tidying revision stuff, younger mum ate a lot

#mum

mum was cooking in the kitchen. I find my schoolbag to be very heavy, so I was tidying my “plastic a4 bag”, where I store my worksheets. It didn't look like there was a lot of stuff inside, but I manage to get huge stacks of worksheets I stored this academic year (form 5), along with lots of worksheets in previous two years especially form 3. I also found a lot of school ties, and pin badges (the badges you obtain when you are working in the class committee.) I was reminiscing the times when I was part of the class committee. Although I was doing minor positions. (I didn't think of any position specific in the dream, maybe because the pin badge just said something like class helper (no such pin badges irl). But there was also one that has the identical design as from my primary school, which was a bus/ nanny van prefect badge.

I also found pairs of white and black socks inside. The white socks are short, like the ones you wear with summer uniform, while the black ones were longer like almost to the knee. (My irl school wore only white socks though).

There were also two satin dresses. Exotic, royal blue and a darker blue. Like those oriental dance skierts. Idk why lol

There were also a lot of envelopes. Some were mailed to other classmates (weaker academics). Maybe I was the subject coordinator so I was receiving the mail on behalf of them, and they didn't want to keep the mail/ read them so they all made me keep it. Some mails were mine though. Most I got (which were for me) were opened already. Some I kept the mail content, which were school cards. Somehow I got three. Maybe because I kept losing them so I kept reapplying for them. They look silver, like the disneyland silver card, lmao. Actually looks decent.

After getting everything unnecessary out (which was like the vast majority of the stuff inside the a4 bag), I was relooking at the stack of paper. (I already looked through them when I was taking them out, they are really outdated worksheets).

I relooked at the stack of notes I made in form 3. The whole stack of paper was blue. With my handwritten annotations and notes. I was proud that I shared the digital version for other students. But I have an updated thought that maybe doing past papers were more useful for them, instead of just notes. But undeniably, notes were the first step/ entrance to obtaining the core knowledge so that you can do the past papers for more effective studying. So notes were still useful in that sense.

Later, I told my mum to clean up & wash the socks and dresses for me. She told me to leave these stuff for her, she'll deal with it later. During (breaks in) cooking, she walked out of her kitchen to share about her younger inexperienced self redeeming all 20 tickets for 煎餅 at one time instead of going for 4 包子 + some medical pills she required (seemed diabetes mellitus). Meanwhile I wondered that is also too much to eat for one meal, and I felt shocked, why she ate so much when she was already having DM/ & probably obese. She wasn't aware she was sick?? _{(she wasn't diagnosed with anything irl so far)}

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family shopping in Japan

#mum I was at this boutique/ stationery shop again (the genre of items sold was like Eslite but it is definitely not eslite). It was in Japan, in a shopping mall. I felt like it is in Tokyo Skytree. I was choosing that same two shirt/ dresses again, along with some other items. I was only holding those two clothes around but not buying because I know they were too too expensive (5000 yen for a shirt- but in the dream it felt like 10算 instead of 5算 so my dream instinct told me it was 500 hkd instead of ~ 250hkd ish)

And I gave my mum to have a look. She said this brand is good, but quietly exclaimed it was too expensive.

She was looking at some plastic decorative items. Being oddly specific, it was some resin craft of random shapes. In very generic shapes like circles, teardrop, semicircle etc. Transparent but with either vibrant or deep colours.

I was looking at them too. I was thinking of combining the plastic blocks to reconstruct a slice of orange (flat cut, not the triangular one).

I was playing around with the circle and teardrop shaped plastic blocks. But the size was not right. Mum came over and handed me a bigger circle, saying she found this interesting thing at another side of the shop.

So I was combining them instead.

But quickly I was bored and I put them down, in their original spots.

Later a shopkeeper asked me in Japanese? (but somehow I could understand, maybe because it was a dream) That they were still missing some blocks. She pointed at a circle thing, I recalled my mum actually held this thing before, so I looked around to find my mum. She was standing outside of the shop (supposedly waiting for me/ us (if dad is here, idk)), and I told her to come over, and we saw the missing piece on her hand. She looked slightly surprised? and quickly returned it. I was slightly embarrassed but it was fine, because I am not the one who took the piece.

