“broken static screen”

Turned out I didn’t connect my laptop to power After connecting it my external screen static was gone and it was fixed perfectly Mum kinda laughed at me, we laughed together

fried pork bento for Adrian

#mum #dad #uni Travels I got a bento for Adrian But he’s pretty quick in walking back to his dorm So I had to walk quickly to chase but he’s just too quick (he didn’t know I had gotten a bento for him though) Mum and dad were following me to ask me what I was doing I haven’t gave him his bento yet

Travelling w friends/ classmates, chocolatier

#Ivan #PBLmate Sharon A. Y., Ernest, Matthew #cecilia ’s grandma (cut croissant) #caitlyn

Friends travelling together I was a bit hungry while Caitlyn couldn’t finish her meal (chocolate drink), so I finished it up. When we were leaving The serving/ return tray counter, gave me a free set of milk+ chocolate croissant set, as she apologise for “Poor chocolate made”

Other than this set I got two more croissants too. C’s grandma came and seemingly wanted to eat. Me, thinking I couldn’t finish them all anyways, welcomed her and she immediately started cutting croissants as if they were all hers. I was slight slightly surprised but didn’t mind. The grandma cut them very quuckly and well, and I recalled they operate a bakery shop (in the dream). She cut the two horns, and then cut the middle, to show me what fillings were inside. One is a very rich dense chocolate, another has cream inside. Another one feels like matcha. I shared the croissants with her.

I saw the receipt also said I was full year free customer as well.

Anyways they look delicious

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very annoying mum always at my back

#mum In this dream I have a little bro and mum and also a schoolmate Mum liked to follow me EVERYWHERE i wanted to find new rooms to hide but she just always found me im so so so annoyed oh my god

I wanted to team up with little bro and schoolmate to hide from her but little bro liked to stick to mum bruh

So annoying !!!! Onl9… maybe let’s rename it to be ln9 Bruh

scary people outside home

#uni #secschool #dad

More and more strangers were crowding/ walk by my home some people that looked like young construction workers went in my home when mum didnt unlock the ftont door, just to put down random items (that mum had left before) Mum forbade me to go out, and I am scared too. Dad was also forbidding me to go.

More and more crowds were outside, and wearing weird clothings. Colourful vibrant exotic clothings, As if a 百鬼夜行 was going on. One tried to enter again. I yell at them to try to make them go away. He was just trying to return something Mum had dropped before. I thought it was lying, so I continued to try to shoo him away, but Mum told me she really had dropped this before so it was real.

I could also see Ashley and Audrey via the door hole, along with other adults. And a creepy clown. They all came from the corridor (idk where exactly because the door hole had a limited view angle), and left from another small door (not there irl) by the emergency staircase. It was really like a parade rather than staying in front of my door. And they looked happy. (happily chaotic evil???)

Idk anyways because I needed to leave for whatever reason (maybe I needed to go to school), I had to change clothes. Mum was giving unsolicited advice again, while Dad was giving me more clothes to choose from, which was fueling Mum's points and ideas. Anyways I chose a relatively original outfit despite Mum saying it was ugly and bad.

I checked the outside situation again, and there were still a lot of people outside. But looking at all the stickers and encouraging words people have left for me/ I have written myself on my bedroom door, I thought it was time to actually try to go out despite it looking scary.

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swimming, massaging friend n got dumped

#PBLmate Swimming, six people in total including me. One pair of couple (uni friends), two quiet introverted boys, me and Human. Somehow we wanted to play something more wild and spicy. So we paired ourselves up. At the entrance of different pools you are required to walk past a gate again, which detects your saliva. The couple used the man’s (and the girl would kiss the man and get his saliva in order to open the gate for herself too) I decided to do that for both of us (me and Human) But because we weren’t as familiar to that level, the kiss doesn’t work so I just left some saliva on the gate for her to come in.

The quiet boys left.

