finding surgeon

#mum #ruth (actually didn't appear)

Mum liked to be close with famous people. In the dream she went for surgery. After coming out, she said there was a famous doctor (a pretty big neurosurgeon in our faculty) who was on the next bed of her surgery (as a patient). She told me to find him for her in order to let her say words like she recognises you and they can be closer or whatever

So, me, still in my scrubs (I work in that hospital), I went to search for that doctor. I walked around in the hospital but there was no sign of the doctor. Maybe he already left after his minimally invasive surgery. I followed two staff to the back corridors where they led to different doors. I entered one door. It was the backdoor of a supermarket (so the hospital and supermarket were interconnected)

I was in the supermarket. I was a bit confused but I briefly walked around to find the surgeon. Seems not here. I saw the staff that went through the door entered another backdoor. And they were talking about mental health team or whatever. So I sneakily followed through the backdoor and it was a staircase. One of the staff went up. After he (I assume it was a man) went up, I stood by the staircase of the original supermarket floor. I want to wait for the man to either come down or I wait long enough and go have a check.

In the middle of waiting, a figure who was wearing kind of punky clothes (in a good looking way) walked by. She ignored my presence. (maybe because I was hiding/ acting low-key). I looked and felt the person was like Ruth. So I kind of act coughing or humming songs because I wasn't sure so I wouldn't directly address her. But when I look closer, it wasn't, so I was relieved and glad I didn't yell and say hi to the person.

Later I went up a floor to see what was it. It was a mental health wellness room. But rather creepy. Because the staircase was dark and was made of old looking concrete. And the mental health room was on the top of the staircase. (There is one more section of the staircase going up, but it ends into the wall, so I wouldn't count that as one more floor, although it said 8/F)

Anyways, I looked inside. There was a young little girl in shocking pink dress, with her back towards me. She was talking to a woman (at first I thought it was my secondary school art teacher, but soon I realised it was Ming Yi teacher aka Cantonese opera lesson teacher – yes our secondary school has niche mandatory courses)

Since the woman was sitting towards the direction of the door, I was scared of being discovered, so I hurried down the staircase.

Back on the supermarket floor of the staircase, actually there was a side path which led to a hidden corridor to all classroom doors. The path was initially blocked by a double door. The first one you need to press a button to unlock it. The second one you can just push it open. Coincidentally a staff walked by and just pressed the button. So I followed through. I used a little rectangular thing on the floor to hold the door open, because I couldn't see such a button on the other side of the door. I was guessing if I needed a staff card to access, then in that case I would be stuck here. The second door was simple, I just push it open, but I am worried again if it shut and it was a one-way door and I couldn't open from the other side. So I was holding the second door open (because there was only one door “holder”? and I used it on the first door)

So the dream ended here with me holding the second door open.

my own loft became family trip

#dad

Japan trip! With me alone. I was checking in a place with my luggage. There were two elevators, I entered the one which came earlier. I checked my tag on the room key, it said 6/F. So I was finding the button to 6/F, when I realised this elevator is for odd numbered floors only. But I was too lazy to get out and wait for the other elevator. I blinked and looked away from the buttons for a brief time. I looked back and the 6/F button was here. I pressed it. At first there was no response (no light after pressing button, lift wouldn't move), but after pressing it multiple times the lift worked. And the lift opened at 5/F which was what it was supposed to do at first place (odd numbers) And I was slightly scared of elevators too so I got off quickly. _{(scared because I had way way way too many nightmares about elevators and escalators not reaching the floor I wanted when I was small. So usually in the dream as long as it opens and it was close enough to my floor, I would just leave. Because they could never put me on the perfect floor)}

I got out and walked for one floor with my luggage. (It wasn't tiring at all) I checked my tag on the key again and found my room. I entered with the key. The room was really nice. Very white, clean, the furniture was sleek. I quickly checked if the door locks work, and then I close my door immediately. I continued to look around in the room. Big TV. Somehow there were three beds. One double bed in the middle, two single beds on the sides. It wouldn't be too worrying if there were only two beds in total, because I can still kind of rationalise why me, one person only, would have two beds (e.g. inviting friends over; room provider only has double person room) But now we have three beds. And then I looked back at the door and found it was open. I tried to close it but it wouldn't click, it would just open again I figured out there was a silk scarf which was tied onto the door knob that was stuck between the locking mechanism. Me, slightly confused because there wasn't any when I just came in, removed the scarf and threw it on the floor outside. Because I couldn't move/ nudge the long scarf away from the lock, the only way is to untie it and throw it away. Now the lock worked. I looked back into the room and saw my dad's shoes. And then I looked back at the lock and it didn't work again. And I heard my parents outside. They were checking into the same room. But seemed they didn't have the key. (Maybe because I took the only key and went in first). But because the lock wasn't working, they just marched in with their luggage.

Turned out this mini studio/ loft was actually our family hotel room and we were going on a trip... I was very disappointed. Because when I entered the room alone, I was overjoyed to see my own new space and I can try to manage my own living as a capable independent and functional adult. (I thought I was either going on an exchange or travelling alone.) But it was a family trip. And family was a stressor.

Mum was like, why are you putting up such a face? We paid for this expensive family trip despite running out of money, so that we can make you happy! I was pretty upset but I didn't reply anything back. Because it seemed like they were deliberately making me guilty.

