halted session w vincci; intimate with Arthur 2

#T #arthur my new session would be with Vincci instead, and it would be conducted over zoom. It would be my first time having a session with her. Arthur was a little bit worried if she can handle the session, so he joined the zoom meeting as an observer too. But around the mid part of the session, while Vincci was speaking, she suddenly quitted the zoom. I assumed it might be some internet issues of her. But she didn't rejoin. I was confused and initially I was a bit hopeful, so I was joking with Arthur about the situation. But after 10 mins of her not appearing, Arthur decided to call her but she didn't pick up her phone. Around 20 mins of waiting and almost the end of the session I was kinda upset because I think she didn't want to see me so she disappeared. I also told Arthur about me being a bit unhappy. I also felt a bit empty in the dream. Thinking back it might be because I felt like both Vincci and Arthur didn't want me (Arthur referring me to Vincci and she just ditched the session) and I felt abandoned.

I forgot how the scenes changed, but I was still in my new house bedroom/ old house parent's bedroom (direction of bed and door were similar), when I finished the zoom. Then Arthur came into the room. (I think) (The parts below were blurry) He lied on the bed and I was on top of him. We were naked this time. I was again humping him. (I couldn't really recall the sensations I had after I woke up- but I did moan a lot in dream) I leaned forward and our chests touched. Then I gave him a hickey on the left side of his neck. _{(shit now I googled it, I actually gave him a bite with my right canine... LMFAO)} He also gave one on my left neck (not sure bite or hickey), and as I felt that light sharp pain I was quite aroused and moaned again haha

I continued humping him while (we kissed? I think) Until I was kinda wet and I can also feel his cock erected and was rubbing against my butt as I moved myself. Then we changed position as he stood at my back and teased me by rubbing it without putting it in. Finally he put it in. Honestly it just felt like a foreign body inside and it wasn't really arousing haha- but interesting experience

_{After I woke up, the sensations in the dream are much less vivid to recall than the first dream (except the “hickey/ bite”)– so it was just pleasant watching but not feeling. I'm not sure if I felt a lot while dreaming though.}

prepping high school final exam in y4

#secschool school distributed papers to us for practice I got mine and I ran to school (my old home) in order to scold my f6 eng teacher for giving me an ass SBA mark but I arrived at school just when the recess bell rang (:35) (aka recess ended), so I didn't continue my plan

walk two dogs

#mum Mum led two dogs into my bedroom, telling me to walk them later. I was putting on the collar and leash for them but I forgot which collar is for which dog, and I took some time to attach them when eventually I realised I swapped them. Mum came in and helped me reattached the collars and leashes swiftly- but she reattached the ones I was meaning to remove. So I told her no, this is wrong and we need to change it. She replied they are similar, then you swap by yourself, and she left the room. I figured it out by a while and was halfway done, but seemed she waited a while already and she was a bit impatient so she came back into the room and helped me with it. I felt happy. Then we were about to go out and walk the dogs.

_{(...... now I am feeling mixed)}

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terrible gigantic argument with mum at wellness team waiting room

#T #mum #secschool

It is my birthday today. I felt a bit bad so I went to sit in the wellness team office. The waiting room was spacious. It was actually a big computer room. I sat there for a long time but couldn’t pacify myself, and my trembles continued, and I was still crying. So Vincci came and check on me. And she gave me a notebook to write what kind of subjects I chose during secondary school. So I listed all 13 from junior high and 7 in senior high. We carried this book with us to our uni entrance, and we sat at the middle of the slope where everyone would walk down to exit school. Ashley walked by and gave me a jellycat peanut keychain as a birthday present. She wished me happy birthday. Then I recalled (knew about in the dream that) it was my birthday. I was very thankful of her for remembering and the birthday wishes and I bursted into tears again. Some other old secondary classmates who also walked by said hi to me. After a quick while Ashley came back and apologetically took away my gift (which weirdly became a white plushy rather than the peanut), saying that she had recognised me wrongly and gifted wrongly. Still crying from receiving the gift, I was a bit sad but thought to myself that it wasn’t a big deal to be sad about yet I sobbed.

