dream log
Had some dreams but I did other stuff so I forgot Didn’t study yesterday at all, and messed up my sleep schedule Haven’t started today either, but it’s afternoon already and I’m falling behind on schedule
Only dream I sort of remember I think I was teaching myself some anatomy and they sounded legit Yeah that’s it
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The competition/ exam is splitted into two sections. Part A is swimming; part B are calligraphy/ drawing and fishing. They are all hosted in my primary school covered playground. Participants are my schoolmates from the same form (but many I didn’t know- no such people irl). We all have to bring our own gear and tools: swimming suit, calligraphy brush and fishing rod. However everyone brought them except me.
As I was queuing up during the assembly to listen to the briefing, I asked my friend Chloe Cheung who was in front of me, to lend me her gear when it’s not her turn for the exam. I promised her if she needed the gear she could directly take it back. She agreed.
However our student number was rather close so I was worried if we would get assigned to the same exams at the same time, and I wouldn’t be able to get a set of gear too cuz then she would be using it. And while we were walking up into the covered playground after assembly in the open playground, I remembered I was on my period so I would get her swimming suit dirty. But I would take her swimsuit back home to wash before returning it, but I hope she wouldn’t mind… because it was blood after all
Anyways the teacher, ptam (a primary school teacher who taught random subjects- didn’t really teach me the main big subjects so I wasn’t that familiar with her. But according to my many friends who got taught by her, she was a nightmare as she scolded people with prejudice without giving them chance to explain. And she was especially infamously bad towards the girl who chased after me with scissors- people said she’s schizo but imo it’s just ADHD and she’s just goofing around… she got kicked out (because of her). But the teacher also quitted a few years after we graduated) Ok back to the dream. P Tam blew a whistle and began to run in laps. I could see that she wanted us to follow her to do warm up exercises. But I didn’t want to, because 1 I hate sports 2 warm up means we needed to swim and I don’t have my swimming gear because we’re in the same exam batch so I wanted to delay this for as long as possible And everyone else couldn’t understand what P Tam was doing. And I pretended to not understand too. Ofc I wouldn’t explain to them. And the teacher was fairly bad so I’ll just watch. So we just stood there watching.
P Tam repeatedly this for a few times, only one or two students followed, and they also stopped following after one lap because no one else was doing it. Yet P Tam didn’t explain what she was doing, and she just gave up
So we went to section B of the exam first, which were calligraphy/ drawing and fishing. Section B of the exam was hosted on another place
(eeeek i got distracted again while typing wtfffdhdhdjdhshsh)
We went to main building in main campus, very old. There were also big mosquitoes Anyways we entered a fishery room for the exam
We first played hide and seek for some reason I had to take a blue cube and put and hide it as far from us as we could. And the hunters would trace that cube. And they will try to use the cube as a clue to find us Well eventually we got caught. But we delayed a lot of time for the exam so we were running out of time. After Chloe finished with her calligraphy and drawing, I got her pen and I only have like 5 minutes to draw a pic according to the given sentence, and copy some calligraphy words.
I think the sentence was something about expectations and travelling. (The original sentence was coherent but I forgot). And after thinking for a few seconds I got a eureka moment and I drew a boat on the sea. The examiner asked what I was doing, so I explained my thoughts while trying to draw
I then planned to draw two big eyes (big face) behind the sea and the boat (which was in fact, a fishbowl), to represent expectations and anticipation. But unfortunately I drew one of the eye too small (and there was no pencil for me to sketch, I had to directly use the brush with watercolour) so I had to shrink the size of the girl at the back to make the ratio right
But I still sort of messed up the girl’s face, and I told the examiner ahh damn I drew it badly.
And then I started to fix the girl’s face. The examiner commented, nah it’s getting better, you’re fixing it. To which I answered yes.
