Neko

dream

dream log

revising math; suic*dal ideation awareness vid

#PBLmate

At library (shelf looks like polyu lib). Math teacher/ tutor was saying we need to do the whole shelf’s worth of exercise. Looking at the thick exercise books, I actually thought it was attainable and I was planning how I can finish them all on time.

Suddenly, my attention was drawn to a youtube video/ movie, which was played on screen.
The uploader was “Jake vids” (by yanni)

The vid started off with a catastrophic scene. Many donkeys were running aimlessly around an erupting volcano, panicking but there was no use escaping. I felt a bit pity for them, until they un-morphed themselves and reveal themselves as mentally ill people.

Then, the video focused on the parents of these mentally ill people. It took place in a teaching complex. It’s less like a school and more like a training facility, with many floors. This scene was starring my PBL mates, who were escaping from one “parent”, who was now with the appearance of a scary monster.

They entered a toilet to hide. I forgot who went in first, but second was Esther and the third was (?? Forgot name), who was Matthew’s friend (that he kept mentioning irl), being pushed by Matthew into the toilet. Matthew then entered, and closed the door after other PBL mates entered. I was in third person view as a spectator in the toilet. Although I knew I wasn’t part of the story, I still felt very tense because I felt the monster was about to arrive at the door. Later it arrived at the door which somehow was opened slightly. And then the dream paused here.

school opening

#ivan #cch

Aw man i forgot this dream! Because I didn’t write it down immediately. I just knew this

Oh so basically after that math exercise book scene, I was packing my school bag for my first day of school? With loads of exercise books and textbooks. I was checking my class schedule, which looked like in the format of primary / secondary school’s, and realised majority of the classes were R.S. (Religious studies), which was by cch. Even though I actually had no interest in RS, I was pretty happy because that means I can see cch every day for most of the time :))

Anyways I think Ivan was waiting for me for a study meetup, and after that I had to meet with Nicole Chan in the basement learning commons in another block. And I was already running a bit late but I was trying my best to walk quicker.

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fucked in therapy room

#arthur AhahahauagahH nice afternoon nap

In his room. Imagining I had a dog collar on my neck and Arthur was holding me on a leash I was on my four limbs on the ground while he’s sitting in his usual office chair. We were in the orientation of looking towards the door. Apparently I got more excited if I look at the door because I would be anxious if people would come in anytime. Also in this orientation I could imagine myself in Arthur’s position, looking at the sofa bed.

He’s using his two fingers to… massage me in the inside hahwahahaha

Felt very good. Breathing quite deeply. I had to kept semiconsciously remind myself to not verbally moan out irl cuz I was in the hotel room irl and my parents were here 😩😩

On the other hand I was imagining myself squeezing Ruth’s boobs again ahhwahhaaha But I wanna deny the fact that I only like Ruth instead of Arthur so I try to divert my attention in dream back to Arthur.

We had some extra fun. I think I gave him a blowjob but I wasn’t sure.

Akakakakaamajahahhahwwawawahahaha

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shopping for binders

At first I went to play the claw machines. One pull required $40. I missed my first pull. I tried a second time, and got two chiikawa dolls in one go. I was a bit ambitious so I went for a third pull, trying to get a bigger chiikawa doll, but it was too heavy and didn’t move. So I stopped there and left happily with my two plushies.

Later I went to a stationery store, shopping for binders. I was looking for, oddly specifically, 6 hole binders that was like B5 or something. A shopkeeper came and taught me how to use this “innovatively designed” binder. The binder has a cover/ shell. She taught me I needed to slide the binder on a particular side, and it would slide into the cover automatically (as if it was magnetic). It took a few tries for me to get the hang of it. But once I figured it out, I had fun sliding lol. On the other side of the binder there was like a cut in the binder cover itself (like the cut in red packets where you hold the lid into), and it would hold itself open… Anyways I was sliding the binder and that’s basically the dream.


random thought if sigmund freud sees this he’ll probably exclaim some shit about women being horny and want penetration (like the magnetic cover) smh

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watching porn

Watching porn in dream. Maybe because I was listening to it as I’m falling asleep. aaaaa

therapy in dream

#arthur #sally #PBLmate #uni

(Office in a corridor which was like a labyrinth.. many rooms in it which made me feel like it’s one of the toilet compartments. The walls of the office were all clear glass / matte glass. Others can peek into it. Leaning on the very top of the toilet compartments, I was investigating how to hack into the cctv in the “toilet” as it can show the insides of the office. I wanna know what Arthur’s doing in the office. Somehow Arthur was in the adjacent toilet compartment and also leaning on top, trying to exploit into the CCTV and/ or add his own camera next to the preexisting cctv too.