Really quickly after they put down their luggage and roaming around the room loudly, they wanted to go out together (with me) to explore the neighbourhood (and I think to stalk my friends). _{(which for some reason made sense, because one time our PBL group went for dinner at my neighbourhood, and we sat near the entrance glass panel,,, and they walked by coincidentally and looked at every one of us amusingly. They told me later on when I got home. I was oblivious to this if they didn't say. Rather creepy hhahaah)}

Before going out we needed to turn off the TV. (They turned it on and was blasting mainland TV shows...) It took so long and many tries. Mum tried a few times before giving the remote to me to turn it off. But I couldn't too. It would just turn black for a sec and resumed the show. Anyways finally I figured it out and turned it off. But Dad wanted to try it himself using his own way, so he took the remote and was pressing buttons on the modem also. I was pretty annoyed because I already turned the TV off, he was just wasting time problem solving a now solved problem He turned it on again with the buttons and couldn't shut it down. Mum was yelling at him. I was annoyed. Dad was annoyed we were being impatient. Finally Mum told me to just turn off the TV using my method and ignore what Dad was doing. So now the TV was off.

Now they were picking hats to wear before going out. I thought it was just a simple task. I just see the one which matched my outfit and I pick that. And then I also picked one for Mum because she was wasting time and her taste was awful. And then Mum began to kept praising me for such a good taste. I felt uneasy and a bit scared.

Dream ended. Sigh! I was picturing a nice quiet overseas exchange me-time! Now it was a noisy and unnecessarily hectic family trip. Awful.

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heading for lunch, primary kids

#primschool #ivan (didn’t really appear) I had my lunch break at primary school. I was carrying school bag. I was going to meet up with Ivan and eat with him.

On the way down I saw my prim school classmate. (I forgot what she did, but we chatted) Before leaving school, i saw the kids I looked after, sitting together playing on a bench/ table So I went to play with them for a while (5 mins) (actually felt like a long time but I knew it was just 5 minutes) We were mimicking each other’s sounds and echoing back. It was fun. We had fun.

(This dream ends here) _{(i think it was because i was texting ivan yesterday night and we talked briefly about the past so yeah)}

postgrad revision support, wrong bus, tourist spot w char

#pblmate #charlottec

Postgrad (A smart guy called Jeff from this year’s pbl) teach and revise with me while we were walking on the road. He was holding my ipad to test and jot notes for me. Although I haven’t revised the content (head and neck arterial supply, nerves), I can answer him easily and correctly (now after waking up idk right or wrong but feels accurate)(no i think it’s wrong)

Postgrad’s doggy/ partner was ivan, apparently

And while he’s teaching we went queuing for bus We saw a lady who had one of her feet amputated, maybe she’s the one on the news about a dental surgery failure (entirely dream). And she was walking/ hopping with a stick. I felt sorry for her. And she doesn’t have prosthetic feet too. The amputated surface was bare. No socks.

While waiting for the bus, i wasnt aware the bus entrance is alr mtr entrance (like mong kok east station moko exit) So i was queuing w him to try to learn more when I can/ when he’s here

And we boarded the bus tgt There were two seats tgt empty We planned to sit there After I sat, I looked and saw a domestic helper took his seat so Jeff was standing He say it’s fine

I spotted another two seats tgt, and a woman was hinting at us for the seats too, I thanked the woman with gestures 🙏🏻 But jeff arrived at his station So he said to me (around this meaning i forgot the exact sentence) you’re a dum dum but you’re not stupid, I hope you can get through the exam And left the bus While leaving i tried to tell him “yeah im a bit dum dum this year due to some reasons”

It was me alone on the bus I was admiring the scenery outside. There was ngong ping 360 near hku. Wow. I can see the cable cars. Oh theres ngong ping 360 mtr station. Background was big green mountain. Sky was blue. Sunshine is yellowy. Such a nice day.

And I realised I went on the wrong bus. _{(reminded me of that time I rode shuttle bus to med campus for MHFA. Nice sunset on the way, shining on the mountain and bro the bus skipped my stations and went down to stanley ho swimming pool so I walked all the way up)}

I realised I should leave the bus at one station where there is the ngong ping 360 mtr station. But i went to the door too late and the bus was leaving, so even when I knocked on the door and raised my voice (actually sounded too nice maybe he didn’t hear) to ask the driver to stop, he didn’t stop. Seems some others also wanted to leave but so we stood by the exit door to wait for the next station.

I checked my kmb app to see what this bus leads to fortunately the last two stations (just two remaining) were also close to ngong ping mtr, and bus app showed mtr logo next to terminus station So I stood and waited While i was amused and annoyed because i needed to switch lines for so many times (in the dream it was like 5 times) on the way home.

Arrived at a tourist spot Tourist spot have weird stalls selling weird goods. Gross. They recruited naked models to display their products (e.g. face cream, sanitary pads) And they’re sexualising the products, they’re showing weirdly suggestively shaped sanitary pads that looked like a T shape and they stick it on model’s abdomen and announced to all the men watching, that they know what they mean if they put the T shape a little bit lower (aka make it seems like a dick is penetrating their privates) They told the models to dance together too. I felt gross And the face cream one, the host put a lot of cream onto two models And they became frog headed. Also the cream has the drug function of making people horny. Very eerie.

I left by walking further to see what other booths they had in the mall. General chiikawa stuff. I saw charlotte. I pointed the beautiful sunset to her. Rainbow coloured. Even the sand was rainbow coloured. There was a photoshoot booth / decoration (a little bit like 鳥居) on the beach. We went to take pictures together. I rode on Charlotte’s back / she carried me on her back and we dashed around on the beach. It was fun. There was a boy with us while we were taking pics too. In the dream it was charlotte’s boyfriend. I didn’t talk at all to the boy Anyways the pictures were all three people. At first I tried to use my phone because it has live photo function, but the phone auto edit it to be very dark. Later the boy lended his camera to a passerby and the passerby took pics of us three.

