bloody bandages; explaining assault

#claudia ’s bf #JY

I was woken up in my dorm bed. I saw there was a few bloody unopened bandages at the end of my bed. By my leg/ foot. I wondered when I had put my bandages from the shelf onto my bed. Her bf (ernest) asked me about the assault. So I told him. And we simulated the situation with consent. In the toilet in front of the mirror. He was nice that he shoved his dick to the left before pressing down even harder.

Claudia was actually in the room next to us, when she chimed in saying JY was indeed sus

falling merry go round

Everyone was on a … circular bicycle kind of thing, like a merry go round. The floor would eventually disappear. So if they stop, they will fall. Many quitted the “game” and observed by the side. Only like four people remaining that were playing the game. At first there were also three girl otakus (one of them looked like Ame from Needy Girl Overdose) that were doing nothing and just sitting in the bicycle, people despised them. They didn’t care. (They later also contributed) And towards the end, a brother and younger sister goldfish also joined.

Meanwhile I wondered why they would continue, if quitting wouldn’t kill them (as the audience weren’t dead), but stopping the effort in the merry go round would.

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spooky lift, fake dad

#dad Dad came home from work. There was a ring in the front door. The back door opened at the same time and dad came from the back. We looked through the door hole in the front door and saw another dad as well. But something tells me it was fake, and i was more certain of it when dad was here from the back door It was supposed to be a cake delivery at the front door. And that person wasn’t holding any cake. I didn’t open the door for it. Mum also agreed, dad was just settling down after work so he didn’t really get involved

Later this person left and another colourful monster came. Didnt open After like 15 mins of it standing there, it left and another colourful monster came out of the lift and stood again Didnt open After a long 30 mins it left. And finally a young man carrying a colourful suspicious cake came. Although the cake was unusually vibrant and sus, i opened the door. He apologised profusely for being late because the lift was acting strange. I thanked him and immediately closed the door cuz I was scared monsters will come out of the lift again.

There were no monsters so far. And i was a bit curious so I went to the corridor to look at the lift. It wasn’t going to the floor it was supposed to. (Like in most of the dreams).

I think something happened and I kept trying the lift along with other lift passengers. The buttons on the lift weren’t even in order. And finally, I figured out. Button 31 goes to 4/f. (Like add the two numbers together). But some rules are like sometimes it subtract if the initial sum has a bigger floor number than what the building has. Anyways after figuring out, the dream ended.

second in marathon

#secschool #arthur Someone held my hand and brought me to a headstart. I was mainly competing with another duo of Zoe Cheng and (Ruby i think) (both very bright and competent classmates I liked a lot) With the person leading me, we were rather ahead. But later the person released her hand and I’ll have to continue this marathon on my own. I kept the pace but the duo was slowly picking up the speed because I sort of slowed down compared to before. When we were racing head to head, I tried to run harder. So I was a bit behind but not too much, like within 2 metres. At the final 100 m, I picked up my speed and ran full force to the finishing line. I think I was faster because my side of the finishing line was kinda closer. (It was a curve) So I was faster then them I think And i heard i got second (an unknown guy was the first with 1h 37m?) And i spent two hours exactly.

Random auntie/ meagan yu’s mum was surprised at my final sprint. I explained i kept some energy during the marathon just for it.

But despite winning I felt a bit empty because Arthur wasn’t joining this marathon, and I won’t be there to see his marathon race.

Japan shopping, unsupportive mum

#mum In Japan. At first i was chilling in my dorm with my roommate. Later mum came and interrupted us. And mum lied in my bed as if it was hers. And I just stood there cuz i had no bed. I felt gross for her to get inside my bed and blankets and touch my cushions

Later me and my parents went to an anime department store. Dad was supportive and walked behind me and shopped and offered suggestions although he didn’t really know the anime Mum was just trying to make us stop shopping and leave I feel unhappy.

