Apr 1

#arthur Scheduling final few therapy sessions w Arthur. Felt sad

Apr 3

#mum seemed like a chaotic dream, I even moved my arm and shouted a little to fight with my mum in dream.

Apr 4

#T Was having the final few therapy sessions with Ming. I asked her if I can see Arthur or possibly have a session with him before I terminate therapy, but she said no, and also Arthur's office was at a different location from them (Arthur's in Yau Tsim Mong district but we are currently in HK island). So she refused to let me book or meet Arthur for that reason...

Apr 5

Complicated dream but forgot. Seems it was about Arthur again

Apr 7

#mum #dad Long dream. Travelled to Japan with family, and during one of the days I scheduled to meet two online friends (no such person irl). We met up on the streets and crossed the lights and planned to shop together in a big shopping mall. Afterwards, there was quickly sunset and started raining too. The street was dark but there were street lights so it wasn't too bad. The reflections from the rain on the road was particularly memorable- maybe it felt kind of dangerous. I was wary of the pedestrians walking past us, some seemed malicious but luckily I had my friends around me. We went to a KFC to have mashed potatoes and I ate two cups of that.

Overrun session w Arthur n he was annoyed

Apr 8

I started the dream with the scene that I was in therapy and it was almost ending time (like 5 minutes remaining). Then I suddenly remembered I needed to give diary to Arthur for him to read, so I immediately took it out from my bag and handed it to him. He was annoyed. We ran overtime (it started at 11am and it went on until 12:30) because of that. I was lowkey surprised he didn't ask me to bring it next time and conclude the session when time was up. But I am also happy he overran. At 12:30 when we were really ending, I didn't want to leave. He scolded me I was like an infant (I inferred it as being clingy and occupying space without much use). He also flipped through my poorly done past papers and told me to 檢討自己 (reflect on myself). (The marks were like 0.5 marks total for the whole exam. They were terribly done.) Anyways he was not pleased with me.

Later, I went downtown as I needed to find lunch with a dream friend. We were in a foreign city that felt very Indian (chaotic and the currency is foreign. The food looks quite middle east Asian too) (or Sri Lanka? Malaysia??) We entered a very high class local shopping mall/ outlet. Although it was high class there, it was just at mediocre standard tbf. We had a time limit for lunch, so we walked everywhere in the outlet to find restaurants that were affordable and clean enough. After a long time of walking around, we finally found a little dessert/ cafe that was doing a discount for macarons and tea set. So I got a macaron.

Sleep study mandatory giant tattoo

Apr 11

I just did a sleep study and was lying on a hospital bed listening to a surgeon/ doctor telling me about my current condition. He told me I require a more in-depth study, and it needed to be an open chest surgery. It would leave a clamshell scar and a mandatory giant tattoo: in the front, there would be two giant bold “tire line” (just like the tire marks on the road). At the back, there was a super MK (edgy teenager) 左青龍右白虎 decoration (left shoulder giant Chinese dragon and right shoulder a white tiger), and in the middle, there would be a BIG italic gothic font of [my name]. I tried to bargain with the surgeon not to tattoo for quite some time, but he said it was mandatory. So I sadly gave up the in-depth sleep test. Later, I went to an anniversary celebratory event hosted by the devs in Forest app. While everyone was mingling in the dark room holding champagnes, I spotted Arthur entering the room. Then the devs told everyone to take a seat (the seats were arranged all by the four walls), so I immediately took the seat right next to him. Then his wife entered the room, and took the seat opposite to us (at the opposite wall). So I couldn't/ didn't dare to act out anything reckless/ advancing.

Apr 13

Seemed big dreams but couldn't remember

car cliff jumping

Apr 14

I was watching myself/ a person sitting in a car in third person, being driven on the hill (around the cliffs in circles). The ground was in quite plain colours and I couldn't see any scenery outside, it was very foggy. Quite minecraft vibe too, as in everything feels quite cuboid. Suddenly, the driver drove off the cliff and the car landed on the road under us. And this happened for multiple times. Although we were unscathed, the sudden loss of gravity made me very anxious. I hate this dream. Later I was filling up my old diary and therapy logs (in dream).

Apr 15

#pblmate dreamt monica changed name into a very westerner name + surname.