And I gave her a massage at the bottom. I didn’t penetrate the though. Just a massage. She looked relaxed and a bit aroused, meanwhile I was aroused too and making noises by her ear, which hopefully would “trigger” her more. When it was almost time to leave, I started to play with her right nipple with my tongue. She was apparently more aroused by this. I felt quite proud of myself lol When it was ending I asked for a kiss again because she probably needs it anyways for exiting the gate, not sure As soon as we kiss, I tried to use my tongue to reach into her mouth, although my tongue was dry. but she complained of my breath smell. She said it was itchy and felt fermented. She pushed me away and declared/ yelled she wouldn’t be with me again and anymore! And she walked away angrily. I felt defeated but didn’t hold her back because I was guilty for my breath. Her last sentence is she would reconsider me. So it was not too bad. But I was sad. Maybe just good massaging wasn’t enough to hold a person. _{(reminded me of my dad’s terrible rotting breath. Nah.)}

sus tree man around emperor house

#mum #dad (Now that I revisited the tag I forgot why I added my parents here. Maybe the emperor and wife are mum and dad but as I was writing I forgot)

The emperor’s friend/ wife needs help. He dialed his dad to come to “南門” (south door) His dad- big big emperor came and needs to kow tow and worship from the entrance as a tradition. But usually emperors arrive at big big entrances instead of this small “south door”, so it was wrong but he still kow tow, but the things he pray for had changed into hoping ghosts from south door wouldn’t harm them etc.

Later we saw a sus man at the bushes outside our entrance. He was wearing a lot of leaves, like those PUBG camouflage. But he was “sneakily” but kind of obviously hopping and approaching our entrance. I got scared and told everyone to go inside quickly. Emperor noticed. He hinted his father to retreat. Emperor’s pal/ wife follows the emperor, and didn’t say anything. Emperor’s father was oblivious and still praying. Anyways the sus tree guy was getting closer and closer so we all went back into the house, emperor dragged his dad in too. Well the house wall was made of glass but it’s better than nothing… still very fragile and unsafe. We got blinds on the glass walls though… still unideal.

While walking in the corridor someome told me a historical story/ myth in the house: a little girl got raped by … numbers, erm like if 123456^10000000 , then every time there is a calculation step, the person got thrusted once by the perpetrator.

Somehow in that every calculation step there was also a prize giving ceremony going on for selected pokemon trainers out there. (They were selected based on calculation results, they converted the numbers into different codes and figure out what codes correspond to what trainer and pokemon. And somehow I was one of them for my generation, along with Roy (from pokemon horizons), I think. There was one more pokemon who won in our gen, I think it was Kuwassu (i forgot the English name- the water duck starter in scarlet violet). However before the photo had taken it wasn’t ready yet and wasn’t even on scene. After taking the pic it got ready and got on. It felt very sad and disappointed. (There’s also no retaking of photos) I felt pity for it and comforted it. _{(Oh reminded me of not being in the photo for club group photos for school magazine for two years… because I was late by just a bit. I felt equally down back then.)}

aeon shopping, jpy exchange rate, hotel delivery arrangement

At Japan. I found something cool (useless kids sticker toy) in aeon I saw the prices and it was originally like 1400 yen on the tag on the hook, but on the toy there was a hkd label which says 115 hkd I thought it would be significantly cheaper in jpy, and since we were at japan, could we pay in jpy? I turned around and asked a friend nearby. He was actually still choosing stuff to buy. He said that’s a smart idea, maybe I should ask the cashier and he would like to know too. Meanwhile I was guessing maybe it’s just I couldn’t do tax refund if I pay in jpy, but it would still be cheaper than paying in hkd.

I went to the counter and saw my mum at it. Dad slightly further away, waiting by the side at the back as usual.

It was actually just a bag of items mum bought, but she requested aeon to deliver directly to the hotel since the bag was too big, but she hasn’t received it yet, and she was mad. And she’s gonna complain to the cashier.

Meanwhile I started to brainstorm: maybe they delivered to the wrong locker for the wrong room because we swapped rooms a few days in And then I quickly mentally planned, maybe she can ask the cashier for a note/ receipt of them shipping successfully to whatever locker, as a proof, and then we go to the hotel, explain to them about the wrong locker situation and get the items.

Anyways Mum started to communicate with them with broken English, she sounded mad. I just felt Mum was being stupid and unreasonable. The cashier asked her if she was the one who deliver to room 22xx. By this time I already knew it was really a wrong delivery because our old hotel room was 22xx while our updated new one was 16xx. But mum obviously hadn’t realised that, she was just head on and about to argue anything. I was fed up by this ineffective communication from her so I just went to the cashier and explained the thing in like two sentences. Actually as I was explaining, the cashier already asked me if I wanted a proof/ receipt for the hotel, so I immediately said yes, and the issue was solved. Mum exclaimed this was solved so quickly! She expected this would take much more time! I was too fed up so I didn’t explain to her. I just knew it was because she was approaching people to release her anger, argue her way out and figure out who is in the wrong and prove herself right, instead of providing ideas and discussing together, reaching consensus and solving things together (especially when these things were just oudated info and no one had actually did anything real bad)

It’s just effective communication! Just listen!