I saw Sally by the office. I asked her what’s up, turned out she was attending therapy as well and liked Arthur too. Her nickname for Arthur is “Fur fur”. I was happy that I found someone alike (also liked Arthur like me), but also felt envious / jealous… I also shared my nickname for Arthur to be “Arf arf”. She then suggested a nickname for Ronnie, which was “Wang wang (ron ron)”. I praised her for her cleverness that it was such a brilliant idea (LMAO).

After waiting for a while outside the labyrinth…

Finally! It’s time for my therapy session. I’ve been waiting for so long (almost a month without seeing him). I packed my stationery and psych textbooks (lol) and headed to his office.

I entered and took a seat. For some reason it was suddenly very loud outside, as if a (oddly specific London) bus was parking by, or construction work had commenced. I think he told me to lie on the couch instead of taking the seats. But I can only guess what he’s talking. And this time I wanted to take the seats because I wanted to look at him after so long. And I’ve been sitting to meet with Ming. I saw the seats were so close together. I asked him about it (I thought he’s gonna take my opposite seat). Instead he stayed in his office desk which was very far away and explained something like he had to go everywhere to catch his client back to therapy.

I looked at him and his face looked like Raymond’s. With small eyes.

He asked about the “incident”. He asked, “Your dad would be notified at some point. What if he knows, is it okay for you?” I thought about it. I didn’t want them to know. And idk why would they know if I’m already legal. But unwillingly, I answered, “If he know then he knows. I won’t actually die if he knows about it”

Suddenly as we were about to properly start the convo, two admin staff barged in. One looked like Raymond again, and the other looked like a random music tan skinned hk local dude.

He signalled me to wait for a while. The tan skinned dude handed him a laptop and headphones. He began to do some tweaks to a music project.

What happens after this was on a semi? Conscious level so idk if it counts as a dream Basically started to recap and visualise everything in the incident, trying to recall the “forgotten” bits but to no avail again

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buying schedule book; selling ikea yellow workdesk

#PBLmate

At stationery store. I found an orange schedule book. I opened to see the layout. There were writings and orange highlights inside. It looked like mine… and I realised they were my writings from ages ago (a very old previous dream). The highlights from early months were less and later months very dense (very busy during latter blocks) I felt a bit embarrassed for scribbling on it when unpurchased. So I’m gonna buy it. I sneakily took it from the shelf and hold it while I continue to shop other stuff before going for the cashier.

After going out from the store, I went to a nearby area to do math. I was holding my seat and another seat which was closer to the open area where I can see the moon. (I think I dreamt of open area and moon because that was the content in the plane’s cringe af tv show that it was playing while we were waiting to takeoff during plane delay a few days ago)

So I was putting tools on that desk while I was working on the original desk. Then I found another set of tools were put on that desk too. It was Ronnie’s. I was happy because he was helping me to hold the seat and make it more convincing.

I saw him coming over so I thanked him. Later somehow we became salespeople for ikea, and to sell their new item- yellow ikea workdesk. (Pegboard and magnetic board included) A family walked by, so Ronnie J and I began to sell them this. And we led them to our display room to compare before buying and after buying (they got a cool projector to visualise stuff in the empty display room, actually rather innovative design just that maybe only the item we’re selling is present and touchable)

Anyways Ronnie had good speaking skills and the family looked convinced.

paper.wf ending

Dreaming this site was ending and rebranding as “A7 half” .. and they’re archiving our old posts, but allowing one month grace period for downloading stuff. Or giving us an A7 (half) notebook for compensation.

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DIY mahjong, Arthur’s shirt; family age

#arthur #T #A

Ride bus with Ronnie J. from Sassoon to centennial campus

I think there was a guy who asked me where I’m going n he wanted to tag along. I declined him cuz I wasn’t interested in him

Got off bus, went to an upstairs little floor with a few rooms. It was a visual art teaching centre.

I peeked inside the rooms but the tutors were teaching. The tutors gave me the vibe of wellness team but not exactly that. In the dream I just related it to “a friendly aura” without realising who they were (their hair looked a bit different) Though one of them had a bit of grey short hair and slightly Ruth-like… but in the dream I didn’t really connect the dots)

I wanted to join in a DIY mahjong workshop. But I only have blank mahjongs, meanwhile the kids in the workshop has DIYed different symbols. The workshop tutor was a girl. Slightly with vibe of Ming but not her. She was busy with teaching some other kids on sand art so she ignored/ didn’t notice me. After she done teaching I asked her where to get the tools n materials for mahjong DIY, and she told me to find Coco. (I think the mahjong part is because the party room me and my friends went a few days ago had a mahjong table but idk how to play. Also the route to the party room was similar to the corridor/ floor plan in the dream.)

