Patient group, car escape, passed exam?

#ivan Patient group Led by tall guy like arthur but not him, it was just a random guy

Tour around our facility (a facility was keeping patients like us) On the stairs (spiral metal stairs outside building) He said many people jumped here And our group moved on I stood there gazing and looking down from the stairs to the ground The guy checked on me and asked me what’s up let’s continue/ move on (i forgot his exact wording)

After the tour our patient group sat in a circle on the ground on a picnic mat We were chatting Im the oldest… (i was 21 in dream..! Huhhh) Another girl was 20 And the rest were like 16 17 some are like 14

I think the patient group is people with emotion dysregulation Some of them have depression

Somehow later we needed to escape Stole and ride a car with another person, driven by tall guy Very fast, almost drifting in tunnel Wrong lane, enter a hidden road for hospital waste truck to deposit and combust dead people’s clothes There were many staff checking id at different “checkpoints” We drove past because we weren’t supposed to be there

Still wrong lane multiple times So we went through different deposit places for a few times

Many cars were after us

Eventually we ended up in a relatively more secluded area

We decided to change cars because the secluded area is small and we can be easily spotted

But the other cars were all toooo old, so we couldn’t switch cars Two cars drove by and they have pikachu ears and tail, one was older than the other _{(i think it’s purely because I was playing pokemon before sleeping)}

We saw a car decor shop opening We walked in The car decor style is to make the cars vintage by adding a lot of 瀝青 on the car as decoration

We gave up the idea of decorating our car cuz it was too late

We hid in the stores Some more people entered, they were also hiding.

Later a few people came to ask for our identity. They were the people seeking for the group of people who later entered, not us. Although im pretty sure it was fine saying my real name, I lied saying my name is Bernice. I was natural so they didn’t bat an eye.

And then somehow Ivan appeared in the dream and he lied his name was Monsieur something something Unfortunately one of the staff spoke french, she said to ivan his grammar for saying his own name was wrong, it should be something something __french preposition monsieur, and began to suspect him, although he originally wasn’t part of the suspects

Anyways later we got out of the shop and we received our exam papers (the papers just appeared on our palms) They were marked but the total mark has to be calculated by ourselves Ivan was so stressed But ofc he was fine I was calculating I passed The passing mark was 20, which was 50%. I got 24.5.

Though I remembered the full mark was 60, not 40, idk why lol… but it made sense in the dream And supposedly passing is 60% irl

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hide and seek (flying)

In a game. If I get caught I will have some bad punishment (I genuinely forgot) (i think the punishment is getting raped)

We all flew high and try to camouflage in the corners/ obstacles in the building. However since I haven’t flew in years (I flew the most in primary and junior sec, I only flew for a handful of times in high school), my flying skills deteriorated and I couldnt fly to the ceiling. So I perched on some lower ceiling, which was unsafe. There were many ppl who couldn’t fly as high as me, but there were also some who can fly higher than me.

Also a rule of the game is that the catcher has a superpower to look through the eyes of those whom they caught. (Example: catcher C caught a hider, A. Catcher C will gain the ability to see through the visual memory of A, before A was caught. In other words, if you hid with A before she was caught, and you didn’t change your hiding spot/ you spoiled your next hiding spot to A, C would know your location.)

So it is the best to avoid everyone’s sight when finding a place to hide.

_{my insight: i think the first part is related to how I wanted to hide from the sus men. The catcher superpower part is related to how A once played hide and seek with me, we hid in the same spot, then A revealed our hiding spot to my best friend, and I got caught, and I was very upset cuz A betrayed me (omg, the catcher’s initials start with C, wtf, i was just making up an example.,.,…, the initials A and C matched, wtf)}

sus brother in restaurant room

#mum #dad #relative 表哥 seems to have a big… urge

Our family and their family were travelling tgt and going to dine in a restaurant we own. 吉野家 style, but many mini separate rooms (those for families)

This bro was renowned for fucking everything/ everyone

While we were walking to the restaurant, he went to fuck a cat on the road

(I legit forgot again in the dream whether he fucked my 表妹 (not blood related, bro is step-bro) or not)

Anyways we arrived at the restaurant. We meant to order omlette rice from the machine. My family walked to the other rooms. I was feeling horny so i was masturbating. In front of him. But actually I was a bit scared of being assulted/ attacked by him.

He looked at me masturbating and yelled/ complained, “if you continue doing this, I cant hold back anymore!!”

So I stopped masturbating in front of him.