Apr 16

#primschool Travelled to Japan with Benson and Henry. Went to an art fair complex and bought many postcards from an animation studio. I wished to buy more but they had a purchase limit. Then, I met Chloe (the one who drew very nicely) + another primary school friend (but I forgot), and we were waiting for the train from Lo Wu back home.

Apr 17

many dreams. One line stuck with me, it was mum scolding me and the sentence was something like “你唔想上[某英文補習社]，咁你唔好學啦！”

One second late for school, crush on random guys

Apr 18

#exchange #ruby I was late to primary school/ secondary school by ONE second! I was running all across the district for my school and across roads, and I stepped into the gate of the school just as the school bell rang. A discipline teacher scolded me. I was so unhappy I woke up and also felt a bit of short of breath + palpitation so I had to lean on one side.

Second dream. I was waiting for the MTR at admiralty/ central. Ruby cosplayed as 沈星回 and stood beside me. _{(I suspect it was because I saw a giant paper decoration of that game character the night before in a shop)} I also had a crush on Victor Li somehow in the dream. huh ??? Anyways. They (I forgot who was the one) touched my body and used a deep voice to talk to me so I was very aroused. We watched a movie in a cinema, and went to an amusement park nearby together. I came across some friends I made in Cardiff and other uni friends. One asked me about my allowance and expenditure when I was in Cardiff before. Also randomly I realised I forgot to do my math homework from high school and it was overdue and I felt guilty.

Third dream. I went to a DIY workshop shop with Monica and another person (not sure if it was Yuki in the dream), and one of the staff there discriminated us for speaking English/ being a foreigner. So the other day (like one “in-dream day”) I headed out to find the staff and scolded her in front of other customers loudly multiple times.

Apr 19

I went to school and the current task was to fill in a worksheet in Chinese. It wrote a term in Chinese, and I suspected it was Parkinson's Disease. It required me to write the symptoms of this disease, but I mixed up with Alzheimers, so I kept writing down the answers for Alzheimers. Luckily before handing in, I corrected it to the answers for Parkinsons. I felt very proud. (Although after waking up I realised it was asking about Wolff-Parkinson-White Syndrome...)

secretly dating a guy

Apr 21

I was shopping in the mall with a young boy. It felt like I was dating secretly. (If I really need to say who it was similar to, I guess the vibe was like Matthew L since the dream guy and I were at similar heights in dream.) We met Dad in the mall. Luckily he did not suspect anything and didn't find out about it. Later I joined a Minecraft server, and I became friends with one of the helpers. He was friendly, but almost kicked me out when I tried a slash command (something like /tp spawnpoint), and I appeared outside of the map. He suspected if I was hacking because it was impossible to be out of the map. I explained I tried the command since usually such commands work in servers to be teleported back to the hub, but somehow in this server I was teleported outside, maybe it was mistakenly set there. So he didn't kick me out.

Next scene, I was flipping my diary book and showing Arthur the food photos I stuck to the many pages. As I was sharing happily, I heard my irl phone notifs going off and I sprang awake as I realised I was late for school. _{(And I got scolded irl bruh. Echoed across the corridor. I don't think it was necessary in university level, I either show up or I don't... My presence would )}

Apr 22-24

_{Very messy dreams I was too busy to remember or else I would get scolded for being ate again. I don't understand why admins were making themselves a big deal, just mark me late bro.}

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mock CCT after exam

#uni #pblmate

In the dream, I just finished CCT and I was overjoyed and celebrating with our group, when Monica yelled next CCT is in 2 weeks (next Friday), and I was like oh no again

Then our group went to a hotel, where we are having bedside and mock CCT. As soon as I entered the room, I realised I haven't cut my nails and I was slightly unhappy. I was the first one doing again, so the rest of the group went to another room a floor above us to wait for their turn.

There was a (surrogate?) patient lying on the bed, with a doctor beside. I was asked to do an abdominal PE on the patient. I skipped inspection as the doctor told me no need. Then I palpated the 9 quadrants, just as I was beginning to palpate and percuss for the liver, the doctor told me to skip and proceed to another part,,, which is ultrasound!

She/ He turned on an ultrasound machine and told me to hold the probe, and I needed to localise the organs and any abnormality. And I found quite a few (liver, kidney.. and heart which was an incidental finding) cuz the ultrasound machine would beep louder when it encountered something weird. Then I was asked what anatomical location was one of the beeps and I answered renal artery. The doctor seemed pleased with my responses and how I generally performed so she/ he told me to leave and find the next guy for the exam. I asked and confirmed to find Brian.