I was trying really hard to find Rika / チリ’s merch in pokemon store but they only had figures and not the mats I was looking for. There were so many colours of the mats with different trainers and pokemons, but just not her. and mum kept telling us to leave so i was pretty stressed. (Mats as in like those children’s puzzle foam mats where you can buy one piece of different colourful pattern)

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marrying random groupmate

#roy (looks like) #claudia

So we were kind of like good friends pretty chill One day this dude proposed to me (in the dream we were groupmates, but now i think he gave me the vibe of my driving coach) And im like uh why not, sure And we are gonna arrange stuff

We walked on the bridge to med campus And there were actually two offices there, the first one is the primary school teacher’s staff room and the second was the secondary school one And I saw ptam in front of the primary school one, so i dragged my friend to walk away quickly, telling him this teacher was bad

I forgot the order of the dream, but anyways we got the marriage celebration, i was wearing long dress and kept tripping myself over cuz I’m wearing platform shoes too Our parents were here Mum was kinda annoying again but I sort of ignored her Dad was kinda cringe too

Anyways we got it done, our background music is an opening music from a random tv show And we have a video to go along with the music, they were just shutterstock photos of two people, photoshopped with our faces in it

Lmao

Then I returned to my dorm and had a nap with some gloves (3?) filled with warm water or blood. They felt nice as if I was holding hands with someone When I woke up, I found the lower part of my bed was all blood. Turned out the glove with blood bursted when I was asleep, maybe I was holding it too tightly cuz it felt nicer The ones with warm water didn’t burst

Ye and I told my roommate not to report to the hall staff/ student leaders cuz I was scared of getting reprimanded and I can try cleaning it myself, but it was too late. The student leaders whatsapped her back nicely and I actually get free cleaning supplies and no penalty. Slightly surprised

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mum tagging along for my private hairstyling event

#mum #dad

Dad drove super awfully to get me to a road to drop me off He just stopped diagonally on the road wtf

And I was supposed to bring something which was stored in our microwave to the event- i was invited to get hairstyling by an artist

I opened the front part of the car cuz it was where we stored the microwave

But turned out mum reordered everything and now the things i needed weren’t in the microwave, it became shopping bags Mum forced me to get a shopping bag and she would give me the things I need after she get ready

I was annoyed because she wouldn’t give me the things now, and she getting ready means she would come along to the event, which I did not want I told her no but she insisted

And she took a long time to get ready and wear “decent outfit” and do makeup And I was very impatient because I was already running out of time

She insisted she come along to chat with the hairstylist and thank her Meanwhile I know the hairstylist speaks english so she couldn’t do it + bruh I don’t need her to thank her it would make the situation super awkward but she didn’t understand. How come someone would bring their parent to an individual private event. Ew

Disgusted I was sighing all the time and yelling no and it’s not the case

And i woke up because my emotions in the dream were too strong. I was actually sighing irl. _{(luckily roommate was on a trip so she wasn’t here and I wouldn’t affect her)}

_{I think i dreamt this because I’m getting a piercing today with a stylist who presumably only speaks english? And I didn’t tell my parents about it}

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(relatively) expensive food ingredients

#charlotteh yesterday's dream

Charlotte was sharing with me on how 龍躉 was very high class food and she saw people offering it during official company dinners?

so I told her it was actually not that expensive and occasionally we cook that back at home too and told her (something else) was more expensive

(i think)

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spooky dorm door

#claudia ('s boyfriend) day before yesterday

I am in our dorm room. Her boyfriend came to visit her. My roommate was rather busy coming in and out of the room occasionally, so he sat by the door to wait for her.

But every time after he operate the room door, the door would suddenly open itself after some time. I found it hilarious. I wasn't scared because the door wouldn't open itself if I was the one interacting with it. But after like 5 to 6 times he became a bit frustrated and also spooked out. And then I got a bit scared as well. During one time my roommate was briefly here, the guy told her about it and she laughed while heading out again.