_{Holy shit ?? The connecting family room with sus classmate??????}

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Lemme jot some key points

dumb worksheet

Joseph (scary eng tutor) found a rough work worksheet on which i wrote dumb shit like those junior secondary dumb jokes

I tried very hard not to laugh every time i look at the ws but i cant, and i would laugh so loudly

Idk how joseph thinks, he just look at me laugh

I was scared while laughing too Because this tutor was famous for scolding people harshly (… but except me… I’m the teacher’s pet)

changing groups

#primschool I was grouped with some people idk, which was fine But later i went to the library in primary school, i found my classmates, turned out they thought i was absent so they automatically added me to their group. Now idk whether to abandon the old group which was already short on people, or turn down my nice friends in order to keep my “promise” with the old group

Ivan’s bbq part time job

#ivan Ivan took a part time job to work as the guy who helps cook barbecue stuff on a double deck bus. The top deck was cooking realllly nice meat (beef pork etc) (very thick and juicy and looks super good) Everyone was looking at him cooking

The lower deck were some cute plush dolls, he was also heating them

Later after the meat were distributed/ sold?, he took a big sac he said he collected from second hand stores one by one. He put all the stuff from the sac onto the two decks. They were all cute plush dolls. They’re all abandoned by their owners but all in perfect condition, and the designs were pretty. He begin to cook them on the grill.

I wanted to get some of the dolls after he finished grilling them. He laughed and say he don’t mind. (The dolls were supposed to be distributed to strangers on the street like charity work, not for me)

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I just want to stay in the hotel room all day with this bouncy bed and cozy bed sheets.

finding seats, solo revision

#arthur #secschool #uni

went to a shopping mall/ chiwah learning commons sort of place, there was a crowded mcdonalds, everyone was busy studying.

As the mcdonalds was full, I went to a bench at the corridor of the shopping mall I was sitting next to some other uni students i guess

I think Arthur walked by, promoting some sort of event. coincidentally I left the bench when he went to chat with the people at my bench He was probably sharing some case studies and the case was me

after chatting with hte people at the bench, he saw im not too far off from the bench, so he glided to me and ask if im alright, before gliding away (?

Later I went back to the mcdonalds, wanting to find seats. I saw my friend, Jenny. _{(Super nice high school classmate/ uni classmate, gave me her notes, helped me a lot in my revision.. aaaa)} We decided to find seats together. Jenny found a nice seat for both of us. Right after Jenny put her water bottle to “claim” the place, she left to move other stuff/ order food, and immediately a group of people came and took up the rest of the seats. I have no seat. I am not that shocked tbh. I felt like I'm used to this.

I walked away from the mcdonalds and back to my bench in the mall. some new people were on the bench, they were chatting so happily until I came. They shut their mouth and no one talked. I felt embarrassed and ashamed because I made them stopped talking.

One of the new people (Trini, a schoolmate irl), suggested going to explore, and head to the mcdonalds direction. As I just came back, I didn't go along and stayed at the bench. The rest of the group went, except from another boy, who was from the original people on the bench.

— After a while I dreamt I was walking on the street next to my home at night, revising and memorising some piece of notes. (It was the same dream)

Later I was back in my room, and I was making a new live2d model for streaming. (to put it in simple terms, making a new anime style motion capture avatar to show during my streams) While I was adjusting the base model I realised the facial expression of the avatar is... rather seductive. Although it was mimicking my facial expression, but the avatar looks nicer. So I locked my door and began to masturbate...

After a while I decided I have no time and I started to catch up with the only lecture I haven't watched. Lecture 91. (There was 93 lectures but I went to the final two in person, and 91 is the last e-learning)

After watching, the laptop screen turned dark (video ended), and the dream faded away and I woke.

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dish

Choosing between two circles chinese rice or western rice Editor role in magazine first circle is better than the newspaper one in second

There is more at the beginning

Idk what i dresmt it was a mess Another dream yesterday too but can’t recall

Dude im travelling and she kept talking so i can’t remember my dream

missed shuttle bus

#mum #dad #mwong #uni #caitlyn #A

Took another nap in the hotel

Ok in the dream my dad is stupid as fuck oh my god i want to jump and punch my bed (Omg so rude but im just BRUH)

Me and mum and dad is visiting a place that feels like 動植物公園/香港公園, the ground is those rough concrete with mini mini rock textures (those kind where if you fall down you’ll definitely scratch your knee and bleed a lot), it was moist. It was a slope like Sassoon Road but there were more branches to the road On the road there are several medical facilities, feels like open day cuz everyone’s bringing their parents to walk around