The shopkeeper pointed at another missing spot, and I told her that one was not here when we arrived. So it was not our fault. And she thanked us (? like in a very general way when japanese do that), and left.

hiding from gang

I was playing on my phone? And I observed from a POV of a clown who was on a mission. Idk bruh anyways he hid behind a locker and actually two characters (his allies) were hiding there too. _{(I think I dreamt this because I started playing Zenless Zone Zero yesterday. Just to claim a reward that would be expiring. But after going past the tutorial/ intro, the redeem code has already expired. So I stopped playing LOL)}

discussing med questions

#secschool #uni Riding MTR (actually more like Shenzhen metro) with Mancy and her uni friends We were discussing a question, why the answer is (xxx anaemia) but not (another thing) I asked a few classmates and they weren't sure too So I went torward and ask Mancy and another girl, who was walking ahead of us They were talking about writing papers. I was slightly ashamed because I was kind of stupid and I was still stuck in this exam, but nevertheless that means they were knowledgable so I didn't hesitate to ask them about it

They explained it in the dream (I didn't really understand them but they sounded authentic so I'll just remember the answer)

petting dog, music beatbox

#chinok I was back at my room, which had been repurposed as a gathering point for dogs and their owners. I was lying on the bed. Next to me was a male owner who owned two dedicate dogs, wearing classy collars (like collars of human clothes, kind of like old English style clothing?? Those Victorian ones??? Shakespeare style big collars??) I was looking at the dogs, trying to differentiate which one is male which one is female. So I was looking at their ears. They have human ears. And I found it completely normal and made sense in the dream LMAO. I looked at the earlobe of the dogs. I deduced the left one is a female, because the earlobe is more prominent. And the right one is a male because the earlobe connects to the face more. And I kind of... reminisce Arthur's ear, because the male dog human ear looks really similar to his...

I looked at the owner. The owner was a young male. Who seemed to be from a rich family. Wearing delicate clothes of old Japanese style. His ear also looked like Arthur's ear. Maybe because he was a male. (LMAO)

While looking at them I was actually playing a game on my phone again? Seemed like the same game as the dream two sections above. Later there were some horny advertisement in the game, and appeared more frequently. Women masturbating themselves. And I actually got a bit horny too so I went to the toilet because I wanted to do it to satisfy my urge.

But then in the toilet I was back playing the game instead.

After a while idk what happened but I was on the street with Mancy again. We were waiting for the traffic light. I pointed towards a building/ shopping mall (looked like Tai Yau Building in Wanchai honestly), telling her I was very sad many times and the place I would go is that shopping mall. I didn't tell her sometimes I fantasise jumping off that building too. (??)

Later I was alone, sitting by the road, drinking a big cup of cold coffee. My mum was next to me. I was listening to a random street performer playing the drums/ beatboxing. The tune was catchy. It was complicated but not for me (my rhythm sense was very good – that's a talent I think) _{(however my coordination was kinda bad so I cannot play instruments that hit multiple notes at the same time, e.g. piano, drums with two hands playing different stuff)}

And I began to beatbox to the beat. I looked around and found Chinok also sitting nearby, also beatboxing. We said hi to each other and figured out it was fun. But we remained in our own seats.

I think I told mum to go home early and no need to wait for me. Because she wasn't interested in the performance (she wasn't listening to the performance at all), and I didn't want her to be here when I was talking with my friends.

Dream ended. Why so many random dreams!! aaaaaa

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weird I forgot a lot of the dream because I fell asleep after dreaming it and briefly waking up

dissection, straight A classmate 1

I was in the dissection room. _{(irl: Another room – ADL1. I was at around the front entrance of dissection room – around station 1)}. (But in the dream, there was only one entrance, which is the back entrance in the dissection room, so this position was actually “deep inside the room”)

My table consist of me and my friend. (one dream friend) I was operating on the one on the table, and was following instructions like the other groups. Friend found a stack of dried skin somewhere on the bench. The appearance was like a plastic wrapped stacked blanket. But the blanket was skin of once living. He/ She said, “there's three skins inside,” and was ripping the package.

I was kinda shocked and asked her what she's doing in a whispered tone. The corpse wasn't in the package. We should operate on the one on the table. She told me it's alright, and she opened it. I didn't stop her because it was already ripped.

I looked around and the teachers weren't nearby. So I looked at her taking out one of the neatly folded skin. And was holding it like a shirt.

