lost and found apple pencil

#mum #secschool #sally Mum wanting to go to a Japanese restaurant she wanted to go for a long time. * Idenical restaurant to one of the dreams previously. That time we went too late cuz it was so hard to find and Mum was too insisting to go and it was expensive so Mum only ordered one tray/ set of sushi

I was at mtr station – the floor with the gate machines to enter the “paid area of station” I had my apple pencil and iPad with me Idk what time, I found out I couldn't find my apple pencil. I lost it.

There were a lot of art booths on this floor. They were like little makeshift booths for people to draw individually. Seems organised by an art studio to promote their drawing courses. I was walking around and glance at every booth to see if someone took and was using my apple pencil. (Mine wasn't engraved, but I have stuck a masking tape on it, so it was identifiable) _{(I did that to my tendon hammer when I brought it to OSCA practice so it won't get taken mistakenly)}

Walked several (two?) rounds and found my masking tape on someone's table. Seems like they removed my tape from the pencil, so all I got was the tape. The person using the booth wasn't there, so I took the apple pencil on their desk.

Had a chat with several people on the way, were secondary school people. Sally was talking about the ad on the mtr wall which says Ado's concert. _{(The one we planned to go to but we couldn't buy the tickets)} Some I weren't even familiar with. One group was sitting around a table. Some because of 角度問題 of where I was at, were covered by something. One of the person asked me if I remember her, she's Zoe. I brainstormed who has this voice but name was Zoe. When I was thinking, she revealed the answer. I'm Zoe Tsang! After 1 second of me trying to rack my brain to think who she was, I remembered (one of my group members when I was group leader for my Spanish study tour in F2, when she was F1) I'm like ohhhh I remembered! aaa I was thinking of so many different surnames – Cheng, Wong, Chan... And one of the person sitting, said “and Lau.”, smiling slightly (later I realised that person's called Zoe Lau) (very unfamiliar schoolmate we weren't in the same class in any year from primary to secondary)

After that I walked alone again. Later I had the idea of checking my bag again. I saw something white at the bottom of my backpack. It was actually my lost apple pencil. Now I have two apple pencils. And the one I took mistakenly had engraving of the person's mandarin pinyin name, but I didn't notice when I was taking.

I was on my way of returning the wrong apple pencil when the dream shifted to another.

Gojo Satoru's hidden pics

Gojo Satoru (from Jujutsu Kaisen) was very pretty amd shared his photos all the time with others. He's like an internet sensation. Everyone liked his selfies and pics cuz yeah, they're looking nice.

One time me and my friends discovered maybe there was more underneath this “facade”, not exactly bad stuff but we just wanted to know more of his “unknown to the public” side.

We discovered other than the usual pics that he recruit photographers to help him take, he also had several sets of “private photos with private outfits”.

We somehow discovered the next schedule and location in which he would appear for taking these “private” photos. It was the little extension of the main campus bridge/ upper street where you go down to MTR A1 exit.

We went there and peeked. He was posing for photos. But he was bald. Maybe the usual white hair he had was just a wig. And my friend gasped because he was still very handsome even when bald. The next photo I forgot what that was, he either changed glasses or into a more casual shirt. Anyways he got surprised and afraid when he saw that we discovered his “little fetish”, so much he panicked and ran away immediately.

Anyways we got a glimpse in his private side. (* note: not sexual in any way. Didn't even think of that in the dream)

planning family trip

Mum wanted to travel. She told me to plan for the family trip especially on how to ride the mtr + 城際直通車 to get there (like around Shenzhen area, Guangdong??)

I asked her for the details and what exactly she meant but she told me to go find the mtr staff on concourse to answer my questions. She declared she would not help me with it. (I don't want to join the trip at all though, why am I the one planning. I was a bit annoyed in the dream)

anyways I asked a young female adult staff, maybe mid 20s kinda thin but healthy type of thin, and she answered and guided me patiently on different routes to arrive at different parts of the city (because Mum didn't answer my question on where exactly were we staying at, what hotel, what time and date), for example what was the most efficient route/ fastest/ convenient choice, operating hours etc.

