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Porn addiction is not holding you back from success

March 5, 2022

Porn is not your problem. It is easy to say porn it is. Once porn is gone, your life will change. It is the last hurdle, etc. Nope. It is nothing like that at all.

I have done this so many times. Nothing changed. Magical thinking won't work. It just makes you more miserable. Because you will feel like once you do this everything will become better, why can't you do it? Why can't you do one thing when so many people are doing so many things at once.

You can reduce your usage progressively over time

March 2, 2022

Many people will tell you that you need to abstain completely from pornography. Nofap, easypeasymethod, etc all advocate for abstaining.

It is the best method. It should be the ultimate goal. Unfortunately, I have not been able to do it so far till now. But still, I have made a lot of progress.

I will tell what worked for me. I was able to go from watching video porn daily to only 3-4 times a month.

The world needs a NSFC filter

February 28, 2022

Not Safe For Children

I don't know everything and may change my mind

February 28, 2022

There are lots of things that maybe good or bad depending on whom you ask.

Then when morality comes into question things starts to get serious.

It now is not just about morals, values, for some it is against themselves.

But even after all that I do know one thing.

There is no correct way to recovery

February 24, 2022

See the main goal. It is more important

Try to change the type of media you consume too

February 24, 2022

You can tweak your media consumption to help you.

When you are in recovery, try to make it easier for you to recover.

I should do what I tell

February 20, 2022

I didn't install any porn blocker.

Even though I needed it very much.

It is ironic, isn't it.

Maybe because I thought I didn't need it.

Perhaps because deep down I looked down on using it.

Now that it is time. I am convinced.

I have installed a free version of Cold Turkey.

The app looks nice. It is very easy to use.

I have installed the extension in both Chrome and Firefox.

Let's see what happens.

I feel awful

February 20, 2022

The truth is, I cannot feel much nowadays.

I don't know if it is due to depression or due to over stimulation.

But watching porn and after that regretting at least makes me feel human.

But maybe I can be human as long as I act human.

No need to feel like one, too.

There is no need to go to such measures to feel human.

I relapsed today

February 17, 2022

I watched porn today.

I didn't masturbate to it. But that is just me giving excuses to myself.

I feel inadequate to continue writing this.

Maybe I should still write because it is the only thing helping with my addiction.

Maybe it is not just about me.

You are not better than others

February 17, 2022

This is mainly a reminder to myself.

It is written in the past tense. Since I know I will overcome my porn addiction.

Overcoming porn addiction was amazing.

It was one of the most challenging things.

But that doesn’t mean anything in and of itself.

It does not give you any right to have a sense of superiority.

You shouldn’t need to judge others who have gone through the same. I mean porn addiction.

Be grounded.

There are so many successful people with porn addiction.

Porn addiction is porn addiction. It is nothing more and nothing less. It affects many directly and everyone indirectly. It is a long fight.

So, having or not having it was never a question about success, fame, etc.

It was about better sense of self, self-esteem, satisfaction with self, being more kind, being guilt free, having more energy, etc.

Don’t let it go to your head. But don't minimize the struggle or achievement either.