Later (quickly), the cashier also offered a big bag and a circular box because she bought something new and maybe she wanted to put this into the bag, which the later could be used outside of the delivered items bag to provide more support (like double bags u know)

Mum initially was very unhappily surprised by why the fuck we wanted such a big bag, instead of listening to the cashier. So I explained to her.

So she “wow…” in a frowning voice. Her appreciation sounds like disapproval, and the cashier seemed shocked.

I asked her immediately why she’d do that, and she claimed she was appreciative! And argued her “wow…” is happy tone. Me and dad tried to educate mum about it, but she brushed us off. Bruh again _{(reminded me of that meal with relatives and mum tried to praise an item being good, but started off with a frowning tone and face and sentence. And that worried her sis lol and then dad was explaining Mum’s always like this – mum’s sis has GAD and dad had a very jumpy and easily frightened nature……….)}

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workshops with Ts; man-eating bird, visiting new home

#arthur #T #ivan #dad A hot dry sunny afternoon Leaving Sydney mtr station (literally a station called “sydney” lol) Wearing my small bra背心 like yesterday About to head to school although I’m already about to be late

Signing up for many psyc workshops and courses

Just to see if I can catch the team esp Arthur I saw him multiple times _{(i forgot the details!)}, I was happy. One time I tried to spook him again but I accidentally spooked angela. Theyre both wearing light brown coats, but Angela’s was lighter in colour.

Using annotated worksheets to prove my presence cuz I chose to sit alone in another spot and I didn’t sign my attendance before The guest speaker was pretty chill. Vincci vibe but the speaker was a relatively middle aged/ old male.

After workshop me and other classmates were oil painting over already colour printed posters with around the same colour. It felt pointless so I decided to add some textures and lines within the blocks of colours to give them more style..

Also between workshops: Ivan gave me Arthur’s shared work onedrive for their project (in the dream they’re working on one project) One onedrive folder was named sth like “research work dev” and inside was a 50+ page of a document typed by Arthur about how he managed to met his wife and developed their relationship I wanted to read and i only read the first paragraph about how they were secondary school classmates and at that time another male classmate was after his wife and Arthur was salty? About it Lol (dream only !!)

Later the dream was about how there was a kind of bird mutated and would eat humans. Named the “man-eating bird”. At first I was looking at the sparrows on the ground trying to see what it looked like. So I kept sussing normal birds. But later a bigger yellow bird arrived and started to tear other birds into shreds. It looked like a medium sized fat parrot actually.

And then I hid in a small home. There was a mini garden with double doors, to make people who water their plants to disinfect and kill the bugs that came along before reentering the home. A lady cleaned. But left all the doors open. So I closed it. I was sitting at a small corner waiting for nothing, I was just bored. Seemed like there’s a famous dude with long headings who’s gonna come and organise a talk in the room by the door. (The headings was just like Arthur’s but like in the dream I recognised it as my Dad)

Later i kept sitting there and i heard more people entering that room (I cant see the entrance from where I was sitting) And then I heard a person who was not entering. He’s walking further into the home, and I looked to see who’s alike with me (cuz I walked further into the floor to other rooms for my psyc workshops too at the beginning of the dream, although these workshops are slightly different, this is not a workshop that wellness team invites guest to come and speak, this one was the host’s own talk)

And I saw my Dad’s face. We both “oi?”, (pleasantly) surprised why each other was here.

And then my dad brought me deeper into the house. And I realised the whole initial part is just the door entrance area (玄關), and inside was a huuuuge activity room (mum and dad’s bedroom) with larrrrge windows and seaview, also a playground downstairs outside the window. Reminded me of Lohas park. Also colourful toys and playmats in the room. Maybe it was multipurposed for play therapy?? So fun And I was a bit guilty because I hadn’t stepped foot into this room despite they had been inviting me before.

Anyways yayayaayay

_{side note: actually I had dreams in the past few days, but then it wasn’t really easy to recall + it was boring, like I dreamt of fictional aunts gathered around me. Thats boring so I didn’t bother to recall LOL}

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train; shopping design; hk tour; predatory domestic helper

#mum #dad #uni Train journey. There were 12 cars, my parents and I were going on the 8th. Our journey would take a little bit more than an hour. _{(around the duration of the last cross-city train we took)} Upon arriving at each station, the cars would separate and leaving that particular car in their respective destination. Car 1 would be the earliest to separate and so on. Pretty interesting design.