I thanked her and I asked my mum for a pen to note down what the lady had said after she left. Something about Line 3 operates from 3pm to 5am; Line 5 operates from 5pm to 3am; I shouldn't take the Shenzhen green line metro because it had too many stations until airport east; I should consider the “城際直通車” which had only around 6 stations and therefore faster _{(no such thing in SZ i think, this idea was like the airport dark turquoise line in HK?)}

Suddenly Mum yelled at me to get on the metro. (Because she found out the metro can reach the Japanese restaurant she wanted to go) Mum and Dad were already on the metro when I was still concentrating on taking notes about the metro on the floor on the concourse

grab all my stuff (piles of paper – mtr map; pens; correction tape; heavy backpack) and ran on the metro, metro beeping and I got in Mum a bit surprised I made it Dad silent the whole time, he was just standing by the door It felt a bit tiring to catch up with all these “sudden matter”.

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I remembered the dream, but the memory was fading so I tried to recall the whole dream once in my brain, I thought I was jotting down in my log but wasn't, now I woke up and I cannot remember most of it

bonus marks, messaging

#secschool #arthur #ivan Went to hotel with my family. [Something happens I forgot], I had a competition/ presentation against other schoolmates about academic stuff also in the hotel. One of my “competitor”/ “schoolmate” was Bernice. _{(an irl friend who was pretty smart and went to Cambridge; supported me since way back in F2 when she was F3)}

One of the teachers assessing us was Arthur. _{(hmph I am still angry and guilty)} I did the presentation first, and followed by other classmates and then Bernice. I left midway during my presentation

After the whole thing, they announce the marks. I didn't know and didn't bother. Bernice was very excited to bring me the good news that I score like 90% and I got a bonus mark of 40 marks so it made my mark like 350 over 100 marks (yes the calculation doesn't make sense) I find my 90% fair enough since I left midway and I didn't do the last 0.25 part of my presentation I asked how about her, apparently her base score was 100% and she also got bonus mark i forgot it was 40 or 30, but it made her mark like 400 over 100 marks Anyways the average marks other classmates got was like 20 marks (low base mark and Arthur didn't give them any bonus marks) so our marks were ridiculously high, and Bernice and I were number 1 and 2 respectively I glanced at Arthur who was still sitting at the 評判 table, he was smiling in a loving way at me. In the dream I was wondering maybe Arthur liked me a lot and I was pretty happy.

_{HUHHH >:oooooo}

ok second part [something happened in between but can't remember] Morning at home/ dorm/ whatever place with a pantry, with Ivan

I was checking out Arthur's instagram and I initiated a simple conversation on ig (can't recall what it was about) I was very cautious about it since I thought it was my first time actually DMing him so I was pretty polite and stuff but then after I messaged I swiped up and saw I actually had a lot of past conversations with him, and they were like super casual stuff, like I sent a post about different outfits and I asked him which one did he prefer on me. And he'll answer (I didn't look at what he answered when rechecking the convo though)

And then I went to do other chores for a while (I think I went to wash dishes and make breakfast for Ivan and me) I came back seeing a new convo in my phone screen, apparently I sent multiple messages and Arthur replied. Turned out Ivan used my phone to pretend to be me and messaged him wild stuff when I wasn't looking. I forgot the content of the new convo, but it was something out of the blue like, can you be my dog or something, and he was super chill about it and replied yeah lmao

When Ivan saw me noticing the chat, he took my phone and wanted to type more And I got very anxious and embarrassed I was like aaaaaa why did you text him THAT, and I snatched my phone back to send “Sorry it was Ivan, not me”

And later I was chatting with Arthur about other stuff, like I bet you're ENTP, and we discussed that

oops i got distracted and didn't jot down the rest, i forgot what happened next, anyways it felt like a pleasant dream

at last I apologised for something, and then he apologised for “a person chatting with me on instagram” (like he didn't admit the account was his but he “apologised” on behalf of “a user” that contacted me).

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_{Actually had a lot of dreams the past few days but I wanna focus on my exams so I skipped recording them, I now forgot all of them lol}

_{This one is also a pretty brief log and I have left out quite a lot of details because I don't want to divert too much mental effort into recalling the dream. The actual dream was quite long as usual.}

secondary school simui

#secschool #primschool Went to school as a freshly graduated secondary school student. Rode the bus to school. Actually didn't know what is the number of the bus but I just hopped on cuz everyone was doing so.