Later we went to the chiikawa store (actually a restaurant), and they were nearly closing. The chef gave us a bowl of rice pudding and sauce (the sweet one used on eel sushi and eel rice). Seems like we need to mix them. Idk cuz they’re in full Japanese. Charlotte almost ate one when they stopped her. They just wanted us to try mixing for fun, not eating. The food seems to be used for serving gods. The Japanese chef was explaining to Charlotte about it, but she couldn’t understand. I remembered this mochi snack very very long time ago in HK, where you mix the cubes with coconut powder/ sugar. So I was “mochi!” And the japanese was like “hai! Mochi!” And I was gesturing rolling the cube to charlotte. Hopefully both sides understand what I was trying to say. (I did say some cantonese but mostly the Mochi and gesturing to keep the chef on the same page)

So she got it and we had fun together

Dream ended.

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Ok today I have no dreams/ didn't recall any, but my mum shared her dream with me (that's rare, she seldom does so. She only did it for a few times in my life, and usually before the release of exam results.)

Here is a record of what she said to me

Mum's dream about me, evil man & poo

#mum

She dreamt she was with me. We were on our way to somewhere. Suddenly I stopped in my steps. (“I” means me, not mum) She asked me why/ what And I said, I need to wait for someone. Mum instinct say this person was malicious. So she kind of nudged me to leave with her. But I insisted on standing there. “I need to stand here to wait for him,” I said. “I have to.” “But he's bad! Don't wait for him!”

Mum saw this shadowy figure in the dream, approaching. He looked evil. Soon, there was poo on our clothes. There was poo on the ground. Mum's reaction was like “waaa ew” “let's leave,,,!!”

But I insisted, “No! I need to see him. I need him to give me an explanation. (俾我一個交代)” So mum was rather anxious yet she couldn't pull me away to escape, because I kept standing there.

_{^^ she told me the dream until here, I suppose that means the dream ends here/ she recalled till here. And then she told me after she woke up she was googling what poo means in dream. And apparently it is free money that we can get without earning hard. And she remembers her mum is gonna give me some money as a reward for me entering uni. So she was happy. I was too lazy to tell her then that's my money not yours. lol And I didn't tell her I think dream interpretation is subjective and,,, lol her focus was on the poo not me Meanwhile I was thinking if that means I am gonna fight JY and I get some “apology money”, but I needed to work hard/ I was mentally working really hard this year to get that money though... And whether the poo means I would get my reputation ruined because of it... although I did nothing wrong... BUT! It's not my dream. So it is technically not my own subconscious thought. So it is ok}

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reading books at bookstore

#mum

I was at the bookstore wanting to find story books to read The bookstore feels Chiwah but premium version with collab with eslite bookstore. There was a starbucks and several cafes nearby but I didn’t bother with it. I was here for the books. I found this pile of books with a similar illustrator designing the cover – it reminded me of the cover of one of the books I used to have – Pax

So I was browsing through the pile Turned out there was a series number on the side of the book I was searching for the first book in the series because I want to start from the first one obviously But I can’t find it But instead I found a pre-packaged set of books. From book 1 to book 13. I checked the price. One book was like $140? but all books costs $270 in total So I took the pre-packaged set

I also stood by the shelf to read a book in another pile. It’s more of a mental health related book. I think it’s about PTSD. And in the content page seems the writer illustrated different symptoms of ptsd by sharing various people’s stories about it. I forgot the actual content. I just remembered in the dream I was very engrossed in the book.

I remember during reading, Mum walked by and was searching for good books too. But somehow in the dream she walked up to me and scolded me, and then walked away. I forgot what she scolded me for. Ah! She wanted to buy one of the books in the $140 pile. But she couldn’t find the one she wanted. So she was irritated. And somehow she released her anger onto me. And I told her I got the whole set, but seems she wouldn’t listen in the heat of things so I didn’t bother to repeat. I just let her scold me while I was reading the PTSD book.

becoming a successful lion

#primschool

Setting was primary school.

Somehow I converted from a herbivore into a lion. And I was the boss of all the lions here at primary school. But since I didn’t have experience in catching prey, I followed what other lions were doing. They were standing by the fence. So I stood there too. There were two wired fences between us and a small grassland (the size of a playground) I recalled in my herbivore days these grass must be very yummy. But now we were waiting for our prey to appear.

After a while, a shepherd brought several sheep with him. We have to wait till the fence had automatically fallen before we could catch them.

The fence fell! Some ran out. Since it was like part of the fence falling instead of the one in front of me, I was slightly late. But I ran and caught with much accuracy. I caught two sheep and began munching on them. Many didn’t catch and there were little sheep and many lions so obviously many lions were still starving. But they would stay and wait for any possible new sheeps coming.

Anyways after eating I’d like to have more so I returned to the grassland. But there weren’t new sheep. And I wasn’t that hungry after eating two so I returned to the lower open playground, where we would have our morning assembly soon.

While I was walking, a little herbivore was chatting with me. She’s asking me if I’ll introduce more workers in the tuck shop because there was none. I apologised and asked her if she got whatever snack or drink she wanted now, she said no because there was no staff. I said I’ll find people and figure it out, because currently most were lions but we need herbivores to deliver these jobs. (Because lions may treat this job as a way to catch and eat herbivores since only herbivores need to use the tuck shop- only herbivores eat snacks. So we can’t recruit lions.)

Anyways I thanked her for telling me and I left. I actually wanted to walk around to look for more prey but most people have lined up, and the host was also almost ready (those hosts were humans. They’re the only humans in the school- not counting shepherd) so I returned to my class queue. I was a bit embarrassed because I turned into a lion. But seems my surrounding classmates didn’t really mind. And for some reason those around me were still herbivores. But in many further away classes they’re all lions.