I think we went to a supermarket afterwards to check out on desserts yogurt and ice cream. _{(irl yogurt is my mum’s favourite and I’d pick ice cream.)}

Vincci was still next to me and we went back to the waiting room. My mum came to the room as she found out somehow that I would be here. Probably she checked my geolocation or she saw my notebooks, which I was deliberately not writing about therapy most of the time. When she saw me, she looked crossed, but when she saw Vincci beside me, she rose from the stool and put up a smiley face full of gratitude and thank her for taking care of me. I was angry and loudly told her to stop being so fake and put on a show when she dislike student wellness team _{(idk if she does irl but very likely, if she knows about it)}. So she scolded me back for wasting time talking to strangers and trusting them. That I was a total letdown and I couldn’t even study properly. I was furious and upset so I also stood and yelled at her telling her that she didn’t even understand how come my study is so bad, she never asked about my mental health and she ignored all the issues that I presented at home and those I told her about. She knew that my mind was so bad I was lost at school. I couldn’t even recall important stuff about myself. That I was in my room abnormally moody and I only showered every five days. I was yelling at her and getting very irritated every day and I never smiled but she didn’t even think anything beyond that! She only cared about the results I bring forward. But it was never me.

When she heard me yelling and screaming at her, it triggered her and she also yelled back with such explosive temper like usual.

At the midst of our argument, I also yelled at Vincci in frustration to see how me and my mum are both double-faced with such dramatic emotions. (To clarify the loudness is simply because I was arguing and I wouldn’t randomly speak in a low tone to another person. Not that I have beef with Vincci)

I’m too tired to write down our arguments, and I couldn’t remember them anyway. But we had a terrible big loud argument and my voice was coarse again. But it still did not reach her.

_{Maybe Arthur is right about I shouldn’t be expecting from my parents as we knew how they’re like. But I am lonely in this little place which is supposedly home.}

post exam driving

#uni

During exchange, I went to a distant place to have an exam, so a prof drove me there. On the way back I drove a part of the highway back with my riolu on my lap, and Cecot in backseat lol. But I got distracted by it after a pause of waiting other cars to pass- as in I forgot to start driving again and I became too focused on my doll. So Cecot said he would drive it and I sit at the back. Reluctantly (because I like driving), we swapped seats. When we reached the urban streets, I asked if I could try to drive. He said “you need more experience to handle the road.” I’m like ok Then I asked “how can I train my attention as I couldn’t see the rest of my vision if I look at the lane in front of me,” He replied, “by training.” I was left speechless because he wasn’t answering me. Maybe he was annoyed by my previous mistake of not focusing on the road. But I asked, “training?” in hopes of clarification. And he said “yes.” … so I asked “what kinds of training?” I think he was planning to answer, but at this point he already arrived at a parking spot and I had to get off. He asked me, “is it over?” (This part starting was all in canto) I asked “what do you mean by it, if you’re talking about my module then I completed it, if you’re talking about the exam then yeah?” And he repeated, “is it over?”

So I was very confused and kept thinking what’s over until I woke up.

But now after typing this down I realised he just probably wanted me to end the conversation.

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bpd diagnosis discussion among wellness team

#arthur #ruth #t

I was listening to a talk about exchanging to overseas universities in the common area in my dorm with a dream guy friend (not irl)

(there was a university called ... tomato university in canada... and the girl who was tryna promote the uni was wearing a tomato mascot outfit... oml)

Anyway, the guy friend left right before the talk ends, and I helped him collect his handouts and worksheets and I looked back and saw Arthur sitting kinda diagonally behind me, using his phone. I looked at the screen and saw my emails (not irl) with him. (using outlook) The content of the emails were all conversations I had during the session. I asked him what that was, and he swapped to whatsapp and showed me a whatsapp group where he sent all our conversations out. He explained he kept the emails and forwarded them to a group with the rest of the wellness team, and this group is specifically to monitor? my behaviour through discussing about my words with him. (sentences with the vibe like I'm never gonna leave you/ just you/ previous “arguments”/ sentences about I like him a lot) I was checking the whatsapp group members but I couldn't recognise the people, as they are using their default names (not phone numbers nor contact numbers) which were all nicknames. But apparently that's the team. The group chat was kinda quiet though. Just him sending out the convos and occasionally someone would reply briefly. I suspect they were discussing in person.