(hmm this observing examiner’s speech reminds me of Arthur and Charlotte C. Because it felt like something he would say. Also I fixed Charlotte’s drawing on my uniform and it felt exactly like that- I was fixing the hair too)
something like this
After finishing the drawing I still have a minute to write calligraphy. I was writing english when I realised it felt off using this chinese soft calligraphy pen, so I grabbed another paper to write chinese. And then the teacher gave me a paper with English script for me to follow, so I grabbed another paper again to write English, but the soft pen was so hard to use and my words became very ugly because the ink on the brush is a bit hard to control and it spreaded (like those holes in the alphabets are also filled with ink)
Haven’t went fishing (I wasn’t even done with the calligraphy too), and the dream shifted to another
#T Calculator was quite difficult to press. Because I upgraded it and added a lot of formulas, so I had to cycle through the formulas to find the one I needed, because I don’t know the code/ number for the formula to call it directly
I kept pressing but the answer didn’t make sense in the way I think it feels off and there should be a better answer So I swapped methods for a few times (they are geometry and coordinates questions which were topics I liked). The question I got stuck with was actually just a simple triangle question. The calculator is glitching (because of the formulas I added) and was kind of stupid
Finally I found a big error in my method and I needed to redo the whole thing (Actually was because I was too lazy to plot the triangle properly so I didn’t notice two coords lies on the same x axis, which made the triangle very easy to solve)
(And then I calculated the area, but actually the question was asking about perimeter and I could just use pyth thm, I chose it over sin cos tan cuz I have the other two lines alr)
But I didn’t have enough time, because my brain was jammed and my calculator wasn’t obedient, but still I tried my best to press as fast as I could and write down my steps
And then the exam coordinator announced there would be an extra two minutes for the exam. I noticed the familiar voice and it was Vincci’s (lol first time in dream heh also I finally spelled her name correctly oml so sorry) But I didn’t have time to look up, I was focused on my work. I think I briefly looked and it was actually Vincci but I wasn’t sure
Well I got a few steps more and I was nearer to the final answer but times up I continued writing but no one stopped me. She collected the papers from the other side of the room first, and as she arrived at my side I got the answer too No time to double check and I was pretty sure it was wrong because I pressed the calculator too quickly
(The extended time reminded me of two things: 1. A chem test in f5-6; 2. A math exam in p1. Regarding the chem tests, our chem teacher would give everyone two more minutes when she saw a lot of people (i suppose) weren’t finishing the test yet. (Because she’s the only person teaching the form and she made the paper so she could set the rules) which saved me a lot (every time I was running out of time she gave us all extra time, idk if it’s just me or everyone else has no time tbh- because sometimes others had actually finished the paper, and most of the time people didn’t comment how the extra time saved them, so I have never brought it up too) Side note oh my god vincci reminds me of a nicer version of chem teacher- chem teachers were always 傲嬌 for some reason idk; and also my mum’s sister lol they both looked very tired despite seemingly energetic 2. Math teacher in p1. I was pretty good at math in p1- I don’t think I’m the top cuz I don’t have full mark. But for some reason our Math teacher, whom I later heard from others as a pretty mean and fierce woman, really liked me and I think she’s really kind! And in one math exam (yes exam), I haven’t learned the concept of algebra/ in this case using symbols hearts flowers to represent an unknown number. So I was stuck there for a long time without proceeding to the rest of the paper, and I ran out of time. And the math teacher gave everyone an extra 5 minutes, but directed to me. (Everyone’s finished with their papers and only I was working). I was very grateful but I still couldn’t solve it. Anyways the teacher was really kind heheheeh I wasn’t sure how I did for that exam, I think I actually got like 55 or what, but it’s the only time my mum didn’t really scold me that hard because she knew she hadn’t taught me algebra- she was actually being reasonable back then- before I got third in class in primary 3- that’s when she “discovered my potential” and started being very pushy)
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#secschool #chinok #pblmate #onlinefrd #ruth #arthur #T #6grass #ivan #primschool (lmao so many tags) Ok so Work with Mancy until sunrise at place like chiwah. Mancy was working on EY registering exchange stuff. Saw sunrise outside window. Later I left.