Design shopping with Yuki We were looking through minecraft pixelated textures now. (Uhm maybe imagine 3d goggles but the goggles are minecraft texture packs; some sort of AR stuff.. but we weren’t actually wearing glasses, it was inbuilt in our bodies as a function?) Yuki’s texture pack was good. As if she downloaded that “more player models” mod because everything was blocky and 3D. I tried to switch mine but all my packs were not pretty so I was viewing in an ugly colour filter.

We went to some pop up stores to look at their original designed products. But the shop keepers were unwelcoming me because I only looked and didn’t buy anything.

Raining hk Coffee shop go out (no seats) Tourist ask for directions Take bus from whampoa/ tst coast Across victoria harbour to another coast (teach tourist using map, another passerby also teach)

Ok and then on the bus there was a group of domestic helpers. One was taking a photo of me when I was sitting opposite to my own domestic helper. I snached his phone and deleted the pic.

My domestic helper was a bit chill because he was rambling on where we should have sex together in the field when he’s working. I asked him if he can pick a place that less people would look at (I was unwilling but I couldn’t escape). He avoided my question, I think he would like us to fuck in front of his friends aka those on the bus.

Before getting off I realised I forgot to clear the recently deleted album so i snatched his phone again. But his was android and he had multiple album apps. I browsed inside but couldn’t find that tab. But I had to get off the bus w my domestic helper. So I returned him his phone.

Getting off I asked my helper what’s for lunch. He said I’m cooking (me) And I asked how about we cook indomie He had an idea and entered an alley, which led to those small snacks shops. I followed auickly yet nervously.

It was actually a big alley. One fish shop and then one gambling, one sus shop

Saw Sally and Mancy I at first waved at the wrong person as Sally, it was a third person travelling along with them. (They’re all cosplaying) But Sally was surprised I recognised her. I apologised for waving at the wrong person but Sally felt close enough and was very glad and amused.

They wished me good luck when having sex with my domestic worker. I chuckled and said thanks (although i really don’t want to have) :////

And then I was planning where to get a test strip for my domestic worker for STI right before sex…

med quiz w Ronnie!

#PBLmate Med quiz in lab. Sitting with Ronnie J. Need to group tgt two people in a group. A third girl in another table ask if she can group with Ronnie. Ronnie declined. And we formed a group. I was secretly very happy hahahahahaha Did a few multiple choice questions on paper as a casual quiz. The handwritten markings got digitalized in real time, very cool.

depositing money; zombie escape, penguin and seals!

#secschool

Getting a lot of red packets from relatives. In RMB. Depositing in bank ATM. All those 100 bank notes

My savings acc rose from like 5000 to over 10000 ! :D (in dream)

Suddenly many zombies came. Felt deja vu cuz I had a similar dream before. Setting was in polyu

Used a long stick to tap sounds to lead them to the exit. Didn’t work lol Died I think And then I returned and learnt they got lured by penguins. So I used some plastic bag with yellow and black towels. One zombie just told me this doesn’t look like a penguin, it was too fake. And was following me along to attack me. I was embarrassed.

I think I died again but with slightly better progress. I came back to be part of a schools of (cosplayed) seals Using thick denim bras and skirts and move in a “seal like” way… Cuz apparently zombies get scared by seals and we guide them to the exit. And it was a success.

The school reran this zombie apocalypse again and using these tactics it was a success again. We found a stray zombie (Bindhiya) and me and another staff guided her back out.

In the dream zombies look just like humans but with dull green clothes.

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weird I forgot a lot of the dream because I fell asleep after dreaming it and briefly waking up

dissection, straight A classmate 1

I was in the dissection room. _{(irl: Another room – ADL1. I was at around the front entrance of dissection room – around station 1)}. (But in the dream, there was only one entrance, which is the back entrance in the dissection room, so this position was actually “deep inside the room”)

My table consist of me and my friend. (one dream friend) I was operating on the one on the table, and was following instructions like the other groups. Friend found a stack of dried skin somewhere on the bench. The appearance was like a plastic wrapped stacked blanket. But the blanket was skin of once living. He/ She said, “there's three skins inside,” and was ripping the package.

I was kinda shocked and asked her what she's doing in a whispered tone. The corpse wasn't in the package. We should operate on the one on the table. She told me it's alright, and she opened it. I didn't stop her because it was already ripped.

I looked around and the teachers weren't nearby. So I looked at her taking out one of the neatly folded skin. And was holding it like a shirt.