Arthur admitted slowly but frankly that he thought I was a bit borderline, to which I said it's ok cuz I felt I was kinda this too. And I felt a bit recognised because I haven't had a definite answer from him before. But internally I was also slightly upset because they think I have such a condition.

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peer supporter event, eat delicious meal; “free” meal from delivery man

#T

vincci was busy i was leading some primary school kids along with other peer supporters their school lift was small tried going into lift to 4/f but other taller primary school kids with bigger furniture went to 6/F first

then we finally arrived our floor, where they invited a gov funded eng teacher? speech therapist? to come teach some other organisers include our counsellors then we had a very very very very delicious indonesian meal so delicious i tried opening and closing eyes to confirm if it was real life or dream, but confirmed it was real life ... it was dream

so yummy

anyways later i went to a fast food shop for beef rice like 吉野家 but the chef preparing meal was very busy, and the cashier as well, and i sort of avoided the counsellors cuz i don't want to explain why i want food and then a delivery guy walked by and saw me waiting, so he went to the chef/ food window and help me get a big big big box of beef rice it was $16.xx, I asked him if he has payme, he said it's just 16 dollars (no need), and i said I have payme qr code if he wanted to scan, and he didn't and waved goodbye

delivery fee increased

i was trying to return my jeans cuz taobao shop delivered wrongly (bruh) (irl) and i found this person who can carry it to mainland to deliver back, which would be cheaper than going from hk directly

then in the dream he raised the price from 3x to 4x and i was a bit annoyed

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archery fair

#mum #dad Archery fair was rather interesting. It was a semi-open space, where various booths were set up for people to enjoy or have a taste of archery. I queued up in one of the booths, and when it was my turn, the archery fair ended and everyone began to pack their stuff. So I walked around with the sample bow and arrow and played with it. I was kind of happy to be able to get these on hand to sort of use it, despite the target board was already being taken down and tidied up.

At the mean time, I tried to hide from parents after the archery fair to prevent them from finding me to grab me back to hotel with them.

news about Ruth the cat-shaped jade pendant being eaten

On the way to the hotel, I listened to the news. There was a news about a jade pendant missing and its fragments were found in the recycling bin. The man who owned the pendant, and his wife, were both troubled by it as they didn't know why would the pendant be like that, and this jade was rather important to him I think, cuz he named his cat-shaped jade (as Ruth) (lmao) and wears it every day? Eventually after investigation, the staff/ police found out that someone chewed and eaten the jade, and left some shards in the bin.

changing hotel room, potentially gross hotel room

#T The hotel room me and my family was allocated was pretty decent, but during our stay in the second day, mum told me Dad was going to ask the hotel to switch to another hotel room which had the same shape as the one we invited Aunt Helen to live in before. For me I didn't think it was necessary, so I was a bit annoyed. I also heard from others (Vincci... so random) that some of the rooms were very gross and oily and dark so I thought if we changed rooms maybe the new room would be worse.

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Murder

There was a kid (twins), whose family owned a ship. One of them invited a friend to come. The friend secretly climbed and on board the ship at night without them knowing, before the actual invitation day. He got on in a place with security mechanisms. A robot chopped off his head. Then there was an automatic dispenser system on the ship, where they release the kid’s body along with a lot of fish snacks and lure in order to facilitate the body being broken down and eaten by fishes, so that the body would be gone. Actually the security system was for assassinating the other twin, with a seemingly valid reason of him being sneaky and thought he would be an intruder instead and auto killed sus people.

classmate became eng teacher

#secschool #pblmate Setting is like on an aircraft, I’m on the middle columns. Watching Pokemon Horizons on iPad, and started to play static noises instead. I realised it was a bit too loud as I was using the speaker, so I turned it down to not affect others. I was a bit embarrassed because I wasn’t aware of that when I was watching the show.

Later the teacher came for class. It was actually Serene, teaching English. Meanwhile our classmates and I were actually in the same year as her (still secondary school in dream) but she’s already employed by the school. I was like wow how come Anyways we started checking and marking our worksheets (marked but we needed to listen for the correct answer for questions we got wrong)

Also the setting/ room slowly got warped into a high school classroom.