I went downstairs to find a lift going up to the waiting room (actually when I was waiting for the lift I found it quite dumb but the lift arrived as I was thinking so I rode the lift) I found Aiden while I was searching for the waiting room and he went down together with me to search for the exam room, as I didn't mark the room number as I was leaving.

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bimonthly summary! (feb 19-28, 2026) typing the heading only for interesting dreams.

19/2 #cora #6grass

lesbian spark between Cora & another girl

Cora and SHC (dorm) leader (a random dream character) flirting with each other at the balcony of the restaurant at an evening, very lesbian and hot. I was watching them hugging each other and kissing. Had a barbecue with 6grass again and there was a fire/ burn risk which made me kinda stressed Bought japanese stationery (actually a pencil case)

21/2 #uni I dreamt I was replying my friend's whatsapp message directly on our cohort's group chat (consisted of like 300 people), luckily I didn't gossiped anything bad. I felt embarrassed nevertheless

22/2 I couldn't hold in my poo so I shat publicly, at a plaza/ open area _{(Arthur read my dreams and said my dreams are so diverse, lmao)}

27/2 #secschool

highschool classmate hung herself

I dreamt I finished a year in uni/ almost graduating uni?, and I brought up the topic of high school to a friend. We were flipping our yearbook, when I asked her randomly about a classmate, T Woo, because I suddenly remembered about her and I didn't keep in much contact with this person. The friend went silent, and told me she hanged herself and died soon after we graduated high school. I was distraught when I heard it, and I was upset it took me so long/ years to learn about this news. _{I woke up and was very concerned of this existing classmate, so I stalked her on instagram and also asked a couple of close friends if she's still alive lol. uhhHh anyways yes it seems she is very normal and living}

28/2 #dad #mum #uni #PBLmate

cannibalism, freshly prepared; almost went Epstein Island

holy shit, Dad, mum and I went to a feast (forgot what occasion, seemed relatives gathering). We were allocated to a room, where we were arranged to feast on two humans who would be killed and prepared in front of us !!!!!!!! holy shit, ok.,., first one was already almost died and prepared half when serving to us so it was not too terrible ...? However, for the second guy, it was a young man who was probably around 17ish? He walked in, dressed in white robe, escorted by two staff and was in handcuffs. Then he lied in this horizontal box thing (kinda like a mix of magician cutting woman that kind of machine + slicing bread machine + the altar in a church that kind of size). He told us he was too poor and he needed the money for the family so he needed to do this. He told us there was a souvenir shop which sold leather goods later, we could support them by buying. Then the lid was half covered by the two staff and the procedure began. Then the slices began to pop out at the end of the box and they are putting them on a big plate. The boy was in agony, and we heard him kinda yelling but not too much, he was trying to keep his voice down. I tried to comfort him of the pain by holding one of his hand (it was poking out of the box). Eventually as the slices ascended to the arm level, I couldn't hold his hand, then his fingers, then not anymore. He became our food. (The dream skipped this part of the plot and went straight to below.) Later after the meal we were brought to the souvenir shop. Although we wanted to support the poor people, we just couldn't buy the skin products, and we left.

Later I had to get on a bus to escape with my ward group (forgot what we were escaping from, seemed like a group/ organisation hunting for us). The bus arrived at a interchange station and dropped all of us there, so we needed to find another vehicle to ride. We gossiped about how Brian would be scammed to Epstein Island during the bus ride, but during that moment, it seemed like everyone else had a place to go and I panicked a bit, and saw Brian walking towards a private car. So, completely forgot about the gossip, I asked to join Brian's ride. When I got on the car, I asked the driver where would she be driving. She didn't seem to be friendly and kinda stayed quiet, but was tapping the screen of the car to open the navigation map. I looked at the screen and saw an island, and the driver replied me, somewhere fun. I immediately remembered about the gossip and I just gave her a sensible reason and got off the car immediately. I ran away from the car as fast as possible. And was in a search to find something else that I can ride to escape. While I was running I realised I didn't remind Brian he would be scammed, so I was feeling slightly guilty. _{(I was reading too many tweets in feb)}

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locking arms w JY during class