Somehow dissection class ended

As I was walking at school corridor, I found several adults surrounding a schoolmate. I asked my two (or several) classmates next to me. They said it was Sara, she got 4A* so she was answering reporter's questions. (somehow in the dream 4A* was rather rare like IB full mark for some reason...) I asked them, Sara was the vice head/ head prefect, right? They said yeah it's her And I mentally calculate, Sara was one year younger than me, if she's a prefect (f5), then I was form 6 Very studious and nice, I kinda admire her. _{(no such classmate irl btw. I don't have friends called Sara too.)}

movie – the ring

#mum #dad Our family went for a movie show with auntie atlex After watching one show, we wanted to watch another one, which is called “the finger”/ “the ring”?? (I forgot the exact name) But first we wanna get some refreshments We went to the bakery nearby There was a tiny section that was made by Atlex It is a selection of self mixed healthy drinks There were two that were inspired by me? In the way that I once gave her some chinese medicine ingredients and she made a drink (entirely in dream). One of the ingredients I gave her is called 地獄 for some reason 💀

straight A classmate crying 2

I was in the classroom, sitting on the first/ second row. Sara was at my back. _{(Maybe because yesterday I was sharing about my friend sitting at the back of me)(Sara and my friend has nothing alike I guess)}

i asked (genuinely), what is she sad about, academics? but shes 4A*! and used counselling techniques _{(Maybe because of the workshop yesterday night)}

she asked me back if i am sad And I told her yeah I'm sad too because I got raped in anatomy room _{(?????????????????? noooooooo not rape....)}

dream probably ended here

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finding surgeon

#mum #ruth (actually didn't appear)

Mum liked to be close with famous people. In the dream she went for surgery. After coming out, she said there was a famous doctor (a pretty big neurosurgeon in our faculty) who was on the next bed of her surgery (as a patient). She told me to find him for her in order to let her say words like she recognises you and they can be closer or whatever

So, me, still in my scrubs (I work in that hospital), I went to search for that doctor. I walked around in the hospital but there was no sign of the doctor. Maybe he already left after his minimally invasive surgery. I followed two staff to the back corridors where they led to different doors. I entered one door. It was the backdoor of a supermarket (so the hospital and supermarket were interconnected)

I was in the supermarket. I was a bit confused but I briefly walked around to find the surgeon. Seems not here. I saw the staff that went through the door entered another backdoor. And they were talking about mental health team or whatever. So I sneakily followed through the backdoor and it was a staircase. One of the staff went up. After he (I assume it was a man) went up, I stood by the staircase of the original supermarket floor. I want to wait for the man to either come down or I wait long enough and go have a check.

In the middle of waiting, a figure who was wearing kind of punky clothes (in a good looking way) walked by. She ignored my presence. (maybe because I was hiding/ acting low-key). I looked and felt the person was like Ruth. So I kind of act coughing or humming songs because I wasn't sure so I wouldn't directly address her. But when I look closer, it wasn't, so I was relieved and glad I didn't yell and say hi to the person.

Later I went up a floor to see what was it. It was a mental health wellness room. But rather creepy. Because the staircase was dark and was made of old looking concrete. And the mental health room was on the top of the staircase. (There is one more section of the staircase going up, but it ends into the wall, so I wouldn't count that as one more floor, although it said 8/F)

Anyways, I looked inside. There was a young little girl in shocking pink dress, with her back towards me. She was talking to a woman (at first I thought it was my secondary school art teacher, but soon I realised it was Ming Yi teacher aka Cantonese opera lesson teacher – yes our secondary school has niche mandatory courses)

Since the woman was sitting towards the direction of the door, I was scared of being discovered, so I hurried down the staircase.

Back on the supermarket floor of the staircase, actually there was a side path which led to a hidden corridor to all classroom doors. The path was initially blocked by a double door. The first one you need to press a button to unlock it. The second one you can just push it open. Coincidentally a staff walked by and just pressed the button. So I followed through. I used a little rectangular thing on the floor to hold the door open, because I couldn't see such a button on the other side of the door. I was guessing if I needed a staff card to access, then in that case I would be stuck here. The second door was simple, I just push it open, but I am worried again if it shut and it was a one-way door and I couldn't open from the other side. So I was holding the second door open (because there was only one door “holder”? and I used it on the first door)

So the dream ended here with me holding the second door open.