I went to close the door again, and tried to demonstrate to him how he should close our door. And after comparing, I realised it was because I would press the door inwards firmly for a second time to make sure it was closed, but the guy didn't know so he just flung the door shut, which wasn't shut

Now the issue was closed at least before the next time someone opens the door e.g. roommate reenter or this guy wants to try again

_{(Oh maybe because I used to do this to my home bedroom door to make sure it was actually closed, because the door “clicks” after closing weren't trustworthy at all)}

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roommate sh

#claudia I was just scratching and making cat scratches on my bed, and my roommate was sitting by her desk. Then she turned around and showed me her freshly cut arm with long cuts and blood slowly coming out like little droplets out of the lines I think she asked me something but I forgot (it was very graphic but I wasn't feeling much from seeing it??)

anyways turned out she was cutting but I thought she was revising by her desk ye _{(maybe because I think she stress herself out a lot and she got a fever by overworking)}

hon's letter

#charlotteh I was sitting at university upper street, and among the crowd walking by, I saw charlotte hon in her law cape ?? walking by. I think she graduated/ was graduating. I waved at her and she waved back. I was surprised and happy because so far I haven't seen her in campus at all since the beginning of uni. She chatted briefly with me and took an elevator next to me and went down and left, cuz she was busy.

Later I received a digital letter (hmmmm not email), saying things like, friends are meant to support each other, and asked me if I disinfected and how are my thoughts and to reach out to them anytime if I ever feel like it

I was touched, and at the same time wondered if charlotte c told others (like jamie and her)

exhibition fair with mum

#arthur #ruth #mum #caitlyn #cecilia

I wanted to go to the exhibition fair to buy something/ collect something from Arthur but mum kept bugging me like where exactly was I going, what did I bring with me and I accidentally answered wrongly and “invited” mum to go along with me bruh also at one point mum was saying something really stupid and I was frustrated and grumbled during my sleep- (i hope my roommate didn't mind)

and I tried to get away from mum once we entered the fair and I was pretending shopping until I saw Arthur by his booth, I think he was promoting his own organisation we had a brief convo and I walked around to check if mum was there I saw her also walking around and she saw me so we got together again, and I had to pretend nothing happened, and Arthur also just looked at us and pretended nothing happened between us

and then caitlyn's and cecilia's mum came and they gathered together later I think I had a slip of the tongue and caitlyn's mum kind of caught it and inferred that I know ruth, who was her therapist. I didn't have much to explain, I could only say oh she worked at hku cedars (LMAO), and I help out in related fields so yea

and basically they're chatting about therapy is good and caitlyn's mum find it quite rewarding and useful, and then Arthur came around naturally to have a chat/ promote his work I think at some point they also raised the idea of getting therapy to my mum mum was just treating it as casual talk without actually reflecting on this idea i think

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jellycat frog pride edition

Mancy posted a 小紅書 about a jellycat blue frog (pride edition) (black frog is normal edition)

And this line also includes not just the plushies but also a hoodie and (damn i forgot)

And im thinking if i wear it/ bring the plushy to school i can hint it to Elsa during tutorial (my new crush😩🤯😁)

Pride edition has a symbol 🌈⃤ But they would also have deviation of the rainbow according to different pride flags like les and bi And also gender queer So a total of 4 so far

Wowowowowo Mancy was just posting to share about it, instead of posting to ask if ppl can buy with her and combine shipping (Well her other posts are about buying jellycat so idk Ye And im wondering when would gbp drop so i can exchange some

Interesting i wonder if there are actually pride jellycat merch

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arthur's japanese lesson, drive to Cardiff

#arthur it was actually a therapy session. but later became japanese lesson and he's teaching me japanese in his (home?) and there were other students waiting for him to teach japanese as well (2 pairs of parent + baby, and another 叔叔) but he sat next to me and talked too long with me so one pair of parent baby left and he was like oh shit (cuz he lost a client?) but continued teaching me and then we leaned closer to each other i think his hands were on my breast and body I am also touching his hands and arms We loved each other. I actually wanted a hug from him badly, I guess that counted... so I was kinda satisfied (but not enough) I put my face next to his and i felt his “glasses arm” on my face? (I was wearing con so it wasnt clashing) so much tension and my heart beating quickly hehehehe he dirty talked slightly saying 你唔好喺度叫啊 so I 惡趣味 and moaned to him

later the lesson bell rang and he ended the lesson, the other “classmates” left (they felt like NPCs) and he offered to drive me back

so I sat in his car originally at the backseat his car was kinda big/ tall like those range rover type