#JY #uni #pblmate #arthur #teacher #secschool

Was having a class and probably it was the last lesson of the period. We were standing in rows as if we were gonna perform something on stage (we were in a kinda big classroom though- many students, no desks nor chairs- kinda like kindergarten classrooms). To my left was a person who gave me the vibe of JY, to my right was Heather/ Monica. The scene was quite crowded and there were rows behind us and one row in front of us. JY nudged me with his elbow. I felt quite unfortable, and I used both of my hands to push his elbow back. It had a bit of resistance but quickly his elbow nudged me again. At the same time, the person on my right held her arm to lock with mine. Then I realised we were supposed to lock arms together as part of the performance. I looked at JY’s elbow and I realised he was holding up at an angle to let me put my arm in his. So I did so although I was slightly reluctant. But he didn’t explain to me and he kept looking at his front so it made it awkward at first place. _{(I hope my subconscious is not trying to find excuses for JY though…)}

Quickly later, I was told I needed to go to a room to receive a make-up class. When my previous groupmate exited the room, I went in. It was taught by Arthur. I needed to sit by a desk to do some chinese penmanship and dictation. The atmosphere was beginning to get …umm romantic? Personal? As we filled in on what we were up to for the past week between his sentences for my dictation. Then my F.6 chinese teacher opened the door and came in. I was nervous and stressed about her finding out we were almost starting to chat more intimate things, so I kept writing my chinese words wrongly and I had to scribble and rewrite for like 4 times.

Then I was handed to the chinese teacher to continue my class while Arthur left. Later I went out and saw my groupmates at a resting area with benches. It was decorated like a shopping mall with low ceilings- kind of like the subway in tsim sha tsui. I looked at heather and monica and they look prettier than usual. Heather had my haircut and Monica had better skin. _{(We legit had a convo on how an AI tried to give me a new haircut and it changed my face to look like Heather; and Monica told me I had nice skin and her own skin condition wasn’t good)} And then I also saw Alex wearing his backpack at the end of the bench. I told them, oh I haven’t seen Benson, and I also haven’t seen him in short sleeves before actually. And then they told me Benson was right here so I turned around and saw him behind Monica. In long sleeves though.

Later a teacher came out from the room and told us she had calculated the marks. (idk it was a test). She said two people failed, and named those two people, luckily one wasn’t from our group. Then we left. I was quite happy I didn’t fail.

But later I received news from someone else telling me they found out I also failed as well.

A bit of a bummer

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late for exam (fight w Alex) & therapy

#mum #pblmate #uni #arthur

First I was at a hostel having a sleepover with secondary school classmates. It was midnight. I was wearing my formal outfit from the day so I needed to go home to fetch my pajamas and my next day outfit. I was thinking of going home or not and eventually I went back (to the old address). Mum was washing clothes in the sink. I think we had an argument but I couldn't recall clearly. Then I went back to the hostel and arrived at a little bit past 4am.

I needed to have an exam at 10:30 so after a quick sushi party I rushed out to go back to sassoon road to take the exam. I was pretty annoyed when I almost took the wrong strap bag with me cuz it was not efficient of me. The wrong one was my small black usual strap bag while the correct one was an old white cylinder shaped strap bag, with riolu inside.

Before leaving the hostel, we needed to name our takeaways from this visit and it was very difficult since I didn't really learn any and you can't overlap with others, luckily I got a storybook published by the hostel and eventually I got two takeaways from it. Also I spent some time to search for my diary which I thought I misplaced in the hostel rooms, but it was in my strap bag the whole time. (I think there was a short clip where I had to go back to K Town to grab my diaries and ride the metro back, and the two friends behind me couldn't get on while only I can and I felt slightly guilty but I thought it was actually not what I can do)

I arrived at the exam an hour late, and the tutor waited for me to start the exam. Alex was angry because the test was just 10 MCQs and he had to wait for an hour. The tutor put the stack of Q&A sheets on the table and asked us to take one each. I asked Benson next to me, and Monica opposite to me if they could lend me answers to copy or could I just look at them to copy, they seemed ambivalent to that. Alex took the whole stack to hand out to everyone except me. I asked him to give me one but he ignored me. I loudly yell I don't have one, I need one. Alex had started answering the questions. I think Kelvin had tried to separate the extra sheet under his Q&A sheet but Alex was grabbing the papers tight so Kelvin gave up. I also raised my voice to ask the tutor to give one extra to me but the tutor said there were no extras/ she wasn't gonna help me. I felt really angry at Alex and I could feel my whole body was heating up and I'm turning red. I shouted and argued with Alex. And I also thought Benson could feel my anger too.