Got on the bus, there was a digital sign like irl buses, so I know the destination and the number. Terminal station would be Western harbour tunnel

And during the trip the sign also kept reminding everyone there will be a violent homeless getting on the bus soon so it was not advised for us to stay on the bus any longer. But every passenger on the bus didn't give a shit about that including me. Maybe partly because this line is the only bus reaching western harbour tunnel. And we can't really get off anyways because we were on the highway the whole time.

Somehow the bus first drive past Ocean Park and those South Island line locations before making the turn back to western side of Hong Kong Island. During the trip, I was half hoping I can see Arthur whenever we reached a station. _{(Because yesterday noon I had lunch with Ivan and we were gossiping, and Ivan was guessing you live around that area lmao)}

One kid wearing the school uniform from my school + her mom boarded the bus during one of the bus stops at an estate

The mum began to chit chat with me after recognising my appearance (idk what she find but she just “recognised” I am some sort of famous alumni I guess). She was asking me for tips to get into Element (aka a pretty prestigious chemistry tutorial centre)

When I am about to answer, a classmate ^[1] began to chat with me and dragged me away, I couldn't really refuse or tell her to pause for a sec and wait for me to answer the parent first, because the classmate was kind of talking about her childhood trauma all of a sudden and I need to listen to her troubles first

[1] _{rarely talked irl, I just remembered in primary she was being isolated because she was chubby, and I was the only person lending a mechanical pencil for her, she needed one and needed to borrow for 10 mins and she would be back. And then after she left, my surrounding classmates were making a big fuss about it because I lent it, so I pretended and fake-explained I didn't like her as well, but deep down I thought she just needed a pencil so I just gave and I didn't dislike her at all and I don't understand why people dislike her because of her appearance. But I felt guilty still because I was untruthful to the chubby classmate and faked I didn't like her; and when she returned and thanked me for lending my pen I look completely normal, so she would think I am okay with her (which I do)(but I acted in front of others I didn't)(I feel I was fake as fuck, such a shitty person)}

And then we arrived at school and got off the bus. It was recess time. This secondary school's appearance was a mix of my irl secondary + primary school. The people inside were pretty childish, I thought they looked like primary kids.

The kid found me and so I started explaining study tips and stuff. The kid was just secondary 1, pretty young.

I was talking too much and they had an assembly. I needed to pretend to be part of the teachers standing by, instead of queueing in my class because I was too late, and somehow in the dream I thought pretending to be an adult is easier than to walk through all the classes standing still to return to my own line, that one was too cringe and I would be easily discovered by discipline teacher

I was also wearing school uniform, so even if I stood still like a teacher, other teachers also noticed lmfao, but they didn't point me out

After the assembly, I saw many parents entering the campus. I guess it was probably after school hours when parents arrived to fetch their kids back home

I was searching for the parent and the kid which I owed an answer for, as we got lost after getting off the bus.

I walked around the playground and also came across another friend (the bi one who confessed to me back in f2) and her mom

Finally the mom and kid found me and called me, so I went and explained how to get into Element in detail + other stuff her kid should do to prepare esp when she was just form 1, and then I motivated them

_{yeah dream ended It felt like back then when I just got into hkumed along with my friend M, and we made a google drive to share our notes and experiences with different tutorial centres with simuis (師妹s). :)}

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long dream again (last few days were dreamless) I was sleeping from around 6pm till I woke at 5am, and I scrolled taobao. Then I fell asleep at 7am till around 11am I only had dreams from the 7-11am segment. It was a lot though. Interesting how I have many stories within just 4 hours.

shopping

#mum #dad skirts shop choosing between a lot of skirts finally selected like 5 final candidates to choose from

later mum came and I showed her. She disliked all of them, found them ugly and revealing for my age I was angry at that