Went to place like lab block in sassoon, to have MHFA lesson by Vincci (lol first time thinking and seeing her in dream heh) After lesson I think I went back near med lib. I think my PBL group was gathering for something (related to studying). After that, near 6pm I grabbed ChiNok to go tgt back near lab block. He didn’t really know what I was up to, I think I gave a random reason and he didn’t pushed me away when I legit grabbed and pull him along with me. I was waiting near lab block exit in order to see if I can see Arthur (and others) leaving after work. I don’t know if I saw him or not, I actually forgot how the dream went. Because Ruth walked by and chatted with me. (I think I abandoned ChiNok starting from here, but I was pretty sure there’s another person next to me. Oh maybe Yuki??) (new person unlocked in dream- if you’re reading go ask Vincci who that is; basically online friend whom we knew each other since 2020 but met physically for the first time during MHFA lmfao)
And then Ruth stood in front of me and asked me how we’re doing, while looking at me. I think I answered something like ok, because my friend was next to me and I can’t talk too deep
And then Ruth was very chill And she asked how was MHFA and began to test me on some easy concepts of the lesson (but was actually med stuff..,..,..,.) I got the first two wrong, but I guessed the third one right, but not exactly 100% correct. I was chuckling with my friend. Well but Ruth said my answer was right, and she encouraged me.
Later I think my friend left for some other thing so it was just me and Ruth now !!
Ruth still looked very chill. She asked me how do I feel about the news yesterday night. I was a bit confused and asked her what news. She said there was a med student who jumped off in the washing machine room in the residential hall. And we began to walk back to the breakfast hall probably at main campus (it wasn’t that far in dream) to have breakfast. It felt like some sort of study tour where the breakfast buffet is planned and we’re going to have it.
Back to the conversation, I said oh I didn’t know. And I thought to myself I’d rather choose my own room which had my own washing machine (it made sense in the dream) as the place to jump instead or else people would find me too early and it’s useless And then Ruth seemed to read my mind and she said maybe her/ your (I forgot what pronoun she used) own room is better, right? I said yeah…
We walked by chiwah again but the sky was early morning, not bright yet, but nothing special I think we were chatting about another topic but I forgot just now :(( (probably some actual “how’s life” type of stuff…? And it was bidirectional and she also answered, not just me)
And we arrived at the dining hall. The first table was fruits, I dislike fruits so I swiftly walked away to the other table, but Ruth seemed she didn’t know because I was near her the whole time and I left too quickly I saw she wanted to use the tongs to get some chopped fruits for me but she subtly looked around and I wasn’t there, so she gave it to others. I felt a bit sorry but I decided no fruits over staying with Ruth lmao
The other tables were full of food I wanted to eat. Gigantic sushi, sashimi and oysters.!! I looked through what dishes they had provided and I got my tray. I think I accidentally knocked over a ramen spoon (those big ones) onto the ground. I didn’t plan to pick it up because it was dirty and idk where to put it. Also I had some food targets in mind esp a fish sushi which has one remaining. Someone next to me picked it up and put it to the return tray. I looked and it was my primary school friend Nickole. I thanked her but my voice was too too low, like whispering. So I thanked her again, this time slightly louder but still whispering and in a singing tone. I was pretty sure she couldn’t hear it, but I heard her whispering/ humming something like no problem I was walking back to the food tables and someone said hi to me. It was Winnie, one of my “6 grass” squad members. We said hi because it’s been such a long time seeing each other. I asked if I can sit with them for breakfast and she said ofc! Just at this time, the other members of my friend group came. Candice pointed out there’s “the person” walking towards us. It was Maisie, also a sec school friend (who was depressed) (but 6 grass don’t know her) We briefly said hi And then around the corner there was Ivan choosing food. And a few steps behind him, Ruth was watching (us). I noticed Ruth but ignored her. I said Hii to Ivan, and my tone became very close to Ivan, I asked him what he’s choosing what he’s gonna eat, and told him I’m gonna have that sushi and oyster because it just so happened last night before sleep I saw instagram reels about these exact same food and I wanted to eat, and such a coincidence! There’s the same thing here. (now the fun thing is the above sentences are true. I did watch red book reels before sleep and saw and wanted to eat these, they’re actually the same)
Anyways yeah dream ended here before I actually got any food. Lmfao I abandoned my Ruth lol ahwhaoNqjsajdbkaa