I was on a single table, vs others with two tables together. The classmate in front of me was also on a single table. I saw her moving her table backwards a little bit, so I wanted to move my table with her. But as I was moving to the front, she moved the table a bit sideways to join a double table. I was slightly shocked and ngl a little bit sad, lol And then Audrey came and sit on my another side. We chatted and I kind of did a show and tell with my pencil case. It was cute and in pastel green (hmm not gonna buy this colour irl probably). Yay! We were checking a section of the worksheet which I left it blank. I recalled it was actually because I got to school late, so I missed it, but it was fine. I wasn’t too bothered by it. The classmate who moved away joined us. So now we are sitting in a triple manner. Yay!

Later Serene started to chit chat with the class instead of teaching new stuff. She asked if any of us have part time jobs. Around 6 out of 35? Students raised their hands. She went around and asked everyone. Emma and her friend were tutoring Spanish, interesting.

Narita airport harbour view

#arthur #T (I think there was Ming and Urshmar) #mum Walking out of the observation deck thing but by the harbour, I was mesmerised by how BLUE the sky and the water were. The sky was in a brilliant bright royal blue with absolutely no clouds. The water was shimmering and in a darker shade of navy blue. I couldn’t take my eyes off the beautiful scene.

Following me were Arthur and a few others, and my mum. We were finding a spot to take a rest as the deck was kinda crowded with mainland tourists.

Mum told me to look at the scenery and not to be on my phone. She urged me to go down one step and be closer to the water. Despite knowing how to swim, I was scared as I was just wearing casual wear. And I’m not sure if the water would be safe enough. i didn’t know how deep the water is, and there wasn’t any lifeguards nor buoys. She said, it would be fine, you won’t fall over, trust me. _{(oh but my mum doesn’t know how to swim, bruh how are you sure it would be fine I can’t trust you)} So I stepped one step down and I’m slightly touching the water. It was pretty fun. Finally I initiated to take a selfie together, mainly because I wanted a photo in which Arthur was with me. Took a few tries. Idk how it turned out. And in the dream I got to learn that they’re all living in the same block of building, and

… i got distracted and forgot what I was gonna type

Anyways opposite across the harbour was west kowloon & kai tak, and I realised Narita airport was closer than I expected ! Lol

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workshops with Ts; man-eating bird, visiting new home

#arthur #T #ivan #dad A hot dry sunny afternoon Leaving Sydney mtr station (literally a station called “sydney” lol) Wearing my small bra背心 like yesterday About to head to school although I’m already about to be late

Signing up for many psyc workshops and courses

Just to see if I can catch the team esp Arthur I saw him multiple times _{(i forgot the details!)}, I was happy. One time I tried to spook him again but I accidentally spooked angela. Theyre both wearing light brown coats, but Angela’s was lighter in colour.

Using annotated worksheets to prove my presence cuz I chose to sit alone in another spot and I didn’t sign my attendance before The guest speaker was pretty chill. Vincci vibe but the speaker was a relatively middle aged/ old male.

After workshop me and other classmates were oil painting over already colour printed posters with around the same colour. It felt pointless so I decided to add some textures and lines within the blocks of colours to give them more style..

Also between workshops: Ivan gave me Arthur’s shared work onedrive for their project (in the dream they’re working on one project) One onedrive folder was named sth like “research work dev” and inside was a 50+ page of a document typed by Arthur about how he managed to met his wife and developed their relationship I wanted to read and i only read the first paragraph about how they were secondary school classmates and at that time another male classmate was after his wife and Arthur was salty? About it Lol (dream only !!)

Later the dream was about how there was a kind of bird mutated and would eat humans. Named the “man-eating bird”. At first I was looking at the sparrows on the ground trying to see what it looked like. So I kept sussing normal birds. But later a bigger yellow bird arrived and started to tear other birds into shreds. It looked like a medium sized fat parrot actually.