Later dad came too, he was helping me choose skirts But he laid all skirts from the shop on the floor (or folded in piles) in order to take a better look at them in one glance He asked me to come and look That's when I realised about the huge pile he made I was very annoyed because if he took all the dresses then other shoppers have nothing to look at and he was taking up all the space on the floor to place the dresses, we all dont have space to walk in the shop but the other shoppers seemed to be not bothered by it, which made me even more anxious

finally I chose two skirts from my original 5 candidates. mum paid for the two skirts, quite expensive (I think it was 2xxxx yen in total, wow) one of them ran out of stock for my size, so they gave me a random pair of pants with marking saying that next time I take this as a token to claim my “right sized” skirt + I get to bring the wrong sized skirt with me to wear temporarily? Not sure, cuz the several staff at the cashier were speaking in japanese, but I took both items + the other correct skirt when we left and they didn't say I can't mum is crossed while paying and i forgot why I think she was scolding me while paying too, couldn't remember what it was about I was crossed at my mum later on too. forgot why too So this happy occasion of buying my favourite new skirts ended up to be a bit upsetting I wasn't happy

fire

#secschool back to class, with my newly bought cute skirt big big classroom many old classmates from secondary and primary celebrating our own bday many bday cake everyone have candle on bday cake many lit up candles = fire hazard fire started my seat closest to door, and I already forsee the fire I immediately tell everyone about the fire and I ran out Borrowed phone from passerby to call 999 fire department I saw and met mum and dad outside I borrowed phone from mum to watch, because I forgot to take my phone with me while escaping, and I miss my phone I saw my whatsapp on my mum's phone in the form of whatsapp web but I need to re-log in and I don't have my own phone to verify so I can't use but I saw a notif from a high school teacher (preview of notif goes like: this is Mrs L Lam speaking, xxxxxx something about thanking me for saving/ alerting about the fire and stopped it from getting worse) (phone number is C Po's _{(a nice chem teacher) (but the chem teacher I like the most is not in this dream) (L Lam is a worse chem teacher + uni admissions dept head and she didn't help me process some JUPAS DSE stuff so I don't really like her; I heard her own A Level class hated her too because she wasn't fair to a lot of people in class; and my DSE friends also dislike her because she only process A Level stuff and delayed all DSE matters until my classmate's mum called and scolded her via phone at school)}

I also asked dad about my phone inside, in the dream he also had an apple watch, we tried to “use” my phone via the watch which didn't work

I revisited the classroom and some were still leaving the room slowly. I yelled who can help me get my phone, my seat is closest to the door, I can give you $100 But maybe people didn't help me because the door I was standing at lead to another side of the room, so it was further away from my seat. (so basically the large room has multiple doors)

Some standing in the corridor asked me when were the firefighters coming, I said soon, I already called them. Another person in the classroom also answered the person that he called them as well.

I was waiting for the fire truck on the street. It came but was stuck in traffic on the road. The firemen in the truck saw me. They threw me a pin and I was supposed to use the pin to activate the extinguisher to use it inside the room

Another guy and I went to find extinguisher and I found it. But I wasn't sure how to use because the diagrams and symbols were kind of hard to read in the dream.

Anyways I was holding the pin and the extinguisher and I reentered the room, apparently many didn't bother to escape and the fire died down, I cannot see the fire, but I felt it was still there

I walked very slowly to observe where there would be a potential fire.

I look at a mini blackboard next to the door, there was a message from C Po thanking me. There was some words blocked out by scribbling over with black marker, and the guy who was with me finding extinguisher tried to erase the scribbles and colour the space with the background colour. I told him there is no need for that, just leave that be _{Supple info: I recalled one of the words being scribbled over is “hate”. That one's for sure. I am not sure about the other ones, but they are probably “dislike” and “love”.}

Later two police/ security guards came to inspect, and found nothing yet, and the two of them sat in the front row in the classroom. I looked at them. They were my primary school/ junior sec classmates. I kind of miss the time with them (but we weren't familiar). After gazing at them for long enough (I was reminiscing our school life), they asked me if I am looking at them as if they are like children at school. (I think they forgot about me already, they were asking “children” in general) I answered, “before they raised the question, yes.”

later the firefighters came and we slowly investigated the power supply of the room since one wall plug was sparkling from time to time. I wanted to deal with that wall plug first, but they asked me to go check and fix another wall plug at another side of the room. I was unwilling because the sparkling one looked more worrying to me and I refused, and they said we can investigate the sparkling wall plug first.

We fixed the wall plug, but the sparkling has transferred to the wall plug I was unwilling to fix initally. So we went to fix that.