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#secschool #caitlyn Multiple crazy people (like actually look mentally retarded with twitched faces, weird smiles, and poor dirty messy outfits) Kept wanting to snatch my notebooks if I want to leave the station I cannot hide because these people can see Horrible My notebooks had all my revision notes inside so I couldn’t abandon them because I needed it, and also I didn’t want to just give them away, I put my effort into making them bro
Those crazy people just want to hoard them for no purpose/ to entertain themselves by looking at our dismayed faces
(so angry I think I have these poor angry wicked people in my brain so I can’t snatch and retrieve my knowledge in revision)
After trying multiple times (multiple day and nights), a few friends walked by and about to exit the station I asked my tallest and closest friend to stop and help me carry some of the thicker notes when they were leaving, and they can give me the notes when we arrive at our destination (Because I had a stack and my new plan was to tuck them all under my shirt)
The plan worked, but since I had just that one more notebook I couldn’t put, I secretly held it in my hands. They noticed and one little girl (dressing slightly better I guess) began to chase after me. I ran as fast as I could. I ran until I arrived at my secondary school. I chose a staircase that the little girl can’t use in the dream (because her grade is too low, the staircase is for senior students) (no such rule irl) I ran as fast as I can, I didn’t even take a breather in between the 6/ 7 floors of stairs I ran to the top floor. But because there were multiple staircases, the little girl also reached the top floor. I was desperate. Still holding to my notes, I ran across the corridor and see which room was safer for me to hide. None. Because the classrooms were empty, despite some with lights on and some lights off. Maybe it’s the summer break. I ran till the end of the corridor, where it leads to the main staircase. Luckily the door next to the main staircase opened and out came a staff. It was my friend’s mum. The staff stopped the little girl in her steps. And began to scold her. I looked back and saw the little girl was my friend, Caitlyn’s younger sister (irl very obedient, cute and nice)
She was crying after her mum scolded her. But her mum was showing her her phone with all the videos of her doing these gremlin stuff with other people. And she looked like she’s not sorry for them and was very grandiose. I’m not sure in the dream if she was diagnosed with NPD or not (sorry)
But I didn’t dare to leave. I was scared she was chase after me later, when the staff was gone. The kid could locate me for some reason.
Wow first collab in dream (I’m pretty sure because yesterday I went to sit there and ruth talked to me) (uh ha sorry the others weren’t in the dream)
So there’s a book store collab event We are gonna promote our uni in the bookstore (I signed up to be a helper) (maybe because yesterday I signed up for peer supporter stuff)
First I get to tour around the bookstore (because it’s not my turn yet and I should know how everything works first) (like a briefing)
( Ai I wasn’t sure what Arthur did in the dream. Cuz I forgot. Maybe he was the one who led me to the room: )
I got my own little room (actually rooms but put together) It looked very secure and soundproof and the doors and walls are solid wood with many locks
I turned the locks, get inside, and locked them again. But the walls were made of fabric..?? Not wood anymore. I tried to lock them more securely with the hooks but bro they are just one sheet of fabric
As I was fiddling with the locks my mum peeked inside and came into my room……… so I went to the room separated by another wall (fabric) But my happy mood of discovering a safe spot was ruined. I was thinking if I could play with my toy and also invite Arthur in the room to have fun together because it was secure but see I can’t n it’s unsafe……….. bruh
So stupid!!
Anyways I think Arthur continued to lead me to other parts of the bookstore to give me a brief look of different sections.
And then finally he brought me to a corner which looked like a cashier. Ruth was there. He handed me to Ruth and he left (probably back to his station by the entrance to warm up? icebreak with new visitors)
Ruth and a few helpers were there. She said hi and started introducing my job in this role- to pursuade people to sign up for the hku tour (which happens in the bookstore) (it sounded reasonable in dream)
And then very quickly right after she finished briefing us, a man and a woman came (probably parents). And it’s my turn to say stuff. I was nervous but the other helpers were just looking at me. Ruth was also waiting. So I had to say something. At first the man looked crossed before I spoke, but after I began to sell our package they agreed to it and signed up.
The tour package is $90 each person if they have multiple ppl joining, up to 4 ppl in total. (At first I thought it was a ripoff, I wouldn’t buy it myself)
After they signed up, the other helpers led them to the other stations where the helpers on that side would begin the tour.