Dream ended.

(Also the sheep taste like 巴東牛肉 i had yesterday night) (LMAO)

_{(side note: when i was small (before/ during kindergarten), I wasn’t sure if it’s because I kept watching animal world, i sometimes have dreams where I was an animal in the wild. These several dreams were rather vivid so it stuck with me. (0. Had some imagination if I’m some sort of dumb amoeba and algae) 1. I was a mountain goat, and I couldn’t escape from a tiger. It bit me on the thigh and I died 2. I became a tiger but I got killed by lions for some reason 3. I was a lion but alone and old and frail and I got killed by an elephant 4. I am an elephant and I got shot by poachers to get my ivory The dreams always ended when I wss dying. And these dreams appear between months/ years (didn’t reappear) but in this specific order lol Damn and then sometimes I wonder is this why I’m a human now And I sometimes do those random “psychological quizzes” testing what you are in your previous life and I was an animal lol. There were some other options like some identity from space or whatever but nah I’m an animal) I believe it’s just wild imagination but it’s interesting to bring it up}

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Whahafayayahahah Aishqiaiahsh hahahahaahha

OK so !!! Ok very exciting dream but i was using my phone instead of recording it so arrrrgrh some parts are blurry

Ahahahaha

extra lesson, being cats, putting off candles

#secschool #6grass

I think I started off in a classroom learning stuff. Like an extra lesson. With secondary school people. I think we were going through a novel together. After class I went to toilet. My friends (6 grass squad) waited for me. Then we walked together on the street. Near Times Square. And then I saw another few friends so I chatted with them. I chatted for a rather long time But eventually we said bye and I went back to the squad. I was a bit embarrassed because I think they were waiting for me. Turned out it was. Vienne and Candice was waiting for me so they can say bye to me and go to another road. Anyways we byed

Somehow later in the dream me and one of the friend whom we continued to walk tgt (i think it’s a primary + secondary school friend called Camille) became little cats / little kids?? that were adopted in a big house. We were abused by the parents that adopted us. One night, the parents weren’t there. So we sneaked out from our bedroom into another room. The other room was very spacious, and there were like six cakes with candles on it. We want to put off the candles. The first around 3 cakes were easy to blow. The next few were super super hard to blow. My friend got another candle and drip the wax into the flame. And it put off the fire on the candle. I praised her for being smart.

Anyways we did that to all the candles and somehow at this time the parent/ owner of the house came back and saw us in the act. So we tried to run away back into our room (I think we were cats…)

And the dream shifted to another !!!!

intimate moment!!! with Aaaarrhturueueeer

#arthur waAaaaaaaaaa #6grass

AjajJhahJajaja Ok somehow I was in a bowling place ?? And next to our venue was the volleyball (not sure but it’s heavy ball) venue And me and Candice were queuing up at the counter. Candice was in front of me. And at this moment we heard someone yelled at the volleyball place. Someone injured his head! (The head is bleeding!!) The teammate yelled. Well we tried to look but many ppl queuing and some surrounded them and they’re pretty far so I couldn’t see So I didn’t care as much. And continue to queue.

And then I saw Arthur queuing in front of Candice alone. I told Candice, he’s definitely ENTP! But he most likely doesn’t believe in MBTI. And he noticed and looked back at me.

I swapped places with Candice and went to say hi to Arthur I was sniffing his jacket/ his back to prove to him he does have a special type of smell _{(not body odor) (it’s like if you’re close to a person for a period of time you can smell them out)} And then I sniff and sniff and… I began to sniff up his shoulder. And then I advanced to his neck because I think maybe his scent is more prominent in those places.

I was sniffing at the neck and stayed there. I think at first he was standing but somehow later he was lying down or else I couldn’t reach his head right…? Anyways I looked very close at his neck and breathed into his neck. I think he was sweating a bit and started to feel ever so slightly tense. I put my legs between his back (so basically he was on his back/ side looking back up and I’m on top. We were both fully clothed. Yes still in the bowling place queuing for cashier. Candice was still behind me) (I didn’t tell Candice to move away because if she actually take pics of us I’d like to have it too- she didn’t she’s just looking i guess? I didn’t look back to confirm)

I moved my breath and mouth to around his ear. I continued to breathe heavily while occasionally making .. quiet moaning sounds :D wajahahai I used my right hand to support his head (bruh real head la) and I was feeling his hair on my hand. I brushed my fingers on his hair. The texture feels very real. But it felt like short non-spiky hair instead of the slightly longer one irl… _{(maybe because on my way home yesterday I was thinking about I removed my armpit hair and it is growing again… and it’s short) (oh man it got unromantic for a sec)} I was massaging his head (like a cat's forehead/ head) while continuing to look into his eyes and breathing deeply. I kissed his face. (Or ear?) He seemed unopposed and didn’t flinch at all. I wanted to talk so I opened my mouth a little. And he said my teeth smells bad. So I closed my mouth and quietly said hmph I began leaning on top of him. Like my front/ ventral side is sticking to his back. Not like before when I’m just “on top” 騰空 and legs between body

I looked at his lips and kissed him. On the lips.

WhahahahahahahhHhHhHhHHhhHHhHhAhHhHhH (he wasn’t wearing glasses since the beginning.)

😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚

Ok and then

He looked at me with soft eyes. But I didn’t want to hold him for too long because it’s just our first time (getting intimate) So I removed myself from his lips

I think at this time the cashier think they’ve been keeping us queuing for too long (turned out they were helping the volleyball injured player so they kept us waiting), so they gave us a tablet to watch videos while we were waiting. It automatically played a video with a cartoon intro. Just as we thought it was lame as fuck, after the intro the content was two people entering a upstairs shop. The actors were my mum and dad… and they’re going up a sex toy shop………

Though I don’t think Arthur knows those are my parents, so we focused on watching the content (sex toy shop)

But after the video showed they entered the shop, my attention was back to Arthur’s body. I think I shouldn’t play so intensely on our first time so I decided not to do anything too advanced (e.g. activities that involve the actual dick- blowjob, actual sex etc) or else next time we don’t have much to explore We have to keep the good things coming slowly. So I didn’t touch his bottom & private parts. But I’m horny!! So I tried to massage myself on his back- right above his butt (Idk how to do this physically irl but it works in the dream) And coincidentally there’s a part of my underwear that was protruding (it’s a cutting issue with the fabric/ design) and massaging my clit So this humping action on his back + the underwear is making me very aroused I was grabbing his shoulder on his back too. I was also moaning a bit because it felt really nice hahah

(Between the acts he did say stuff but I forgot what he said. But the one thing I was sure is that he didn’t verbally ask me for more. Actually was a bit hard to guess because it’s like he’s holding his composure.) (he also didn’t really act back at me the only thing is he just turned his head lol… I was the proactive one the whole time lol. But he didn’t reject my kiss so I guess he likes it ?? :D)

He was wearing that exact coat that one time I hit him on his back :D

Waaaahahahahahahaha happi happi happi

Such a fun dream !!!!!!!!!!!

_{(edit: I know why I have this dream now. The night before, my “well-trained/ cursed” 小紅書 recommended a post about how to do foreplay, and I read a random comment in detail which was a list of actions one could do for foreplay, and the list is like a paid “package” thing lol) (well but the actions in the dream is different from the comment. well except the part where I actually lean, that's similar) (I think the package also incorporated some breath sounds next to the ear. But tbh even without seeing the list I would imagine myself doing so.) The sniff part was original though!! xD Also the kisses!!! The package didn't include kisses. Eehheheeheheh kisssssssss}

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Had some dreams but I did other stuff so I forgot _{Didn’t study yesterday at all, and messed up my sleep schedule Haven’t started today either, but it’s afternoon already and I’m falling behind on schedule}

revision

Only dream I sort of remember I think I was teaching myself some anatomy and they sounded legit Yeah that’s it

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competition/ exams; hide again

#primschool

The competition/ exam is splitted into two sections. Part A is swimming; part B are calligraphy/ drawing and fishing. They are all hosted in my primary school covered playground. Participants are my schoolmates from the same form (but many I didn’t know- no such people irl). We all have to bring our own gear and tools: swimming suit, calligraphy brush and fishing rod. However everyone brought them except me.

As I was queuing up during the assembly to listen to the briefing, I asked my friend Chloe Cheung who was in front of me, to lend me her gear when it’s not her turn for the exam. I promised her if she needed the gear she could directly take it back. She agreed.

However our student number was rather close so I was worried if we would get assigned to the same exams at the same time, and I wouldn’t be able to get a set of gear too cuz then she would be using it. And while we were walking up into the covered playground after assembly in the open playground, I remembered I was on my period so I would get her swimming suit dirty. But I would take her swimsuit back home to wash before returning it, but I hope she wouldn’t mind… because it was blood after all

Anyways the teacher, ptam _{(a primary school teacher who taught random subjects- didn’t really teach me the main big subjects so I wasn’t that familiar with her. But according to my many friends who got taught by her, she was a nightmare as she scolded people with prejudice without giving them chance to explain. And she was especially infamously bad towards the girl who chased after me with scissors- people said she’s schizo but imo it’s just ADHD and she’s just goofing around… she got kicked out (because of her). But the teacher also quitted a few years after we graduated)} Ok back to the dream. P Tam blew a whistle and began to run in laps. I could see that she wanted us to follow her to do warm up exercises. But I didn’t want to, because 1 I hate sports 2 warm up means we needed to swim and I don’t have my swimming gear because we’re in the same exam batch so I wanted to delay this for as long as possible And everyone else couldn’t understand what P Tam was doing. And I pretended to not understand too. Ofc I wouldn’t explain to them. And the teacher was fairly bad so I’ll just watch. So we just stood there watching.

P Tam repeatedly this for a few times, only one or two students followed, and they also stopped following after one lap because no one else was doing it. Yet P Tam didn’t explain what she was doing, and she just gave up

So we went to section B of the exam first, which were calligraphy/ drawing and fishing. Section B of the exam was hosted on another place

(eeeek i got distracted again while typing wtfffdhdhdjdhshsh)

We went to main building in main campus, very old. There were also big mosquitoes Anyways we entered a fishery room for the exam

We first played hide and seek for some reason I had to take a blue cube and put and hide it as far from us as we could. And the hunters would trace that cube. And they will try to use the cube as a clue to find us Well eventually we got caught. But we delayed a lot of time for the exam so we were running out of time. After Chloe finished with her calligraphy and drawing, I got her pen and I only have like 5 minutes to draw a pic according to the given sentence, and copy some calligraphy words.