Somehow dissection class ended

As I was walking at school corridor, I found several adults surrounding a schoolmate. I asked my two (or several) classmates next to me. They said it was Sara, she got 4A* so she was answering reporter's questions. (somehow in the dream 4A* was rather rare like IB full mark for some reason...) I asked them, Sara was the vice head/ head prefect, right? They said yeah it's her And I mentally calculate, Sara was one year younger than me, if she's a prefect (f5), then I was form 6 Very studious and nice, I kinda admire her. _{(no such classmate irl btw. I don't have friends called Sara too.)}

movie – the ring

#mum #dad Our family went for a movie show with auntie atlex After watching one show, we wanted to watch another one, which is called “the finger”/ “the ring”?? (I forgot the exact name) But first we wanna get some refreshments We went to the bakery nearby There was a tiny section that was made by Atlex It is a selection of self mixed healthy drinks There were two that were inspired by me? In the way that I once gave her some chinese medicine ingredients and she made a drink (entirely in dream). One of the ingredients I gave her is called 地獄 for some reason 💀

straight A classmate crying 2

I was in the classroom, sitting on the first/ second row. Sara was at my back. _{(Maybe because yesterday I was sharing about my friend sitting at the back of me)(Sara and my friend has nothing alike I guess)}

i asked (genuinely), what is she sad about, academics? but shes 4A*! and used counselling techniques _{(Maybe because of the workshop yesterday night)}

she asked me back if i am sad And I told her yeah I'm sad too because I got raped in anatomy room _{(?????????????????? noooooooo not rape....)}

dream probably ended here

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finding surgeon

#mum #ruth (actually didn't appear)

Mum liked to be close with famous people. In the dream she went for surgery. After coming out, she said there was a famous doctor (a pretty big neurosurgeon in our faculty) who was on the next bed of her surgery (as a patient). She told me to find him for her in order to let her say words like she recognises you and they can be closer or whatever

So, me, still in my scrubs (I work in that hospital), I went to search for that doctor. I walked around in the hospital but there was no sign of the doctor. Maybe he already left after his minimally invasive surgery. I followed two staff to the back corridors where they led to different doors. I entered one door. It was the backdoor of a supermarket (so the hospital and supermarket were interconnected)

I was in the supermarket. I was a bit confused but I briefly walked around to find the surgeon. Seems not here. I saw the staff that went through the door entered another backdoor. And they were talking about mental health team or whatever. So I sneakily followed through the backdoor and it was a staircase. One of the staff went up. After he (I assume it was a man) went up, I stood by the staircase of the original supermarket floor. I want to wait for the man to either come down or I wait long enough and go have a check.

In the middle of waiting, a figure who was wearing kind of punky clothes (in a good looking way) walked by. She ignored my presence. (maybe because I was hiding/ acting low-key). I looked and felt the person was like Ruth. So I kind of act coughing or humming songs because I wasn't sure so I wouldn't directly address her. But when I look closer, it wasn't, so I was relieved and glad I didn't yell and say hi to the person.

Later I went up a floor to see what was it. It was a mental health wellness room. But rather creepy. Because the staircase was dark and was made of old looking concrete. And the mental health room was on the top of the staircase. (There is one more section of the staircase going up, but it ends into the wall, so I wouldn't count that as one more floor, although it said 8/F)

Anyways, I looked inside. There was a young little girl in shocking pink dress, with her back towards me. She was talking to a woman (at first I thought it was my secondary school art teacher, but soon I realised it was Ming Yi teacher aka Cantonese opera lesson teacher – yes our secondary school has niche mandatory courses)

Since the woman was sitting towards the direction of the door, I was scared of being discovered, so I hurried down the staircase.

Back on the supermarket floor of the staircase, actually there was a side path which led to a hidden corridor to all classroom doors. The path was initially blocked by a double door. The first one you need to press a button to unlock it. The second one you can just push it open. Coincidentally a staff walked by and just pressed the button. So I followed through. I used a little rectangular thing on the floor to hold the door open, because I couldn't see such a button on the other side of the door. I was guessing if I needed a staff card to access, then in that case I would be stuck here. The second door was simple, I just push it open, but I am worried again if it shut and it was a one-way door and I couldn't open from the other side. So I was holding the second door open (because there was only one door “holder”? and I used it on the first door)

So the dream ended here with me holding the second door open.