I went to sit tgt with bunch of people in the “waiting cabin” Coco and a bunch of classmates were discussing how to make earrings with beads I joined the discussion, finally I realised A was inside the room the whole time in the corner, and I felt a bit pissed

Suddenly there was a siren and people were moving out of their classrooms. We looked out of the cabin’s glass door, confused. I think there was a fire though I couldn’t see one. We were thinking whether to leave or not when I saw a familiar figure in the corridor. It was Arthur, wearing a backpack, holding the door for his classroom, letting the children evacuate first.

I rushed out of our cabin and looked at him. I was sad because he’d be in danger if he stayed behind longer. I used both hands to hold his arm (uhm like locking his arm in mine and I was holding his hand). I tried to pull him firmly away from where he was standing, and wailing “don’t stay herereeeeerreere you’ll be in dangerrrr” He said along the lines of he had to because he’s the tutor, then asked me “you miss me?” I looked at him with pleading eyes and he took off his sweaty dark grey t shirt and gave it to me. “This will remind you of me,” he said. (He’s now shirtless.) Holding the shirt, the scent was strong (this time it felt spicy instead of the usual “round” and warm). He looked determined… so I left unwillingly and sadly.


Later went to bio lesson So many stacks of worksheets. I was assembling them into my 2-hold binder the whole time when the teacher was talking lol, she had the vibe of Ming again

A few students were in the corridor again I saw arthur there too One super tall student (legit double his height so he’s super damn weirdly tall…) asked him, what’s family’s age Arthur replied, “The median is [my name]’s age”

Hearing my name, I looked at them and saw Arthur pointing at me. I felt flattered, embarrassed and happy that Arthur recognised & remembered me, and I laughed really hard.

(the math was wrong lmfao but yeyyyy I was mentioned)

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suggestive pics dance audition

Packing clothes into a luggage I was packing quickly because I want to escape from Ernest ??

Entered a dance audition hosted by TVB. Had to wear black tight tutus and line up like in a line like in a beauty pageant.

I was grabbing my riolu and phone, and was walking along with the line, in a huge empty mall.

Later I got a bit horny so I left the line and hid in a corner… I was holding riolu and trying to take suggestive pics in front of a mirror pillar in the mall

And then a person in the line came over to check on me, she asked what I was doing. I said uhh and she said oh you’re playing with riolu? I’ll leave you be then! And left me And I felt a bit embarrassed because I was nearly caught red-handed, and I don’t have the urge despite being rather horny anymore so I joined the line again.

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Live TV fall from cliff

Some kind of paris olympics Cultural performance, from places like tibet or mongolia or u know those tribes. dad lead his daughter who wanted to pass on the cultural thing, of standing by a real cliff and dancing there (Dad was observing the daughter since dad is not part of the performance. Dad looked worried but “accepted the fate”? Daughter gave a speech in front of the tv reporter/ live reporter about her passion of passing on this performance/ she really wanted to do it etc.

On her second movement of walking back in reverse not so close to cliff, she slipped and fell The cameraman videoed until she was falling down the very steep mountain and she was shrieking nOOOOOOO OHH NOOOO

And then the reporter cut the scene back to other stuff

So scary but it was …not too bad since i knew it was a dream (I sensed it was not too “real life” therefore not real) while I was dreaming. But I was still having her shiek echoing in my brain while dreaming. Now when I got up there’s no more. Which is good.


(Heard parents left for breakfast irl, Masturbate in dream)

Supermarket dendenne shopping

#PBLmate #uni

At first I was just walking around in a shopping fair/ victoria park sort of thing with friend I saw Kendrick in very fancy shirt with western frills and stuff, I complimented him with thumbs up, he’s happy

Friend and I entered Japanese supermarket Hugging big dendenne A black photographer took a pic for me and gave the instant pic to me I was v happy

While walking i saw a PBLmate, korean. I was telling her some of my pretty girls recommendations (basically my classmates). I asked if she knows her (S). She was guessing the girl and guessed right. She said that girl was… I asked, a bitch? She said yes But nevertheless they’re pretty (S and pblmate)

While walking we saw a lot of kids playing roller skates. Their rented roller skates had variations of the pride flag as the colour scheme. I was envy of them because I was scared of roller skating and they looked so free and fun while skating.