And then I hid in a small home. There was a mini garden with double doors, to make people who water their plants to disinfect and kill the bugs that came along before reentering the home. A lady cleaned. But left all the doors open. So I closed it. I was sitting at a small corner waiting for nothing, I was just bored. Seemed like there’s a famous dude with long headings who’s gonna come and organise a talk in the room by the door. (The headings was just like Arthur’s but like in the dream I recognised it as my Dad)

Later i kept sitting there and i heard more people entering that room (I cant see the entrance from where I was sitting) And then I heard a person who was not entering. He’s walking further into the home, and I looked to see who’s alike with me (cuz I walked further into the floor to other rooms for my psyc workshops too at the beginning of the dream, although these workshops are slightly different, this is not a workshop that wellness team invites guest to come and speak, this one was the host’s own talk)

And I saw my Dad’s face. We both “oi?”, (pleasantly) surprised why each other was here.

And then my dad brought me deeper into the house. And I realised the whole initial part is just the door entrance area (玄關), and inside was a huuuuge activity room (mum and dad’s bedroom) with larrrrge windows and seaview, also a playground downstairs outside the window. Reminded me of Lohas park. Also colourful toys and playmats in the room. Maybe it was multipurposed for play therapy?? So fun And I was a bit guilty because I hadn’t stepped foot into this room despite they had been inviting me before.

Anyways yayayaayay

_{side note: actually I had dreams in the past few days, but then it wasn’t really easy to recall + it was boring, like I dreamt of fictional aunts gathered around me. Thats boring so I didn’t bother to recall LOL}

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DIY mahjong, Arthur’s shirt; family age

#arthur #T #A

Ride bus with Ronnie J. from Sassoon to centennial campus

I think there was a guy who asked me where I’m going n he wanted to tag along. I declined him cuz I wasn’t interested in him

Got off bus, went to an upstairs little floor with a few rooms. It was a visual art teaching centre.

I peeked inside the rooms but the tutors were teaching. The tutors gave me the vibe of wellness team but not exactly that. In the dream I just related it to “a friendly aura” without realising who they were (their hair looked a bit different) Though one of them had a bit of grey short hair and slightly Ruth-like… but in the dream I didn’t really connect the dots)

I wanted to join in a DIY mahjong workshop. But I only have blank mahjongs, meanwhile the kids in the workshop has DIYed different symbols. The workshop tutor was a girl. Slightly with vibe of Ming but not her. She was busy with teaching some other kids on sand art so she ignored/ didn’t notice me. After she done teaching I asked her where to get the tools n materials for mahjong DIY, and she told me to find Coco. _{(I think the mahjong part is because the party room me and my friends went a few days ago had a mahjong table but idk how to play. Also the route to the party room was similar to the corridor/ floor plan in the dream.)}

I went to sit tgt with bunch of people in the “waiting cabin” Coco and a bunch of classmates were discussing how to make earrings with beads I joined the discussion, finally I realised A was inside the room the whole time in the corner, and I felt a bit pissed

Suddenly there was a siren and people were moving out of their classrooms. We looked out of the cabin’s glass door, confused. I think there was a fire though I couldn’t see one. We were thinking whether to leave or not when I saw a familiar figure in the corridor. It was Arthur, wearing a backpack, holding the door for his classroom, letting the children evacuate first.

I rushed out of our cabin and looked at him. I was sad because he’d be in danger if he stayed behind longer. I used both hands to hold his arm (uhm like locking his arm in mine and I was holding his hand). I tried to pull him firmly away from where he was standing, and wailing “don’t stay herereeeeerreere you’ll be in dangerrrr” He said along the lines of he had to because he’s the tutor, then asked me “you miss me?” I looked at him with pleading eyes and he took off his sweaty dark grey t shirt and gave it to me. “This will remind you of me,” he said. (He’s now shirtless.) Holding the shirt, the scent was strong (this time it felt spicy instead of the usual “round” and warm). He looked determined… so I left unwillingly and sadly.

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Later went to bio lesson So many stacks of worksheets. I was assembling them into my 2-hold binder the whole time when the teacher was talking lol, she had the vibe of Ming again

A few students were in the corridor again I saw arthur there too One super tall student (legit double his height so he’s super damn weirdly tall…) asked him, what’s family’s age Arthur replied, “The median is [my name]’s age”

Hearing my name, I looked at them and saw Arthur pointing at me. I felt flattered, embarrassed and happy that Arthur recognised & remembered me, and I laughed really hard.