…. Finally there was a grand show at the end of the tour. (Like disneyland parade and fireworks)
We all have to join in canoeing on the stream, where they decorated with lots of fairy lights. (The bookstore was actually very big… and the back of it was semi outdoor, so when we were canoeing we can see the dark night sky) (I didn’t see Ruth or Arthur canoeing though. Maybe all the physical work was done by us students lmao) (I think I saw Ruth on land guiding the canoes) And we had to sing while canoeing And I realised $90 tour fee was too cheap. Lol
Back to the bookstore. It actually felt like Eslite bookstore btw. I found this dark blue thick notebook I find it really suitable for writing my dream log. But I already have a digital version And I think I can recall better in the digital version, because if I handwrite, I’ll get carried away by writing itself and my dreams were gone, but if I’m just poking my device keyboard the memory won’t escape that easily.
Anyways so I patted the notebook and put it back to the shelf
Later I was playing among us on my ipad by the shelf. It was a big game (500 people in one game compared to the usual 10) I had the normal role (not imposter) but I had an ability to camouflage as someone alse. Which I didn’t really know what for, because there’s too many people, and no one recognised each other anyways. But I always chose to camouflage when other players walked by and when not in cooldown just to play safe.
Later eventually I died. I checked the player list. 500 ppl around 113? remaining Not too bad actually
Dream ended.
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sorry I forgot my dreams again…
#mum (i think I was with two people. I forgot who they were. We went to a shopping mall with an ice skating ring on the top floor (a recurrent one in many dreams since young)
We were walking. I was cold. Maybe the ice spreads the temperature to the air. Very cold.
We wanted to do some activity, but the ice skating ring is full We opened a side door to the balcony, expecting another ice skating place.
We opened the glass door (feels like festival walk), and outside was raining heavily and the ground has so much water I wasn’t sure if it was a pool or if the rainwater caused it to be like that.
They (the two people walking with me) wanted to step in I told them someone wrote something on the stairs (leding to the pool) on the floor It said there were bugs in the pool (Apparently people fish here so they leave a lot of bugs to attract the fish
We walked away to other parts of the shopping mall.
#ivan We went to a Japanese based supermarket (Apita? Aeon?) + another random girl We were shopping around We ate jelly mochi things, it’s some sort of self mix packs, it was slightly sweet because of the sweet sauce and was yummy. I recommended ivan to mix it with milk and it would be even more delicious.
Later we went to the cool isles (those cooling shelves) And ivan was choosing sashimi Meanwhile i was looking at another place where they sell premade dishes in a large quantity but in a low price There was a big dish of eggplants It was too much though (i think I dreamt of eggplants because one day my whole meal at uni was eggplants + rice but my mum next day asked me if i wanna eat eggplants so i said no, yet she bought me eggplants meal, i asked why, because she wanted to eat) (so I am tired of eggplants now)
And i began to look at those snack sausages in bundles. Unfortunately those weren’t exactly the snacks one, but cooked, so I can’t store them for too long (i thought of smacks sausages probably because recently I wanted to save money but needed to eat something to make my stomach shut up, so I was planning on buying snacks sausages to bring to school.)
I forgot what’s next.
Also a bit sad today because they wanted to chat with me, i chatted with them but I don’t trust them anymore. Last time I chatted the next day she scolded me on the same thing again It was too late and I am confused They finally noticed me, but I felt like my heart is torn to shreds I dont know
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All fragments after i woke Seems the plots are all unpleasant but I didn’t feel unpleasant
#dad He’s the one who drive the car We kept getting stuck in the road because of traffic jam So we didn’t have fun because our day was spent on the road We finally got our car parked on the road but it was already late at night
Saw an argument on TV A celebrity scolded a mentally impaired person who’s working hard at the cashier (being nice to everyone despite 6000+ people queueing) an egoist and whatnot and she’s comjng to the country just to bear children The woman scolded back, I think she scolded something about his dick i forgot
#mum Mum gave me an umbrella and an electric fan when I left for school in the evening (7-8pm when the sky was dark) I was in secondary school uniform Anyways it was raining so I got my umbrella opened Mum was calling me on phone so I was having bluetooth earplugs in my ears I turned on the electric fan to play with it I like the feeling of the strong fan on my head I played with the –/+ button on the fan I kept pressing the + button to see if it cycles back to - But it didn’t and the wind gets stronger and stronger And it was like a very strong showerhead that’s beginning to be hard to handle (started to feel like it wanted to fly off my hand)
I was positioning the fan next to my headphones by the ear so mum can’t hear me
But later mum came downstairs and found me And she turned off the fan for me
But actually I do know how to turn off, just press and hold the – button. It’s just that there are many fan strength levels that I need to wait for the fan to get through all of them And I didn’t want to stop the fan either, became it felt good and sounds good when i have my wireless headphones with noise cancelling (if i remove my headphones it would be too loud and I feel scared; but with headphones on, the loudness was pleasant and it sounded like backgrounds white noise, machine whirring.)