I think the sentence was something about expectations and travelling. (The original sentence was coherent but I forgot). And after thinking for a few seconds I got a eureka moment and I drew a boat on the sea. The examiner asked what I was doing, so I explained my thoughts while trying to draw I then planned to draw two big eyes (big face) behind the sea and the boat (which was in fact, a fishbowl), to represent expectations and anticipation. But unfortunately I drew one of the eye too small (and there was no pencil for me to sketch, I had to directly use the brush with watercolour) so I had to shrink the size of the girl at the back to make the ratio right But I still sort of messed up the girl’s face, and I told the examiner ahh damn I drew it badly. And then I started to fix the girl’s face. The examiner commented, nah it’s getting better, you’re fixing it. To which I answered yes. _{(hmm this observing examiner’s speech reminds me of Arthur and Charlotte C. Because it felt like something he would say. Also I fixed Charlotte’s drawing on my uniform and it felt exactly like that- I was fixing the hair too) something like this}

After finishing the drawing I still have a minute to write calligraphy. I was writing english when I realised it felt off using this chinese soft calligraphy pen, so I grabbed another paper to write chinese. And then the teacher gave me a paper with English script for me to follow, so I grabbed another paper again to write English, but the soft pen was so hard to use and my words became very ugly because the ink on the brush is a bit hard to control and it spreaded (like those holes in the alphabets are also filled with ink)

Haven’t went fishing (I wasn’t even done with the calligraphy too), and the dream shifted to another

math exam, extended time

#T Calculator was quite difficult to press. Because I upgraded it and added a lot of formulas, so I had to cycle through the formulas to find the one I needed, because I don’t know the code/ number for the formula to call it directly

I kept pressing but the answer didn’t make sense in the way I think it feels off and there should be a better answer So I swapped methods for a few times (they are geometry and coordinates questions which were topics I liked). The question I got stuck with was actually just a simple triangle question. The calculator is glitching (because of the formulas I added) and was kind of stupid

Finally I found a big error in my method and I needed to redo the whole thing (Actually was because I was too lazy to plot the triangle properly so I didn’t notice two coords lies on the same x axis, which made the triangle very easy to solve)

(And then I calculated the area, but actually the question was asking about perimeter and I could just use pyth thm, I chose it over sin cos tan cuz I have the other two lines alr)

But I didn’t have enough time, because my brain was jammed and my calculator wasn’t obedient, but still I tried my best to press as fast as I could and write down my steps

And then the exam coordinator announced there would be an extra two minutes for the exam. I noticed the familiar voice and it was Vincci’s _{(lol first time in dream heh also I finally spelled her name correctly oml so sorry)} But I didn’t have time to look up, I was focused on my work. I think I briefly looked and it was actually Vincci but I wasn’t sure

Well I got a few steps more and I was nearer to the final answer but times up I continued writing but no one stopped me. She collected the papers from the other side of the room first, and as she arrived at my side I got the answer too No time to double check and I was pretty sure it was wrong because I pressed the calculator too quickly

_{(The extended time reminded me of two things: 1. A chem test in f5-6; 2. A math exam in p1. Regarding the chem tests, our chem teacher would give everyone two more minutes when she saw a lot of people (i suppose) weren’t finishing the test yet. (Because she’s the only person teaching the form and she made the paper so she could set the rules) which saved me a lot (every time I was running out of time she gave us all extra time, idk if it’s just me or everyone else has no time tbh- because sometimes others had actually finished the paper, and most of the time people didn’t comment how the extra time saved them, so I have never brought it up too) Side note oh my god vincci reminds me of a nicer version of chem teacher- chem teachers were always 傲嬌 for some reason idk; and also my mum’s sister lol they both looked very tired despite seemingly energetic 2. Math teacher in p1. I was pretty good at math in p1- I don’t think I’m the top cuz I don’t have full mark. But for some reason our Math teacher, whom I later heard from others as a pretty mean and fierce woman, really liked me and I think she’s really kind! And in one math exam (yes exam), I haven’t learned the concept of algebra/ in this case using symbols hearts flowers to represent an unknown number. So I was stuck there for a long time without proceeding to the rest of the paper, and I ran out of time. And the math teacher gave everyone an extra 5 minutes, but directed to me. (Everyone’s finished with their papers and only I was working). I was very grateful but I still couldn’t solve it. Anyways the teacher was really kind heheheeh I wasn’t sure how I did for that exam, I think I actually got like 55 or what, but it’s the only time my mum didn’t really scold me that hard because she knew she hadn’t taught me algebra- she was actually being reasonable back then- before I got third in class in primary 3- that’s when she “discovered my potential” and started being very pushy)}

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work w friends; breakfast! with ruth n many others

#secschool #chinok #pblmate #onlinefrd #ruth #arthur #T #6grass #ivan #primschool (lmao so many tags) Ok so Work with Mancy until sunrise at place like chiwah. Mancy was working on EY registering exchange stuff. Saw sunrise outside window. Later I left.

Went to place like lab block in sassoon, to have MHFA lesson by Vincci (lol first time thinking and seeing her in dream heh) After lesson I think I went back near med lib. I think my PBL group was gathering for something (related to studying). After that, near 6pm I grabbed ChiNok to go tgt back near lab block. He didn’t really know what I was up to, I think I gave a random reason and he didn’t pushed me away when I legit grabbed and pull him along with me. I was waiting near lab block exit in order to see if I can see Arthur (and others) leaving after work. I don’t know if I saw him or not, I actually forgot how the dream went. Because Ruth walked by and chatted with me. (I think I abandoned ChiNok starting from here, but I was pretty sure there’s another person next to me. Oh maybe Yuki??) _{(new person unlocked in dream- if you’re reading go ask Vincci who that is; basically online friend whom we knew each other since 2020 but met physically for the first time during MHFA lmfao)}

And then Ruth stood in front of me and asked me how we’re doing, while looking at me. I think I answered something like ok, because my friend was next to me and I can’t talk too deep

And then Ruth was very chill And she asked how was MHFA and began to test me on some easy concepts of the lesson (but was actually med stuff..,..,..,.) I got the first two wrong, but I guessed the third one right, but not exactly 100% correct. I was chuckling with my friend. Well but Ruth said my answer was right, and she encouraged me.