_{(the math was wrong lmfao but yeyyyy I was mentioned)}

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competition/ exams; hide again

#primschool

The competition/ exam is splitted into two sections. Part A is swimming; part B are calligraphy/ drawing and fishing. They are all hosted in my primary school covered playground. Participants are my schoolmates from the same form (but many I didn’t know- no such people irl). We all have to bring our own gear and tools: swimming suit, calligraphy brush and fishing rod. However everyone brought them except me.

As I was queuing up during the assembly to listen to the briefing, I asked my friend Chloe Cheung who was in front of me, to lend me her gear when it’s not her turn for the exam. I promised her if she needed the gear she could directly take it back. She agreed.

However our student number was rather close so I was worried if we would get assigned to the same exams at the same time, and I wouldn’t be able to get a set of gear too cuz then she would be using it. And while we were walking up into the covered playground after assembly in the open playground, I remembered I was on my period so I would get her swimming suit dirty. But I would take her swimsuit back home to wash before returning it, but I hope she wouldn’t mind… because it was blood after all

Anyways the teacher, ptam _{(a primary school teacher who taught random subjects- didn’t really teach me the main big subjects so I wasn’t that familiar with her. But according to my many friends who got taught by her, she was a nightmare as she scolded people with prejudice without giving them chance to explain. And she was especially infamously bad towards the girl who chased after me with scissors- people said she’s schizo but imo it’s just ADHD and she’s just goofing around… she got kicked out (because of her). But the teacher also quitted a few years after we graduated)} Ok back to the dream. P Tam blew a whistle and began to run in laps. I could see that she wanted us to follow her to do warm up exercises. But I didn’t want to, because 1 I hate sports 2 warm up means we needed to swim and I don’t have my swimming gear because we’re in the same exam batch so I wanted to delay this for as long as possible And everyone else couldn’t understand what P Tam was doing. And I pretended to not understand too. Ofc I wouldn’t explain to them. And the teacher was fairly bad so I’ll just watch. So we just stood there watching.

P Tam repeatedly this for a few times, only one or two students followed, and they also stopped following after one lap because no one else was doing it. Yet P Tam didn’t explain what she was doing, and she just gave up

So we went to section B of the exam first, which were calligraphy/ drawing and fishing. Section B of the exam was hosted on another place

(eeeek i got distracted again while typing wtfffdhdhdjdhshsh)

We went to main building in main campus, very old. There were also big mosquitoes Anyways we entered a fishery room for the exam

We first played hide and seek for some reason I had to take a blue cube and put and hide it as far from us as we could. And the hunters would trace that cube. And they will try to use the cube as a clue to find us Well eventually we got caught. But we delayed a lot of time for the exam so we were running out of time. After Chloe finished with her calligraphy and drawing, I got her pen and I only have like 5 minutes to draw a pic according to the given sentence, and copy some calligraphy words.

I think the sentence was something about expectations and travelling. (The original sentence was coherent but I forgot). And after thinking for a few seconds I got a eureka moment and I drew a boat on the sea. The examiner asked what I was doing, so I explained my thoughts while trying to draw I then planned to draw two big eyes (big face) behind the sea and the boat (which was in fact, a fishbowl), to represent expectations and anticipation. But unfortunately I drew one of the eye too small (and there was no pencil for me to sketch, I had to directly use the brush with watercolour) so I had to shrink the size of the girl at the back to make the ratio right But I still sort of messed up the girl’s face, and I told the examiner ahh damn I drew it badly. And then I started to fix the girl’s face. The examiner commented, nah it’s getting better, you’re fixing it. To which I answered yes. _{(hmm this observing examiner’s speech reminds me of Arthur and Charlotte C. Because it felt like something he would say. Also I fixed Charlotte’s drawing on my uniform and it felt exactly like that- I was fixing the hair too) something like this}