Anyways I just stood there listen to what mum has to say
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At a random study room People were writing down what they were aiming for in life/ purpose in life on memo slips
A lot of people wrote the same thing (i forgot what but it sounds good, I think it’s something like enjoy life) but that’s not what I was thinking of because I haven’t sort out what I should do honestly So I wrote something along the lines of discovering new stuff/ fun stuff/ passion/ life/ every day (?? I forgot
#cecilia #primschool I was playing splatoon 2/ 3? in a team with my nintendo switch at the tournament Our team was competing with another team There were spectators
And the opposite team were bots So basically this match was humans vs bots And we lost
The spectators on the bot side were cheering Those on our side just sat there with a bored annoyed face I felt embarrassed because the bots were supposed to be dumb
But because I haven’t played for so long I spent a lot of time learning the controls and I forgot how stuff worked, so I kept getting destroyed by the other team
After that Cecilia (primary school bff) led some primary/ secondary school classmates came to our table with lots of ingredients to make hotpot
And they cooked and shared the hotpot with us happily, because we worked in the tournament
#mum Later I was watching a show between two big beefy black basketball player on TV. They were chit chatting with the judge on the basketball ground before starting the competition.
The right dude went inside the changing room and came out. They were putting on a show. The “black guy” started singing cantonese songs. I was very surprised. I looked at him and said to my mum, next to me, hey this was funny I didn’t expect that, and he was pretty good at cosplaying as a woman
And my mum said, she’s a woman the whole time
So I was a bit shocked
(thoughts: reminded me of that one time I shared a 小紅書 video to my mum about makeup, and my mum instantly pointed out the “woman” was a man. I denied and said she has to be a woman because she looked like one. She said no, women doesn’t sound like that. We scrolled through the page, she didn’t declare her gender but didn’t feel straight. So I looked again and realised she’s transgendered. And I felt a bit dumb for not realising that. I kept assuming the wrong gender for other people too
#secschool #PBLmate #uni On my way from cym/ meng wah complex Someone called me and so I stopped Her face was identical to a secondary school schoolmate but we haven’t been in the same class before. Her name was Melissa (but in the dream I mixed up with Vanessa, and I do have a supplementary friend who called Vanessa) She was asking me about a med question she was confused about So I explained to her in detail (It made perfect sense in dream but I knew irl it was made up) She was very thankful Turns out she’s taking supplementary too She asked me again what my EY choices are, she forgot the sem 2 exchange one So I told her again (i didnt feel like I have met her before in the dream though) And she reassured me. So I encouraged her too. I ask her where she’s going rn She said to the library So we walked there together to revise together Dream ended. (Edit: I think I also say something about me going for therapy, and Vanessa also asked who else was having therapy. And I didn’t tell her about Ivan)
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Walking on a slope street at night (very dark) (lights were red) with people/ friends idk After coming out from an underground street/ mall, they’re gonna show me a “ghost domain” They told me to walk slowly and listen to their instructions So we walked quietly and they said stop! And look And in front of me I can see an invisible wall. (Actually not wall, it looks like those hot wavy air you see on ground during summer day) And they told me to be quiet! Or else they (the ghosts) will notice.