Entering the supermarket, me and friend eventually stumpled upon an isle choosing cheap pokemon fit plushies like $15 hkd More and more passerby were crowding around, because I told my frd to hide the nice deals here and he used my black shorts and skirt and other stuff which was in my shopping basket to make a curtain, which made stuff so damn obvious

Actress camp

#6grass #charlotteh #A #teachers Training camp! Going tgt with Hon and perhaps Jamie (recalling 6grass because we literally just had a gathering yesterday)

3 floors Got summoned by Coco L. to big room, queuing up for getting scolded (she finished got scolded and came out to tell me; and then she reentered to be judge)

I asked them if I could return to my room for getting glasses cuz I can’t see They (other staff) unwillingly okayed cuz they were scared I would just escape

Rushing back to room, I saw cpo on my bed casually reading her phone. I was her bedmate! I got the glasses and came back to the room, feeling a bit better (happy about the bedmate arrangement)

(i think it was because I was chatting w my simuis secondary school alumni in the kids camp I was hosting, and we all think cpo was cute (along w many other female teachers- cch, ttam… legit my taste oml)– honestly her vibe screeeams lesbian to me but she’s still adolescent so I wouldn’t ask)

A in one of the stations, playing her acting scene (getting harrassed and another actor fiddling w boobs; final scene w white stain on her top)


I took an afternoon nap.

I dreamt I emailed Coco L. (I forgot why) and she said yes thats her and she would be available in email and I could ask her for support if needed.

Also another dream

garden housekeeper

I was one of the housekeepers for a large garden/ lake There were two annoying visitors- one mainland man and his obese male kid They were staying at our garden and didn’t want to leave. Our garden owner was very nice and gave them a lot of goodies Us housekeepers were standing in a row staring at them The man also kept staring at me and I felt uncomfortable but I stared back

The kid picked a lot of flowers The kid wanted square / cube shaped flowers The owner accepted the request and suddenly the flowers were all cube shaped

Idk what happen but finally the man and the kid were scared and ran away from the garden We wanted to jail them in but they escaped

While running they were still looking at us creepily like a stalker/ 癡漢 So gross

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bj for unknown frd, jau; passed supple exam

#mum #ivan #jau #uni

Originally I was playing hide and seek at home. The seeker was dad. I was in the living room alone, revising. I felt like I was still a secondary school student. Occasionally I remembered I needed to hide instead of studying by the table, so I went to curl up and hide next to the entrance door. I found that there was no place to hide, so I went to the area near the kitchen. That place can be slightly peeked by people in the master’s bedroom at a particular angle. My mum was on the bed and saw me. She was looking at me. I frowned but she was still looking. I became mad and left the house angrily.

I was alone at night at some far places near my neighbourhood. It was near “the coast” but the area was industrial. Weird To Kwa Wan ish.

I was finding places to hide. Like among the pipes in the industrial area. That’s when Ivan spotted me. He then took me to a supposedly better mysterious place he knew which was better for hiding. When we arrived at the hiding spot, someone was super near (walking on a staircase above our spot), and found us out.

Ivan asked me if I mind meeting up with his friend (probably the one who found us out but I dont recall too exactly) too

We met up with his friend. Ivan told me to give his friend a blowjob.

(I haven’t done it yet. But I was already preparing and picturing the scene in my imagination.)

Looking up (upper area with a footbridge, like uni upper street), his friend has called his pals to secretly photograph us.

Two students + 2 parents with cameras. One of the students was holding the phone to take video of us. The other one was using the parents film camera very casually to take pics for the parents. Like using burst shots and not holding the camera properly. That must be expensive lol.

I felt slightly surprised, slightly slighly betrayed but no other emotions… later somehow I knew I needed to give jau a blowjob too (it’s a she though)

Later I entered the med lib? QMH? which was near the industrial tubes. We’re gonna receive our exam results here. Actually the timetable was given to me by Ivan just now when we were hiding. I don’t really have the email notifying me.

Entering the venue, I took a seat. Others were waiting for the release of the proper exam meanwhile I was receiving the supple one, but they didn’t know because I didn’t tell them.

Before the event began, Mandy Liu came and asked me for my plans in EY. So I told her my plans and how I’m gonna incorporate medicine inside my plan too, to revise more. After chatting, she gave me a document to congratulate I passed.

Later I, along with other classmates, were collecting a document bag. I opened mine and it was actually my plans for the EY (basically what I told Mandy before). And the sample answers for all the exams on the courses I was planning to take in EY.

I realised maybe I would’ve failed, but because I looked eager for EY and how EY may benefit me, they let me pass the exam. Maybe that’s why I didn’t receive the email too.

I was crying moderately in the dream. (I very seldom cry in dreams)

teach math; hanging out

#secschool

I went to medlib / other lib to revise my med again. I took a random seat. Edwina was next to me as I walked past. She asked me to help her with a math question. So I proudly taught her.

After revising for a bit, I left the lib and went on the street. Yuki and her friends walked past. They waved at me and invited me to hang out together so I said sureee and walked together.

Dream ended.

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group leader

I’m the group leader for a group. Just like a tour guide. Our group is assigned with ky yuen as our tutor… and other groups are assigned with other typical professors… Lmao Thats it

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