As we were walking I saw A walking with her parents and younger sister around like 25m in front of us. They dyed their hair in bright orangey red

My parents hadnt noticed, so I led them to walk slower so we wouldn’t meet

We walked inside a nearby facility/ room? The room arrangement was like a boba shop, there is a booth where teachers stand behind to prepare stuff/ work, there is a glass panel which isolate us though (In the dream I think this looks like the autopsy room in QMH, but I figured boba shop may be easier for ppl reading the blog to imagine)

In the booth I saw my f3-4 further maths teacher, mwong _{(Yeeeeee another teacher I liked A LOT back then, very nice lady, also friends with the f3-4 classmistress) (side note im the few school people that got accepted into her insta acc wahaha) (im bad at further maths though, surprisingly; im only good at core maths)} Ahhahahh she was smiling at me

Me and her were chatting… (I forgot what we chatted because I was focusing on the background- my pbl tutor _{(the guy who gave me poor marks and tried to encourage me terribly)} walked by. I wasn’t sure if he saw me, but he walked by twice.

Afterwards me and my parents left the room and planned to walk to the shuttle bus station, since it was almost :30 (although buses come at :40)

I was slightly thirsty so I wanted to buy a drink, there was a vending machine a little bit further from the road, but I remembered there was also a few next to the shuttle bus station, and sell better drinks, so I didnt

Also while I was walking, my childhood/ primary school friend, Caitlyn and her parents and little sis, were walking around 25m behind us too, but I don’t want to meet them/ socialise, so when I was stopping by the vending machine, I hid in a 凹位 in the corridor. As they were walking, Caitlyn, who walked at the back, saw me. I signalled “shhh” and “shoo shoo” (excitedly/ anxiously)_{(I didn’t expect myself to do the hand sign for shooing people away…)} to tell her to quietly go away and pretend to not notice me. Caitlyn got what I mean and signalled she will stay silent and continued to walk with her family and left.

Back to the vending machine-

Yet my dad didn’t communicate and walk straight to the further vending machine, meanwhile my mum, who was walking in front of us, didn’t know what’s happening, she kept walking to the station without noticing us changing tracks.

I told my dad, no dont buy it here, just wait, But he insisted he will buy it here because he’s thirsty, with a slightly angry tone So I just let him buy (Although the choice of drinks in this vending machine sucks and it was way more expensive)

He took a long time to buy, meanwhile I was impatient because the bus can come anytime soon- it was almost :44 and the bus hasn’t arrived- It can show up anytime and we don’t have time to walk back, and mum’s probably waiting for us

But Dad’s just so freaking slow skdjsksjskn AAAAAA

Finally Dad got the drink, I nudged him to be quicker, so Dad, who thought he was smart, went to the opposite side of road and chatted with a driver on a coach. The driver then drove us “nearer to the shuttle bus station”. But Dad guided him to the wrong place. We got dropped off in the middle of the route because Dad thought this was the location.

So we had to walk up, but by this time Im very sure the shuttle bus already left for a long time already, cuz I couldn’t really see the crowd queuing for the bus.

As we land, there were many vending machines around us, with many drinks, better and cheaper, I was choosing my drink, while my dad was mad because he bought from the worse vending machine

Bruh

So stupid

I didn’t get mad with my dad in the story/ the actual dream, but as i was dreaming, the real me was super frustrated BRUDHDHSHSHSHDHDHD the second I woke up i wanna punch my bed lol

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writing down this morning's dream because I was running late for the session and didn't have time to write

heavy rain

it was a long story but when i wake up I remembered the ending only, I think I was with an elderly with silver hair, later when the elderly was leaving it began to rain heavily, and the raindrops were slightly heavy when they hit my head- think like the force of red/ black rainstorm, but not as much rain, just the individual droplets were as heavy as that. And it was relatively sunny too, there are clouds but are white/ greyish white, not really cloudy

anyways i wake up with this vivid sensation of droplets hitting me, as if the sky is sad too i was slightly slightly upset because in the dream my hair is relatively clean before getting wet... like i can go off another day without washing my hair, if the rain didn't land on me. but overall I just felt being in the rain without an umbrella was an interesting experience. so it is still a pleasant dream I guess.