So apparently if I walked into the wall idk what would happen, most likely bad stuff
I had a question, why aren’t people accidentally entering the wall though And I looked around and see people were subconsciously avoiding that particularly area while walking on the street
Very interesting and eerie
Studied at japanese school with a bunch of japanese students We were taking part in an activity (game) We form groups, choose a vocaloid song and let other groups guess it Scary vocaloid song The MV was scary With disturbing drawings
Chloe Chong Also met Zoe (v smart)
Edit: noooo i forgot what happened
She really got schizophrenia i think The words were … yeah
(Later I’ll fill in the entries (nooo too late I forgot most)
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#mum #dad Went to park w family (seems like a japanese mini amusement park) Different stations in the park, if you have to go to the end of park you have to finish the stations one by one
There was a puzzle with a cannon ball, and if u want to move it to open the exit, u need to follow the guide and collect stuff and activate some fans and push the ball to the right spot Feels like mario odyssey
Anyways I failed, because i think it just cannot be done physically I cant use freaking tissues and feathers to push and shoot the heavy cannon ball
(thoughts: It reminded me of my clogged brain for this academic year and I physically couldn’t do it)
So I gave up the puzzle and walked straight through it to the next station
But then when I sneaked to the next station, it was an empty land with a car (I feel like it’s some sort of bumper car arena)
But because I haven’t finished the last puzzle, this one wasn’t activated (The car works cuz I sat inside and it can move, but there’s no puzzle activated and I can’t see the exit) So I tried to fiddle with the switches that the cannon ball supposed to hit
But it doesn’t work
And I clicked some wrong switches so my car suddenly moved in reverse gear and in circles and it was hard to control, cuz in the dream I don’t think I have a steering wheel
I was scared so I hopped off the moving car and ran back to the last puzzle
I was staring at the cannon ball for a bit when my mum waved and called me. They happened to walk by, but they’re at the area outside the puzzle (the park used those… retractable fences (those metal poles where they have a fabric line that you can pull out like a retractable measuring tape)? To fence off the puzzle area
They called me to come, so I walked nearer Turned out they purchased customised grad gowns for themselves So basically at the cashier, since these Japanese were creative, they designed some little vests to go along with your gown, so it looks cuter and not as dull They bought a light blue one and a dark blue one i think
I told them, but I haven’t finished the puzzle yet, I haven’t graduated
They said nah it’s time to buy one, they’re about to run out of stock! The light blue one was unavailable already! Choose one which one would you like Dad chimed in to say the dark blue linen one was good! I looked at it but find it a bit too grey But the rest was worse so I chose it
After they got the gowns, I asked my mum to help me with the puzzle And we three went to do the cannon ball puzzle (actually I just observed them) And they easily solved it for me (we were doing it the same way but somehow two people were stronger than one)
And then my parents said done and we left
Maybe the empty bumper car park was the finishing area… not sure…
(thoughts: this may be the first recent dream that mum was actually doing something useful- I think it’s because mum finally sat down for the first time yesterday night to actually ask me and listened to how I’m doing at school- without throwing a tantrum about me not working hard enough. (uhm although she did yesterday) and she’s normalising my rather abnormal experience of amnesia to the point I got lost at the lab that I went frequently (im not sure if she’s just trying to be nice because I looked like I’m on a strike and gave up or something) (i dont know) (I don’t think she realised my mental health was shit)
(also rather ironic that dad noticed a subtle poor old lady that needs help on the street and so he gave a lot of things to her, but he didn’t seem to realise I also need some help) (And yesterday I finally remembered last summer before I got really depressed I knew it was something to do with covid but not covid itself… I searched through my gallery and my digital footprints but because I was sick I didn’t leave much. Now I recalled something really disappointing. I think I’ll write here in case I forget again. I was terribly sick so in the morning around 6am I finally got up from the bed we were all sleeping in, to throw up in the toilet. I threw up black/ brown stuff. I was horrified because according to my study notes brown vomit indicates something really bad inside- because it was old red blood cells I was having fever and wanted to faint and bla bla bla anyways after sitting in the toilet to ready myself I walked back and woke them up, despite feeling bad because they’re sleeping soundly. But I really wanted to go to the hospital (I hated eating meds and going to the hospital- and this was the first time when I actually wanted to get help) But they told me it was too early and they’ll sleep more and take me there later, despite I told them I can’t and I wanted to go now, they slept again So I waited in great discomfort until around 9? (because I am too weak to go to the hospital alone) (Maybe 9 was fast.. but the hospital was near… and I can’t wait that long) So I was really disappointed in my parents Yeee story time ended I couldn’t remember this till now, surprise