Anyways Alex continued to indulge in the MCQs and answer them very quickly. Seeing him, the rest of the group also started answering the questions. I felt very frustrated so I took my light blue pen (my only pen) and reached out and scribbled on Alex's paper (and drew a giant cross on his answers). Alex said that's not gonna stop him, I'm the fault. I was very irritated so I drew a deep straight line on his forearm. Then he fought back by drawing also a deep straight line on my forearm using his black pen. I thought I was going very hard on his forearm but when he was drawing me, I hardly feel any pain, or anything at all.

I sat back down at my empty table, looking at my trembling hands. And regretted if I cut deeper in my forearm last night and draw some blood, perhaps he could see me as crazy and I can defend myself better. But on another thought, he might call the security and psych unit to drag me away from the scene since the wounds would deem me mentally unstable.

Eventually when people were leaving, the tutor gave me a stack of tiny memo papers with hand written questions for me to answer individually. The tutor was quite patient in going through the questions with me, but I was quite impatient starting in Q2-3 because I was already late for Arthur's session. (the starting time should be the original ending time of the exam) At the end of the exam, I checked and I was already like only having 10 mins remaining for the session. I was really unhappy. I was in sassoon 3 1/F junction and met Arthur, along with Heather and a few others from our group. Arthur dialed a call and told (prob his sister) in english that he just found out his 90-year-old grandma had an affair outside and they had a 21-year-old daughter! Heather overheard and yelled, WHAT? He also babbled in another brief phone call about hooking up with clients, and I was thinking I hope the next person would be me.

I continued my way to the therapy room but I looked back and saw Arthur signalling me to come. There wasn't much time and we two were going to get food down the escalator at the McDonald's while he started asking me how's my week.

classy bday dinner

#secschool #jy interesting combo (6-person table): [ Arthur, Jasmine W, Cherris Y ] [ me, (i forgot), Charlotte C ]

Cherris and Charlotte were the two birthday girls Cherris had a fancy mango birthday cake. I'd describe it as “designer-style”. Same went for Charlotte with a blue birthday cake which looked very dope. Jasmine introduced Cherris' cake for us. She mentioned it was designed by JY. (She actually pronounced the full name in the dream). I immediately felt a bit uncomfortable and a bit queasy while holding my fork, and my hands were a bit numb, shakey and uncontrollable when I was trying to hold a knife and swap my utensils around while listening. I looked up to see if Arthur noticed, but I couldn't tell. Actually I didn't think he immediately realised that's the name. Yet I comforted myself saying perhaps he pretended he didn't notice because they didn't know about the therapy.

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self-harm talk w therapist n friends

#T #arthur #pblmate #charlottec #mum

In master bedroom of old home Mum wanted to drag me out of bed to have lunch Me hugging blanket and didn’t want to Leg was a bit painful and itchy from her pull and poking I finally used my foot and pushed her out of room and locked the door I checked my legs and were full of red tiny scratches I sat by the window and looked down (just look, no suicidal ideation) I phoned the office and chatted with Ming

I got down and met up with Alex and Monica where we go for a walk, and we also met Ming We walked tgt and they chatted with me Monica shows me her healing/ healed scars on her forearm and I took a close look. _{(I suspect this triggered me and I was in a terrible mood for the whole day and relapsed)}

When we were returning and after crossing a street we found a little pop up booth distributing candies by the brand of Orange. We got our packs of candies and I started eating. (Actually the candies looked like pills and I feel like as if I am overdosing.) Arthur walked to the booth as well in an orange tshirt, I laughed at him for the orange tshirt but I didn’t tell him it was because he looked like a mannings employee. He was chill and just shrugged lol.

Walking back I received messages in a WhatsApp group chat of me, Charlotte C and Monica. Monica wanted to self harm. So I shared some reasons of why I didn’t want to and methods I used when the urges come, hopefully she can try them out or develop more of her own.

me as babyish newbie at office

Wore pajamas and carrying piles of stuff in a very clunky manner to my new seat. Everyone was wearing suits and working elegantly in this gigantic office, almost the size of one floor of shopping mall.