my own loft became family trip

#dad

Japan trip! With me alone. I was checking in a place with my luggage. There were two elevators, I entered the one which came earlier. I checked my tag on the room key, it said 6/F. So I was finding the button to 6/F, when I realised this elevator is for odd numbered floors only. But I was too lazy to get out and wait for the other elevator. I blinked and looked away from the buttons for a brief time. I looked back and the 6/F button was here. I pressed it. At first there was no response (no light after pressing button, lift wouldn't move), but after pressing it multiple times the lift worked. And the lift opened at 5/F which was what it was supposed to do at first place (odd numbers) And I was slightly scared of elevators too so I got off quickly. _{(scared because I had way way way too many nightmares about elevators and escalators not reaching the floor I wanted when I was small. So usually in the dream as long as it opens and it was close enough to my floor, I would just leave. Because they could never put me on the perfect floor)}

I got out and walked for one floor with my luggage. (It wasn't tiring at all) I checked my tag on the key again and found my room. I entered with the key. The room was really nice. Very white, clean, the furniture was sleek. I quickly checked if the door locks work, and then I close my door immediately. I continued to look around in the room. Big TV. Somehow there were three beds. One double bed in the middle, two single beds on the sides. It wouldn't be too worrying if there were only two beds in total, because I can still kind of rationalise why me, one person only, would have two beds (e.g. inviting friends over; room provider only has double person room) But now we have three beds. And then I looked back at the door and found it was open. I tried to close it but it wouldn't click, it would just open again I figured out there was a silk scarf which was tied onto the door knob that was stuck between the locking mechanism. Me, slightly confused because there wasn't any when I just came in, removed the scarf and threw it on the floor outside. Because I couldn't move/ nudge the long scarf away from the lock, the only way is to untie it and throw it away. Now the lock worked. I looked back into the room and saw my dad's shoes. And then I looked back at the lock and it didn't work again. And I heard my parents outside. They were checking into the same room. But seemed they didn't have the key. (Maybe because I took the only key and went in first). But because the lock wasn't working, they just marched in with their luggage.

Turned out this mini studio/ loft was actually our family hotel room and we were going on a trip... I was very disappointed. Because when I entered the room alone, I was overjoyed to see my own new space and I can try to manage my own living as a capable independent and functional adult. (I thought I was either going on an exchange or travelling alone.) But it was a family trip. And family was a stressor.

Mum was like, why are you putting up such a face? We paid for this expensive family trip despite running out of money, so that we can make you happy! I was pretty upset but I didn't reply anything back. Because it seemed like they were deliberately making me guilty.

Really quickly after they put down their luggage and roaming around the room loudly, they wanted to go out together (with me) to explore the neighbourhood (and I think to stalk my friends). _{(which for some reason made sense, because one time our PBL group went for dinner at my neighbourhood, and we sat near the entrance glass panel,,, and they walked by coincidentally and looked at every one of us amusingly. They told me later on when I got home. I was oblivious to this if they didn't say. Rather creepy hhahaah)}

Before going out we needed to turn off the TV. (They turned it on and was blasting mainland TV shows...) It took so long and many tries. Mum tried a few times before giving the remote to me to turn it off. But I couldn't too. It would just turn black for a sec and resumed the show. Anyways finally I figured it out and turned it off. But Dad wanted to try it himself using his own way, so he took the remote and was pressing buttons on the modem also. I was pretty annoyed because I already turned the TV off, he was just wasting time problem solving a now solved problem He turned it on again with the buttons and couldn't shut it down. Mum was yelling at him. I was annoyed. Dad was annoyed we were being impatient. Finally Mum told me to just turn off the TV using my method and ignore what Dad was doing. So now the TV was off.

Now they were picking hats to wear before going out. I thought it was just a simple task. I just see the one which matched my outfit and I pick that. And then I also picked one for Mum because she was wasting time and her taste was awful. And then Mum began to kept praising me for such a good taste. I felt uneasy and a bit scared.

Dream ended. Sigh! I was picturing a nice quiet overseas exchange me-time! Now it was a noisy and unnecessarily hectic family trip. Awful.

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Ok today I have no dreams/ didn't recall any, but my mum shared her dream with me (that's rare, she seldom does so. She only did it for a few times in my life, and usually before the release of exam results.)

Here is a record of what she said to me

Mum's dream about me, evil man & poo

#mum

She dreamt she was with me. We were on our way to somewhere. Suddenly I stopped in my steps. (“I” means me, not mum) She asked me why/ what And I said, I need to wait for someone. Mum instinct say this person was malicious. So she kind of nudged me to leave with her. But I insisted on standing there. “I need to stand here to wait for him,” I said. “I have to.” “But he's bad! Don't wait for him!”