my own loft became family trip

#dad

Japan trip! With me alone. I was checking in a place with my luggage. There were two elevators, I entered the one which came earlier. I checked my tag on the room key, it said 6/F. So I was finding the button to 6/F, when I realised this elevator is for odd numbered floors only. But I was too lazy to get out and wait for the other elevator. I blinked and looked away from the buttons for a brief time. I looked back and the 6/F button was here. I pressed it. At first there was no response (no light after pressing button, lift wouldn't move), but after pressing it multiple times the lift worked. And the lift opened at 5/F which was what it was supposed to do at first place (odd numbers) And I was slightly scared of elevators too so I got off quickly. _{(scared because I had way way way too many nightmares about elevators and escalators not reaching the floor I wanted when I was small. So usually in the dream as long as it opens and it was close enough to my floor, I would just leave. Because they could never put me on the perfect floor)}

I got out and walked for one floor with my luggage. (It wasn't tiring at all) I checked my tag on the key again and found my room. I entered with the key. The room was really nice. Very white, clean, the furniture was sleek. I quickly checked if the door locks work, and then I close my door immediately. I continued to look around in the room. Big TV. Somehow there were three beds. One double bed in the middle, two single beds on the sides. It wouldn't be too worrying if there were only two beds in total, because I can still kind of rationalise why me, one person only, would have two beds (e.g. inviting friends over; room provider only has double person room) But now we have three beds. And then I looked back at the door and found it was open. I tried to close it but it wouldn't click, it would just open again I figured out there was a silk scarf which was tied onto the door knob that was stuck between the locking mechanism. Me, slightly confused because there wasn't any when I just came in, removed the scarf and threw it on the floor outside. Because I couldn't move/ nudge the long scarf away from the lock, the only way is to untie it and throw it away. Now the lock worked. I looked back into the room and saw my dad's shoes. And then I looked back at the lock and it didn't work again. And I heard my parents outside. They were checking into the same room. But seemed they didn't have the key. (Maybe because I took the only key and went in first). But because the lock wasn't working, they just marched in with their luggage.

Turned out this mini studio/ loft was actually our family hotel room and we were going on a trip... I was very disappointed. Because when I entered the room alone, I was overjoyed to see my own new space and I can try to manage my own living as a capable independent and functional adult. (I thought I was either going on an exchange or travelling alone.) But it was a family trip. And family was a stressor.

Mum was like, why are you putting up such a face? We paid for this expensive family trip despite running out of money, so that we can make you happy! I was pretty upset but I didn't reply anything back. Because it seemed like they were deliberately making me guilty.

Really quickly after they put down their luggage and roaming around the room loudly, they wanted to go out together (with me) to explore the neighbourhood (and I think to stalk my friends). _{(which for some reason made sense, because one time our PBL group went for dinner at my neighbourhood, and we sat near the entrance glass panel,,, and they walked by coincidentally and looked at every one of us amusingly. They told me later on when I got home. I was oblivious to this if they didn't say. Rather creepy hhahaah)}

Before going out we needed to turn off the TV. (They turned it on and was blasting mainland TV shows...) It took so long and many tries. Mum tried a few times before giving the remote to me to turn it off. But I couldn't too. It would just turn black for a sec and resumed the show. Anyways finally I figured it out and turned it off. But Dad wanted to try it himself using his own way, so he took the remote and was pressing buttons on the modem also. I was pretty annoyed because I already turned the TV off, he was just wasting time problem solving a now solved problem He turned it on again with the buttons and couldn't shut it down. Mum was yelling at him. I was annoyed. Dad was annoyed we were being impatient. Finally Mum told me to just turn off the TV using my method and ignore what Dad was doing. So now the TV was off.

Now they were picking hats to wear before going out. I thought it was just a simple task. I just see the one which matched my outfit and I pick that. And then I also picked one for Mum because she was wasting time and her taste was awful. And then Mum began to kept praising me for such a good taste. I felt uneasy and a bit scared.

Dream ended. Sigh! I was picturing a nice quiet overseas exchange me-time! Now it was a noisy and unnecessarily hectic family trip. Awful.

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All fragments after i woke Seems the plots are all unpleasant but I didn’t feel unpleasant

shenzhen driving trip by dad

#dad He’s the one who drive the car We kept getting stuck in the road because of traffic jam So we didn’t have fun because our day was spent on the road We finally got our car parked on the road but it was already late at night

argumments on TV

Saw an argument on TV A celebrity scolded a mentally impaired person who’s working hard at the cashier (being nice to everyone despite 6000+ people queueing) an egoist and whatnot and she’s comjng to the country just to bear children The woman scolded back, I think she scolded something about his dick i forgot

late night outing in school uniform

#mum Mum gave me an umbrella and an electric fan when I left for school in the evening (7-8pm when the sky was dark) I was in secondary school uniform Anyways it was raining so I got my umbrella opened Mum was calling me on phone so I was having bluetooth earplugs in my ears I turned on the electric fan to play with it I like the feeling of the strong fan on my head I played with the –/+ button on the fan I kept pressing the + button to see if it cycles back to - But it didn’t and the wind gets stronger and stronger And it was like a very strong showerhead that’s beginning to be hard to handle (started to feel like it wanted to fly off my hand)

