Neko

dream

onlinefrd

traumatic physical fight with mum, finding arthur, trip with pal

#mum #arthur #onlinefrd

I was fighting with mum over something. I forgot if the item was supposed to be hers or mine Anyways I wanted to get it back But she kept trying to snatch it out of my hand When her hand was not enough she used some tools to attack my hand. I forgot how exactly already, but it was so painful and gruesome and longlasting. There are many scrape marks and scratches on my hands arms and probably legs as well. Some are kind of bleeding and there are red marks all over my fingers and hands. She was like an animal and I couldn’t communicate with her as she just focused on what she wanted. Her ears weren’t open (metaphorically). Legit in the dream I was like holy moly such traumatic dream it hurts at a level similar to the court dream where I was suing the prof who SAed me but this one was fortunately a bit less painful

Fuck

So sad and then later on I dreamt I went to a building where wellness team resided- first floor was a tiny reception + another shop/ laundry store in which my grandma (mum’s side) was the owner and she was sitting there. The actual wellness team office is two floors up, (first floor is just staircases and an empty floor)

I was standing at the entrance of the building for quite some time, because I was thinking my sessions supposed to have ended already and if I go there again I seem to be over relying on them And I’m like moving abroad very very soon but if I go there again it seemed like I was too weak to handle my emotions on my own- how am I able to take care of it when I really went abroad?

I was pretending to look at the flyers stuck on the glass panes outside, and I also took a couple of walks around the whole building n the surrounding shops And I eventually came back to the entrance again I was staring at it for some time until I decided if I don’t go now I can’t go in the future anyways so why not I pushed the door and went inside. I just stood at the g/f reception area as I planned I’ll just stand here for a bit and not go up The area (shared by counselling and laundry) was tiny. Imagine a lift. I just stood there until the laundry lady told me, therapy was upstairs. As I was a bit shy and unwilling to explain to her I just wanted to stand here- or maybe I was kind of want to go up- so I went in

I’ll complete typing this dream later

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work w friends; breakfast! with ruth n many others

#secschool #chinok #pblmate #onlinefrd #ruth #arthur #T #6grass #ivan #primschool (lmao so many tags) Ok so Work with Mancy until sunrise at place like chiwah. Mancy was working on EY registering exchange stuff. Saw sunrise outside window. Later I left.

Went to place like lab block in sassoon, to have MHFA lesson by Vincci (lol first time thinking and seeing her in dream heh) After lesson I think I went back near med lib. I think my PBL group was gathering for something (related to studying). After that, near 6pm I grabbed ChiNok to go tgt back near lab block. He didn’t really know what I was up to, I think I gave a random reason and he didn’t pushed me away when I legit grabbed and pull him along with me. I was waiting near lab block exit in order to see if I can see Arthur (and others) leaving after work. I don’t know if I saw him or not, I actually forgot how the dream went. Because Ruth walked by and chatted with me. (I think I abandoned ChiNok starting from here, but I was pretty sure there’s another person next to me. Oh maybe Yuki??) (new person unlocked in dream- if you’re reading go ask Vincci who that is; basically online friend whom we knew each other since 2020 but met physically for the first time during MHFA lmfao)

And then Ruth stood in front of me and asked me how we’re doing, while looking at me. I think I answered something like ok, because my friend was next to me and I can’t talk too deep

And then Ruth was very chill And she asked how was MHFA and began to test me on some easy concepts of the lesson (but was actually med stuff..,..,..,.) I got the first two wrong, but I guessed the third one right, but not exactly 100% correct. I was chuckling with my friend. Well but Ruth said my answer was right, and she encouraged me.

Later I think my friend left for some other thing so it was just me and Ruth now !!

Ruth still looked very chill. She asked me how do I feel about the news yesterday night. I was a bit confused and asked her what news. She said there was a med student who jumped off in the washing machine room in the residential hall. And we began to walk back to the breakfast hall probably at main campus (it wasn’t that far in dream) to have breakfast. It felt like some sort of study tour where the breakfast buffet is planned and we’re going to have it.

Back to the conversation, I said oh I didn’t know. And I thought to myself I’d rather choose my own room which had my own washing machine (it made sense in the dream) as the place to jump instead or else people would find me too early and it’s useless And then Ruth seemed to read my mind and she said maybe her/ your (I forgot what pronoun she used) own room is better, right? I said yeah…

We walked by chiwah again but the sky was early morning, not bright yet, but nothing special I think we were chatting about another topic but I forgot just now :(( (probably some actual “how’s life” type of stuff…? And it was bidirectional and she also answered, not just me)

And we arrived at the dining hall. The first table was fruits, I dislike fruits so I swiftly walked away to the other table, but Ruth seemed she didn’t know because I was near her the whole time and I left too quickly I saw she wanted to use the tongs to get some chopped fruits for me but she subtly looked around and I wasn’t there, so she gave it to others. I felt a bit sorry but I decided no fruits over staying with Ruth lmao

The other tables were full of food I wanted to eat. Gigantic sushi, sashimi and oysters.!! I looked through what dishes they had provided and I got my tray. I think I accidentally knocked over a ramen spoon (those big ones) onto the ground. I didn’t plan to pick it up because it was dirty and idk where to put it. Also I had some food targets in mind esp a fish sushi which has one remaining. Someone next to me picked it up and put it to the return tray. I looked and it was my primary school friend Nickole. I thanked her but my voice was too too low, like whispering. So I thanked her again, this time slightly louder but still whispering and in a singing tone. I was pretty sure she couldn’t hear it, but I heard her whispering/ humming something like no problem I was walking back to the food tables and someone said hi to me. It was Winnie, one of my “6 grass” squad members. We said hi because it’s been such a long time seeing each other. I asked if I can sit with them for breakfast and she said ofc! Just at this time, the other members of my friend group came. Candice pointed out there’s “the person” walking towards us. It was Maisie, also a sec school friend (who was depressed) (but 6 grass don’t know her) We briefly said hi And then around the corner there was Ivan choosing food. And a few steps behind him, Ruth was watching (us). I noticed Ruth but ignored her. I said Hii to Ivan, and my tone became very close to Ivan, I asked him what he’s choosing what he’s gonna eat, and told him I’m gonna have that sushi and oyster because it just so happened last night before sleep I saw instagram reels about these exact same food and I wanted to eat, and such a coincidence! There’s the same thing here. (now the fun thing is the above sentences are true. I did watch red book reels before sleep and saw and wanted to eat these, they’re actually the same)

Anyways yeah dream ended here before I actually got any food. Lmfao I abandoned my Ruth lol ahwhaoNqjsajdbkaa

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