Mum saw this shadowy figure in the dream, approaching. He looked evil. Soon, there was poo on our clothes. There was poo on the ground. Mum's reaction was like “waaa ew” “let's leave,,,!!”

But I insisted, “No! I need to see him. I need him to give me an explanation. (俾我一個交代)” So mum was rather anxious yet she couldn't pull me away to escape, because I kept standing there.

_{^^ she told me the dream until here, I suppose that means the dream ends here/ she recalled till here. And then she told me after she woke up she was googling what poo means in dream. And apparently it is free money that we can get without earning hard. And she remembers her mum is gonna give me some money as a reward for me entering uni. So she was happy. I was too lazy to tell her then that's my money not yours. lol And I didn't tell her I think dream interpretation is subjective and,,, lol her focus was on the poo not me Meanwhile I was thinking if that means I am gonna fight JY and I get some “apology money”, but I needed to work hard/ I was mentally working really hard this year to get that money though... And whether the poo means I would get my reputation ruined because of it... although I did nothing wrong... BUT! It's not my dream. So it is technically not my own subconscious thought. So it is ok}

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reading books at bookstore

#mum

I was at the bookstore wanting to find story books to read The bookstore feels Chiwah but premium version with collab with eslite bookstore. There was a starbucks and several cafes nearby but I didn’t bother with it. I was here for the books. I found this pile of books with a similar illustrator designing the cover – it reminded me of the cover of one of the books I used to have – Pax

So I was browsing through the pile Turned out there was a series number on the side of the book I was searching for the first book in the series because I want to start from the first one obviously But I can’t find it But instead I found a pre-packaged set of books. From book 1 to book 13. I checked the price. One book was like $140? but all books costs $270 in total So I took the pre-packaged set

I also stood by the shelf to read a book in another pile. It’s more of a mental health related book. I think it’s about PTSD. And in the content page seems the writer illustrated different symptoms of ptsd by sharing various people’s stories about it. I forgot the actual content. I just remembered in the dream I was very engrossed in the book.

I remember during reading, Mum walked by and was searching for good books too. But somehow in the dream she walked up to me and scolded me, and then walked away. I forgot what she scolded me for. Ah! She wanted to buy one of the books in the $140 pile. But she couldn’t find the one she wanted. So she was irritated. And somehow she released her anger onto me. And I told her I got the whole set, but seems she wouldn’t listen in the heat of things so I didn’t bother to repeat. I just let her scold me while I was reading the PTSD book.

becoming a successful lion

#primschool

Setting was primary school.

Somehow I converted from a herbivore into a lion. And I was the boss of all the lions here at primary school. But since I didn’t have experience in catching prey, I followed what other lions were doing. They were standing by the fence. So I stood there too. There were two wired fences between us and a small grassland (the size of a playground) I recalled in my herbivore days these grass must be very yummy. But now we were waiting for our prey to appear.

After a while, a shepherd brought several sheep with him. We have to wait till the fence had automatically fallen before we could catch them.

The fence fell! Some ran out. Since it was like part of the fence falling instead of the one in front of me, I was slightly late. But I ran and caught with much accuracy. I caught two sheep and began munching on them. Many didn’t catch and there were little sheep and many lions so obviously many lions were still starving. But they would stay and wait for any possible new sheeps coming.

Anyways after eating I’d like to have more so I returned to the grassland. But there weren’t new sheep. And I wasn’t that hungry after eating two so I returned to the lower open playground, where we would have our morning assembly soon.

While I was walking, a little herbivore was chatting with me. She’s asking me if I’ll introduce more workers in the tuck shop because there was none. I apologised and asked her if she got whatever snack or drink she wanted now, she said no because there was no staff. I said I’ll find people and figure it out, because currently most were lions but we need herbivores to deliver these jobs. (Because lions may treat this job as a way to catch and eat herbivores since only herbivores need to use the tuck shop- only herbivores eat snacks. So we can’t recruit lions.)

Anyways I thanked her for telling me and I left. I actually wanted to walk around to look for more prey but most people have lined up, and the host was also almost ready (those hosts were humans. They’re the only humans in the school- not counting shepherd) so I returned to my class queue. I was a bit embarrassed because I turned into a lion. But seems my surrounding classmates didn’t really mind. And for some reason those around me were still herbivores. But in many further away classes they’re all lions.

Dream ended.

