We walked happily together (I think he was happy too??? at least I was super happy and he looked comfortable about it. He smilededddededdeddeded at me), although I knew eventually we had to say goodbye but I forgot how the dream ended.

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actually had a long dream but I can only remember this so far

med tutorial presentation

#uni #adrian #sally

I was sitting at the far corner at the back of the classroom again. It was a class where med students present their group projects. I didn't need to present though.

After the presentation, the presenters would initiate a Q&A session. The teacher at the back picked the person to answer questions. I was pretty scared cuz I didn't pay attention during the presentations, and I didn't really know what they were talking about. (very boring stuff like immunization in the community)

But the teacher said my name !! So I became alert and sat straight immediately. Turned out the teacher wanted me to pick a person. I immediately searched through the class to see who I wanted to pick. But all were either not really familiar, or I thought they wouldn't be paying attention and such, wouldn't know the answer. I picked Adrian eventually, while hoping he would know the answer.

I looked at him anxiously, and was relieved again when the teacher told Adrian to pick another person. And Adrian picked Sally. (I wouldn't think Sally would know the answer as well, actually I didn't think the whole class paid attention. But Sally was sitting next to her group of friends, so they could come up with an answer. (me and Adrian were sitting alone))

And Sally discussed with her friends and answered the questions/ raised questions during Q&A. Kind of relieved hahaha

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invalid instax films

#claudia

me and roommate went to an indoors basketball court/ activity room at school we were sharing our fujifilm instax films because she wanted to take some photos with her boyfriend she/ her bf got one box of refills but they were mistakenly opened so all the films inside were now useless. (and it was the squared ones, not the mini ones) I said I have a box (mini) as well if she wanted to use it. She said nah. she asked me to open her another box of films so she can refill them in her camera (also mini sized, not square) I double checked whether she finished her existing films from the camera before opening the back. She said there was still some inside. I looked at a counter and it showed “6” (6 unused films) So I put the new films back into the packaging box and wait for her further instruction

_{i am sleepy}

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hku open day, can't find Arthur, convenience store

#jy #arthur (not there)

psyd biggggg hall

BRO i forgot to write the log

??????

ok went to hku open day. On my way to the lecture halls at cpd LG floor. While I was heading there, I saw the prof (JY) walking towards me and went past me. I was slightly concerned for a sec but he didn't spot me out. He looked a bit troubled though... _{(I think I dreamt this because during the day when I was going to help out at the mid-autumn booth, I saw him queuing at the Starbucks at the lobby looking a bit troubled. He was wearing a suit and looks much taller than I expected (like at least 5 cm taller from like 175ish->185cm or what, so I wasn't sure if it was him for a sec, but I looked at him for a few times and I am pretty sure it was really him. And he looked troubled again, he's like frowning. lol... and then I whatsapped ivan about it)}

Anyways, I continued on and entered the lecture hall which was the furthest down the corridor. It was super big like a grand book store. Super spacious like a museum but it's a book store. There was a mini section (like an area for talks in a book fair), and PsyD people were sitting there listening to lecture. I was embarrassed to walk past them cuz I was looking for Arthur who was possibly deeper down the bookstore.

He wasn't there, so I quietly/ sneakily walked past the mini section to exit the bookstore/ lecture hall, feeling kinda embarrassed.

Later I went to the convenience store with my friend, and we were waiting for someone. (I am not entirely sure why are we waiting though) While we were waiting, the dream ended.

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