Forgot what happens next

dancing

I felt like I was a part of a story book in the dream. The art style in the dream was very different, it is not realistic. It is like hand-drawn. The words used in the dream were very story-like and simple too. (I'll try to remember the words, though I remember the images/ scenes more vividly)

I was a whale learning how to dance. (Drawing depicting a bunch of flies (or mosquitoes) around me, we were all learning how to dance. But there were some strings on my arms/ whale fins, as if I was a controlled doll)

I learnt dancing and was matured into a “human-like being” (in the dream the specific word for it was “似人” (something like 我進化成一個“似人”。) (There was an animation of the strings pulling me up and out the story book page, and the whale appearance of me transformed into a human being with different colour. Again the page depicted me surrounded by a crowd of humans, we were all standing)

(I think the flies from the previous page would mature (after learning dancing) to become... matured flies with similar appearance, but during the page when I was being pulled away, they were not matured yet)

The story ends here, or maybe I experience the story book till this page and it doesn't end yet (because the “ending” is too abrupt)

bracelet

Back in a realistic dream and I was observing an interaction between a young girl (around 4 years old?) and her mum.

The girl said, I learnt dancing! I made myself a necklace! (Shows wonky DIY necklace to mom)

Mom: That's great! (something along the lines, I forgot)

Young girl: Can I wear your necklace? (points at box holding necklace) I see the pendant on your necklace has its back side facing up for a very long time. I think it died, so you are not wearing it. Can you give me your necklace?

Mom: Sure!

I (still in the dream) thought to myself, I was pretty angry because I can totally see it coming when the girl started the convo, she just wanted her mum's necklace, it wasn't about her dance at all. And I was equally pissed by her mum's agreement to give the girl the necklace because that would spoil the girl, instead she could say something like refusing the girl first, explain this is her own necklace and she likes it a lot, she wasn't aware the pendant was upside down when placing and it doesn't mean it was dead, and then proceed to tell the girl if she wants one she can buy another one for her (either as a reward or maybe theyre simply rich and just buy) because i think the mum was not really willing to give the girl her necklace, but still did so because the girl asked her to do so, feels like being bullied voluntarily. this whole thing is stupid

and then I woke up I think I dreamt of necklace and particularly That necklace because I was taobaoing and the last ting I was looking at and kinda wanting to get was That necklace LOL

Also about the skirts. I was browsing for skirts in taobao with similar patterns (checkered patterns) before bed too.

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(Oh hey I discovered I can add tags so I will be tagging people’s names on their first appearance in each entry)

Previous (maybe a month/ 2 months ago?) dreams: wants to go visit 格仔舖ish store with a section hosted by driving coach, sells squishies, rather 童年回憶 plastic toys(?), and some pet items (turtle? Fish food?) _{To clarify, he does not have such a shop in real life. But I was stalking his fb back then in winter 2023 and I was suspecting if he has a side gig of running a small shop in Kwai Fong. I still don't know if it is true or not, because I don't have direct proof of the shop being owned by him. Anyways, maybe this led to me dreaming about such a shop in the dream, despite selling different things.} Visited once in dream. Didnt buy anything cuz things were behind the locked glass cabinet and i didnt ask the staff to open for me. Meanwhile some of the cute items were sold out, so I was pretty upset and a bit frustrated when i woke up. But back then I didnt know why, since i instantly forgot the dream when i woke up.

Also had a dream previously about him teaching me driving again (not the same as the one this week titled reckless driver- idk what person is that in that dream) _{(wanted to come back to supplement this paragraph after I was done with today’s entry, but I completely forgot what this was about)}

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This dream:

school admission day

#ivan #mum Visited a new school today with my mum. We are applying for school. I was around junior sec level probably. It’s called DGS girl school (?) with light green uniform. While walking there my mum told me this school was more chill than a DGS third form (????) school because the “third form” one required students to graduate and take the public exam by form 3, and thats hard. (That school has the same uniform as DGS irl, blue and white dress)

It was admission day so many students and parents were going there too

Entering the school hall, we struggled to find seats. We arrived at the back left corner if the hall, and coincidentally I saw Ivan, who was my best friend (in dream). In the dream, I recalled we used to sit tgt in this school hall for other school functions too, also at that corner. However this time, there were two friends of him sitting next to him.

I planned to take the opposite two seats (this hall corner is a table with 4 seats opp to each other) which were the only ones empty. However, Ivan made up a reason and told his two already sitting friends to reallocate to the opp two seats, and I can sit next to him, and my mum next to me.