I was in a 1v1 chasing game To this point i think I had too many chasing game dreams so I’ll skip the plot The setting was in minecraft and we can fly and jump into buildings / blocks
Oh the scary part During sleep I suddenly felt there were two palms holding my head, they felt super real but they weren’t my hands. Feel like some old lady witch. And they came from behind me, but behind me was a wall. I was super scared idk what she? Would do to my head..!!!? Rip it off!?????? Hang me !????? And my heart rate goes up, and unfortunately my watch alarm also goes off (vibrations) and those vibrations were kind of fast and sync to my heartbeat Holy shit so i open my eyes slightly, i can still feel the hands, but I moved mine and they really weren’t mine, and there were no blankets around my face so idk where the sensation came from ajahajshsj and it’s not my mum because the door was closed fuck And after i widely open my eyes and move a bit, the hands retreated and gone
Anyways we swapped to another scene:
Doing chinese homework during form period (“classmistress time” that we can do anything) Because next lesson was chinese and we needed to hand it in
My neighbour saw Chinese teacher outside the door (we have a little glass panel by the door) And thought she didn’t come in because it was locked Meanwhile I was thinking she didn’t come in because our classmistress (the f6 one btw) was still inside I didn’t want her to come yet because I haven’t finished the hw, so I pretended I didn’t notice Anyways the class were gesturing the door wasn’t locked, so she opened the door My classmistress was tidying the desk for her
Anyways finally she was announcing she was going to collect the homework by the end of today, at 18:30, instead of during the lesson. So I was relieved. But I think maybe she saw me doing the homework so she extended it slightly.
(irl: this chinese teacher was pretty nice. There was a dictation but I failed because I tried and couldn’t memorise the sentences lol, and she wrote some encouraging words. And then in the next dictation I worked hard to memorise the damn passage and got 100, so she wrote some words of congratulations and gave me a stamp hahaahhaah)
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#dad (mom was a small side character who later shopped with dad) Dad found a random big bird with black and white tail on the bus. He mysteriously asked if I wanna see it. I said yes Big birrrd And I asked him if I can hold it Dad gave me some water to rinse my fingers (and because that way, he said, the bird would not hop off), and I grabbed the bird and let it perch on my fingers It was squawking but I held its feet and didn’t let it go because I wanted to take a pic. I was excited. I asked my dad to take a picture of us while it was still there. He took his camera and we took some close pics. The bird didn’t bite me.
I later put down the finger I was pressing on the feet, and it still stayed on my finger
Later we got off the bus and went to a shopping mall Somehow during shopping I tested myself some revision questions and I answered it correctly so I was kinda delighted (but i cried to sleep that night knowing I’ll probably repeat the year)
Anyways we shopped at different places and I went to an antique shop with the bird. A staff was curious and asked about the bird, I asked if the bird was hers (because the bird was friendly to humans and knew to perch on people’s shoulders). She said nope. I wanted to buy a necklace in the theme of the bird (feathers, black and white…) But they thought I wanted something for the bird and so they pulled up banners and party materials to celebrate the bird’s birthday. I wanted to clarify I wanted a necklace for myself but seeing the shop keepers were very happy and dancing around to celebrate, I didn’t tell them
I think thats the second time I entered the antique store I think the first time was before riding the bus, and I was holding a sharp knife and entered the store. I just wanted to look around and buy something, but the shopkeepers and customers were scared. I tried to explain my innocence and I just happened to be carrying a knife but they were still scared. And I didn’t have a bag to keep my knife in, and even if I have a bag, it was too sharp and would rip the bag, so I had to hold it :(
Something like 跑online and at the back if you’re too slow there will be tribes who eat humans to come and get you There were many exotic animals too (weird ancient mammoths,,, many fancy big animals) At first I was playing physically in first person view but towards the middle I swap to third person and I was controlling an avatar in my laptop It was slightly annoying cuz I customised the controls on the laptop and I had to readopt to the controls I set before
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