After finishing the drawing I still have a minute to write calligraphy. I was writing english when I realised it felt off using this chinese soft calligraphy pen, so I grabbed another paper to write chinese. And then the teacher gave me a paper with English script for me to follow, so I grabbed another paper again to write English, but the soft pen was so hard to use and my words became very ugly because the ink on the brush is a bit hard to control and it spreaded (like those holes in the alphabets are also filled with ink)

Haven’t went fishing (I wasn’t even done with the calligraphy too), and the dream shifted to another

math exam, extended time

#T Calculator was quite difficult to press. Because I upgraded it and added a lot of formulas, so I had to cycle through the formulas to find the one I needed, because I don’t know the code/ number for the formula to call it directly

I kept pressing but the answer didn’t make sense in the way I think it feels off and there should be a better answer So I swapped methods for a few times (they are geometry and coordinates questions which were topics I liked). The question I got stuck with was actually just a simple triangle question. The calculator is glitching (because of the formulas I added) and was kind of stupid

Finally I found a big error in my method and I needed to redo the whole thing (Actually was because I was too lazy to plot the triangle properly so I didn’t notice two coords lies on the same x axis, which made the triangle very easy to solve)

(And then I calculated the area, but actually the question was asking about perimeter and I could just use pyth thm, I chose it over sin cos tan cuz I have the other two lines alr)

But I didn’t have enough time, because my brain was jammed and my calculator wasn’t obedient, but still I tried my best to press as fast as I could and write down my steps

And then the exam coordinator announced there would be an extra two minutes for the exam. I noticed the familiar voice and it was Vincci’s _{(lol first time in dream heh also I finally spelled her name correctly oml so sorry)} But I didn’t have time to look up, I was focused on my work. I think I briefly looked and it was actually Vincci but I wasn’t sure

Well I got a few steps more and I was nearer to the final answer but times up I continued writing but no one stopped me. She collected the papers from the other side of the room first, and as she arrived at my side I got the answer too No time to double check and I was pretty sure it was wrong because I pressed the calculator too quickly

_{(The extended time reminded me of two things: 1. A chem test in f5-6; 2. A math exam in p1. Regarding the chem tests, our chem teacher would give everyone two more minutes when she saw a lot of people (i suppose) weren’t finishing the test yet. (Because she’s the only person teaching the form and she made the paper so she could set the rules) which saved me a lot (every time I was running out of time she gave us all extra time, idk if it’s just me or everyone else has no time tbh- because sometimes others had actually finished the paper, and most of the time people didn’t comment how the extra time saved them, so I have never brought it up too) Side note oh my god vincci reminds me of a nicer version of chem teacher- chem teachers were always 傲嬌 for some reason idk; and also my mum’s sister lol they both looked very tired despite seemingly energetic 2. Math teacher in p1. I was pretty good at math in p1- I don’t think I’m the top cuz I don’t have full mark. But for some reason our Math teacher, whom I later heard from others as a pretty mean and fierce woman, really liked me and I think she’s really kind! And in one math exam (yes exam), I haven’t learned the concept of algebra/ in this case using symbols hearts flowers to represent an unknown number. So I was stuck there for a long time without proceeding to the rest of the paper, and I ran out of time. And the math teacher gave everyone an extra 5 minutes, but directed to me. (Everyone’s finished with their papers and only I was working). I was very grateful but I still couldn’t solve it. Anyways the teacher was really kind heheheeh I wasn’t sure how I did for that exam, I think I actually got like 55 or what, but it’s the only time my mum didn’t really scold me that hard because she knew she hadn’t taught me algebra- she was actually being reasonable back then- before I got third in class in primary 3- that’s when she “discovered my potential” and started being very pushy)}

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work w friends; breakfast! with ruth n many others

#secschool #chinok #pblmate #onlinefrd #ruth #arthur #T #6grass #ivan #primschool (lmao so many tags) Ok so Work with Mancy until sunrise at place like chiwah. Mancy was working on EY registering exchange stuff. Saw sunrise outside window. Later I left.