I was moving my stuff and saw a vibrator on the floor, it was mine but I didn’t dare to pick it up or else they know it would be mine. I felt awkward walking by in my pink pajamas and seeing that pink vibrator bc it made it obvious that it’s mine

Anyways after moving my piles of machines..?? I went back to the spot and the vibrator disappeared. Later people were gossipping about the mysterious vibrator, who brought their vibrator to work and who was so horny. Alex also brought up this topic to me and I told him it was actually mine lmao.

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scolding prof hui

(dec3) #pblmate #uni

I was in a classroom in my high school. Prof Hui was my classmistress, teaching English. Our class didn't want to have the class and do her homework that she was going to assign. Then Matthew (wardgroup) sitting at the leftmost of the classroom 2 rows from the front, suddenly raised his hand and told Hui that we were all sick from the PE lesson just now, and we needed to go to the UHS. Suddenly we all acted like we were having a fever, and classmates were hiding their schoolshoes and put their sports shoes under their desk to make it look extra convincing that we just finished changing after PE lesson.

Prof Hui walked around the classroom cautiously and looked under our desks slowly. Some classmates nearby also helped me with the sports shoes and arranging stuff. Prof Hui walked and saw a person wearing normal schoolshoes. We were all very tensed but as we look up, the classmate was wearing full school uniform, and we all relaxed as it was very reasonable for students to exclude themselves from PE lessons/ didn't bring any PE uniform.

Around my desk, my shoes were kind of messy since we were half-organised. Prof Hui saw the little mess of the shoes along the aisle and I tried to laugh it off, which she accepted.

When she was almost done with the inspection, as we thought she would let us take a break, suddenly a random classmate raised her hand and said we were just joking and we weren't actually sick, it was just to play with Hui and amuse her.

I was thinking like, what the fuck !!! We were so close to the goal and you spoiled it !!!

oh and in one part of the dream I stood up from my seat and pointed at Hui and scolded her for a long time with anger lmao, I think I covered a lot of points in the dream, such as she being a waste of time on unnecessary minute things, taking attendance as if we were still primary school/ high school kids, how entitled and arrogant and fragile she was to force everyone including patients to name her as Professor Hui, not just doctor etc., shouldn't happen when she was already past menopause (it seems to me).

_{(I think this was a very realistic dream 1. Matt likes to skip class and get his sick leave at UHS, 2. our group in general likes to skip class + dislike this weird prof 3. dec 1 our autistic groupmate was doing a roleplay pt hx presentation and when the doctor raised questions about a discrepancy between her hx and another person's, she raised her hand and said loudly, “I LIED, I MADE IT ALL UP, I FORGOT WHAT THE PATIENT SAID.” (I can only capture her energy in full caps) (i mean like aaaahh you could've worded it in a much tactful way esp when specifically at that scenario you can actually play it off and smooth over it) and then she got a serious after-class talk and concerns for fitness to practice uhh// and i think she learnt the wrong idea from me when i told the prof i was late because i overslept and i actually got a compliment that I was being honest. uhhhhhhaaaaaa – ngl i feel pretty bad for her shes an interesting person and i think she is actually not too bad- other than occasional things like this- oh and another occasion when she wouldn't use another word to replace “your death is near” when we were learning palliative care in cancer although we gave her alternatives bc she didn't understand the difference...... i used to think autism is not a disability especially when everyone was saying it is “neurodivergence” vs “neurotypical”, but honestly idk now In situations like this, is this considered a “disability” in detecting the appropriacy of the scenario and finding more tactful solutions? In other social situations when one turn away from group lunches to eat their fixed meal choice from a specific restaurant alone, are we crowning everything as a “disability” from a neurotypical standpoint and thinking everything “inappropriate” to us is a “disability”? But it kinda is at the same time? Nevertheless, there are many hurdles for them to overcome in a generally neurotypical world. damn so many things to ponder on just from one dream}

_{man i forgot about the rest, i shouldn't have procrastinated writing them down}

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escape from catch

I was finally kinda free from the escape from idk perhaps a military group. And I was sitting by a field me and other fellow escapees have been managing and planting. The field was a popcorn field. We were sitting under the shadows under the trees, enjoying the view, and plucking some giant popcorns to eat. They were sweet. The escapee to the right of me had the special talent of sensitive hearing and he was our sentinel. He was of short stature, and was wearing a helmet and a pair of construction earphones (to muffle the sounds?). He still looked very paranoid and panicked and pointed every time a distant plane flew in the blue sky. He told us to be silent every time that happened. I didn't really understand why he was being so scared but it made me a bit scared too nevertheless.