I was positioning the fan next to my headphones by the ear so mum can’t hear me

But later mum came downstairs and found me And she turned off the fan for me

But actually I do know how to turn off, just press and hold the – button. It’s just that there are many fan strength levels that I need to wait for the fan to get through all of them And I didn’t want to stop the fan either, became it felt good and sounds good when i have my wireless headphones with noise cancelling (if i remove my headphones it would be too loud and I feel scared; but with headphones on, the loudness was pleasant and it sounded like backgrounds white noise, machine whirring.)

Anyways I just stood there listen to what mum has to say

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park & grad gown, chasing game

#mum #dad Went to park w family (seems like a japanese mini amusement park) Different stations in the park, if you have to go to the end of park you have to finish the stations one by one

There was a puzzle with a cannon ball, and if u want to move it to open the exit, u need to follow the guide and collect stuff and activate some fans and push the ball to the right spot Feels like mario odyssey

Anyways I failed, because i think it just cannot be done physically I cant use freaking tissues and feathers to push and shoot the heavy cannon ball

_{(thoughts: It reminded me of my clogged brain for this academic year and I physically couldn’t do it)}

So I gave up the puzzle and walked straight through it to the next station

But then when I sneaked to the next station, it was an empty land with a car (I feel like it’s some sort of bumper car arena)

But because I haven’t finished the last puzzle, this one wasn’t activated (The car works cuz I sat inside and it can move, but there’s no puzzle activated and I can’t see the exit) So I tried to fiddle with the switches that the cannon ball supposed to hit

But it doesn’t work

And I clicked some wrong switches so my car suddenly moved in reverse gear and in circles and it was hard to control, cuz in the dream I don’t think I have a steering wheel

I was scared so I hopped off the moving car and ran back to the last puzzle

I was staring at the cannon ball for a bit when my mum waved and called me. They happened to walk by, but they’re at the area outside the puzzle (the park used those… retractable fences (those metal poles where they have a fabric line that you can pull out like a retractable measuring tape)? To fence off the puzzle area

They called me to come, so I walked nearer Turned out they purchased customised grad gowns for themselves So basically at the cashier, since these Japanese were creative, they designed some little vests to go along with your gown, so it looks cuter and not as dull They bought a light blue one and a dark blue one i think

I told them, but I haven’t finished the puzzle yet, I haven’t graduated

They said nah it’s time to buy one, they’re about to run out of stock! The light blue one was unavailable already! Choose one which one would you like Dad chimed in to say the dark blue linen one was good! I looked at it but find it a bit too grey But the rest was worse so I chose it

After they got the gowns, I asked my mum to help me with the puzzle And we three went to do the cannon ball puzzle (actually I just observed them) And they easily solved it for me (we were doing it the same way but somehow two people were stronger than one)

And then my parents said done and we left

Maybe the empty bumper car park was the finishing area… not sure…

_{(thoughts: this may be the first recent dream that mum was actually doing something useful- I think it’s because mum finally sat down for the first time yesterday night to actually ask me and listened to how I’m doing at school- without throwing a tantrum about me not working hard enough. (uhm although she did yesterday) and she’s normalising my rather abnormal experience of amnesia to the point I got lost at the lab that I went frequently (im not sure if she’s just trying to be nice because I looked like I’m on a strike and gave up or something) (i dont know) (I don’t think she realised my mental health was shit)}

_{(also rather ironic that dad noticed a subtle poor old lady that needs help on the street and so he gave a lot of things to her, but he didn’t seem to realise I also need some help) (And yesterday I finally remembered last summer before I got really depressed I knew it was something to do with covid but not covid itself… I searched through my gallery and my digital footprints but because I was sick I didn’t leave much. Now I recalled something really disappointing. I think I’ll write here in case I forget again. I was terribly sick so in the morning around 6am I finally got up from the bed we were all sleeping in, to throw up in the toilet. I threw up black/ brown stuff. I was horrified because according to my study notes brown vomit indicates something really bad inside- because it was old red blood cells I was having fever and wanted to faint and bla bla bla anyways after sitting in the toilet to ready myself I walked back and woke them up, despite feeling bad because they’re sleeping soundly. But I really wanted to go to the hospital (I hated eating meds and going to the hospital- and this was the first time when I actually wanted to get help) But they told me it was too early and they’ll sleep more and take me there later, despite I told them I can’t and I wanted to go now, they slept again So I waited in great discomfort until around 9? (because I am too weak to go to the hospital alone) (Maybe 9 was fast.. but the hospital was near… and I can’t wait that long) So I was really disappointed in my parents Yeee story time ended I couldn’t remember this till now, surprise}