Went to place like lab block in sassoon, to have MHFA lesson by Vincci (lol first time thinking and seeing her in dream heh) After lesson I think I went back near med lib. I think my PBL group was gathering for something (related to studying). After that, near 6pm I grabbed ChiNok to go tgt back near lab block. He didn’t really know what I was up to, I think I gave a random reason and he didn’t pushed me away when I legit grabbed and pull him along with me. I was waiting near lab block exit in order to see if I can see Arthur (and others) leaving after work. I don’t know if I saw him or not, I actually forgot how the dream went. Because Ruth walked by and chatted with me. (I think I abandoned ChiNok starting from here, but I was pretty sure there’s another person next to me. Oh maybe Yuki??) _{(new person unlocked in dream- if you’re reading go ask Vincci who that is; basically online friend whom we knew each other since 2020 but met physically for the first time during MHFA lmfao)}

And then Ruth stood in front of me and asked me how we’re doing, while looking at me. I think I answered something like ok, because my friend was next to me and I can’t talk too deep

And then Ruth was very chill And she asked how was MHFA and began to test me on some easy concepts of the lesson (but was actually med stuff..,..,..,.) I got the first two wrong, but I guessed the third one right, but not exactly 100% correct. I was chuckling with my friend. Well but Ruth said my answer was right, and she encouraged me.

Later I think my friend left for some other thing so it was just me and Ruth now !!

Ruth still looked very chill. She asked me how do I feel about the news yesterday night. I was a bit confused and asked her what news. She said there was a med student who jumped off in the washing machine room in the residential hall. And we began to walk back to the breakfast hall probably at main campus (it wasn’t that far in dream) to have breakfast. It felt like some sort of study tour where the breakfast buffet is planned and we’re going to have it.

Back to the conversation, I said oh I didn’t know. And I thought to myself I’d rather choose my own room which had my own washing machine (it made sense in the dream) as the place to jump instead or else people would find me too early and it’s useless And then Ruth seemed to read my mind and she said maybe her/ your _{(I forgot what pronoun she used)} own room is better, right? I said yeah…

We walked by chiwah again but the sky was early morning, not bright yet, but nothing special I think we were chatting about another topic but I forgot just now :(( (probably some actual “how’s life” type of stuff…? And it was bidirectional and she also answered, not just me)

And we arrived at the dining hall. The first table was fruits, I dislike fruits so I swiftly walked away to the other table, but Ruth seemed she didn’t know because I was near her the whole time and I left too quickly I saw she wanted to use the tongs to get some chopped fruits for me but she subtly looked around and I wasn’t there, so she gave it to others. I felt a bit sorry but I decided no fruits over staying with Ruth lmao

The other tables were full of food I wanted to eat. Gigantic sushi, sashimi and oysters.!! I looked through what dishes they had provided and I got my tray. I think I accidentally knocked over a ramen spoon (those big ones) onto the ground. I didn’t plan to pick it up because it was dirty and idk where to put it. Also I had some food targets in mind esp a fish sushi which has one remaining. Someone next to me picked it up and put it to the return tray. I looked and it was my primary school friend Nickole. I thanked her but my voice was too too low, like whispering. So I thanked her again, this time slightly louder but still whispering and in a singing tone. I was pretty sure she couldn’t hear it, but I heard her whispering/ humming something like no problem I was walking back to the food tables and someone said hi to me. It was Winnie, one of my “6 grass” squad members. We said hi because it’s been such a long time seeing each other. I asked if I can sit with them for breakfast and she said ofc! Just at this time, the other members of my friend group came. Candice pointed out there’s “the person” walking towards us. It was Maisie, also a sec school friend (who was depressed) (but 6 grass don’t know her) We briefly said hi And then around the corner there was Ivan choosing food. And a few steps behind him, Ruth was watching (us). I noticed Ruth but ignored her. I said Hii to Ivan, and my tone became very close to Ivan, I asked him what he’s choosing what he’s gonna eat, and told him I’m gonna have that sushi and oyster because it just so happened last night before sleep I saw instagram reels about these exact same food and I wanted to eat, and such a coincidence! There’s the same thing here. _{(now the fun thing is the above sentences are true. I did watch red book reels before sleep and saw and wanted to eat these, they’re actually the same)}

Anyways yeah dream ended here before I actually got any food. Lmfao I abandoned my Ruth lol ahwhaoNqjsajdbkaa

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