I was delighted by his arrangement. I was rather excited and “extroverted” and began to chat with him.

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I forgot what happened next Maybe a very abrupt change of scene? Actually idk which dream came first. But these few events are within the same “dream” in a sense that I didn’t feel there is a blank space/ black period between the events which to me separates the dreams.

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Macbook gaming

I was using macbook to run windows. Maybe because I installed a virtual desktop. I downloaded a minecraft world. Inside, I was guided through a prebuild path thing. The world/ path inside with stationed tasks is built as a tutorial for something (I didnt recall). And then I reached the final station/ big area with built pink trees and fancy houses. (I forgot the content that got announced while I was inside that area)

As I was playing that macbook, i realised I didn’t plug in the power supply. But the macbook still was almost full. (Macbook battery is pretty longlasting) Anyways I plugged it in.

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Throwing congee

Another section of the dream

I was staying at home, sitting on the bed. I was sick (I forgot the reason. But it wasn’t a physical illness)

I remembered a random scene of seeing one of my older relatives (one of dad’s older brothers) sitting on my bed and pretended to be really baby-ish- like he was eating some congee with a spoon but he couldn’t/ deliberately didn’t (? I’m not sure which) put the spoon in his mouth properly so he spilled the congre on his belly. There were loads of relatives (like 20-30 ppl) gathering around him, laughing at him for his stupidity and immaturity.

Some started to play with the remaining congee and tried to throw the congee onto each other’s belly too, those who got hit also laughed. I think they looked like they had a fun time but kinda sarcastic.

Throwing red juicy giant grapes

#secschool #charlotteh

Me and my mum went into a store. As I was leaving, they began to promote a premium fruit – red juicy giant grape. (Giant like two coconuts big) My mum was interested so she went to have a taste. I remain sitting at a tall table. Someone accidentally stepped me lightly- it was Charlotte Hon (that other charlotte from dream titled cats in store) I forgot if she apologised but idc because she wasn’t intentional and it was just a light step.

Later we left/ store set up changed and I was sitting on the floor.

The crowd with the red premium grapes began to throw them on each other, since the red juicy grapes would look like fake cheap bloodstains once it got into the clothes.

Gladys _{(another secondary school classmate, not that familiar, but recently I kept watching her instagram story cuz she went exchange abroad and shared different stuff every day)} and Charlotte Hon took away something from me, and they escaped with the item. All I can do is to take pics and record live photos of them escaping. I can’t get up to chase after them (I needed to sit for some reason I forgot)

Gladys walked past me after a while, I think she wanted to look and laugh at me so she came over to see what I’m doing. Coincidentally, a staff was telling us (the group who was sitting) to report to them for any eye witness? And there was already a queued up group slightly far away from me which composes of people like me + their witnesses

I instantly wanted to grab Gladys by her arm, but she wanted to escape. As she was running away, there was a security staff (actually a police in uniform) near me, so I told the staff to catch her for me.

(Forgot what happens next)

driving coach’s CA

#roy

Finally revisited the store this time. I think it was a mobile services store. Something like CSL. Because I rushed/ speedwalked so quickly into the store I hit my head on one of the signs they hang at their booth. It was loud, I didn’t notice who asked me if I were okay, and I replied I felt very painful, but it was better than last time when I crashed onto something hard and that’s even more painful, so this is nothing.

I walked inside the store with a sore head. I found the driving coach’s little store area. Unfortunately the two cabinets was locked still, but there was more stickers/ notice on them: “for cancer patients only” And there are some other memo stickers with different deep words and one with a equation Some people left notes like add oil in your cancer recovery journey!! _{(OMG… I am so sorry I realised..) (though I think I dreamt about it because I was preparing for PBL yesterday about different carcinomas and the one in the dream belongs to the same type as the one I studied i.e. adenocarcinoma)}

A staff walked past and I asked them what happened, they asked, “ooh you like him?”, then said “he went for treatment in the hospital and is not coming back any time soon”

Apparently it was a stage 4 cancer and he had a metastasis. I looked at the memos with those deep words. They are all medical jargons that I supposed to know by this time, but I completely forgot their meaning. I just remembered I saw those words before and I should’ve learnt it The memo with a equation has many α β arithmetic stuff. it’s a fraction. I think it’s for calculating his stage or mortality or something. _{(Note: very sure I made that equation up, you don’t calculate like this. I think my brain just mixed and recreated the QALYs and DALYs I had tutorial on a couple of days ago)}

So I couldn’t purchase anything.