(Also the sheep taste like 巴東牛肉 i had yesterday night) (LMAO)

_{(side note: when i was small (before/ during kindergarten), I wasn’t sure if it’s because I kept watching animal world, i sometimes have dreams where I was an animal in the wild. These several dreams were rather vivid so it stuck with me. (0. Had some imagination if I’m some sort of dumb amoeba and algae) 1. I was a mountain goat, and I couldn’t escape from a tiger. It bit me on the thigh and I died 2. I became a tiger but I got killed by lions for some reason 3. I was a lion but alone and old and frail and I got killed by an elephant 4. I am an elephant and I got shot by poachers to get my ivory The dreams always ended when I wss dying. And these dreams appear between months/ years (didn’t reappear) but in this specific order lol Damn and then sometimes I wonder is this why I’m a human now And I sometimes do those random “psychological quizzes” testing what you are in your previous life and I was an animal lol. There were some other options like some identity from space or whatever but nah I’m an animal) I believe it’s just wild imagination but it’s interesting to bring it up}

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crazy people at beijing metro station

#secschool #caitlyn Multiple crazy people (like actually look mentally retarded with twitched faces, weird smiles, and poor dirty messy outfits) Kept wanting to snatch my notebooks if I want to leave the station I cannot hide because these people can see Horrible My notebooks had all my revision notes inside so I couldn’t abandon them because I needed it, and also I didn’t want to just give them away, I put my effort into making them bro

Those crazy people just want to hoard them for no purpose/ to entertain themselves by looking at our dismayed faces

_{(so angry I think I have these poor angry wicked people in my brain so I can’t snatch and retrieve my knowledge in revision)}

After trying multiple times (multiple day and nights), a few friends walked by and about to exit the station I asked my tallest and closest friend to stop and help me carry some of the thicker notes when they were leaving, and they can give me the notes when we arrive at our destination (Because I had a stack and my new plan was to tuck them all under my shirt)

The plan worked, but since I had just that one more notebook I couldn’t put, I secretly held it in my hands. They noticed and one little girl (dressing slightly better I guess) began to chase after me. I ran as fast as I could. I ran until I arrived at my secondary school. I chose a staircase that the little girl can’t use in the dream (because her grade is too low, the staircase is for senior students) _{(no such rule irl)} I ran as fast as I can, I didn’t even take a breather in between the 6/ 7 floors of stairs I ran to the top floor. But because there were multiple staircases, the little girl also reached the top floor. I was desperate. Still holding to my notes, I ran across the corridor and see which room was safer for me to hide. None. Because the classrooms were empty, despite some with lights on and some lights off. Maybe it’s the summer break. I ran till the end of the corridor, where it leads to the main staircase. Luckily the door next to the main staircase opened and out came a staff. It was my friend’s mum. The staff stopped the little girl in her steps. And began to scold her. I looked back and saw the little girl was my friend, Caitlyn’s younger sister _{(irl very obedient, cute and nice)}

She was crying after her mum scolded her. But her mum was showing her her phone with all the videos of her doing these gremlin stuff with other people. And she looked like she’s not sorry for them and was very grandiose. I’m not sure in the dream if she was diagnosed with NPD or not (sorry)

But I didn’t dare to leave. I was scared she was chase after me later, when the staff was gone. The kid could locate me for some reason.

bookstore promotion event w Ts

#arthur #ruth #mum

Wow first collab in dream _{(I’m pretty sure because yesterday I went to sit there and ruth talked to me) (uh ha sorry the others weren’t in the dream)}

So there’s a book store collab event We are gonna promote our uni in the bookstore (I signed up to be a helper) _{(maybe because yesterday I signed up for peer supporter stuff)}

First I get to tour around the bookstore (because it’s not my turn yet and I should know how everything works first) (like a briefing)

( Ai I wasn’t sure what Arthur did in the dream. Cuz I forgot. Maybe he was the one who led me to the room: )

I got my own little room (actually rooms but put together) It looked very secure and soundproof and the doors and walls are solid wood with many locks

I turned the locks, get inside, and locked them again. But the walls were made of fabric..?? Not wood anymore. I tried to lock them more securely with the hooks but bro they are just one sheet of fabric

As I was fiddling with the locks my mum peeked inside and came into my room……… so I went to the room separated by another wall (fabric) But my happy mood of discovering a safe spot was ruined. I was thinking if I could play with my toy and also invite Arthur in the room to have fun together because it was secure but see I can’t n it’s unsafe……….. bruh

So stupid!!

Anyways I think Arthur continued to lead me to other parts of the bookstore to give me a brief look of different sections.