Later I think my friend left for some other thing so it was just me and Ruth now !!

Ruth still looked very chill. She asked me how do I feel about the news yesterday night. I was a bit confused and asked her what news. She said there was a med student who jumped off in the washing machine room in the residential hall. And we began to walk back to the breakfast hall probably at main campus (it wasn’t that far in dream) to have breakfast. It felt like some sort of study tour where the breakfast buffet is planned and we’re going to have it.

Back to the conversation, I said oh I didn’t know. And I thought to myself I’d rather choose my own room which had my own washing machine (it made sense in the dream) as the place to jump instead or else people would find me too early and it’s useless And then Ruth seemed to read my mind and she said maybe her/ your _{(I forgot what pronoun she used)} own room is better, right? I said yeah…

We walked by chiwah again but the sky was early morning, not bright yet, but nothing special I think we were chatting about another topic but I forgot just now :(( (probably some actual “how’s life” type of stuff…? And it was bidirectional and she also answered, not just me)

And we arrived at the dining hall. The first table was fruits, I dislike fruits so I swiftly walked away to the other table, but Ruth seemed she didn’t know because I was near her the whole time and I left too quickly I saw she wanted to use the tongs to get some chopped fruits for me but she subtly looked around and I wasn’t there, so she gave it to others. I felt a bit sorry but I decided no fruits over staying with Ruth lmao

The other tables were full of food I wanted to eat. Gigantic sushi, sashimi and oysters.!! I looked through what dishes they had provided and I got my tray. I think I accidentally knocked over a ramen spoon (those big ones) onto the ground. I didn’t plan to pick it up because it was dirty and idk where to put it. Also I had some food targets in mind esp a fish sushi which has one remaining. Someone next to me picked it up and put it to the return tray. I looked and it was my primary school friend Nickole. I thanked her but my voice was too too low, like whispering. So I thanked her again, this time slightly louder but still whispering and in a singing tone. I was pretty sure she couldn’t hear it, but I heard her whispering/ humming something like no problem I was walking back to the food tables and someone said hi to me. It was Winnie, one of my “6 grass” squad members. We said hi because it’s been such a long time seeing each other. I asked if I can sit with them for breakfast and she said ofc! Just at this time, the other members of my friend group came. Candice pointed out there’s “the person” walking towards us. It was Maisie, also a sec school friend (who was depressed) (but 6 grass don’t know her) We briefly said hi And then around the corner there was Ivan choosing food. And a few steps behind him, Ruth was watching (us). I noticed Ruth but ignored her. I said Hii to Ivan, and my tone became very close to Ivan, I asked him what he’s choosing what he’s gonna eat, and told him I’m gonna have that sushi and oyster because it just so happened last night before sleep I saw instagram reels about these exact same food and I wanted to eat, and such a coincidence! There’s the same thing here. _{(now the fun thing is the above sentences are true. I did watch red book reels before sleep and saw and wanted to eat these, they’re actually the same)}

Anyways yeah dream ended here before I actually got any food. Lmfao I abandoned my Ruth lol ahwhaoNqjsajdbkaa

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crazy people at beijing metro station

#secschool #caitlyn Multiple crazy people (like actually look mentally retarded with twitched faces, weird smiles, and poor dirty messy outfits) Kept wanting to snatch my notebooks if I want to leave the station I cannot hide because these people can see Horrible My notebooks had all my revision notes inside so I couldn’t abandon them because I needed it, and also I didn’t want to just give them away, I put my effort into making them bro

Those crazy people just want to hoard them for no purpose/ to entertain themselves by looking at our dismayed faces

_{(so angry I think I have these poor angry wicked people in my brain so I can’t snatch and retrieve my knowledge in revision)}

After trying multiple times (multiple day and nights), a few friends walked by and about to exit the station I asked my tallest and closest friend to stop and help me carry some of the thicker notes when they were leaving, and they can give me the notes when we arrive at our destination (Because I had a stack and my new plan was to tuck them all under my shirt)

The plan worked, but since I had just that one more notebook I couldn’t put, I secretly held it in my hands. They noticed and one little girl (dressing slightly better I guess) began to chase after me. I ran as fast as I could. I ran until I arrived at my secondary school. I chose a staircase that the little girl can’t use in the dream (because her grade is too low, the staircase is for senior students) _{(no such rule irl)} I ran as fast as I can, I didn’t even take a breather in between the 6/ 7 floors of stairs I ran to the top floor. But because there were multiple staircases, the little girl also reached the top floor. I was desperate. Still holding to my notes, I ran across the corridor and see which room was safer for me to hide. None. Because the classrooms were empty, despite some with lights on and some lights off. Maybe it’s the summer break. I ran till the end of the corridor, where it leads to the main staircase. Luckily the door next to the main staircase opened and out came a staff. It was my friend’s mum. The staff stopped the little girl in her steps. And began to scold her. I looked back and saw the little girl was my friend, Caitlyn’s younger sister _{(irl very obedient, cute and nice)}

She was crying after her mum scolded her. But her mum was showing her her phone with all the videos of her doing these gremlin stuff with other people. And she looked like she’s not sorry for them and was very grandiose. I’m not sure in the dream if she was diagnosed with NPD or not (sorry)

But I didn’t dare to leave. I was scared she was chase after me later, when the staff was gone. The kid could locate me for some reason.