The staff asked if I want to learn it or something. I said yes. He lent me some laminated documents for me to take pictures of. _{(Really similar to pathology practical where they laminate the A4 docs for us to read and take pics and revise too)} And then he rolled up some of the laminated paper, and told me to face him (i.e. orientate myself towards him). He hit me very hard on my head using the laminated paper he rolled up. It was kind of painful, but since I injured my head while entering the store already, the soreness and pain aggravated. He laughed (in a menacing way), saying I am so cheeky trying to look for tips from him for the exam. But I just wanted some more materials for revision, I was not asking for tips. I didn’t reason with him though.

I went back out and sat on the road (being specific here the location is the mini slope for cars to drive into the three resitential halls and madam ho, but I sat slightly out into the big road with traffic, but it was late night so there’s no traffic yet), studying the materials I got. I just feel like I need to study to learn more about the driving coach’s cancer and I want to treat it. Also felt a bit unhappy back then when the staff told me the coach had cancer because that means I chose the long queue for nothing and they would assign me another teacher anyways. _{(Slight recap: need to retake driving exam, can choose short queue (3 months) or long queue (1 year). Short queue: fast, reassign another random teacher. Long queue: slow, keep being taught by same teacher. If one day I need to take other courses I get to keep being taught by him too. IRL I chose long queue)}

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After waking up: Anyways I woke up tremendously sad But luckily it’s just a dream (hopefully… or is it) (I hope it’s not a sign) _{(omg so sorry again I hope you’re okay)}

I suddenly missed my coach and I was stalking my coach’s ig (we exchanged ig back then) around 2-3 days ago but seems he didn’t update anything as always Idk if I have mentioned, but his following list are mostly pretty girls, so that night I just binge watched one of the ig acc he followed, it was a female japanese pornstar lol I heard she was famous but I am never interested in any particular pornstars so idk the names The pornstar is slightly visibly older though so not really my type. Maybe he followed years ago when she’s younger lol I think he didn’t expect me to ask him to add ig so he couldn’t “cleanse” his ig (if he has to) (i dont think he’ll do it anyways) (and now it’s too late or maybe he doesn’t care so yeah)

Hmmmmmmmmm everyone’s horny :p

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large group bday meal

#secschool _{(Btw, bright colourful top heading is a random title for the blog entry; dark smaller headings are titles I give for different dream) Suddenly remembered this dream I had today morning} I was at a large round table dinner gathering thing with many not-that-familiar secondary school classmates We were having general conversations _{(I didn’t remember the content)}, and I’m mostly listening instead of talking, as always Then we mentioned something about birthdays, and one of the classmates say it’s her birthday today _{(I wasn’t close to her irl, we were in the same class in… Primary 1 (and P4?) only; but I think Charlotte mentioned her name when we’re chatting two months ago randomly) (yes in the dream it’s Secondary school gathering) (well our primary and secondary are connected so the people are the same)}

Anyways this person has short hair and quite boyish irl Lol And then in the dream I’m the first to react and wished her happy birthday

Lmaoo that’s all I can remember

_{Ok I think it’s because although my secondary school squad has mentioned about organising a bday dinner on 22/3 aka the day, they eventually didn’t do anything so I went to my usual cat cafe alone for the night lol But the next day they whatsapped about organising the meal on 29/3 (someone started a vote but seems two can’t come) (well I don’t think they can make it, idc) (maybe I care a lot cuz I dreamt something similar, but LMAO ok I don’t care, yeah… just a bit :P cuz I “reserved” a night for them haha)} (Regarding the people in my dream, none of them are part of my squad lol) And there are 6 people (including me) in my squad, but I think there are >10 in the dream, it’s like the chinese 一圍檯

_{Wow as I’m typing, the person who started the vote started another vote with way more timeslots for us to choose hahahahaha awh so determined (Oh btw the person is Jamie aka the girl who didn’t notice I was suffocating from the cake; unknowingly helped me explain about me “naturally pressing the search bar on prnhub” etc, she’s a nice person lol)}

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