The first few planes were just civilian aircrafts, and he was super scared but they all flew past with nothing happening. I told him to be less tensed. He then looked away for a bit when I noticed a weird shaped plane. It was literally a giant turbine/ engine flying with an odd trail on the sky. I pointed at the turbine plane and asked the short guy what was that. The turbine took a turn and seemingly heading to our popcorn field. I urged the short guy to look up and he saw but it was almost too late, as the turbine thingy was pretty fast and was about to land on our field.

I yelled to everyone to run for their lives as I knew this was certainly headed for us. Instantly, our crowd ran out from under the trees and into the buildings nearby.

Me and the short guy were the closest to the turbine and furthest from the buildings, but we also tried to run towards it. I had a hinge that the security guard who was undercover for the military would be waiting there to catch all of us. But I ignored my sixth sense, thinking it didn't work every time, so I continued running along with others.

As soon as I took a turn into the aisles of the buildings, I looked to the left and saw the guard just standing there looking at all the crowd entering the stairs of the buildings. The building was a trap! But it was too late to tell them while me and a few others watched them walking up.

Me and the few went back to the trees area and took another turn into other aisles of the buildings. I decided to run to the left but the others said they would choose the right. We didn't compromise with each other and we ran our own ways.

_{After waking up I thought I was like Aki from CSM with the ability of seeing a few seconds into the future. But this time I didn't listen to it.}

Ocean Park Halloween

#pblmate #secschool

I was wandering on the streets in Tsim Sha Tsui at night, waiting for the time when we gathered for the halloween event in Ocean Park. I walked a little bit and arrived at the street beneath my old home. I met with Brian by the gate of my estate and we entered together, as it was now the entrance of the Ocean Park event. It was a bit dark while we followed the route into the indoor area with a narrower corridor and carpet underneath. Then we arrived at two mini elevators. Turned out they were single person elevators. It was pretty narrow and can only fit one person inside. Brian entered first and went down. The elevator was actually super fast, as if you are free-falling straight down. I looked down to the hollow space as his lift went down, and it seemed bottomless. I was scared to take my own elevator.

At this moment, a group of people walked by to a new path on my right. One of them was Nicole Chan. I raised my voice and said hi to her. She looked back and called me, and invited me to go with them together cheerfully. Turned out there was a group elevator and we were going together. I thought it would be better to do it together, and she was encouraging me with such passion, so I went along.

We entered and it was a free fall down. I was nervous but everyone else was thrilled. I wondered perhaps this was the feeling of jumping off a building.

Then, they started chanting together, landing in 10... 9.. (counting down), and Nicole was teaching me how to brace for impact. I didn't hear clearly if I should lock my ankles or not, and what posture I should take for my lower body. After the countdown, they realised it was not the bottom of the pit yet. So they chanted again, and I got braver and opened my eyes wider to look around me and even below me to guess the time for impact. So with my vision, I panicked less and embraced the impact. The hit was a bit painful but in my expectation. Though the people on top hitting us made my arm a bit sore, but we got out of the elevator unscathed, and we entered the grand underground lobby of Ocean Park.

I walked around to search for familiar faces and Brian who went down before me. I saw a lot of high school classmates and eventually I saw him along with a few others from my ward group (I think there was Heather).

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swimming class, recalling meeting about JY

#jy I put things in locker before swimming class, kind of disgusting because the locker on top of mine was dirty and has unknown liquid like pee, surrounding lockers were dirty too. But the cabinet I chose was the only vacant one so I needed to use it. Saw a small cockroach walking closer to me, it was super gross _{(Maybe it was because I was riding the MTR yesterday and I found 2 seats with unknown liquid like pee, 2 seats with period blood, and 1 whole row with giant poop smear. And I took a seat nearby which appeared clean)}

When I was heading for the swimming class with my uni classmates I recalled I met Julie regarding that incident, and I was rather annoyed when she said JY explained maybe it's his phone, cuz I really don't think phones are sausage shaped. But it wasn't that bothering me because this response was kind of expected and I don't want to deal more with it. But I thought I could question that back then instead of just nodding my head to Julie _{(yea I met with her two days ago)} And then we started the swimming lesson

weird toilet; furious to family, dragging snooker table around

#mum #dad The swimming pool toilet was slightly weird. The compartment was big and L-shaped, but the bidet was near the door instead of within the L shape. And when I close the door, there was still a gap, and students outside can see if I was sitting peeing. So I used my body towel to block away the gap.