And then finally he brought me to a corner which looked like a cashier. Ruth was there. He handed me to Ruth and he left (probably back to his station by the entrance to warm up? icebreak with new visitors)

Ruth and a few helpers were there. She said hi and started introducing my job in this role- to pursuade people to sign up for the hku tour (which happens in the bookstore) (it sounded reasonable in dream)

And then very quickly right after she finished briefing us, a man and a woman came (probably parents). And it’s my turn to say stuff. I was nervous but the other helpers were just looking at me. Ruth was also waiting. So I had to say something. At first the man looked crossed before I spoke, but after I began to sell our package they agreed to it and signed up.

The tour package is $90 each person if they have multiple ppl joining, up to 4 ppl in total. (At first I thought it was a ripoff, I wouldn’t buy it myself)

After they signed up, the other helpers led them to the other stations where the helpers on that side would begin the tour.

…. Finally there was a grand show at the end of the tour. (Like disneyland parade and fireworks)

We all have to join in canoeing on the stream, where they decorated with lots of fairy lights. (The bookstore was actually very big… and the back of it was semi outdoor, so when we were canoeing we can see the dark night sky) (I didn’t see Ruth or Arthur canoeing though. Maybe all the physical work was done by us students lmao) (I think I saw Ruth on land guiding the canoes) And we had to sing while canoeing And I realised $90 tour fee was too cheap. Lol

physical dream log book & among us

Back to the bookstore. It actually felt like Eslite bookstore btw. I found this dark blue thick notebook I find it really suitable for writing my dream log. But I already have a digital version And I think I can recall better in the digital version, because if I handwrite, I’ll get carried away by writing itself and my dreams were gone, but if I’m just poking my device keyboard the memory won’t escape that easily.

Anyways so I patted the notebook and put it back to the shelf

Later I was playing among us on my ipad by the shelf. It was a big game (500 people in one game compared to the usual 10) I had the normal role (not imposter) but I had an ability to camouflage as someone alse. Which I didn’t really know what for, because there’s too many people, and no one recognised each other anyways. But I always chose to camouflage when other players walked by and when not in cooldown just to play safe.

Later eventually I died. I checked the player list. 500 ppl around 113? remaining Not too bad actually

Dream ended.

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sorry I forgot my dreams again…

rooftop skating ring

#mum (i think I was with two people. I forgot who they were. We went to a shopping mall with an ice skating ring on the top floor (a recurrent one in many dreams since young)

We were walking. I was cold. Maybe the ice spreads the temperature to the air. Very cold.

We wanted to do some activity, but the ice skating ring is full We opened a side door to the balcony, expecting another ice skating place.

We opened the glass door (feels like festival walk), and outside was raining heavily and the ground has so much water I wasn’t sure if it was a pool or if the rainwater caused it to be like that.

They (the two people walking with me) wanted to step in I told them someone wrote something on the stairs (leding to the pool) on the floor It said there were bugs in the pool (Apparently people fish here so they leave a lot of bugs to attract the fish

We walked away to other parts of the shopping mall.

supermarket shopping

#ivan We went to a Japanese based supermarket (Apita? Aeon?) + another random girl We were shopping around We ate jelly mochi things, it’s some sort of self mix packs, it was slightly sweet because of the sweet sauce and was yummy. I recommended ivan to mix it with milk and it would be even more delicious.

Later we went to the cool isles (those cooling shelves) And ivan was choosing sashimi Meanwhile i was looking at another place where they sell premade dishes in a large quantity but in a low price There was a big dish of eggplants It was too much though _{(i think I dreamt of eggplants because one day my whole meal at uni was eggplants + rice but my mum next day asked me if i wanna eat eggplants so i said no, yet she bought me eggplants meal, i asked why, because she wanted to eat) (so I am tired of eggplants now)}

And i began to look at those snack sausages in bundles. Unfortunately those weren’t exactly the snacks one, but cooked, so I can’t store them for too long _{(i thought of smacks sausages probably because recently I wanted to save money but needed to eat something to make my stomach shut up, so I was planning on buying snacks sausages to bring to school.)}

I forgot what’s next.