I asked if I can sit at the front passenger seat (there was a tablet in front of that seat) he said there are some “male adult oriented tv shows” that I probably won't want to watch this piqued my interest and say bro i am adult too and idc so he just let me change seat

so i am next to him now

I think people who drive had very great charisma to me, they felt dominant and reliable (especially good drivers)

and apparently the drive was slightly longer than i expected cuz he was driving all the way to cardiff

during the trip we started to get silent as there was nothing much to say I began contemplating on myself and I told him im a bit 自卑 and seems that I am doing all this because I am controlling

it felt bad because i am affecting a lot of people by this controlling urge of mine and i only started to wonder if i am controlling after several psych app tests & others asking jokingly and I couldn't deny the fact that I think perhaps I am really quite controlling & all the stuff I did made sense if I associate the cause to this, despite thinking there should be a more “root cause” behind being controlling

and i think i got that because my mum was a bit controlling so I grew up to become controlling too, to try to get back what i deserve from her but i shouldn't blame her for me being controlling to other people/ everyone...

and then we drove past nottingham and i pointed at a building asking arthur if that's the place he studied before he said yes

later we arrived at cardiff but we decided to tour around before dropping me off but there were many stairs and our car couldn't handle that so we swapped to a smaller cart which he had prepared in the car it looked like a pram but can fit both of us

the tourism department spotted us and said there was an elevator service at 2pm every saturday? or wed? (anyways once per week) but for people to book in advance which is literally now but we didn't book so I was planning to carry the pram up the stairs, it wasn't much stairs anyways

but arthur briefly went away and came back to me, saying the elevator lady was willing to give us the elevator pass too so we rode the elevator in gratitude to visit the cardiff museum

predator (of a daughter) in museum

saw a man going after a girl. they were father / daughter they entered a bathtub booth in the museum and the father wanted to harrass the girl quite unsettling anyways finally the father got caught by security guard the daughter quickly escaped in fear

meeting prim/ sec school friends

#primschool I was at the mtr exit, waiting/ gathering for a physics exam soon, saw quite some secondary school people, and zoe cheng from primary school zoe deferred one year and was now in 5A (which means i am in f6?) (she was a very studious and bright classmate I looked up to in primary school – I haven't seen her since then; briefly whatsapped after release of DSE results) she deferred because she had a mushroom skin infection from drinking too much mushroom soup every day

later I realised I didn't pick physics as my elective, so I actually didn't have the physics exam, so I waved goodbye to Zoe, and we hope to see each other again soon.

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I miss them

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peer supporter event, eat delicious meal; “free” meal from delivery man

#T

vincci was busy i was leading some primary school kids along with other peer supporters their school lift was small tried going into lift to 4/f but other taller primary school kids with bigger furniture went to 6/F first

then we finally arrived our floor, where they invited a gov funded eng teacher? speech therapist? to come teach some other organisers include our counsellors then we had a very very very very delicious indonesian meal so delicious i tried opening and closing eyes to confirm if it was real life or dream, but confirmed it was real life ... it was dream

so yummy

anyways later i went to a fast food shop for beef rice like 吉野家 but the chef preparing meal was very busy, and the cashier as well, and i sort of avoided the counsellors cuz i don't want to explain why i want food and then a delivery guy walked by and saw me waiting, so he went to the chef/ food window and help me get a big big big box of beef rice it was $16.xx, I asked him if he has payme, he said it's just 16 dollars (no need), and i said I have payme qr code if he wanted to scan, and he didn't and waved goodbye

delivery fee increased

i was trying to return my jeans cuz taobao shop delivered wrongly (bruh) (irl) and i found this person who can carry it to mainland to deliver back, which would be cheaper than going from hk directly

then in the dream he raised the price from 3x to 4x and i was a bit annoyed

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