Later I met with mum and dad. I think we had an argument, as I was yelling so much in the dream. We were at downstairs of our home, and I was too angry and kind of wanted to escape (?), and had loads of power so I was pushing a giant snooker table everywhere, from home to downstairs, to basement and back up, back and forth _{(hmm my roommate got a bf after going to the bar and pool with him, just 4 days from knowing each other, interesting)}

Psychologist meeting, Arthur shares my dreams, 絵馬 nametag

#arthur #secschool #PBLmate #Joseph They're organising a public meeting in Arthur's room (slightly bigger) with psychologists from various places (like 6-8 people), and took rounds to share? A few of my friends were there too (Ruby and Joseph) And then it was Arthur's turn, he went to the table with his desktop and opened this website. He mentioned a dream about me making stickers from what I drew/ random cute stuff like kaomojis I chuckled and was a bit embarrassed, although no one else knew the dream was mine He actually printed the stickers out for us to pass it down to take a look at And he seemed to be thinking about how to interpret the dream. Since in the dream I knew I dreamt that because Ruby liked to make handmade stickers, so I walked to Arthur's back to tell him about it and no need for him to overinterpret _{(Ruby doesn't make stickers irl)}

As they were passing down the sheets of stickers, Joseph took a medium sized sticker. It looked like a design about the secret garden and the rabbit from Alice in the wonderland, very cottage vibes and felt vintage. I was slightly surprised when Joseph took it, as it was just “sample stickers” Arthur passed down that I thought was for viewing only. But then I thought it was a good idea as stickers were meant to be used and we could always print more if we needed. So I encouraged others to take them as well if they wished to.

When Arthur started talking, I looked at his front and saw he had a nametag on a lanyard. I was very curious of the tag so I stared at it. He kind of didn't want me to look at it/ focus too much on it though, so he tried to turn away but I grabbed the tag firmly, I think I kinda pulled on the lanyard so it made him kinda uncomfortable. :P Actually the nametag is an 絵馬 (both shape and size and also wooden) (kinda big), on which was a project sekai card of 4 girls _{(I think it's the character card my friend got and posted on her ig story like a week ago, not sure)}

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late for gathering late for lecture

#secschool #PBLmate #uni

So at the first part of the dream it was so funny that I chuckled out loud while sleeping, and woke myself up for half a second. But I forgot why...!!

In the later part of the dream I was late for a meal gathering with school friends. My secondary school classmates ate some snacks on the road while waiting for me. And when I arrived, it was time for them to leave. Jamie, Ashley and a few others were walking down a stopped escalator. I tried to step on it but instead, I moved the standing conveyor belt so my classmates almost tumbled down the escalator. They were jokingly asking if that was deliberate, but I really didn't mean to, so I felt a bit sad, but I laughed with them, and I slid down on the handrail.

Later I collected their trash (like food wrappings), and I went to take a lift to go down to the food court so that I can discard it.

Carrie (another primary/ secondary school classmate) was going to take the lift with me. The lift was very narrow and very... squashed. Carrie entered first. She “rolled” inside the lift, and there was still space for me to enter. So I roll inside as well. As we were descending, I grabbed my dress and any flying parts that might get stuck in the edges of the lift, as the lift is like a basket and there were no complete walls to protect us. It was quite scary honestly, but Carrie seemed to be used to it. And I felt a bit more reassuring when she's accompanying me.

I kind of not remember what happened next but anyways we got to the basement food court safely and stuff

oh and I went to eat with our PBL group in a relatively busy but okay-ish restaurant in the food court.

oh yeah the heading, so basically i was late for that meal as well, and later I was also late for lecture. And I was also writing an assignment essay in the dream, idk for which lecture though. But anyways I was pretty busy in the dream but I kind of liked how I am being productive. I was kinda upset on how I was late to everything though.

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