I was in a 1v1 chasing game To this point i think I had too many chasing game dreams so I’ll skip the plot The setting was in minecraft and we can fly and jump into buildings / blocks

Oh the scary part During sleep I suddenly felt there were two palms holding my head, they felt super real but they weren’t my hands. Feel like some old lady witch. And they came from behind me, but behind me was a wall. I was super scared idk what she? Would do to my head..!!!? Rip it off!?????? Hang me !????? And my heart rate goes up, and unfortunately my watch alarm also goes off (vibrations) and those vibrations were kind of fast and sync to my heartbeat Holy shit so i open my eyes slightly, i can still feel the hands, but I moved mine and they really weren’t mine, and there were no blankets around my face so idk where the sensation came from ajahajshsj and it’s not my mum because the door was closed fuck And after i widely open my eyes and move a bit, the hands retreated and gone

Anyways we swapped to another scene:

rushing hw

#secschool #teacher

Doing chinese homework during form period (“classmistress time” that we can do anything) Because next lesson was chinese and we needed to hand it in

My neighbour saw Chinese teacher outside the door (we have a little glass panel by the door) And thought she didn’t come in because it was locked Meanwhile I was thinking she didn’t come in because our classmistress (the f6 one btw) was still inside I didn’t want her to come yet because I haven’t finished the hw, so I pretended I didn’t notice Anyways the class were gesturing the door wasn’t locked, so she opened the door My classmistress was tidying the desk for her

Anyways finally she was announcing she was going to collect the homework by the end of today, at 18:30, instead of during the lesson. So I was relieved. But I think maybe she saw me doing the homework so she extended it slightly.

_{(irl: this chinese teacher was pretty nice. There was a dictation but I failed because I tried and couldn’t memorise the sentences lol, and she wrote some encouraging words. And then in the next dictation I worked hard to memorise the damn passage and got 100, so she wrote some words of congratulations and gave me a stamp hahaahhaah)}

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bird on bus, shopping

#dad (mom was a small side character who later shopped with dad) Dad found a random big bird with black and white tail on the bus. He mysteriously asked if I wanna see it. I said yes Big birrrd And I asked him if I can hold it Dad gave me some water to rinse my fingers (and because that way, he said, the bird would not hop off), and I grabbed the bird and let it perch on my fingers It was squawking but I held its feet and didn’t let it go because I wanted to take a pic. I was excited. I asked my dad to take a picture of us while it was still there. He took his camera and we took some close pics. The bird didn’t bite me.

I later put down the finger I was pressing on the feet, and it still stayed on my finger

Later we got off the bus and went to a shopping mall Somehow during shopping I tested myself some revision questions and I answered it correctly so I was kinda delighted _{(but i cried to sleep that night knowing I’ll probably repeat the year)}

Anyways we shopped at different places and I went to an antique shop with the bird. A staff was curious and asked about the bird, I asked if the bird was hers (because the bird was friendly to humans and knew to perch on people’s shoulders). She said nope. I wanted to buy a necklace in the theme of the bird (feathers, black and white…) But they thought I wanted something for the bird and so they pulled up banners and party materials to celebrate the bird’s birthday. I wanted to clarify I wanted a necklace for myself but seeing the shop keepers were very happy and dancing around to celebrate, I didn’t tell them

I think thats the second time I entered the antique store I think the first time was before riding the bus, and I was holding a sharp knife and entered the store. I just wanted to look around and buy something, but the shopkeepers and customers were scared. I tried to explain my innocence and I just happened to be carrying a knife but they were still scared. And I didn’t have a bag to keep my knife in, and even if I have a bag, it was too sharp and would rip the bag, so I had to hold it :(

flying game

Something like 跑online and at the back if you’re too slow there will be tribes who eat humans to come and get you There were many exotic animals too (weird ancient mammoths,,, many fancy big animals) At first I was playing physically in first person view but towards the middle I swap to third person and I was controlling an avatar in my laptop It was slightly annoying cuz I customised the controls on the laptop and I had to readopt to the controls I set before

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