Also a bit sad today because they wanted to chat with me, i chatted with them but I don’t trust them anymore. Last time I chatted the next day she scolded me on the same thing again It was too late and I am confused They finally noticed me, but I felt like my heart is torn to shreds I dont know

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All fragments after i woke Seems the plots are all unpleasant but I didn’t feel unpleasant

shenzhen driving trip by dad

#dad He’s the one who drive the car We kept getting stuck in the road because of traffic jam So we didn’t have fun because our day was spent on the road We finally got our car parked on the road but it was already late at night

argumments on TV

Saw an argument on TV A celebrity scolded a mentally impaired person who’s working hard at the cashier (being nice to everyone despite 6000+ people queueing) an egoist and whatnot and she’s comjng to the country just to bear children The woman scolded back, I think she scolded something about his dick i forgot

late night outing in school uniform

#mum Mum gave me an umbrella and an electric fan when I left for school in the evening (7-8pm when the sky was dark) I was in secondary school uniform Anyways it was raining so I got my umbrella opened Mum was calling me on phone so I was having bluetooth earplugs in my ears I turned on the electric fan to play with it I like the feeling of the strong fan on my head I played with the –/+ button on the fan I kept pressing the + button to see if it cycles back to - But it didn’t and the wind gets stronger and stronger And it was like a very strong showerhead that’s beginning to be hard to handle (started to feel like it wanted to fly off my hand)

I was positioning the fan next to my headphones by the ear so mum can’t hear me

But later mum came downstairs and found me And she turned off the fan for me

But actually I do know how to turn off, just press and hold the – button. It’s just that there are many fan strength levels that I need to wait for the fan to get through all of them And I didn’t want to stop the fan either, became it felt good and sounds good when i have my wireless headphones with noise cancelling (if i remove my headphones it would be too loud and I feel scared; but with headphones on, the loudness was pleasant and it sounded like backgrounds white noise, machine whirring.)

Anyways I just stood there listen to what mum has to say

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deep sharing

At a random study room People were writing down what they were aiming for in life/ purpose in life on memo slips

A lot of people wrote the same thing (i forgot what but it sounds good, I think it’s something like enjoy life) but that’s not what I was thinking of because I haven’t sort out what I should do honestly So I wrote something along the lines of discovering new stuff/ fun stuff/ passion/ life/ every day (?? I forgot

gaming and hotpot

#cecilia #primschool I was playing splatoon 2/ 3? in a team with my nintendo switch at the tournament Our team was competing with another team There were spectators

And the opposite team were bots So basically this match was humans vs bots And we lost

The spectators on the bot side were cheering Those on our side just sat there with a bored annoyed face I felt embarrassed because the bots were supposed to be dumb

But because I haven’t played for so long I spent a lot of time learning the controls and I forgot how stuff worked, so I kept getting destroyed by the other team

After that Cecilia (primary school bff) led some primary/ secondary school classmates came to our table with lots of ingredients to make hotpot

And they cooked and shared the hotpot with us happily, because we worked in the tournament

woman singing

#mum Later I was watching a show between two big beefy black basketball player on TV. They were chit chatting with the judge on the basketball ground before starting the competition.

The right dude went inside the changing room and came out. They were putting on a show. The “black guy” started singing cantonese songs. I was very surprised. I looked at him and said to my mum, next to me, hey this was funny I didn’t expect that, and he was pretty good at cosplaying as a woman

And my mum said, she’s a woman the whole time

So I was a bit shocked

_{(thoughts: reminded me of that one time I shared a 小紅書 video to my mum about makeup, and my mum instantly pointed out the “woman” was a man. I denied and said she has to be a woman because she looked like one. She said no, women doesn’t sound like that. We scrolled through the page, she didn’t declare her gender but didn’t feel straight. So I looked again and realised she’s transgendered. And I felt a bit dumb for not realising that. I kept assuming the wrong gender for other people too}

supplementary revision

#secschool #PBLmate #uni On my way from cym/ meng wah complex Someone called me and so I stopped Her face was identical to a secondary school schoolmate but we haven’t been in the same class before. Her name was Melissa (but in the dream I mixed up with Vanessa, and I do have a supplementary friend who called Vanessa) She was asking me about a med question she was confused about So I explained to her in detail (It made perfect sense in dream but I knew irl it was made up) She was very thankful Turns out she’s taking supplementary too She asked me again what my EY choices are, she forgot the sem 2 exchange one So I told her again (i didnt feel like I have met her before in the dream though) And she reassured me. So I encouraged her too. I ask her where she’s going rn She said to the library So we walked there together to revise together Dream ended. (Edit: I think I also say something about me going for therapy, and Vanessa also asked who else was having therapy. And I didn’t tell her about Ivan)

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