bookstore promotion event w Ts

#arthur #ruth #mum

Wow first collab in dream _{(I’m pretty sure because yesterday I went to sit there and ruth talked to me) (uh ha sorry the others weren’t in the dream)}

So there’s a book store collab event We are gonna promote our uni in the bookstore (I signed up to be a helper) _{(maybe because yesterday I signed up for peer supporter stuff)}

First I get to tour around the bookstore (because it’s not my turn yet and I should know how everything works first) (like a briefing)

( Ai I wasn’t sure what Arthur did in the dream. Cuz I forgot. Maybe he was the one who led me to the room: )

I got my own little room (actually rooms but put together) It looked very secure and soundproof and the doors and walls are solid wood with many locks

I turned the locks, get inside, and locked them again. But the walls were made of fabric..?? Not wood anymore. I tried to lock them more securely with the hooks but bro they are just one sheet of fabric

As I was fiddling with the locks my mum peeked inside and came into my room……… so I went to the room separated by another wall (fabric) But my happy mood of discovering a safe spot was ruined. I was thinking if I could play with my toy and also invite Arthur in the room to have fun together because it was secure but see I can’t n it’s unsafe……….. bruh

So stupid!!

Anyways I think Arthur continued to lead me to other parts of the bookstore to give me a brief look of different sections.

And then finally he brought me to a corner which looked like a cashier. Ruth was there. He handed me to Ruth and he left (probably back to his station by the entrance to warm up? icebreak with new visitors)

Ruth and a few helpers were there. She said hi and started introducing my job in this role- to pursuade people to sign up for the hku tour (which happens in the bookstore) (it sounded reasonable in dream)

And then very quickly right after she finished briefing us, a man and a woman came (probably parents). And it’s my turn to say stuff. I was nervous but the other helpers were just looking at me. Ruth was also waiting. So I had to say something. At first the man looked crossed before I spoke, but after I began to sell our package they agreed to it and signed up.

The tour package is $90 each person if they have multiple ppl joining, up to 4 ppl in total. (At first I thought it was a ripoff, I wouldn’t buy it myself)

After they signed up, the other helpers led them to the other stations where the helpers on that side would begin the tour.

…. Finally there was a grand show at the end of the tour. (Like disneyland parade and fireworks)

We all have to join in canoeing on the stream, where they decorated with lots of fairy lights. (The bookstore was actually very big… and the back of it was semi outdoor, so when we were canoeing we can see the dark night sky) (I didn’t see Ruth or Arthur canoeing though. Maybe all the physical work was done by us students lmao) (I think I saw Ruth on land guiding the canoes) And we had to sing while canoeing And I realised $90 tour fee was too cheap. Lol

physical dream log book & among us

Back to the bookstore. It actually felt like Eslite bookstore btw. I found this dark blue thick notebook I find it really suitable for writing my dream log. But I already have a digital version And I think I can recall better in the digital version, because if I handwrite, I’ll get carried away by writing itself and my dreams were gone, but if I’m just poking my device keyboard the memory won’t escape that easily.

Anyways so I patted the notebook and put it back to the shelf

Later I was playing among us on my ipad by the shelf. It was a big game (500 people in one game compared to the usual 10) I had the normal role (not imposter) but I had an ability to camouflage as someone alse. Which I didn’t really know what for, because there’s too many people, and no one recognised each other anyways. But I always chose to camouflage when other players walked by and when not in cooldown just to play safe.

Later eventually I died. I checked the player list. 500 ppl around 113? remaining Not too bad actually

Dream ended.

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sorry I forgot my dreams again…

rooftop skating ring

#mum (i think I was with two people. I forgot who they were. We went to a shopping mall with an ice skating ring on the top floor (a recurrent one in many dreams since young)

We were walking. I was cold. Maybe the ice spreads the temperature to the air. Very cold.

We wanted to do some activity, but the ice skating ring is full We opened a side door to the balcony, expecting another ice skating place.

We opened the glass door (feels like festival walk), and outside was raining heavily and the ground has so much water I wasn’t sure if it was a pool or if the rainwater caused it to be like that.

They (the two people walking with me) wanted to step in I told them someone wrote something on the stairs (leding to the pool) on the floor It said there were bugs in the pool (Apparently people fish here so they leave a lot of bugs to attract the fish

We walked away to other parts of the shopping mall.

supermarket shopping

#ivan We went to a Japanese based supermarket (Apita? Aeon?) + another random girl We were shopping around We ate jelly mochi things, it’s some sort of self mix packs, it was slightly sweet because of the sweet sauce and was yummy. I recommended ivan to mix it with milk and it would be even more delicious.

Later we went to the cool isles (those cooling shelves) And ivan was choosing sashimi Meanwhile i was looking at another place where they sell premade dishes in a large quantity but in a low price There was a big dish of eggplants It was too much though _{(i think I dreamt of eggplants because one day my whole meal at uni was eggplants + rice but my mum next day asked me if i wanna eat eggplants so i said no, yet she bought me eggplants meal, i asked why, because she wanted to eat) (so I am tired of eggplants now)}

And i began to look at those snack sausages in bundles. Unfortunately those weren’t exactly the snacks one, but cooked, so I can’t store them for too long _{(i thought of smacks sausages probably because recently I wanted to save money but needed to eat something to make my stomach shut up, so I was planning on buying snacks sausages to bring to school.)}

I forgot what’s next.

Also a bit sad today because they wanted to chat with me, i chatted with them but I don’t trust them anymore. Last time I chatted the next day she scolded me on the same thing again It was too late and I am confused They finally noticed me, but I felt like my heart is torn to shreds I dont know

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