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I forgot a huge chunk of the dream :(

data entry w ruth

#ruth Ruth needs help in entering data onto an excel doc. So I went to help her and we did the data entry together. She seemed happy? and thanked me. She told me that she interviewed quite a few people to find someone who can do the job, and I am pretty good at it/ the only one who can do it _{(? I forgot the exact wording but this is the gist)}. Turned out I was one of her interviewee, she was interviewing me for the whole time, but I didn't know/ wasn't aware. In the dream I wasn't really shocked by that though? I didn't have much emotion, I just feel pleasant because I helped her.

There are also other dreams (non ruth), I think it was with uni friends, but I can't remember Is Arthur in the dream? Not sure, I thought I caught a glimpse but idk

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About to have exam !! aaa AhahahahawyabaHabahaa noooia aaa

Anyways

mum’s memoir for me

#mum Leaving home for tutorial lesson About to step out but wanted to pee + forgot mask so I returned

A bit hard to close the front door, my arms were so weak every time I try to close the door, I tried twice The door has some resistance too Anyways I can only “close” it without a slit for prying eyes but I cant 合 the door Also at the second time i saw the emergency staircase door(???? Idk the name) open, i had the very big urge to close my front door but cant, later my neighbours came out of emergency door and were returning to their homes (and were not provoking at all, they just felt very ordinary maybe)

When closing the front door, I remembered mum taking away my id card from my backpack to look for brief moment before I was leaving just now

So when I was walking back in the living room I asked her why she took and see and jot down my card detail (Because i was guessing she wanted to use my data to sign up for scams/ expensive plans or impersonate me to do different stuff eg social media accounts)

She replied shes writing a prologue about me (like… me, not mum) (oh also she's on the verge of crying)

“Prologue to what? A memoir?” I joked/ scoffed. (In dream i used the word 回憶錄)

“Yeah…” she replied

Anyways i continured to stay at living room, and looked at her (my) ipad (Side note irl yes i spent a lot again I bought a second hand ipad pro lmfao (im dying to get the stage manager function) so ill give my ma my old ipad after exam)

And I was briefly mental calculating my budget for live streaming and games on the ipad

Yeeeweah that’s it

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exploring hotel

#uni #pblmate It was a long dream but too lazy to write Just wrote some of the scenes inside briefly

I dreamed of something like a school trip with our whole cohort. We were staying in a large hotel.

At first I was sitting alone at a self study table (in the hotel), revising. Later Matthew came (irl groupmate). He asked me what I was doing (I guessed he wanted to invite me to do something), I said I was revising but I have time. During our chat someone handed me two envelopes, so I told Matthew to wait for a moment. The envelopes were very thick and a bit heavy. Probably some gift inside. The letters were from Ivan and Gladys. Apparently it was some kind of school event where people can exchange letters to each other. Kind of like valentines for fun. Before they’re distributing the letters I was a bit pessimistic in receiving any, cuz I used to have none every year. When the person gave me, I was surprised and delighted. But I felt a little guilty because I didn't gift them anything before.

After that Matthew and I went to explore the hotel floor we (the cohort) were all staying at, and dashed and looked around to see what other students were doing. (Now I reimagined it and it honestly felt like learning commons in main campus)

Yeah… that’s it The hotel design feels like the same one in some of my previous dreams. Also with my whole cohort of classmates. Actually the hotel in “secondary school era” and the hotel in “uni era” feels similar. But the secondary school era one was smaller (corridors and stairs were so darn narrow), there were many teachers managing us, and a tight schedule to keep up with. The uni era one is ever so slightly bigger and more classy. With way less teachers and no schedule/ a very general schedule.

(Those dreams weren’t recorded in dream log, I think)

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Unmotivated I had a dream yesterday too but didn’t bother to record it

Today I have two dreams (because I woke in the middle)

#charlotteh I only remember in the first dream my friend Charlotte Hon was really nice to me although I didn’t treat her that well There’s a lot of content to the dream but that’s all I can recall (because I tried to remember the dream by summarising with one sentence before falling sleep again, and this is the sentence)

lift full of men in suit

And in the second dream I was wearing suit and I went to the toilet. The cabinet next door was a man and I didn’t like the man. Later we queued for the lift with another girl in suit (everyone’s wearing suits maybe it’s an office setting. But the location feels like a high class hotel because the interior of the lift was dark) And we got in the lift which was full of men in suits. One man commented there’s only two girls in this whole lift full of men, and smiled. Another man (a bir short) at the back asked he could only see one girl, where’s the other one (aka me) (because I was surrounded by tall men) And he tried to rotate his head in this cramped lift and saw me, and agreed with the first man.

I was slightly uncomfortable, because I didn’t know what they’re gonna do about it, but I was still okay (aka I didn’t have the urge to leave yet)

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